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Chapter 7 Unable to Wait

So many thoughts were speeding through her mind. She wasn't sure how she was going to write it all down. She finally understood how much he loved her and what she meant to him. She had realized while reading the letter that that was how she felt about him. They were each others salvation. They made each others lives make sense. There was no possible way for her write all of the things she needed to say down. It would have to be face to face. She needed to see him. Forget the time limit. Love was more important. She needed to find him. She stood up and began to walk to his crypt.

***

Spike, totally unaware of the fact that Buffy was on her way to see him, was looking for a job opening in the paper. He had no idea of what he was looking for but proceeded to look anyhow. Pet Palace, part time, 12 - 4pm. No experience needed. 8 dollars an hour. Spike had always liked animals, but he didn't want to go home everyday smelling like one. The Printery, full time, 10am - 7pm. Must be over 14 yrs of age. 7 dollars an hour. He could handle that. He had a knack for electronics, and the age factor was defiantly not a problem. He circled it in red. When he was done he had only about five or six jobs circled. Now he had to come up with a resume. Now that was going to be a difficult task. He would have to call and make appointments for the interviews. He would defiantly need to change his cloths and that meant he would have to go buy some new ones. He smiled. He would get Buffy to help him with that one. She was always good at dressing him up. Spike walked over to his chair and sat down. He laid his head back and closed his eyes and began to daydream. He let the thoughts just flow through his mind. Buffy. Dawn. Buffy's smile. Love. Someone loved him. Being able to look in her eyes and see love. Spike's thoughts were interrupted by a rushed knock on the door. He sat up and walked to the door. Before he even touched the handle, the door burst open and Buffy just rushed in. In less then a second, Buffy had wrapped her arms around Spike's neck. She was kissing him all over his face. He was so startled that he stumbled back a little bit. He wrapped his arms around her and they just hugged. It felt like they hadn't seen each other for so long.

"God, I've missed you, luv." Spike said. His voice was kind of muffled by Buffy's hair and neck.

"I love you so much! I never knew you felt that way. I tried to write back to you but I couldn't. I had to see you. I just had to." Buffy said between sobs.

"Shhhhhh. I know, I know. Come, let's sit down." Spike said leading her to the small sofa.

"I didn't know. I didn't know how much I meant to you." She said, the sobs becoming less.

"I know. How could you have known? How could you if I never told you." Spike said.

"I never meant to put you through so much pain. I always pushed you away. I pushed everyone away. You had always been there for me. But I was never there for you. God, I'm so sorry." She said. There tears rolling steadily down her cheeks.

"I know. You didn't know what to do. You were confused." He said while kissing her tears away.

"I'm so sorry"

"It's ok." He put his hands on her face and lifted it up so he could see into her eyes. "It's ok."

"You've always been able to see through me. I know it was about you, but I feel the same way about you." She said.

They sat there for at least forty five minutes hugging and kissing. They were clinging to each other like it was the end of the world. But it felt more like the beginning.

*** It was finally here. The fifth day. With Dawn unsuccessful at her searching and prying, and Anya and Xander wondering why Buffy was acting so strange, it was time. Xander and Anya would arrive for dinner at eight o'clock. Then Spike would come at eight thirty. That would Buffy some time to talk to Dawn, Anya and Xander. Buffy was so nervous. She had bought a new outfit and shoes. The shirt was a deep purple. It was a tank top with soft ruffles on the front. There was nothing holding the back together except for a few strings. The pants were black suit pants with white pin stripes going down them. And the shoes were small black boots. She was also going to wear the necklace the Spike had given her. Not that it was a decision, she never took it off. She wanted, no, needed everything to be perfect. She was making dinner when she heard a knock at the front door. When she opened the door, there stood Xander and Anya in their Sunday best. Anya was holding a casserole dish.

"We brought food for our food sharing experience!" Anya stated cheerfully.

"Hey guys! How are you?" Buffy asked.

"Great, Buffster." Replied Xander.

Buffy turned towards the stairs and yelled "DAWN! ANYA AND XANDER ARE HERE!!"

When Dawn came down the stairs she joined the others in the living room.

"So, Buff, what's this dinner really about?" Xander asked.

"Well, it's pretty big, for me. And it makes me happy. I need you to understand something. It makes me happy. Happier then I've been in a long time. You guys want me to be happy right?"

"Of course we do" They all said.

"I can't tell you what it is right now; I have to wait until someone else is here. I just hope that you will support my decision. And that's all I have to say right now."

Dawn was sitting there just smiling. She knew it! She knew something wonderful was going on!

"Buffy, you're scaring us." Xander said "What's going on?"

"I have to wait. So no asking questions until later." Buffy said.

By the time they had finished talking it was twenty after eight. Spike would be coming soon.

"Stop looking at me like that! STOP!" She said laughing. It was going to be a long night.

**** A few minutes later the doorbell range. Buffy's heart jumped. This was it, their moment of truth, together.

Buffy stood up and went to the door. She took a deep breath and opened the door. Standing there, she found a nicely dressed Spike. They smiled at each other. Buffy turned towards Xander and said:

"Xander, before you do or say anything let Spike and I explain what's going on. Ok?"

"What the hell is he doing here!?"

"Stop!" Buffy said harshly.

"Fine!" Xander shot back.

Spike and Buffy walked over and sat on the love seat next to each other. They sat rather close.

"The week before you guys went on vacation, I had heard rumors of Spike's return. I didn't say anything because I didn't know if it was true or not. The day after you left, I ended up 'bumping' into Spike." Buffy and Spike exchanged knowing glances.

"We needed to talk. So the night after that he came over and we talked, about everything. What had happened, what we were feeling and what we wanted to happen. We decided to start over. A fresh slate. The week you were gone, we spent most of our time together." Buffy said.

As Buffy continued to talk, Xander was getting angrier by the second.

"This time we decided to do things right. We love each other. We didn't want to hide t anymore. We love each other and want to be together." Buffy said, turning to look and smile at Spike.

Buffy didn't know how they were going to react.

"I'm glad you two finally got over your petty problems and are together. Not that I really care, but I am glad for you!" Anya said in a cheery tone.

Buffy was just worried about Xander.

It had taken all of his control to not blow up in their faces. He was trying so hard. But he couldn't hold in.

With an emotionless face, Xander stood up and walked out the door.

"Xander! Wait! Please, don't leave it like this!" Buffy cried after him.

"I'm sorry Buffy, but you know Xander. I'll go talk to him." Anya said calmly.

"Thanks Anya." Buffy said.

When Anya left, Buffy couldn't hold it in. She turned her face into Spike's chest and began to cry. She cried as if the world had just ended.

*** I'm not sure what exactly I should do here. I have more ideas and I want to continue the story. But should I make a sequel, or just continue with more chapters. Personally I feel it is easier to read these fan fictions in pieces. I hate what things have like 30 chapters. Well, anyway, just let me know what you thought about the chapter and what I should do in a review! Thanks a bunch to you all! I love you all!