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Chapter 8
"So, would you like to go to the club tonight? They are having this huge thing."
"I don't know. I'm going to be busy—"
"C'mon. Think of it as a good-bye party. You leave tomorrow and it's your last night of freedom."
She couldn't believe she was already leaving. Time had gone by so quickly and today was her last day here. She couldn't bear to being without Jason. She was so used to him being around her all the time now, that going home without him would leave her feeling empty. Ever since they met, they had been hanging out. She liked having someone to talk or with again. It was going to be so hard saying good-bye to him tomorrow. How was she going to survive going back home and facing everyone without him? He had made everything bearable, as if nothing had gone wrong. But most of all he made her forget, forget all the things she was running away from. She needed him. More than he knew…
Tears slowly fell down her cheek.
"Earth to Serena. Are you okay? You never answered me. What do you say? Want to go— Serena, what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"I can't go. I just can't. Not yet."
"What are you talking about? No one is making you leave." But even as he said that, Jason knew they were no longer talking about the same thing.
Tears continued falling and Jason couldn't bear to see her crying anymore.
"Come here." He said and he pulled her close to him and hugged her tight, almost as if he would never let go.
Serena welcomed the embrace and wept softly onto his shoulder as she held him tightly.
"Feeling better?"
"Mmhmm," she nodded, "Sorry about that, I didn't mean- I mean I wasn't-"
"Stop. Don't apologize. Don't say anything. It happens. Besides, it was just the excuse I was looking for to get you into my arms."
He winked at her and tried to pull her close to him again but Serena just laughed and playfully pushed him away. Jason pretended to be offended while making a sad, hurtful look. And just like that, everything was ok again and Serena couldn't help but smile.
"There it is. That wonderful smile of yours. Good. I'm glad I got you to smile. Now I know you are going to be just fine."
Serena couldn't help but make her smile even wider. She was definitely going to miss him greatly. She leaned closer to him and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you. And I would love to go dancing with you."
She gave him one last smile and walked away.
"Mom, do you think things will be different?"
She was laying on the bed in her mother's room for awhile now, just looking at the ceiling and thinking, when she finally said something.
"What do you mean sweetheart?"
"Nevermind. Forget it."
Ilene looked up from the magazine she was reading and looked at her daughter laying on the bed.
"You know sweetie, the only way things will be different is if we make them so. We can't expect other to change things for us…for you. You must do that on your own. I hope you know that honey."
But Serena just turned away from her mother and faced the window while softly saying to herself, "I think I'm beginning to…"
At the Club
"Have I told you you look amazing?" Jason said.
"Only about a hundred times. And it's getting kind of annoying Jason," Serena said playfully, "I mean honestly I am not that great looking and hearing you say that I look amazing over and over again bugs me. One time is fine."
"That's were you are wrong." Jason said to no one in particular as he followed Serena inside.
The music was playing, lights were flashing, the people were either dancing or hanging with their friends, the atmosphere overall was set to have a good time and party.
Jason and Serena found a table and sat down. Serena out her coat around her chair and set her purse on the table.
"Wow. This place looks great." She said.
"Eh. I've seen better."
"Oh please, no you have not."
"But I have."
"Where? When?"
"Like I'd tell you."
"I understand, you don't have to tell me anything. Just know that I think you're lying, simple as that."
"Care to dance?" Jason said as he changed the subject and extended his hand out to her.
Serena reached out to hold his hand while looking uncertainly at it and stopped midway.
"I'm not such a good dancer. This was a bad idea. Maybe we can go somewhere else."
"You'll do fine." He said as he grabbed a hold of her hand and dragged her out onto the dance floor.
"Dance." He said.
At first, Serena just stood there, frozen to that spot. For some reason she felt really nervous and she didn't know why. It wasn't like she didn't know how to dance. She thought she was a pretty decent dancer. So she didn't understand why she was frozen and couldn't move.
'Ok clam down. It's just dancing. Just move to the music.'
And yet Serena continued to stand there.
'Alright, just imitate Jason. That isn't so hard. I can do that.'
Still there was no movement on her part.
'C'mon! Just do SOMETHING Serena!'
Slowly she began to move. She felt like a complete idiot who didn't know how to dance. But at least she was moving and wasn't just standing there.
"See, you can dance." He whispered into her ear.
