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ENJOOY!

Trust me

Chapter Seven

The Book of my past

James looked away and frowned. Maybe apologizing to her when she wake up would be a lot better then apologizing to her when she can't even hear him…wait…or was it the other way around…James scold at himself and walked away. He'll apologize to her when she's awake…he only took a few steps away when his feet stopped. If he apologizes to her, she's probably be at the Great Hall during dinner and people might see him apologizing…well, that's not right. James sighed and walked back to where he was standing. He didn't look at Lily's sleeping figure and just said, "I'm sorry, alright. I didn't mean to be so rude…I hope you forgive me and forget all of this…" He looked down at her and it looked like she didn't hear a word he said.

'Maybe apologizing to her when she's wide awake would be better…I think that's what Nina wants me to do…if she finds out that I apologized to her without her hearing it…Nina won't probably talk to me until I apologize in person…' James thought and frowned. "Alright…I'll wait until you wake up…but you better wake up soon or I'll miss dinner…" James complained as he felt his stomach grumble.

"Now, make a wish and blow the candles, honey."

"Stellar? Stellar!"

" Can someone call an ambulance please!"

"Mommy…Mommy has cancer, honey."

"Cancer…" … "What?" … "MOMMY HAS CANCER!"

"Mommy…why are you so cold? Your face is as white as snow."

"DADDY! DADDY, IT'S MOMMY! SHE'S NOT BREATHING!"

"Good bye … Mommy …"

"DADDY!"

"HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME, STELLA? HOW COULD YOU! YOU MADE ME SUFFER SO DAMN MUCH, THAT IT HURTS, STELLA? YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT PAINED ME THAT YOU LEFT ME THIS LONELY!"

"DADDY, STOP! YOU'RE HURTING ME!"

"STELLAR!"

"Dad…he died even before getting to jail…when they reached the police station…they saw him sitting there…not breathing at all."

"YOU ARE ALL FREAKS! WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONLY ONE STUCK WITH SUCH FREAKS LIKE BOTH OF YOU?"

"What's wrong with her? Can't she talk? Is she mute or something or is she's just insane?"

"In a short version, Professor…she's mute!"

"Mr. Potter! We do not tolerate rudeness in this class…do you understand?"

"But Professor…its true isn't it?"

Soon, James and Sirius' laughter echoed thought Lily's mind…

Lily's eye snot open and as her lips parted…nothing came out but a horrified scream that practically echoed though the whole school. James was surprised and was shock to find Lily screaming out of her lungs. Lily had her hands covering her eyes as she continuously continued screaming her lungs out. Her body moved all around her bed and her eyes was closed shut. James backed away and didn't know what to do. His hands suddenly grabbed Lily's wrist and tried to get her to stop screaming and moving but she wouldn't, she tried to get away from his grasp but even though she's been moving around…James' grip got tighter.

Madam Pomfrey ran out of her office and towards the bed where Lily was sleeping in. She saw James tried to get her to stop moving but that wasn't what she was thinking…she was thinking he was scaring the wits out of her. "MR. POTTER WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HER?" She screamed and tried taking Lily away from him when Lily moved away from both of them and continued screaming.

The Headmaster and Professor McGonagall came in the Hospital Wing after hearing that loud screaming coming from the Hospital Wing. Many students including Lily's friends who were going to check up on Lily at the Hospital Wing came running towards the room along with James' friends behind them. Soon, many students were around Lily's bed, Lily's friends, Nina, Arial and Naomi was standing at the edge of her bed as they watched her trying to get away from James' and Madam Pomfrey's grasp. There was mutter around the Hospital Wing, asking and wondering what has happened to Lily.

Lily's mind was so blank that she didn't know what she was doing or what the people around her was doing…she heard more footsteps and voices around her and that got her to scream louder. She hated noise…she hated this noise…she hated everything…her past…and everything around her now.

Tears stared to form her eyes as it shot open and she continuously tried to move away from everyone. James, who was scared and worried at the same time kept his grasp on her. He found his sister standing there, looking at Lily with a worried look in her eyes and when her eyes landed on his, he noticed there were small tears forming in her eyes. Nina got near the bed and started shouting at Lily to stop. "LILY! STOP! PLEASE, I BEG OF YOU!"

Lily's widen eyes landed to Nina, her eyes filled with even more tears, Lily pushed James and Madam Pomfrey away from her and went to Nina, cried her eyes out to her. Nina was surprised at first but when she felt Lily shaking, she frowned. Lily stopped screaming and was mumbling random words that no one could understand or hear.

