Sorry for the late update I was supposed to update this yesterday, but I forgot. I updated "Red Lust" sequel to "Abstinence"(vampire-angel pot fic), I also updated "Twisted love". spinoff of "Ice Prince" and "Withered Heart" it's under Kirihara, since I can't choose between the second character since he has two lovers. Anyways cuz I forgot...treat... I'll update two chapters today, soooo enjoy XD.

Pain

Ryoma had fallen asleep on the stage of the atrium as he had let his emotion's over the past two years spill out.

He cried untill his eyes could no longer cry, and his mouth could no longer sob. All his pain and frustration, spilled and once he opened that door, he couldn't stop. His control was gone. His apathetic, strong mask was shattered in the embrace of those who loved him. Untill finally, he slept.

His two lovers carried him back to their room, as Kei took the sleeping Ryuu home with him. They had laid Ryoma and slept as soon as their bodies hit the bed. They like him succumbed to the strain of the day's revelations..

The dorm room was particularly quiet, unlike this morning. Or was it yesterday, technically it was yesterday, since the alarm reads 1:47 am.

The steady even breaths of three males filled the room. All was unnaturally quiet.

Ryoma lay in the bed, fully clothed, swaddled in his lovers arms. Syuusuke's head rested on Ryoma's stomach hugging his waist. Sei's left arm was used as a pillow beneath Ryoma's head as his right arm draped across Ryo's chest. All three were exhausted physically and mentally.

Ryoma began to fidget beneath the embrace, uncomfortable by the heat. His heart began to burn painfully. He shifted once more waking Syuu and Sei. He clutched his heart, subconsciously, as pain tore through his sleep.

"What is it Ryo?" Syuu asked now fully awake, but he didn't move. Instead he began drawing light circles around Ryoma's belly button, causing his toes to curl. Sei ran his fingers through Ryoma's hair, kneeding through his scalp, forcing Ryoma to purr in satisfaction. The pain in his chest receded for the time being.

He suppresed a shudder as he opened one eye to glare at his molesters.

"I was sleeping you know." He grumbled sleepily as he fisted his hands against his eyes.

Syuusuke moved off of his stomach but left an arm on Ryoma; as he propped his elbow onto the bed and rested his head against his hand. He stared with closed eyes at the cute, sleepy Ryo in front of him and giggled.

He smiled as he spoke,"Saa Ryo-chan, don't lie now, you woke us up first."

"Che." He looked at the ceiling determined to not meet the two sadist's was afraid they would see his fear, and pain.

Sei moved from Ryoma and sat up on the bed near Ryoma's waist.

"Ne Ryo-chan, what exactly is your relationship with Atobe." He asked as Syuu began drawing circles against his stomach once more. Ryoma's face stayed locked on the ceiling as he spoke.

"We've been friends since we were born, and almost four years ago we were made brothers, when our parents got married. Me and Kei are best friends, though neither of us would ever actually admit that. He is my brother though we are not blood related. However, Ryuu is our blood brother, he is our last connection to our parents. We would do anything for him." He began to smile causing Syuu and Sei to smile in response at the obvious love he held for his brothers. His smile morphed into one of fear.

He glanced around the room quickly, searching for something.

'Oh no, Oh no, Oh no,'. He repeated, it seemed his mind was incapable of forming actual, understandable sentences.

Syuu and Sei both sat up slightly puzzled by their lovers actions. They looked at each other questioningly and both had no idea what just happened.

When his eyes found the alarm, his jaw dropped comically as he rushed to put on his shoes

They both had to supress giggles at his face.

"Ryuu, damnit, I'm such a baka." He mumbled aloud much to their amusement.

They now understood what he was thinking. They both watched with their hands over their mouths, to stop from laughing. He ran around the room with a frantic expression on his face, that was so un- Ryoma like, it was hilarious..

He all but ran to the door. His hand tightened around the doorknob as a hand grabbed his shoulder, yanking him back to the bed. Ryoma spoke angrily through his teeth.

"What are you doing? Where's Ryuu?" He said frantically, worried for his so-brother, he mentally corrected once more, annoyed at his lack of attentiveness. He berated himself for having fallen asleep, to begin with.

Syuu sat behind him kneeling against the bed as he rested his chin on Ryoma's shoulder. He wrapped his arms around Ryoma's waist, keeping him trapped. He leaned his full body weight against him, wanting to touch as much as was possible, of him.

"Where do you think you're going Kitten?" He breathed against Ryoma's ear causing his body to shiver uncontrollably.

'sensitive ears, ahh, how could I forget.' Syuu thought as he grinned mischieviously. He grasped his earlobe between his teeth lightly and began to lick the sensitive outer shell of his ear.

Ryoma hissed through his teeth but tried to speak, "I need to get Ryuu." His voice was an octave lower than usual, causing Syuu to laugh.

Sei's grip on Ryoma's shoulder slackened as he moved his hand to Ryoma's chin. He pulled his face to his.

"Don't worry, he's with Atobe." He sighed in relief as Syuu chuckled, letting go of his ear.

He stood and turned to face them with his hands across his chest.

"So,how did I get here?" He said with a stroke of pride, as he tilted his head upwards and away from them. He was slightly afraid of the answer.

"We carried you." Syuu said cheerfully, as a blush formed on Ryoma's cheeks.

"You've been asleep for...almost ten hours." Sei said as he glanced behind himself to view the illuminated clock. Ryoma frowned as he left the room leaving a shocked duo behind him.

Before they could even react to his dissappearance, he walked back in with a water bottle and a small brown bottle. He didn't look at their confused expressions. He merely walked to a chair beside the bed and placed the water bottle on the nightstand. He looked up at his lovers with a slight grimace.

"What is that Ryo-chan." Syuu asked as he stood from the bed and walked over towards him. Ryoma opened the small bottle and pulled out two tablets before closing it and placing it on the nightstand.

Sei grabbed the bottle and read the label with a frown on his face.

"It's why I woke up." He said as he placed the two pills on his toungue. Syuu opened the bottle of water and handed it to him.

"What do you mean?" Ryoma swallowed the pills and stared at Syuu.

"When I don't take these pills within a certain time frame, my body start's too overheat, I sweat, and my breathing hitches. My heart starts to get painfully hot. If not taken quickly enough my body will begin to reject the only medicine that seems to be working." Ryoma said matter-of-factly. Syuu opened his eyes as Ryoma explained. He tried to keep the worry hidden but it didn't work. Sei moved to the chair, where Ryo was, and sat on the armrest.

"Why didn't you tell us about you heart." Ryoma looked away from them both as he stood. He walked to the open window and stood feeling the breeze, allowing the chilly air to swaddle his hot body. The curtains swayed around his pensive form. He stared up at the night sky and sighed.

"I didn't want sympathy..." He said turning to them with determined gold eyes.

"I wanted love." His guilt was clearly written on his face.

"I never meant to hurt you." A single tear rolled down Ryoma's cheek as he spoke.