Naming the emotions
"Natsume…" Mikan said to herself as she touched her lips. Once again it happened! But this time it was more emotional. She was immovable as ever, but her heart…her heart had moved on.
"What's happening to me? What's he trying to imply by doing this kind of things?" Mikan thought as she touched her fast beating heart. She was still standing unmoving under that starry night sky…Under that same sky where her feelings overflew a short while ago. She was still there…and her feelings were still overflowing inside her. She couldn't think of anything else…other than that person…other than that person who'd made her heart go crazy.
However, unknown to her, another person was thinking of the same thing at the same time. His heart was aching, as if it was hit by a dagger. He didn't know why…He didn't know why his heart was aching right then…Was that because he was happy?...Or was that because of the pain that he tried to hide inside his heart? He didn't know…He didn't know if he should be happy or sad…But his gleaming crimson eyes were conveying an untold misery…A misery which had been buried inside his heart. With all his misery, he stepped inside his luxurious room. He then looked at the luxuries he had within it. Was that the thing he'd expected to own in his life? Had he ever been given what he wanted in his life by those?...Never…they never had and they never would!... They won't give what he wanted in his life ever! He already knew that… but was too afraid to accept that…He was too afraid to accept that he would never be able to get what he wanted in his life. He had everything, and at the same time he had nothing. He'd never thought of these things before. But a certain pair of hazel eyes made him think of those for the first time in his whole life.
Then he approached to a lampshade which was placed near his bed and threw it in front of the wall, giving his entire burden to that.
"What the hell she's done to me?" he said as he looked at the pieces of the broken lampshade. Then he messed his already messy raven hair by both hands and kicked the end table which was near to his leg. His crimson eyes were gleaming in the damp darkness of the night.
"Why did I give hopes to her?" he asked himself loudly. "Why did I give her hopes about nothing?" he asked out again, hitting the wall by his fist. His fist was bleeding by then. He looked at the crimson water on his fist and stepped in front of the window. Then he stared blankly at the moon. At the same moon which had been shining nicely a short while ago. It was remaining unchanged still. Not blurry or dim. Still cheerful and serene. But his heart had become misty and gloomy, although it was the same heart he had under this starry night with her...But why? He knew the reason well.
The night was calm and still. The only thing he could hear was his own heart beat. He knew that it was beating for the person who stood with him under that sakura tree, but he didn't know how long it would last…
And she...She was still there, still holding her trembling heart. She had been looking at the shiny blue stars for the whole time, wondering what would happen next in her eventful life. She still couldn't understand the feeling that she had towards Natsume. Her feelings were a puzzle to her.
But to him, her hazel eyes were describing everything. Before a while, he'd really feared to lose her, but then…he feared to have her either. What was going on within him? No one knew, except him.
After staying a few minutes like that, Mikan left her eventful sakura tree and went inside. She stepped inside her little room and threw herself on her comforting little bed. Her head was aching like hell. And the pain inside her heart doubled her suffering. She was still trying to figure out what her feelings were. But she failed in her attempt.
"Stupid Natsume! What have you done to my mind! I don't get it anymore! You'd always kiss me and leave me! What does that mean? Maybe, I'm a real baka. I don't get any of these!" Mikan thought as she hit her head continuously. " Still it's the first day that I spent with him, but I feel it like a year." Mikan thought inside her mind. Then a sudden smile came to her lips. "But for some reason, I feel so better!" Mikan added to her thoughts. "Oh! Kami! What the hell am I thinking?" Mikan thought and hit her head for the second time. Mikan had been thinking and thinking, thinking hard of what'd happened and what would happen, until she was taken in to her dream land.
But for some other person…Sleeping wasn't so easy like that. The black veils of that gloomy night never had the ability to push him to sleep. His deep crimson eyes kept opened throughout the whole night. His gleaming eyes had been stopped inside a pair of cheerful hazel orbs.
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"Who are you?
You don't know me?
What do you want from me?
You can never give what I want little girl.
Then she was approaching him, her hands were reaching to him in the dark. Then she could feel that he was backing in to the darkness, away from her.
Don't try to be close to me. I don't want you to feel what I feel inside these shadows. Just stay away from me!
He was shouting out loud. The only things she could see then were his gleaming eyes, they were gleaming in the colour of…"
"Mikan…Mikannnnnnnn…Are you still there? Come out soon…! There's someone who wants to see you out there!" Someone called out loud as Mikan fell down from her dream.
"Ohhhhhhhhh! Kami! What's now Misaki Senpai?" Mikan said without opening her eyes. But the next thing she heard definitely had the ability to make her open them.
"I never said that I wanted to see her. I came here just for an official work. You were the one who dragged me here in front of this sleeping baka's room." A stoic voice called out. Hearing this, Mikan's eyes popped opened and she jumped outside, opening the door as fast as she could.
"Hotaruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…" Mikan cried as she jumped forward to hug Hotaru. And then,
"Baka, Baka, Baka, Baka, Baka"
-again she was warmly welcomed as always by Hotaru's usual baka gun.
"Ouch…Hotaru…..You meanie! You never forget to bring that along, right?" Mikan said as she rubbed her head, crying.
"I will always bring that as long as I stay close to a baka like you." Hotaru said out coldly.
"Anyways Hotaru, I never thought that you'd come to see me. But you came! I love you Hotaru!" Mikan said with teary eyes.
"Don't be over emotional baka! I never thought to see you, but I have been ordered by the head office to be the event manager of the upcoming party that will be held here in the next week." Hotaru said coldly as ever. Having heard this, Mikan's eyes widened.
"What? Upcoming party? What is that?" Mikan asked, astonished.