Professor Dumbledore, Professor McGonagall, James and Madam Pomfrey along with the other students around them calmed down as soon as they found Lily finally calming down in Nina's arms.

"What happened, Mr. Potter?" Professor McGonagall asked, looking at him straight in his eyes, expecting to tell the truth.

"She woke up screaming…I was waiting for her to wake up so I could…um…apologize for what I said before at Charms class…I saw her eyes opening and that's when she stared screaming." James explained with a serious face.

Professor Dumbledore looked at him and knew he was telling the truth. "Did you do anything to her before she started screaming?" He asked.

James shook his head and blushed. "I did NOT do anything to her, Professor Dumbledore!" He turned pink and looked away. Sirius looked at him and grinned. "Sod off, mate!" James glared at him.

"I was just checking, Mr. Potter." Professor Dumbledore's eyes twinkled as he looked at Lily in Nina's arms. Madam Pomfrey checked on Lily while Nina was keeping her still. "Is she alright, Madam Pomfrey?" Dumbledore asked, Pomfrey smiled and nodded. "From what I've seen…I believe it's just a migraine that muggles get when they are thinking a little too much." Pomfrey said. Nina, Arial and Naomi sighed in relief. Though Arial was also a muggleborn, she gets migraine for quite sometimes because she was thinking too much stuff that her mind can't take.

"Thank goodness…I thought something bad might have happened to her…" Professor McGonagall sighed. Dumbledore nodded in agreement then, Professor McGonagall turned to the students on the Hospital Wing and told them to move along and head to Dinner. There was chattering and muttering from the students as they all left the Hospital Wing…frankly, it was all about Lily. James, Sirius, Remus, Nina, Arial and Naomi stayed in the Hospital Wing, watching as Madam Pomfrey checked on Lily once more. The Headmaster and Professor McGonagall stayed also.

"Will she be fine by tomorrow?" Arial asked, Madam Pomfrey smiled and nodded. "She'll be fine…but I don't think she'll be getting out of this Hospital Wing by tomorrow…we'll just let her rest until she's fully recovered." The girls nodded, Nina looked down at Lily and frowned, and Lily finally stopped shaking and was finally sleeping soundly. This was the first time they saw Lily like this and they hoped it was the last. It scared the wits out of them after seeing Lily like that and for the fact that Lily was screaming her lungs out…they didn't want her to be like this no more.

"Why don't all of you head to dinner now?" Professor Dumbledore asked, James, Sirius and Remus nodded, looked down at Lily for a moment and soon left while the girls who were just standing there not moving an inch.

"Miss Potter, Miss Lockhart, Miss McCartney…she will be fine…I suggest you all come back tomorrow and we will check if she is feeling better." Professor McGonagall said, the girls finally nodded and soon left Lily sleep soundly. Madam Pomfrey covered her with the blanket and soon pushed the girls out the door gently. Professor Dumbledore and Professor McGonagall followed behind and smiled.

A week passed and Lily's friends check on her everyday to see if she was alright. Lily was still resting on her bed and was eating properly and was much healthier now. When it was finally the weekend, Lily was finally sent out the Hospital Wing and was feeling a lot better. Lily smiled at her friends weakly and lay on her bed at the girl's dormitory room. She was so glad to be on her bed once again.

"Are you going to Hogsmeade, Lily?" Arial asked as she changed into some normal clothes. Lily looked at her confusedly and shook her head, signaling that she doesn't know what she's talking about. Naomi smiled and sat beside her. "Hogsmeade is the only entirely wizarding village in Britain. It a picturesque village of little thatched cottage and shops." Naomi explained, Lily nodded understanding everything Naomi's saying. She signed if she could come, Naomi nodded. "Of course you can come!" Naomi smiled.

"So where are we going first?" Nina asked, as she put on a simple tank top above a simple top.

"I don't know…I haven't exactly been in Hogsmeade but from what I heard from my brother…he's most favorite place is the Honeydukes Sweetshop." Naomi answered. Arial smiled brightly. "Sweetshop! Really! Let's go there first!" Arial smiled brightly. Much to notice, the girls found out a lot about Arial…she's addicted to sweets…thought she seems calm and shy…she doesn't act like that in front of her friends.

