Hey guys, this is quite a long one. Hope you all like it, and as always I appreciate construcitve criticism and to hear what you like in this chapter as well as in the story generally. Lots of love/SRCL


As Juice drove down the freeway, Lilly sighed and leaned her head towards the car-window. They'd been driving for hours.

When she'd heard about the wedding in Tacoma, she figured that Clay, some of the guys and maybe Gemma would head up there to attend and represent the mother-charter.

What she had not expected was to be taken out of school for almost a week to go to Tacoma and attend the wedding in person. Not only had she been taken out of school for a week, she was forced to go shopping and look for an appropriate dress to wear to the wedding. Apparently it was the President of the Tacoma charter that was getting married, and it was only right that they all attended the wedding.

So here she was; in a car with Juice who was rambling about something having to do with his computers. Frankly, Lilly wasn't really listening, not that she'd understand anything he was saying even if she was listening. Usually she wouldn't mind him rambling, actually she would probably find it entertaining.

But she'd spent the majority of the night before fucking Happy, and hadn't gotten much sleep, which lead to the head-ache she was currently experiencing. It'd been worth it though.

A couple of weeks had passed since the meadow incident, and even though they'd tried to avoid and stay away from each other after wards, they'd failed miserably.

Lilly just prayed that no one would catch on to them. Because it might not end well.

"Juice, how long until we're there?" Lilly asked, getting tired of sitting in this damn car.

"About five hours. You asked me that like five minutes ago though" Juice replied.

"Mierda, just sitting here is killing me. Why aren't you driving faster?" Lilly questioned him.

"I'm driving the limit, Lills" Juice replied with an amused voice.

"You know for wanting to be a bad-ass biker, you drive like a girl" Lilly stated sourly.

Juice looked at the young woman sitting in the seat beside him. "Anyone ever tell you that you're a bitch?" he asked.

Lilly nodded as she put on her aviator sunglasses. "All the time" she replied flatly.

"They're right" Juice stated.


Happy dismounted the bike as the convoy had decided to stop by the gas station to fill up on some gas as well as some water and snacks.

Out of the corner of his eye he could see the black SUV, containing Lilly and the prospect, parking a couple of meters away.

The car barely stopped moving before Lilly jumped out of it. "Damn!" he heard her complain as she stretched out her sore muscles.

He couldn't stop himself from looking her over as she stretched her arms above her head, showing off her toned stomach in the process.

"You want something, Killer?" Tig's question made him snap out of it.

"I'll go in" Happy said shortly, Tig just nodded and walked towards the store, being used to the short tone from the Tacoma killer.

Happy followed after the Sergeant-at-Arms, mentally cursing himself for letting his eyes wander among so club member and old ladies. He didn't need anyone else knowing what was going on between him and Lilly. When it all came out he knew they'd be beyond pissed, hell, he'd be too if it had been anyone other than himself. She was seventeen; fucking underage, but he just couldn't resist her. Fuck, he'd tried to stay away from her before, but that had all gone to hell after the afternoon in the meadow; there was no turning back from there on.

As he walked inside he grabbed a bottle of water and walked up to the clerk. "A pack of smokes" he said, choosing his usual brand and paid for it.

"Come on, prospect, if we're sitting in that car for another five hours I'm gonna need the whole damn store" Lilly said as she walked through the glass doors.

Sitting in a car for so long was not something she enjoyed doing unless she was the one driving. At the very least they could have found her someone who actually knew how to step on the gas rather than on the break.

"Plus with slow you drive, it's gonna be like six hours anyway" Lilly complained.

Happy smirked at the comment as he turned around and caught the prospect rolling his eyes at the teenage girl. "I drive the limit" Juice defended himself. "Ain't my fault you're speed crazy" he added as he grabbed a couple of cans of soda.

Out of the corner of her eye, Lilly saw Happy by the clerk and an idea hit her. She sauntered over to him, making sure her hips swayed as she walked knowing that Happy enjoyed it. "Hey Hap" she greeted as she reached him.

"Lilly" he acknowledges with a short nod.

"You think maybe I could ride with you?" she said, biting down on her underneath lip as she looked up at him.

"Lilly" Happy said warningly.

Lilly sighed; she really couldn't spend another five hours with Juice's constant babbling and crappy music."Please, Hap? Things are getting embarrassing in the car" she said, a little white lie wouldn't hurt anyone, would it?

