…continued from chapter 7.…
Once in the room, Allen closed the door behind him and stood still and let the silence of the room swallow him and enter his tormented and sleep deprived mind. He went and sat on his bed as he reveled in the silence, sipping on his coffee and whiskey mix. Allen finished up the coffee and still felt completely drowsy and instead of going to fix himself more, Allen set his cup on the window sill and laid his head against the window itself and felt some of the warmth from outside seep through the glass. He closed his tired eyes and sighed as he sat there,
'Did you miss me?' Cross smiled at the completely shocked and pale Allen clutching the bed's rail until his knuckles turned white. Cross reached out a hand and stroked the side of Allen's face and his menacing smile continued to gleam down at the immobile Allen.
'Did you honestly think, you could get rid of me boy?' Cross said as he moved off the bed and stood in the middle of the floor, then outstretched his hand for Allen to grab it.
"Get away from me." Allen said looking down at the translucent hand of his former abuser.
'Now is that anyway to treat your Master? Huh?' Cross inched closer to Allen as he now pressed himself up against the window, 'I mean if you not careful boy you're gonna end up like Miranda, and you know how I like the screams, don't try me boy.'
"You're not here, you're not here." Allen began to chant.
'Are you sure boy?' Cross laughed at Allen as he repeatedly said the same words over and over as he slowly advanced onto Allen on the bed.
'Are you sure?'
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After the movie went off, Lavi sat there on the couch staring at the boring infomercial that blinked by. Groaning aloud from boredom, Lavi shut the T.V. off and resumed doodling on his cast. About thirty minutes after he'd started drawing, Lavi had grown bored yet again and decided to get up and see what Allen was up to.
'He's awful quiet in there.' Lavi thought as he made his way down the hall to the room. As he neared the door, soft pleading from Allen began to fill the quiet hall.
Lavi started to knock when he heard, "No! No! Get away from me Cross!" After which Lavi heard something collide with the door and shatter twice, it was after that second crash Lavi opened the door to find a wide eyed Allen standing in the midst of the room chest heaving and a horrified look on his face, as he hoisted a lamp above his head and was prepared to throw it dead at Lavi. Lavi rushed to his side and place a hand on his shoulder and shook him, "Allen! Allen, snap out of it! Allen!"
"Get your hands off me Cross!" Allen shouted at Lavi. "Don't you fucking touch me!"
"Allen it's me, Lavi!" Lavi shouted at the distraught who had just forcefully pushed him away, yet at the same time continued to come closer and the threat of Allen crashing the lamp against Lavi's skull became even clearer.
"Allen, think ab-" Lavi's word were cut off from him having to duck to avoid being hit with the lamp, "Allen stop!" Lavi said once again as he was now being backed into a corner.
"I hate you!" Allen spit at Lavi and hurled the lamp once again at Lavi who reacted with out thinking and punched Allen in his mouth; causing him to drop the lamp in mid- swing and clutch his now bleeding mouth. Lavi, who had come out of the corner, now walked slowly up to Allen, who in turn moved away from him.
"Allen, I'm sorry for hitting you." Lavi said, "I just had to get you to stop and you wouldn't listen, so I did the only thing I knew how to."
"Why are you in here?" Allen asked.
" 'Cause I heard you talking to somebody, and I wanted to see who it was." Lavi said.
"I wasn't talking to anyone." Allen denied and climbed into his bed and picked at the threads of the pants he had on.
"No, you were clearly talking to someone, but the thing that I'm confused about Allen is that there is no one else in the room but me and you."
Allen looked up at Lavi and opened his mouth to speak, but something seemed to have caught his attention behind Lavi and he turned away again, shut his eyes and began to count under his breath. Out of curiosity Lavi glanced over his shoulder and shot Allen a puzzled look, when he saw nothing.
"Allen." Lavi spoke.
"I wasn't talking to anyone, end of story, you can go now." He said coldly.
"No Allen, you were talking to someone, and I'm not leaving until I figure out what the hell is wrong with you, like or not." Lavi said and sat down on the edge of Allen's bed.