She gave him a weak smile and tried to refocus all her thoughts on dancing.
"You know, I find it easier to dance if I just relax. Don't try so hard. Don't think. Just feel."
'Right. Ok, just feel. Don't think. Feel…'
She let go of everything and stopped thinking and trying to concentrate. She just felt the music and danced…
Jason's POV
She looked amazing on the dance floor. At first she looked nervous and tense, but once she relaxed and let go, she looked like a goddess. No girl here could compare to her. She stood above them all. The way she moved was completely mesmerizing. She was in total control and in sync with the beat of the music. Her eyes were closed, her face was flushed, and every now and again she would stick out her tongue to wet her dry lips. Her golden hair wrapped around her body as she moved and shined as the lights hit her head. She looked better than ever and I regretted not bringing her sooner. I could see all the guys staring at her while she remained completely oblivious to them, which was fine by me. But just so none of these guys got the wrong idea, I pulled her closer to me and danced.
She felt someone put their arm around her waist and pull her close to them. She was about to pull away when they whispered in her ear, "Relax. Just dance."
She smiled and began to move with him while still staying in sync with the beat of the music.
She didn't know for how long they had been dancing but she did know that she needed a break and something to drink.
"Jason?"
"Yeah."
"I'm thirsty, hot, and need to catch my breath. Let's take a break yeah?"
"Ok. Let's go to our table."
He grabbed her hand and led her back to their table. She sat down and took a deep breath.
"What do you want to drink?"
"Just water please."
"I'll right. I'll be back ok? Don't go anywhere."
"Jason, where could I possibly go?"
But Jason ignored her question and went to get their drinks.
Minutes Later
A couple of minutes later he returned with their drinks. Jason handed Serena her drink as he sat down.
"Thank you."
"No problem."
Serena took a huge gulp of her water and then set it down on the table.
"So, I thought you said you didn't know how to dance."
"I don't." said Serena.
"Right. Well you are obviously lying because you looked pretty damn good out here on the dance floor."
"Shut up. You're just saying that to make me feel better for looking like a total idiot."
"Trust me; the word idiot was the last thing I thought of to describe how you looked."
"Really?"
"Totally. You looked great."
"Thanks." Said Serena as she blushed and averted her gaze from Jason.
"Anyways, I think we should head back to the hotel. It is getting kind of late and you are going to leave early tomorrow. So yeah…"
"I guess you're right. Ok, let's go then."
They got a cab and headed back to the hotel.
At the Hotel
"So, this is where we go our separate ways." Jason said.
"Yeah."
There was a pause and then Serena said, "Will I see you tomorrow?"
"Of course. I wouldn't forgive you if you left without saying good-bye."
"Right." She said with a crestfallen look.
"Hey, cheer up. Don't look so sad. We'll see each other again. I promise."
"You shouldn't make promises you can't keep."
"I'm not. We will see each other again. I know that for a fact."
"Right. Well good night then."
She started to walk away while thinking, 'I really want to believe you Jason. It's just that I don't want to get my hopes up and get them crushed. I've learned not to believe in the promises people make that seem impossible to keep.'
All of a sudden, she feels someone grab and twist her around. She comes face to face with Jason.
"Jason. What is it?"
But Jason ignored her and cupped her face, pulled her closely to him, and kissed her softly on the lips. He pulled away, looked directly at her, and said, "We'll see each other again. I'll make sure of it. I'm not letting you go that easily. I'm not Darien."
With that he let her go and walked away. While Serena just stood there, dazed.
"What just happened?" she asked herself once she recovered, "Did he just kiss me? Why? Why do he do this to me? Does he see more than a friend? Do I? Was he just trying to make a point? And why did he bring Darien into this? How dare he? Ugh, so many questions. I'm so confused. This hurting my head. I need sleep."
She walked over to the elevator, clicked the number of her floor and waited. Once she got there she headed to her room and walked in.
The Next Morning
Serena woke to the sound of knocking. She clumsily got out of bed and opened the door.
"Oh good, you're up. Hurry up and get dressed. I already called the front desk to call for a cab so it can take us to the airport. So get ready." Ilene said.