Naomi and Nina laughed; Lily smiled sweetly and nodded in agreement. "But before we do…let's go to breakfast first!" Nina said and everyone nodded in agreement. Lily got dress quickly with a simple green top and jeans. She ran and caught up with her friends.

As soon as they reached the Great Hall…they found many students there already eating away, finishing up so they could head to Hogsmeade. Lily smiled and was glad to finally see the Great Hall once again and see the energetic students chatting and eating. Lily and her friends walked in the middle of an empty table and sat down beside each other.

Lily took toast and sausages and started eating her small breakfast. Truth be told, she wasn't that hungry…she ate a lot when she was at the Hospital Wing and was bloated already. As she and Nina stared chatting away, Lily felt as if someone was watching her so she turned her head towards where she can sense someone's eyes on her and spotted James looking at her, when he was caught, he turned his head back to his food and continued poking his food. Lily confusedly looked at James before getting back to her breakfast and continued chatting with Nina.

Remus spotted James looking towards Lily and grinned. He sipped on his milk and was smiling at the corner of his lips. Sirius was too busy to notice as he started flirting with a Hufflepuff girl, winking and grinning at her. And Peter…he was too busy stuffing his face with all the food he could spot on the table. "Something wrong, mate?" Sirius asked James as he finally stopped flirting with the Hufflepuff girl; James looked at him and nodded. "I'm fine! What makes you think there's something wrong?" James asked, turning back to his food.

"Nothing, it's just you've been playing with your food since we got here…" Sirius said, finally noticing.

Before James could even say something back, there was hooting from above them…and as students looked up they saw many different kinds of owl flying around with mail on under their feet. "Mails here…" James breathed. As newspaper, letters, packages were dropped in front of different kinds of students. Nina caught the newspaper with a letter near it. She smiled and took the tie off the newspaper and began reading. Arial got a letter and Naomi also got a letter. Lily looked up and found an owl dropping a package with a letter above her. She caught it and stared at it.

'To: Lily,

From: You're Aunt Carrie.'

That's what it read. Lily smiled brightly. She took the letter, put the package down for a moment and opened the letter.

"Lily,

First of all…congratulation for making it to the Gryffindor House…I was at Gryffindor too…it's a wonderful house believe me. You were courageous enough to go up and get sorted by the Sorting Hat…it was okay to be a little frighten…I was a little frighten myself back then…

Anyways…Professor Dumbledore owled me and told me what had happened to you when you were at the Hospital Wing…I got so worried, you almost gave me a heart attack. Anyways…this package is just a simple book that I made…though you might not like it but after finding out that you have such wonderful friends that understands you, you would want them to know what happened to you…you don't have to show It to them if you don't want to…it's your call…and if you want to send this book back…it's alright. Send it back and I'll probably burn it.

Lily, I'm not forcing you to read it or look at it…it's alright if you just take one glace and then close the book shut. You could even burn it on your own…it'll probably make you feel better…

Petunia knows about this book…she wanted to throw it at the fireplace when she saw what it was but I told her I had to show it to you first…we both were arguing after I told her that I was going to show it to you…she told me that it wasn't right to show it to you…but I had the feeling that showing it to you sooner than later would be better.

So open it up…and like I said…throw it or burn it…it's alright…

Loves Always …

Aunt Carrie…"

Lily stared at the letter with confusion and frowned. She wondered what the book was about…she put the letter away and took the package into her hands. She took the rope off and took the wrapping paper off. It was a book like Aunt Carrie said…it was a thin book with a silky red cover. She smiled at how beautiful the cover looked. She opened it and when she saw the first page…her eyes suddenly widen.

James, who was looking at the corner of his eyes, spotted her and she looked somewhat shock. He stared at her to see what was going to happen next and even from afar…he could still spot tears forming her eyes.

Lily shook off the tears from her eyes and closed the book immediately. She kept her hands on top of the book and closed her eyes. She could just kill herself for having such a horrible past. Nina looked at Lily as soon as she heard a book being shut. She watched as Lily was shaking slightly. "Are you alright, Lily?" She asked, Lily opened her eyes, she smiled and nodded weakly. She mouthed that she's fine and soon, she stood up, took the letter and the book and soon ran out the Great Hall. Nina, Arial and Naomi watched as Lily ran quickly out the Great hall…Arial and Naomi looked at Nina and asked what happened. Nina shook her head that she doesn't know and frowned.

"What happened to Evans, now?" Sirius asked as he and his friends watched Lily ran out. James frowned and looked at the door. He wondered what happened and was willing to find out but…it would be wrong to. As he watched his sister and her friends go after Lily, he turned his head back to his breakfast and continued finishing it.

