Hi guys, I'm back. I'm sorry I haven't written anything in a while. I'm hoping to get back into it. For those that are following my other story 'Through the Storm' look for a chapter in the next few days!
Song: Taking Me Over by Evanescence
I can't believe that Jake is gone. All because Edward had to send an invitation to him. I can't believe he did that. It made me so mad. He told me that if it was the other way around, he would want an invite. I know that's a lie, Edward send the invitation just to get one last dig in at Jake.
You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...
I can't sleep at night. I keep dreaming about Jake. I dream about him coming back to me. As selfish as that sounds, I can't help it. I try to dream about Edward and our life together, but that's just not the way dreams work.
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
I'm ready to just forget all this wedding stuff and go out and search for Jake. I know I would never be able to find him, but I feel like I have to try. I realize how much I love Jake; I would be willing to give up everything for him. When he's not around, I find it hard to breath, it's like he's the other part of me. He's all I can think about. Thoughts of him are taking me over
Have you forgotten all I know?
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
How could he leave me? After all we went through, he just left. My Jake, my sunshine is gone. I knew he loved me; he never had to say it. I could see it in his eyes; I could feel it when he touched me. He made me realize that I loved him too. He stood by me, and fixed me, and what did I do? Broke his heart and left him for Edward.
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
I can't go through with this anymore; I can't keep pretending that I'm not in love with my best friend. I can't keep pretending that I'm okay with this sham of a wedding. I've fallen out of love with Edward, I can't marry him. I feel suffocated when I'm with Edward. Did I always feel like this? Or is it because of my love for Jake that is making me see how controlling he is. With Jake, I can breathe and be free.
I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over
As I'm sitting at my mirror, brushing my hair, I feel a presence behind. Not the one I was expecting. I don't know how I knew who it was, but I just did. I looked up in the mirror and saw the eyes that I had missed so much staring back at me. Jake. He had come back to me. As I looked in his eyes through the mirror, I could see the hurt and the pain behind them. But even with all that, I still saw the love and devotion for me behind them. I know my eyes reflected his.
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
I couldn't stand it anymore; I pushed my chair back and ran into his arms. I knew he would catch me. Just being back in his arms again, I felt like I could breathe again. The suffocating feelings I had been having were gone. Back in his arms I felt whole again. I felt his warm taking me over. I didn't realize how cold I had been since he left.
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
Jake pushed me away to get a better look at me. He was looking into my eyes, like he was searching for something. I don't know what he was searching for, but I guess he found it, because next thing I know, he's kissing me.
Taking over me
At first I was shocked, I knew I shouldn't be doing this, but I couldn't help it. I kissed him back. I put everything I had, everything I felt into the kiss. I wanted him to feel all the things that I couldn't say out loud.
You're taking over me
I could hear my phone ringing. I didn't need to look to see who it was. I know my future changed the minute Jake came into my room. I didn't care. I now know where my heart lies.
Taking over me
There's no going back, I plan to stand by Jake's side no matter what. I knew the Cullen's' would be hurt over this, especially Edward, but I would except if they decided leave again. I wouldn't fall apart again
Taking over me
I knew Jake would hold me up
There you go! Hope you enjoyed it!
Until next time!