Happy raised an eyebrow in question.

"Juice is hitting on me" Lilly whispered to make sure that the prospect who was standing a couple of meters away didn't hear the conversation.

"He what?" Happy half-yelled, swirling around.

"Hap, stop, he doesn't know, remember?" Lilly whispered.

Happy stopped dead in his tracks. At the moment there was nothing he wanted more than to pound the prospect's face in, however Lilly was right to some extent.

If he did it right here, in front of everybody, he'd raise suspicions. He'd have to handle this discretely. But no way in hell was Lilly riding with that damn Puerto Rican. "You're with me" Happy grunted before walking out of the store.

A smile spread across Lilly's full lips as she grabbed a bottle of water, a bar and then paid for it.

When she exited the store she heard Chibs call out her name. "Hey old man" Lilly said as she walked over to where Chibs, Jax and Happy stood.

"Princess" Chibs said with a small smile and pulled her in towards his side, his arm slung around her petite shoulders.

Lilly placed a kiss on his cheek before leaning into him, hugging him from the side. "Hap said you wanted to ride?" Chibs asked.

Lilly nodded; she was well aware that both Chibs and Jax had saddle-bags on and it would be harder to ride with them than with Happy who didn't. And she knew Chibs knew that as well. "You sure you don't like the cage better, lovey?" Chibs asked.

"It's a couple of hours left, at least" Jax inflicted.

Lilly nodded. "I know, I just can't take sitting in that car any longer. Juice drives like a pussy" Lilly complained making Chibs and Jax laugh while Happy remained stone-faced.

Chibs looked thoughtful for a few moments before he looked at Happy. "Brotha', anythi-" Chibs started saying, but was cut off by the Tacoma killer.

"I know" Happy said. "I've got her" he promised.

Chibs nodded, satisfied with the promise.

"Let's roll out" Clay called out catching the attention of the small group.

"I'll see you later, princess" Chibs said before placing a kiss on Lilly's forehead and walking towards his bike.

Jax took a step forward. "Take care of Hap, Sunshine" Jax said with a small smile before kissing her cheek.

Lilly chuckled softly. "Oh, I will" she said.

To Jax it sounded like she simply answered him, but Happy caught the double meaning. A smirk spread across his face. "Come on" he said and gestured towards the bike. "How you gonna' take care of me?" he asked, his voice low as they had finally settled on the bike.

"You'll just have to see" Lilly whispered back before wrapping her arms tightly around him.


Hours later Lilly was half-laying on the black leather sofa in the clubhouse. Around the clubhouse people were spread out just drinking, talking and smoking. It had been a long day.

When they'd arrived at the clubhouse in Tacoma they had been greeted by the whole charter as well as some other charters.

Tacoma was bigger than Charming; a lot bigger. The clubhouse had two levels and was quite big. Spread out around the lot were machines, which belonged to the building company that Lee owned.

Lilly had to admit that she had been slightly over-whelmed by all of it. There were a few she'd met before like Kozik and Donut, but there was even more that she hadn't met.

Apparently they'd heard of her though, because they all seemed to know her in the crowd of people.

Then there had been a huge barbeque with loads and loads of food, and now there was a full party going on.

Lilly was on the sofa between Kozik and Tig, and she was growing tired of their constant nagging and bickering.

With a sigh she heaved herself out of the sofa. The air in the main room was heavy and filled with smoke. She needed some air.

Pushing herself through the crowd of people, she finally reached the door and threw it open.

Out of the corner of her eye she saw Chibs talking to some woman, most likely a crow-eater, and his arm was wrapped around the woman's shoulders while his other hand was on her ass. Lilly wrinkled her nose in disgust. The love she had for her godfather was unconditional, but there were still some things she'd rather not see. This was one of them.

Thinking turning away from them would make for a better sight, turned out incredibly wrong when she saw Happy leaning towards a the brick wall, a big busted blonde woman pushing up on him. Her hand was on his shoulder; his arm wrapped her around her waist.

For a moment she just stood there; frozen. Then he turned his dark gaze on her and then their eyes met; it was like she was brought back to reality once again. Seeing him take a step forward, she abruptly turned around and walked towards the gates.

No one but Happy noticed the young woman leaving the lot. Lilly heard his footsteps as she rounded the corner. "Killer!" she recognized the voice of Tig, and for the first time she was thankful for his habit of interrupting. Because there was no way in hell she could talk about this with him right now; no way.