Serena just stood there staring blankly at her mother as she walked away. She slowly closed the door and headed towards the bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror; she looked horrible. She hadn't gotten any sleep last night. She had gotten to her room and finished packing all her things. Once she finished she put on her pajamas and went to bed. She had expected to fall asleep right away but she was wrong. She kept thinking about Jason and the kiss, but most of all she kept thinking of Darien. She felt guilty for what had happened. She had let Jason kiss her when technically she and Darien were still a couple. They hadn't officially broken up yet, so she had done exactly what Rei and Darien had. She was being stupid she knew, for she had every right to kiss any guy she wanted without feeling guilty but she couldn't help it. And the feeling had stayed with her all through the night.
"Stupid Jason. Why did he kiss me?! That jerk. And stupid Darien. Why can't he just disappear? Why can't I let him go?!" Serena said out loud.
She splashed some cold water on her face, brushed her teeth, and went out to change.
Lobby
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Serena was feeling anxious. The cab was here and there was still no sign of Jason. She didn't know exactly how to react to that. Part of her was glad he hadn't shown up. She couldn't take another surprise kiss from him. And yet, she didn't want to leave without saying good-bye. What if she never saw him again? What then?
"Hey."
Serena turned at the sound of his voice.
"Jason! You came!"
She ran towards him and hugged him tightly.
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
"Of course I came. I told you I would. Besides you didn't think I was really going to let you leave without saying good-bye to me first."
"I don't want to say good-bye though. You said we would see each other again. So if that's true, there's no need for a good-bye…right?"
Jason stared at her. She believed him. It was her way of saying that she believed him. He heard it loud and clear with that.
"That's right. This is just a type of 'farewell, I'll see you soon' type of thing. And it came at a good time because let me tell you I need a break from you. You were starting to get somewhat annoying." He said jokingly.
"Please. If anything, I'm the one who needs a break from you."
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
"Serena honey, let's go!" Ilene shouted.
Serena turned towards her mother and yelled, "Ok mom, I'm going! Give me a second!"
She looked at Jason again and said, "I guess this is it."
"I guess so."
And before she had time to second guess herself, Serena leaned into him and kissed him.
"Don't forget me."
"Never."
"Promise?"
"I promise."
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
With that Serena walked towards the cab. She gave Jason one last look before going in. the driver turned on the cab and drove away. The last thing Serena saw was Jason waving good-bye before he disappeared.
'Don't cry Serena, don't cry. You'll see him again. He said we would meet again. So then, there's no reason to cry.'
But she couldn't help it. It seemed all she could do was cry.
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
It had begun to rain, something that hadn't happen all week. She liked to think that the reason it hadn't rained was because she had been happy, up until today. Things had been going great. She had almost forgotten that it was only temporarily and that sooner or later she had to go back home. A place she no longer enjoyed going to. Everywhere she went, she had memories and it cause her pain. There was no where she could go to be alone and just think without being reminded of her past life. A life that no longer existed and had been all a lie. She wished Jason was here. He would have found a way to cheer her up again and save her from this pit falling into and couldn't seem to escape. She didn't even realize when he became so important to her nor when she had become dependent of him. And now he was gone, just like Darien was, and Rei, and Mina, Lita, Ami. Everyone that had said would always be there for her were gone. She was left alone again. Just like before.
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
"Honey," Ilene said softly, "I'm sure you'll see him again. Don't cry. Things will work themselves out. You'll see."
She hoped, for her sake, that both her mom and Jason turned out to be right.
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
Airport in Japan
'I'm home. And yet, I feel nothing but sadness here.'
"Aren't you glad to be back?" her mother asked.
"I guess." She said.
"C'mon sweetie, things can't be that bad. You're home, cheer up. You know what they say 'home is where the heart is.' Now c'mon, let's go home."
"Sorry mom, but I just don't know where my heart is right now."
Serena's House
Everything was the same but somehow it wasn't. Everything was different. Things can never remain the same. She learned that the hard way.
"Well, we are finally home. What would you like to do?" Ilene asked.
"I think I'll just go to my room and put my things away."
"Alright. Don't take too long though; I'm going to get dinner started."
Serena walked up the stairs and towards her room. She stood outsider her door and for awhile just started at it. After awhile she slowly opened the door to her room. She walked in and half expected it to be different, but it wasn't, it looked the same. So much had happened since she was last here. Perhaps it was time to redecorate her room. After all she wasn't the same naïve girl she was back then. She closed her door and laid down on her bed.
"I'm home."
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