"It's a gathering of the noble families of the area, baka. Aren't you a part of this house now? You should know of these even more than me! Never mind, this party is held every year by these rich families. So this time it's Hyuuga's time to be the host. Can you understand that baka?"
"Hm…" Mikan nodded. Then suddenly she remembered what happened yesterday. Even though she was too nervous to meet him that day, she wanted to know where he was.
"Misaki Senpai…" Mikan started.
"Yes, Mikan?" Misaki asked.
"Where's our master?" Mikan asked the question which had been bothering her all the time.
"Oh! He went out early today. He said that he had some official works to do. He will definitely return in next week coz it's a must for him to be at the party as the host. He is not a party freak however." Misaki answered, winking an eye at Mikan. But, Mikan was not in a state of smiling then. Hearing this, her heart missed a beat. She could feel a sudden pain going through her spine. "He has left? All of a sudden? He'd just arrived yesterday!" Mikan thought, sighing. She felt as if she was losing something. Something which had been placed in the depth of her heart.
"Back to earth Mikan!" Misaki said as Hotaru pinched her forehead.
"Ouch…What was that for?" Mikan said out loud.
"That was for your stupidity!" Hotaru replied simply.
"Ah Hotaru…Stop scolding me even for a second!" Mikan said, rubbing her forehead. Then Hotaru turned to Misaki.
"Would you excuse us for a second Senpai? I want to talk to this baka of something." Said Hotaru and dragged Mikan inside her room.
"Hai…" Misaki replied cheerfully as she waved at Mikan.
"Ne, Hotaru! What do you wanna talk with me?" Mikan asked cutely, after they'd stepped inside her room.
"Where are you baka?" Hotaru asked out of the blue.
"I'm here Hotaru. Why did you ask?" Said confused Mikan.
"This isn't you baka. This isn't Mikan I know. Now be quick and say what happened. Add nothing and reduce nothing!."
Hotaru said even more seriously.
"N-nothing happened Hotaru…I'm just me!" Mikan said, stammering.
"Oh! Nothing happened! Then what has happened to your cheerful baka face? Don't lie to me Mikan. You can't lie to me. I know of you even more than you." Hotaru said, scaring Mikan to death.
"Okay…yeah…Something unusual is going on within me now Hotaru. I can't figure that out." Mikan said as she touched her chest, emotionally.
"So you can't figure this out?" Hotaru asked as she took out a photograph of Mikan and Natsume kissing, showing that directly to Mikan. Seeing this Mikan's eyes widened.
"H-how d-did y-you…" Mikan was stammering, sweating unstoppably.
"How did I take this right? You've forgotten who I am, baka. I'm Hotaru Imai, the most expert blackmailer in the whole Japan. And don't think that I'm leaving you alone when you aren't with me, kay?"
Hotaru said as she kept the photograph inside her pouch again, safely.
Mikan was crying by now. She was crying as if someone was dead.
"Now why are you crying baka? You are crying as if you have feelings for him." Hotaru said, looking at Mikan's eyes steadily.
Hearing this Mikan nodded in agreement. Hotaru was shocked to see this reaction of Mikan.
"You are saying that you have feelings for him?" Hotaru asked, not believing any single thing she saw recently.
Hearing this Mikan nodded once again. Hotaru was visibly astonished this time.
"You are saying that you are in love with Master Natsume Hyuuga?" Hotaru said at last. She prayed that the answer would be a "No". But Mikan nodded once again. Mikan had been too scared to accept that she loved him. But at the end she accepted that fact, coz her heart was screaming. But Hotaru couldn't accept this truth.
"Ba-ka! You are a real idiot! How can you love person only coz he'd stolen your first kiss? You only met him yesterday! I can't believe you Mikan!" Hotaru said out loud. Then Mikan walked towards her bed and sat down on it.
"I never loved him coz he stole my first kiss. I love him coz I could see something special in him. I could see myself in his eyes, Hotaru. And he could make me happy for the first time in my life. I smiled actually because of him, and I cried actually because of him. He was the first one who listened to my whole story without interrupting. He made me feel better for the first time in my life, Hotaru. That's why I love him. I know that this is a sudden love. But I can see that this is a real one."
Mikan ended her description, sighing dreamily.
"I don't know from where you found those words, but I know that you are gonna end up with tears. Can't you understand baka! If I say that simply YOU ARE NOT SUITED TO HIS WEALTH!. That's my point. He will marry a noble girl someday, but not you Mikan, not you. You'll have to end up with tears. So stop this here Mikan. It will reduce your suffering." Hotaru said in a concerned voice.
"I know that Hotaru. But I can't do it. I'll keep my love inside me even he'd choose a bride from a noble family. I don't care if he loves me or not. The only thing I know is I love him. I'll keep that inside me. That will cause less suffering." Mikan said, closing her eyes to keep her rising tears inside.
"I don't know about that Mikan. But you have your own life. Do whatever you like. If you want to sacrifice it to someone who doesn't even love you, so do it then. But remember one thing. I'll be by your side in any decision you make." Said Hotaru, for Mikan's extreme amazement. Then Mikan jumped forward to hug Hotaru, and again to Mikan's surprise, she hugged her back, tightly as if she would never let her be alone.
"I'll be by your side Mikan!" Hotaru murmured as she tightened the hug.
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Yeah people! Chapter 8 is finished. I'm sorry for making it short just as the last one! And there are not much NatsuXMikan moments. I'm extremely sorry for that. I know it was boring. But now you know that Mikan's in love with Natsume! But Natsume was acting strange, right? Can you guess why? (Of course, I have given you so many clues!) And I want you to know that more cliffs are on their way to this story. So be careful! But don't worry! This won't be a tragedy! But this won't be a comedy also. Anyways, I hope that you've found this chapter cool! Or was it boring? So tell me that!
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