Glancing over her shoulder she saw that he was not following her so she assumed that he'd gone to talk to Tig. Frankly, she didn't really care as long as he was not going after her.

Lilly kept walking and walking, but kept check on where she turned and how'd she get back to the lot again.

He hadn't really done anything wrong, they were not exclusive in any way, the conversation hadn't even come up. It still hurt for some reason though.

She couldn't do this; if he wanted to sleep around that was one thing, but she could not stand by and watch it happen.

The sound of a motorcycle could be heard in the distance, and Lilly looked over her shoulder to see whom it was. Lilly felt slightly relief when he realized that it was not Happy on the bike; this person had a different body build than Happy had.

The bike pulled up beside her and Lilly was slightly weary. This was not Charming; this was Tacoma, people didn't know her here. That might be a good thing in some cases, but it could also be a bad thing. Because people didn't know that she was not someone you messed with.

Lilly let out a breath of relief as she recognized the figure on the bike; it was just Kozik. "The streets can be dangerous at this hour. A lady really should be careful" Kozik advised as he drove slowly beside her.

"If I meet a lady I'll tell her" Lilly replied dryly making the blonde haired man laugh loudly.

"Hap was right, you're fun" he commented. "Come on, princess, let's get you back before anyone else notices you're missing" he said.

Lilly considered her options for a short while, but soon came to the conclusion that she might as well go back with him. If any of the Sons from Charming noticed she was missing, they'd go out and look for her immediately. It would just create unnecessary drama.

"Alright, let's go, blondie" she said and placed herself behind the blonde biker and wrapped her arms around him; although not as tightly as she'd wrap her arms around Happy.


Her breath was heavy as she crossed the small street and ran through the gates of the lot where the Tacoma clubhouse was located.

For once she'd woken up bright and early, and had decided to go for a run. Lord knows she needed to clear her head; and although she was not a person who loved running and found it relaxing, she had found that it actually helped you clear your mind.

The hour and a half she'd spent running around Tacoma had been a nice, well-deserved break from over-thinking and analysing situations. Instead she'd focused on making sure she'd find her way back to the clubhouse.

Lilly's sun-kissed skin glittered with sweat pearls, and her brown hair swung back and forth in its pony-tail as she jogged the last meters across the lot.

During her run she'd decided that she needed to talk to Happy; they needed to end whatever it was that had been going on between the two of them. And it had to end now.

Opening the door she found that the clubhouse was quite empty, which might be due to the fact that it was still fairly early in the morning. Kozik was lounging on one of the sofas while Juice and the Tacoma prospect, whose name she could not remember, were cleaning up after last night's party.

"Blondie, you know where Hap is?" she questioned as she walked over to Kozik, who looked up.

"You're out of luck, princess, he just left" Kozik replied.

Lilly sighed; of course he wouldn't be here when she'd finally found enough courage to talk to him about their situation. "Where's Tig?" she asked, knowing the crazy man had been up when she'd gone for the run so he was probably around here somewhere.

"I'm out of luck, he's still here" Kozik replied sourly.

Lilly suspected they'd had another argument, and decided not to ask the blonde biker about it. "He's out in the gym, go outside then directly to your left, you'll see it" Kozik explained to her before turning his eyes back to the TV-screen in front of him.

"Thanks Koz" Lilly called as she headed back outside.

Kozik had been right; it was easy to find the gym. She saw Tig working the punching bag. "You blowing off some steam, Tiggy?" she asked as she walked up.

Tig looked up, his bright blue eyes angry and cold, however they softened slightly as they landed on the young woman approaching him. "Yeah, that spikey haired idiot in there knows just how to get on my damn nerves!" Tig exclaimed as he punched the bag.

"What happened between the two of you?" Lilly questioned with a raised eyebrow.

Tig stopped punching the bag for a second. "It's a long story, Sunshine" Tig stated. "Not a pleasant one either" he added as an after thought.

Understanding that he didn't want to speak about it, Lilly chose to leave the subject. "You're up for a match, old man?" she asked with a teasing smirk knowing that Tig hated to be referred to as old man.

"I can beat your ass any day, little girl" he said with a grin.

"We'll just have to settle it, right here, right now, won't we?" Lilly said with a smile as she climbed into the ring.

