A/N: Frau Gabor's POV

Oh, dear. Moritz, I was so afraid of it coming down to this. I know you thought I turned my back to you by not sending you to America, but as I told you in my letter, even if I had the money, it still would not have fixed things. I did write your parents, but I don't know if they received it in time.

I feel as if I could have done more, but if I dwell on it too much, I…oh, it makes me feel so guilty, especially since it is far too late to change your mind.

Moritz, I hope that you knew how important you were. I am uncertain if you realized how much you meant to Melchior and I. Your father may have been harsh, but he had his reasons. That does not excuse him by any means, but he did love you. He never wanted you to kill yourself, none of us did. He just pushed you too far to succeed, but the other adults just wished you happiness.

The other children are not the only ones who feel broken. The parents in the town are devastated as well. We all got used to the little, messy-haired boy running around our yards playing games with our own children. We try to care for all of the children, for Heaven knows there are a good many who don't get enough care at home.

You may not have had the school's support, but they didn't see how complex you were. Melchior told me what happened when you quoted Virgil incorrectly. You tried so hard, it was unjust how they treated you. You were probably the most diligent worker they had, but they weren't smart enough to see your worth. There were so many good things about you, I just hope you didn't do this because you were upset with yourself.

I try to work this out in my mind. Did you feel defeated by the world? Alone and deserted, without encouragement and guidance? Or something else entirely? Melchior told me that Ilse was the last to see you. He thought Ilse could have done something, if only she knew what you were planning, but I told him that your mind was set. There was no turning back at that point, was there? Was there anything else in our power to do?

And what if Melchior was right, and someone could have saved you?

Too many what ifs can break a soul.

A/N: Eh. Not my favorite. I'm looking forward to doing Hanschen. I think he'll be easier, my only worry with him is making him too critical. I kind of want to make him mean about it, as opposed to everyone else, but at the same time, I don't think I should. Don't get me wrong, Hanschen is awesome. Anyways. Hope you enjoy and please review!