So in this chapter we'll see heartbroken Jeremy :( but Fate has her own opinion 'bout the situation and makes her move to improve things in future... she's patient bitch after all :D
-Jeremy POV's-
-If you don't do it he'll die... –she said quietly.
Tears started to form in my eyes and drop on my face. I raised my head to look at Amelia but she was gone already. I dropped on my knees and started to cry until the Sunrise alarmed me that it's time for school and Jena and Elena are probably waiting for me even angrier then yesterday.
6:30
I stood from the ground and moved my aching body step after step in one meaningless motion. Moving just because of the moving, moving without direction. The last thing I wanted at the moment was to confront Jena and Elena but if I didn't show myself soon they'll probably call the police. Not that it mattered, nothing matters anymore. I felt hollow from inside and her voice was still echoing in my head even after whole night of crying.
-If you don't do it he'll die...
6:50
I opened the door and entered in the house feeling like I'm entering in prison. The floor squeaked under my foods alarming the girls in the kitchen that I'm here. I stood there not able to move, not that I wanted it, waiting the doom to rain over me. The footsteps were close... any moment, just second!
-JEREMY! –Jena yelled and rushed from the corridor to me. –Oh my God, Jeremy! What happened? –her attitude changed in the moment she saw me.
I looked in the mirror and saw one messy haired boy with dirty clothes and red from crying eyes. The scariest was the empty and cold look on my face. It was like someone else was staring at me, my reflection was alien to me. Jena embraced me in warm hug and my chest constrict. The lump in my throat formed again and the tears rushed. She hushed my quiet sobs.
-Jeremy, honey... you have to tell me what happened? –she pleaded with concern leaking from her voice. I tried to find my voice and finally I was able to speak regardless my voice sounded like I hadn't spoke from centuries.
-I am tired of being alone... I thought that I can be with Matt, but that's not possible! –I cried feeling the words burn my throat not only physically.
Jena looked pained but there's nothing that she can tell to ease my pain, to reduce the loneliness that I'm feeling. Elena squeezed her shoulder and motion to my room with her head. Jena helped me to move upstairs and let Elena to be with me in my room.
-I'll make something for breakfast. –she announced quietly and left us.
Elena hugged me and I let myself to sink in her warm embrace finding that I can't cry anymore. After few minutes she offered me to get one shower and to stay here if I'm not feeling to go to school today and I just nodded. I knew that I'll go, after all I have to confront Matt and... and... I started to cry silently again moving towards the bathroom. I opened the door to enter and heard Jena from downstairs:
-Will he be okay?
-I'm not sure. I've never seen him like that! –Elena whispered.
-Me neither. –Jena whispered too.
I closed the door more forcefully that needed and locked it. I spend like 5 minutes to take my clothes of and to make the water suitable for my skin. In that moment I wanted so badly to be vampire, to be able to switch off my feelings. But apparently all of my desires either never happened or turned against me. The hot water tried really hard to wash away my pain but it was pointless. Even my power can't do it. Moments with Matt started to flood in my head-his smile, his scent, our first kiss. Anger and hatred raised in me. I hate everything, that damn world and his stupid destiny and Gods. I focused my anger at the mirror in the bathroom and it broke spreading on the floor. I dropped to my knees feeling the cuts that formed on my arms and legs. Someone knocked on the door and then Elena's voice echoed above the shower.
-Jeremy, open that damn door right NOW!
I pulled pair of boxers and unlocked the door, letting her in. She closed the door and looked around. The mirror was shattered to thousand little pieces, blood was covering the floor and still flooded freely from my wounds. She hugged me and moved me towards the water to clean me from the blood. Then she bandaged all of my cuts and gave me towel warning me not to do something stupid again. She left but I was able to sense her right outside waiting for me. I dried my body and put dark shirt and jeans and leaved the bathroom. I entered in my room and curled to a ball under my blankets.
7:20
Elena and Jena left before 5 minutes looking extremely stressed and absolutely not trusting me to not break something again or to not hurt myself. I promised them that I'll go to school and told them that I just need some time with myself to make my head clear. I raised and moved slowly downstairs. Ironically I thought that this is the moment in which Irene loved me the most. I was so miserable and full with hatred towards her and her siblings that if hatred can kill they'll definitely be dead despite the fact that they're Gods.
7:25
The walk to school goes unnoticed by me, after all I'm sunk in my misery. The warning bell ranged just in the moment when the school showed from the corner of the street. The crowd entered and the school yard emptied just like my heart and apparently really appropriate for my mood. Matt was the only one left, obviously waiting for me. My stomach knitted. I took one deep breath to encourage myself and moved towards the door motioning him with my head to follow me.
7:32
The hall was empty, thank God, and I went to the school bathrooms undisturbed. Matt was following me with clear concern on his face. When we entered he tried to hug me from backside but I dodge it and stayed with my back turned to him.
-Jeremy? –he asked nervously and questioningly.
My heart sunk when I heard his uncertain tone. My chest constricted and my breath hitched painfully. I hated so much myself for what I'm about to do. It wasn't enough that my life is broken and now his will be too.
-Matt, we have to break up. –I told him with surprisingly calm and cold voice that sounded like it's not coming from me.
-Wait, why? Jeremy if I messed somewhere just tell me, please and let me make it up to you! If we move too fast I can wait... and you can take your time, it's not necessary to...
-No, Matt, I made my mind already and I'm not changing it! –the coldness in my voice scared me. That was the moment he decided to touch me and his warm hand send jolts of pleasure through my body. I turned fast towards him and he saw the tears in my eyes. Shit, now he knows that something's not right and I don't want to do that.
