I looked into Jacobs eyes. He smiled, but it didn't quite reach his eyes. I reached up and put my hand on his face.
"Bells…" he breathed as he turned his head and kissed the palm of my hand. I was sitting in my room on my bed right now with Jacob, so I knew for a fact I was dreaming. But this wasn't my typical dream. Usually right now I was in the car seeing lights behind Jacob, but instead I was just looking into his big dark eyes and let a few tears fall down my cheeks.
"I've missed you so much Bells. You wouldn't even know how much." He breathed into the palm of my hand, then looked at me. He saw the tears sliding down my cheeks and his smile faltered as he sighed. He wiped the tears away gently with the back of his hand. I closed my eyes at his touch and sighed. It felt so right.
"Bells, please… please don't cry. I'm here now." he pleaded. I just laughed a little. His brow furrowed in confusion.
"I'm crying because I'm happy. And I'm happy because I'm not having my horrible dream that I have every night. I'm glad because I'm actually here with you and your not about to die again in my dream." I smiled and grabbed his hand. It felt so good to hold it again, but there wasn't that usual electric feeling that went through me whenever I touched him. I looked down at our hands but blew the thought away as he gave my hand a gentle squeeze. I smiled and looked back up at him. His eyes sparkled and he leaned towards me. I closed my eyes and just met him halfway. His lips crashed against mine and mine moved with his. It had been so long since I had felt his lips on my mine. I reached my hands up to his hair and tangled them into his dark brown hair. I knew this was a dream, but it felt so real. He started to pull me closer to him, molding our bodies together. I went willingly. One of his hands moved down to my back and kept it there, as the other felt its way down to my thigh. He started to fall back on the bed, but never breaking the kiss. When he was laid back on the bed, he rolled over so he was on top and broke the kiss so we could both breathe. He held his weight carefully off of me so he wouldn't crush me. His lopsided grin appeared and I smiled happily back. His lips came back to mine then and mine moved with his. His hands then moved to where they were both on my waist, and he deepened the kiss. His tongue grazed my bottom lip, and I aloud him entrance, where I molded my tongue with his. He moaned in response and rolled over to where I was on top of him. My hands just tightened in his hair, but not to where it would hurt him. His hands then slipped under my shirt and he started to run his hands up and down my waist. I just moaned and continued to kiss him fiercely. But then he did something I wasn't expecting, dream or no dream. His hands reached out of my shirt and to the front of my jeans, where he undid the button and pulled the zipper down. I froze immediately and broke the kiss. I looked up at him with wide eyes. Even if this wasn't a dream, Jacob knew how I felt about "going to far" unless you were married.
"Jacob… don't." I whispered. He just groaned and let his hands go to his side and his head fall back on the pillow.
"C'mon Bells. Why not? It's just a dream. Like it would count." He said and threw his hands up in exasperation.
"You know why! Dream or no dream. I'm committed, and that's how I'll stay until I'm married. If you don't like it, too bad!" I snapped. I sat up and got up off of him. I hopped up off the bed and walked to the wall. I crossed my arms over my chest and huffed.
"I can't believe you would even try that with me. I mean, what the hell! You know how I feel about that kind of stuff!" I said from across the room. Tears started to fall down my face, and I quickly wiped them away. Jacob sighed and came over to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"I…I'm sorry Bells. I don't know what came over me. Just being without you for so long has taken a toll on me. You wouldn't even imagine." He smiled at me and gently wiped away a tear.
"Do you forgive me?" he asked. He looked up at me through his eyelashes and smiled. I just sighed and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Yes, your forgiven. Just, even in a dream, never try that again." I warned, but then laughed. He laughed with me, and then kissed me fiercely. Then all too soon, my alarm clock went off and I knew it was time to wake up. We broke away and I hugged Jacob again then closed my eyes.
"I love you." I whispered and when I opened my eyes, I woke up to a bright room. I looked around to find the room empty. I looked at the clock, which said 10:00 a.m.
I got up and went out to the living room. Everyone was up and fixing breakfast. Emmett, Jasper, and Edward were all here. Edward looked up from where he was sitting and stared at me. I smiled sheepishly at him. He smiled his crooked grin at me and patted the seat next to him. I walked over and plopped down. I stretched and yawned. He just chuckled next to me and I blushed. I looked over at him to find he was staring intently at me. I looked down and smiled. His finger came to my chin and pulled my face up to me so I was looking at him.