Nina, Arial and Naomi found Lily at their dormitory where she was caressing the book that she just got this morning. Lily looked at them and soon looked away. There were tears falling from her eyes…Nina sat beside her while Arial and Naomi stood behind Nina with a worried look on their faces.

"Lils, what's wrong?" She asked, Lily looked at them and frowned. She handed Nina the book she was holding and signaled her to open it. Nina took the book and opened it carefully. When she did, she, Arial and Naomi gasped at the same time.

There was a pasted newspaper there and there was picture of Lily at her young age. They figured it was Lily because the young child had red hair. The picture in the book was cut off a newspaper article; it was a picture of Lily when she was seven and in her worst condition. The background looked liked a hospital because it was white everywhere. In the middle was Lily with bruises everywhere but it was treated very well. There was a bandage on her head but there was a red part on the white bandage…looked almost like blood.

Nina stared at the book in shock.

"A young girl…at the age of seven who lives in this household (another picture of Lily's house was there) has just been abused by her own insane drunkard father whose pray tell has been drinking for the past few months and one subject who is another daughter of the abusive father said: "He's been coming home every night with a half-filled bottle of whiskey…"

The father could not contain himself and has started drinking after the death of his own wife, Stellar Marie Evans who was a former children's book writer but after she had a family…she retired of become a children's writer and became a housewife.

The husband of Stellar Marie Evans was send to the police station but something shocking had happened to the father and died of becoming an alcoholic before even reaching the police station.

The Children of the abusive father received the news of their father's death and they did not take it well. After talking with the oldest sister, we tried speaking with the young girl who was abused but it seems like she has not spoken since she was release from the Hospital two weeks later. Another subject informs us that the young child has surprisingly become…mute."

Nina finished reading the whole page of the article and frowned. She looked up and saw Lily crying her eyes out after hearing the stories about her past. That was 4 years ago and she's planning on forgetting everything about her past…everything…

Nina flipped thought some pages and there were pictures and small notes on the bottom of every picture she saw. Mostly the pictures were Lily taken to the Hospital, when interviewers were talking to both of them, Lily being released at the Hospital…etc. There were more pictures that Lily couldn't bare to see. It almost seemed like the drunkard father incident has been on the newspaper for a week or so. Nina handed the book to Arial and Naomi and walked to Lily and hugged her as she continued crying her eyes out.

"We're sorry, Lily…" She whispered.

The newspaper seems to be in the muggleworld where it was normal and different from the Daily Prophet. Arial remembered that newspaper…of course…how could she forget…that's been the news for a week 4 years ago. She looked at Lily and frowned. So that was her…the girl who was abused by her own father. Arial felt like crying…she felt sorry for her…for being beaten up by her own father. Arial and Naomi joined in and cried with Lily.

After finding out the truth, they didn't pity Lily…they helped Lily. Since she was seven…she hasn't been able to find her voice for 4 years now…that's why the girls are helping her find it. They tried teaching her small words before going though a sentence. They taught her everything and also, Lily and Naomi taught Arial and Nina how to sign language and how to understand it. They taught Lily every after class and the weekends for the past 4 years now. Sometimes they would come to Nina's house to continue the teaching but no matter how many lessons Lily gets…she doesn't seem to make progress. Though the girls didn't give up and kept on going. Truth be told, they were having fun teaching Lily…and Lily teaching them. Every summer, it wasn't boring at all…through out summer; it was the best summer they could ever have.

It was the end of their 4th year and everyone was already heading towards the train. Lily and her friends were sitting on their compartment that they've been using since the first year now. Lily still hasn't spoken one word at all…when they try to convince her to speak, 'apple' Lily opened her mouth of say it but no matter how hard she tried…nothing came out…she only thought it not say it.

"Another lesson at my house?" Nina asked, the other nodded and smiled. Lily sighed and hung her head. She waved her hands signaling them that she'll be there. Her friends laughed and patted her back softly. "Don't worry…for our four years of trying to teach you…we'll never give up!" Arial said.

Naomi nodded. "It's alright, Lily…you've gotten use tobecoming mute and haven't spoken one word since then…that's why your not use to speaking yet…" Naomi smiled; Lily looked at her and nodded.

Suddenly, their compartment door opened and there stood Nina's one and only brother, James Potter with his friends. "Hey Peanut, Aria, Nao…Lilies…how are my four favorite girls?" Sirius Black asked, grinning.