-Jeremy... –he started protectively. Damn his protectiveness, can't he just understand it- I don't want, no, I can't be with him.
-If we don't break up you'll die! –I screamed and he froze in the middle of his movement to me. I rushed pass him and ran through the empty corridor to the backside of the school where I knew I'll find some relief.
Matt didn't follow me that time. Soon I was outside, behind the school where druggies met. One quick glance and I spotted Jonathan- one boy from my class that I knew almost surely had some alcohol in him. Thankfully he didn't disappoint me and soon I was drunk to the point I wasn't able to stand on my legs without falling.
-Tyler POV's-
8:03
I was late for school but I couldn't care less. Yesterday was harsh and my mind constantly drifts on his own will to scenes that I so hardly try not to think about. I was completely consumed in my thoughts when I entered the school and bumped into someone. He fell on the floor and I was about to yell at him when I saw that it's no other then Jeremy Gilbert. He was obviously drunk. I helped him to stand and moved him to my car with the intention to drive him to his house. Apparently he noticed me when we were on the parking lot. He pushed me, somehow succeeding to remain on his legs.
-Don't touch me! –he mumbled.
-Gilbert, don't be a fool. Let me drive you to your house! –I told him and tried to touch him again.
He pushed me again more forcefully and yelled at me:
-I said don't touch me, Lockwood!
-What's your problem dude? I'm just trying to help here! –I yelled back starting to get angry.
-No one asked for your help, stupid jock!
That was the moment when my mind turned black from anger and I rushed towards him barely hearing some yells. I grabbed his neck and pushed him to the closest car.
-I said DON'T touch me, you dog! –Jeremy yelled again making me froze. Some wind appeared around him and immense pain hit me. I stumbled and fell to the ground holding my head. As fast as it appeared the pain was gone.
Someone was holding me and I smelled that it's Mason. Matt was here too and was pleading Jeremy for something. My anger wasn't reduced even slightest regardless the pain and the wolf in me growled feeling something that wasn't anger but I wasn't in mood to try to understand him. I rushed towards Jeremy again but Matt caught me before that and we fall to the ground. Mason rushed towards us and tried to remove Matt from me.
When he touched him something happened-they froze for a moment and looked straight into one another eyes with strange expressions. I took my opportunity and rushed again to Jeremy. Matt and Mason returned to the present word and rushed too.
-Stop, ALL! –Jeremy yelled and his clothes moved by some unnoticed wind.
The pain hit me again but I saw that Mason and Matt felt it too. Despite the whole pain that was coming from god knows where I saw Jeremy crying. Something in me broke and my anger completely disappeared and his place took concern. My wolf was clearly concerned for that boy and the feeling consumed me so deeply that almost blocked the pain.
-Jeremy... –I mumbled weakly.
He looked at me with pain and tears in his eyes and the pain disappeared immediately. I wanted to hold him in my arms and to sooth his pain so badly that for a moment I spaced away not sure from where that feeling came. Moment later I saw him running away but when I tried to follow him my body protested and I had no choice but to stand and wait the after-pain to go away.
Matt and Mason was looking at each other awkwardly and Matt was blushing. They both didn't look even slightest shocked from what happened.
-Can someone tell me what happened just now? –I asked.
They break the eye contact and Mason coughed.
-Jeremy is warlock and broke up with me minutes ago... and you know the rest better than me, you were with him. –Matt said.
-Jeremy is... what? He broke up with you... since when you are dating? What the hell is wrong with the world? –I was completely shocked. If anything Matt's answer made me even more confused.
He looked at me and started to explain to me everything from the beginning and I just stood there feeling like the last fool in the world. When he came to the moment where we fought he looked at Mason awkwardly and this time Mason blushed, he blushed damn it.
-What's going between you two? –I asked.
Matt' cheeks painted too and if it wasn't so absurd situation they both would look cute I thought.
-General POV's-
As the boys fought one white haired girl looked at them behind the close threes. She saw how the young warlock ran away and smiled. Behind her another woman with black hair appeared from the air and said:
-The hatred's here already. It's consuming Jeremy's heart only to be transformed into love! And Tyler's wolf found his mate, now we have to wait until he understands it and Eric will make his move.
They both smiled and glanced to the boys on the lot that were talking now.
-Matt and Mason found each other, too! –the white-haired stated. –Destiny follows her course!
One last smile from the dark-haired woman and they both disappeared in the thin air.
-Jeremy POV's-
'Damn it! Why Tyler had to confront me? It wasn't enough but Matt appeared too. It's his fault, he hated me since the beginning. I can hate you too, Tyler Lockwood. There's nothing left for me so I'll hate you. I'll hate your attitude, the fact that you're jock. I'll hate your compassionate look... I never wanted your compassion. Never wanted it... I can't stand it.
I'll hate you Tyler, because I felt something when you looked me before I ran-I felt safe and complete, like I know you from years. I yearned to touch you... but I can't. I'll hate you for that Lockwood-you can't look at the people like that... at least you can't look at me like that! '
I rushed inside my house and to my room. Once inside I locked it and curled in my bead. Tears flooded again. Finally the darkness of the dream took me away.
So, Tyler's wolf acknowledged Jeremy and what you think he'll be ready to do to catch Tyler's and Jeremy's attention? Eric makes his appearance soon... he'll make Tyler jealous over Jeremy to provoke him to accept his feelings. But... first Jeremy will try a... suicide!
Review, plz! Thankies for reading my stories, all!
