Title: Am I Your Lover Or Your Brother?
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em
Chapter: 8/?
Rating: N/C 17
Pairings: Sam/Dean, Wincest
Warnings: Language (Lots of Language), Smut, Violence, Wincest, Bottom!Sam, Bottom!Dean, Mental Abuse
Spoilers: Possible Up Through Season 7 (Here and There)
Summary: Au in which John keeps the boys apart telling each that the other died early in their childhood for different reasons. They meet at a college party and connect. When Sam figures out the truth will he tell Dean that he's his brother, or will Sam continue playing part of Dean's lover?
Ch. 8
"Dad I, I don't know dad. I knew I had to leave, I had to..."
"Sam! What the hell is wrong with you? What in the hell would possess you to do something like that? It's sick Sam! Your BROTHERS!"
"I, I didn't know at first! We met at a party and, somewhere in between there and Dean getting hurt I fell in...I fell in love with him, and then I figured out we were brothers, but I, I couldn't just shut it off ok! The feelings were still there and I know I shouldn't have let things continue but I couldn't stop, I couldn't. I don't know what's wrong with me! Dad...I didn't want to hurt Dean! I never want to hurt Dean and I already have so much and with what you said I got scared so I left! If I'm not near Dean I can't hurt him!"
"Sam, you remember what we talked about on the phone? It's happening. Now. Small gestures like this until you get out of control. You need to put and end to it Sam, before it does get worse. You will hurt Dean, but by that point it won't matter to you. You need to put a stop to it now."
By this point Sam was sobbing uncontrollably sitting on some crappy bed in some cheap dingy motel, not far away but far enough. "Dad what are you saying?"
"I think you know what I'm saying Sam."
"Yea ok, ok, yea I can do that. I can. Ok. Ok." Sam rambled. Taking a huge breath and letting it out Sam then asked "Can I talk to Dean?"
"He doesn't want anything to do with you, you disgust him. Goodbye Sam."
"Dad-" but if fell on death ears as his father hung up. Ok Sam knew what he had to do. If he got worse he would definitely do it. He wanted to put some things into place first to protect Dean from everything. If he could hold out a few more days, maybe a little longer he could make sure Dean would be safe and then he'd protect Dean from himself as well. It hurt knowing that Dean hated him now but he knew this was coming, he deserved it, he just needed to deal with knowing he fucked up badly and lost Dean for the rest of eternity. Okay deep breaths...he could do this.
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"DAD WHAT THE HELL! WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO HIM!" Dean was furious. Sam had wanted to talk to him and his father flat out lied to Sam. "After you basically told him to kill himself, and for what? SAM. Is. Not. EVIL! Okay get it through your damn head because HE'S NOT EVIL!" Dean continued to yell at his father.
He was so mad, so mad and so scared that Sam was going to do something drastic because of what their father had said. Grabbing his jacket and keys Dean was out the door and in the Impala faster than either John or Bobby could figure out what he was doing. If he thought he had the time, he would have punched his father in the face, if for nothing else then to knock some sense into him.
"Dammit Dean don't! You have no idea what is going on! Let me explain everything to you!"
"Sammy seemed to know what I don't, he can explain it to me when I find him. And you better hope and pray to whatever damn thing it out there that he's ok when I get there."
With that Dean pealed out of the drive with less care for his baby than usual, and headed for the highway figuring on going East for about an hour and then stopping at every cheap motel he found until his found his, his what? Lover? Brother? Damn this is confusing. Well either way...his Sammy.
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"John what the hell was that?" Bobby usually kept quiet about issues when it came to John's boys, but he had enough of John treating Sam like he was something evil.
"The boy is confused as hell and scared to death and you tell him that? I don't even know which thing I'm more pissed off about right now! And before you even say anything I raised those boys as much, if not more, than you did and you are way out of line right now! That's Sammy you were talking to! Your Sammy, your little boy! He didn't ask for that damn demon to give him demon blood as a baby no more than Dean asked for the angels to try an' counter it by giving him angel grace. They don't even know the whole story and you need to find them, both of them and tell them. Sam's your son John. He's a Winchester and he loves Dean. Perhaps not in the way that he should but then again who's fault is that? What I'm trying to say here is that Sam is stronger than your giving him credit for. He's not going to turn."
"Fuck. I don't know what to think anymore Bobby! What am I supposed to think when I'm told my boys will be the ones to bring on the apocalypse?! I thought keeping them apart would do the trick but obviously I was wrong, it just messed things up more. Your right though. About Sammy. God I'm such an idiot. I need to find them."
The two friends and hunters ran out, jumping in John's truck and took off after Dean hoping to catch up with him and Sammy before anything bad happened to either of the boys.
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Meanwhile, a group of hunters were gathering outside of Palo Alto gathering gear together and making plans.
"I heard about the attack in the park the other day, do you think he was responsible?"
"Could have been, I talked to a few of the hunters that were there but they are all friends of either of the boys and were of no help. Keeping pretty tight lipped about the whole thing if you ask me. Had no idea that they were brothers though, guess Sam wanted it that way."
"So I guess asking them for help is out of the question. Damn. Well we better get a move on it before that boy does something else to someone else. John, Dean, and Bobby will forgive us eventually, once they realize what a danger Sam is."
"I sure hope your right. I just think we should be trying to find out more to the story before we run off half cocked and kill an innocent kid. A Winchester no less. You know demons tend to lie right? What's not to say that this is what they want, Sam out of the picture, and are using us and our fears to get their job done?"
"No, there is a reason John kept Sam and Dean apart for all those years. Now we know why. Dean isn't a threat but Sam needs to be taken out. I'm sorry. Are you in or not?"
"Yea, yea I guess I'm in. Let's go."
The blonde jumped in her truck with her sister and uncle and filled them in. Hoping they could reach the Winchesters before the group of hunters did they took off, flying up the highway to where they were pretty sure they had a good lead on where Sam was currently staying. They just hoped they could warn them before it was too late.