"It was fine until you came along…" Nina muttered. Sirius pouted and clenched on his chest. "I'm hurt, P. That surely broke my heart…" Sirius' famous puppy dog eyes twinkled in front of the girls.

"Good!"

As Nina shouted at Sirius continuously, Arial and Naomi watched in amusement while Lily was looking outside the compartment window ignore James and his group. For the last four years…James and his friends has been insulting her and making fun of her…and especially…what their good at played pranks at her ever since first year…Lily didn't even do anything and what she receives is her hair turned into a different color, dung bomb, giving her hiccup sweets…etc. and it was so annoying and surprising. Surprising because she never expected guys to be so…childish and annoying.

James looked at Lily and grinned. "Hey, Lilies! How are you?" He asked, smirking. "James leave her alone…" Naomi said, glaring at him. James smiled, "Why? All I'm asking is how she's doing?"

"Whenever you ask her that question…you'll always add an insult of how mute she is…" Naomi said, rolling her eyes.

"It'll be no use of asking the four of you how you guys are doing…you guys do the same thing every year…playing pranks on others…and especially Lily. Insulting her even…truth be told, guys, it's getting old." Arial remarked and grinned.

"Our pranks will never get old…there is always a new prank every year…new insults for Lily and more." Sirius smirked. James laughed while Remus and Peter was just there standing. Remus shook his head and frowned. "This never gets old…" He murmured. Peter who was eating the food he got from the kitchen before leaving nodded in agreement before getting back to his eating.

"Oh yeah…James do you have the 'Quidditch teams of Britain and Ireland' you promised to hand it in at the end of this year." Nina said, James nodded and took it out of his pocket, handing it to her.

"What do you need it for?" James asked.

"I just want to read it…besides, shouting at Sirius doesn't seem to be a lot of fun since all he says is my "words" hurts him." Nina smirked and started reading.

"Hey! They do…" Sirius pouted. "You know…I'm not a bit surprise that you made the Gryffindor Quidditch team…you've always been playing with us since you were 4 and seems like you still remember the moves that we taught you before." Sirius pointed out, he grinned. "You're such a tomboy…"

Nina stopped reading and turned to Sirius and glared at him. "If you're just here to insult me or any of my friends…" Nina grabbed his collar. "…then I suggest you leave NOW!" She pushed James and his friends out the compartment and shut the compartment door.

Nina blew on her bangs and sat back down growling under her breath. Ever since she made it through the Quidditch team with James…she stayed being interested in reading Quidditch magazine and practicing with James and Sirius over the summer. They taught her how to fly and play Quidditch when she was still at a young age. James and Sirius taught her how to play while Remus taught her how to fly a broom because James and Sirius were too busy practicing. She, Sirius and James made it through the team and was proud of it. Two Potter joined and it wasn't shocking much…

James and his friend didn't change at all…what changed is now they are popular throughout Hogwarts and was very popular with the ladies. They practically dated every girl at Hogwarts and then dump them…well; actually, Sirius and James were the only people that did all the getting and dumping. Remus and Peter wouldn't careless about the girls in school, Remus only cared about his studies while Peter cared about all kinds of food. And also…throughout the whole school…they were known as a group called the Marauders. They had nicknames for one another which were strange because their nicknames were way out of their names. Peter was called 'Wormtail', Remus was called 'Moony', Sirius was called 'Padfoot' and James was called 'Prongs'.

It confused everyone…especially Nina because she has known those guy since forever, how could she not know about their dumb group name and their weird nicknames to one another. James never told her anything about why they call each other those nicknames…he tells her everything…but she guessed not everything is important.

Naomi smiled. "So…tomorrow…we're all going to meet at Nina's house; we're all going to floo there right?" Naomi asked and everyone nodded.

"Alright! See you guys tomorrow!" Naomi said since the train stopped, they all headed outside and was meeting with their parents and guardians.

"Bye!" The four friends waved goodbye at all of them.

Finish! Their going through the summer break. I'm going through my Christmas break for two weeks! YAY! Though I expected longer but who cares…at least we get a break for two weeks. Anyways…I hope you all enjoyed this and thank you for the reviews. I really appreciate it. Was this chapter longer than the previous chapter or no? Eh? Oh well.

Anyways…I'll see you all in the next chapter and I'll start typing the next chapter.

Bye!

Loves always!

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