"Good morning. How was your night?" he asked gently, his eyes alive and dancing. I thought for a minute. Should I tell him about my dream? I mean, we tell each other everything now. No, I shouldn't. It's a personal dream. I smiled at him and yawned again.
"Good morning to you too. My night was good. I slept exceptionally well… no bad dreams." I told him as my eyes met his. Rosalie and Alice looked at me and smiled. Their probably glad I have my usual nightmare. I smiled back and turned my attention to Edward.
"Really? Well, that's great. No bad dreams." He smiled at me and tucked a piece of hair that fell loose, behind my ear. I closed my eyes and sighed. I loved it when he touched me, even the slightest touch, sent shivers down my spine, and caused my heart to accelerate. And even knew the reaction I had when he touched me, and he loved it. I heard everyone else chuckle at my response. My eyes snapped open. I blushed bright red, and looked down. Edward just laughed along with the rest of them, and put his arm around me. I shook my head and giggled along with them.
We finally got to eat, and we all cleaned up. But I got away for a bit as I excused myself so I could go change. I went to my room and started to searched my drawers. I pulled out two shirts, a dark navy blue one, and a plain white one. After I found some shirts I started to search my jeans drawer.
"I think this one would look better on you." I heard a musical voice say from behind me. I spun around so quickly that I though I was going to fall. There, on my bed, sat Edward, holding up the blue the shirt and he looked like he was about to be overcome by laughter.
"Sorry." He managed as he silently chuckled. I groaned and rolled my eyes.
"You should've knocked." I frowned. I walked over to the bed and grabbed the shirt.
"I'm truly sorry. Your right, I should've knocked. Please forgive me." He pleaded in his musical velvet voice and his eyes were smoldering. I sighed and gave in.
"Fine… your forgiven." I said, and rolled my eyes again. He gave me my special crooked grin and his eyes were intent again as they searched for my face. I looked down, feeling self-conscious.
"So… you like this shirt better?" I asked as I held up the blue one. He nodded.
"Yupp. Navy blue looks great on you, just so you know." He told me, as I blushed a bright red again. His hand ran across my cheeks, and his eyes were suddenly alive again and dancing.
"Bella…" he started, but looked down and stopped. He sighed and mumbled something that sounded like "I can't do this…".
"Edward, what is it? Please… tell me." I pleaded and he looked up at me, his eyes smoldering. He smiled and started again.
"Bella… umm… do you… want to go to the Formal with me?" he asked silently and looked down again. My breath caught in my throat and my heart accelerated. My breathing finally quickened as he looked up at me, his eyes a liquid topaz color.
"Edward… yes… yes I would love to go with you." I told him happily. I smiled at him then through my arms around him.
"Really? Awesome!! Thank you Bella, for saying yes." He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me back gently. I felt his breathing at my ear and my heart started to pound in my chest. I stopped breathing as he whispered "Thank you" into my ear. I shuddered and pulled away. He looked at me intently for a moment, then got up and walked to the door. He gave me his crooked grin and opened the door. When he closed the door behind him, I fell back on my bed and closed my eyes. I took to deep breaths to calm myself and went to go change. I slipped on my outfit and walked out to the living room. Everyone was scattered across the dorm. Alice and Jasper were in the kitchen talking and holding hands. Rosalie and Emmett were outside on the patio that we had, and Rosalie was laughing as Emmett watched her with adoring eyes. And finally, I found Edward. He was sitting on the floor listening to his i-pod. I walked over to him and sat down gently. He looked over at me and reached up to stroke my face. He pulled out an earphone and handed it to me. I put it in and listened. He was listening to "Fall for you" by The Secondhand Serenade. I closed my eyes and started to sing quietly.
The
best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting But
hold your breathe This
is not what I intended But hold
your breathe So breathe in so
deep Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for
you
Could
it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think
that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
Because tonight will be the night that I will
fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I
wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl
like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
I always swore to you I'd never fall
apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of
failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall
for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont
live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like
you is impossible to find
It's impossible
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your
words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your
asleep
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live
to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is
impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for
you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live
to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is
impossible to find
You're impossible to find
As I sat there singing, I felt Edward shift by me. Then I felt his body was closer to me, and his hand slid through mine as he entwined our hands. I just sat there, eyes closed, as I let out a comfortable sigh, and I let a smug smile creep over my face.
There you have it ladies and gentlemen. I hope you like it. I know, Jacob is still in it, but only in the dreams, but soon he gets replaced. And Edward finally asked bella out!! I think im doing pretty good for my first storie. Please review. I hope you like it. I'll update soon.