"No I wasn't." Allen protested again, "Now please get off my bed so I can lay down and go to sleep."
It was the nonchalant attitude of Allen that had begun to anger Lavi and caused him outburst, "Bullshit Allen, you're not going to sleep, as a matter of fact, you've barely been sleeping. Now I'm asking you as a friend to please tell me what's going on."
"And as a friend I'm asking you to leave me alone, I can handle it on my own." Allen replied.
Lavi narrowed his eyes at Allen and shook his head, "You're right Allen, nothing that breaking a couple of arms and bashing in a couple of skulls can't fix. Yep there's nothing like two or three hours of sleep, and a deadly mixture of caffeine and whiskey every thirty or forty minutes can't help right?"
Allen returned Lavi angered gaze, "What the hell do you know any way? You don't know anything about me?"
"You're right I don't!" Lavi's toned had risen, "But then again what the hell do you know about me? For days on end I've been trying to get to know you better but you haven't even bothered to ask what the hell I'm here! Too wrapped up in your own bullshit huh?"
"You have NO idea what it was like for me!" Allen said getting up from the bed. "I was raped repeatedly day in and day out!
"No, apparently I don't Allen, PLEASE elaborate what it's like to be FUCKED for money, for everybody else's enjoyment but your own. Because obviously I don't know what it's like to have sleep with a man for you're next meal or suck a couple of dicks to get a bed to sleep in a night."
"Lavi shut-" Allen started and the angry tears began to build up in his eyes as Lavi continued to shout,
"No you shut up Allen!," Lavi said getting up from the bed and was now inches away from Allen's face, "You shut the hell up and listen to the people who want to help you. You keep cutting us off when all we want to do is help. We pushed- I pushed away all my problems and dropped everything to help you, even after you broke my arm and even now after you all but pushed me away." Lavi voice softened as he looked at the man before him biting his lip and fighting back tears.
"Go ahead cry Allen, it helps. I promise you it does." Lavi said as he reached up to wipe away the singular tear that had fallen, and then brought Allen closer to him, "Believe me, I know what it's like to have to deal with what happened to you, but the hardest part is over now and all you have to do now is live." Lavi said as the man cried into his shoulder, and Lavi had begun to fight back his own tears. Allen reminded Lavi of himself when he first got to The Order and unlike him, Lavi was determined to keep Allen on the right path and keep him off the route Lavi was still so desperately trying to get off.
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'It's just one of those days again Alma.' Kanda thought as he stroked the picture sitting in front of him on the piano. 'You know the days where I keep expecting you to come bounding through the door and tell me ,with the brightest smile on your face, how you're day was.' The half-smile Kanda held on his face had begun to fade and was replaced with a more solemn look, 'But I know that won't happen anymore, because you not here, but I'm… I'm alone, Alma." Kanda hadn't noticed it but he had begun to cry himself, and as he reached for the gun that rested on the piano beside the photo, "Will today be the day Alma? Will I finally see you again? Will I see my son or daughter for the first time?" Kanda checked the old revolver making sure it was only one bullet in it, then spun it and closed it and pressed it to his skull.
As he braced himself to pull the trigger, his phone in his pocket began to vibrate. He tried to ignore it and go on with his plan but he thought about it, 'If Alma was here he would say it's a sign.' So Kanda put the gun back down on the piano and got out his phone and answered it, "Kanda speaking."
"Kanda where are you! You and the kid were supposed to be here an hour ago!" Lenalee shouted over the phone.
"I'm sorry, I forgot I'll go get him and bring him right over." Kanda said.
"And Kanda one more thing." Lenalee said.
"Yea?" Kanda replied.
"Cheer up, you sound dead." She told him and then hung up the phone.
Kanda got up from the piano and tucked the gun back underneath the bench where he kept it and threw on a shirt as he headed out the door.
One day, I will see you again Alma, but I guess it's just not today.
A/N: My computer is broken which is why it has taken me so long and also why this chapter is crappy and short. Trying to do better, if anything does not make sense please feel free to point it out and leave it in a comment or a msg.
~L.W.
P.S. I know there might be some loose ends but I will have get to them later.
