Stark's point of view

I stared lovingly at Zoey when she fell asleep, wondering if she knew how much she was hurting me. I mean I know she didn't mean to and it wasn't her fault; it was mine. I wished with all my might that I could be the one snuggling in bed with her, that I could comfort, that I could feel her sweet soft lips upon ind, that I did not die and leave her.

If I hadn't died Zoey I wouldn't have put been in so much pain. I mean what was I thinking trying to defeat Neferet, even though I knew it would hirt Zo in the process. Back then all I thought is that I would throw away my life in a heart beat if it meant saving her. But I was too hard-headed and naïve to realize that my death would utterly destroy her. You'd think that after her soul shattering when Heath died I'd be a little more careful. But of course I had to ruin this too. Man I had to be the worst warrior/guardian in history.

And then there was Aphrodite. How could I not have picked up on the feelings Z had for her, or did she just start feeling this way. And then an even worst thought entered mt mind. What if she had always felt this way, but I had confused her feelings and thought they aimed at me. No, Z had, and still does love me, I knew that. Maybe she loved both of us, like she loved Heath and me, (and maybe even Aphrodite too then.) I would have to talk to Aphrodite about it. Because if she decided to hurt Zoey even more than I already had, I would rip her to tiny bitchy shreds. But while they were awake I could feel the mutual undeniable love they felt for each other. So hopefully it would not have to come to that.

I was surprised to find that Aphrodite felt the same way about Z that she felt for her. Not that Zoey wasn't pretty much the most lovable person on Earth; but I knew what happened between her and Darius when I was visting Earth to see Zo. How could she have gotten over him so quickly? Did she also love Zoey before but hid her feelings. And even more importantly how could Darius have done that to her? I mean, I know Aphrodite isn't exactly the nicest person, and had her - oh who was I kidding, she was a total bitch. But Darius had always seemed to show unconditional love for her. I briefly wondered if Zoey was just her rebound, but I remembered back on how she had looked at Z that night. Although I really didn't want to think about how my ace was in love with someone else.

But something that I could not avoid is the confrontation with my friends tomorrow. Would they be mad at me. I mean they had seen it first hand what had happened to Zoey after I died (again). I wonder if they would even be able to see or hear me, maybe then they wouldn't be able to chomp my ghostly head. I would also have to tell Zoey and the rest of the gang about my new gifts that Nyx had given me. But I was actually excited for that, because as soon as Zoey heard how much stronger and reliable my new gifts had given me, she might forgive me and trust me to protect her again. And I will protect her with everything I have this time, I will not fail her. Again I added.

Sorry for the short chapter, but at least I put up a new one :) I promise to make my next chapter longer. I know it's a bit badly written and awkward in some places, but I wasn't really sure how to word hit. I hope you like it anyways. And please, please PLEASE review. Hahaha c= and also tell me what you think of the smiley, I told my friends that it was going to catch on one day, and they didn't believe me, so I'm trying to spread the word, and let other people know about it so they can use it too c :