"Oh we sure will" Tig said as he climbed in after her…


Dressed in a sleeveless dark purple dress that showed off her curves nicely, Lilly stood outside the Green Hill Church; Jax was standing on her right side and Chibs on her left.

Gemma had insisted that they dress up for the joyous occasion, and Lilly had spent the better part of the day preparing for the wedding. Lilly had let Gemma take over the styling of her, and she'd done a great job.

Deciding to go with Lilly's natural curls instead of flat ironing her hair like she usually did, Gemma went with a natural make-up rather than a heavy one.

On top of everything else, Lilly was wearing silver stiletto heels. Even though she used to wear heels quite often before, she hadn't for some time. It was a wonder she had not tripped and fell yet. It was probably due to Jax and Chibs walking beside her the entire time, and her arms being hooked through theirs.

Out of the corner of her eye she could see Happy talking to some fellow NOMADS. Lilly couldn't help but notice how handsome he looked; of course he was still wearing his cut, especially as this was a club wedding, but underneath he was wearing a black shirt rather than his usual t-shirt or sweatshirt. He wore a pair of dark washed baggy jeans and a pair of newly polished boots.

Damn, he looked good.

"Looking good, princess" the comment pulled her out of her own heads, as she turned to look at the blonde biker standing in front of her. Jax and Chibs had moved to talk to some other Sons.

"Thanks, Koz" she said with a small smile. "I heard you're the best man" she said.

Kozik nodded. "That I am, princess, a damn good one too" he said cockily.

The church bells rang signalling that the guests ought to enter the church and find their seats. "Break a leg" Lilly said sweetly while kicking him on the chin to bring him down from his pedestal.

"I think I just did" Kozik groaned, cursing under his breath.

Lilly headed towards the huge wooden doors leading into the kitchen.

"Ready, lovey?" Chibs asked as he caught up with his goddaughter.

"Not like I have a choice, do I?" Lilly said with a small smile.

Chibs chuckled, and put his arm around her shoulders, pulling her to his side. "Let's find our seats" he said and guided her down the aisle.

The Redwood charter was placed in row three on the right side, and Lilly ended up sitting in between Jax and Chibs.

Out of the corner of her eye she saw Happy sitting on the other side of the aisle with the rest of the present NOMADS. It bothered her, she hadn't even been looking for him consciously, but somehow her eyes still sought him out in the crowd of guests.

When the guests had settled into their places, the soft music began playing and everyone rose to their feet.

Lilly looked towards the back where the bride entered. The woman, who she'd found was named Noelle, looked absolutely stunning.

Lilly quickly turned her gaze towards the man standing in the front with his white shirt and black leather cut on. The breathless look on his face, which apparently was grim most of the time, made a smile spread across Lilly's lips. If she ever got married, that was how she'd want her future husband to look at her when she strode down the aisle.

Too captured in the moment, Lilly didn't notice the fierce gaze that was trained upon her from the other side of the aisle.

When she'd arrived at the church with Gemma earlier, she had taken his breath away with how beautiful she looked at that moment. A slight breeze blowing her hair back, showing off her beautiful bone structure, full lips and sparkling blue eyes.

He'd seen the look on her face the night before when she'd caught him with the crow-eater pushing up on him. Frankly, he hadn't even planned on fucking that skank, but Lilly couldn't know her it probably looked like he'd chosen to fuck a slut over her, but that would never be the case.

After sleeping with Lilly, he had a hard time imagining sleeping with another woman. And that bothered him even more; why the hell was he thinking about not sleeping with other women just because some bitch was good in bed? Fuck, this shit was killing him. Happy cursed himself mentally for letting some bitch get into his head.

Turning his attention back to the ceremony in front of him, he swore to himself to never end up in the situation as Lee was in at the moment.

Relationships were just too damn complicated.


Lilly was sitting at a round table. The celebrations were in full swing and the lot was beautifully decorated. The food had been amazing, and Lilly suspected that she might have gained a couple of pounds from all the eating she'd done.

Someone sat down beside her; glancing to the side she saw that it was Happy.

"You good?" Happy asked as he leaned back in his chair casually.

Lilly turned her blue eyes on him. "I'm good" she replied curtly.

Happy avoided looking at her, preferring to keep his gaze on the guests. "We good?" Happy asked.

There was a moment of silence as Lilly tried to decide upon how to answer the question. "We need to talk. Not here though, later" Lilly replied, in the same casual tone in her voice as Happy had when he'd asked her.

Happy simply nodded.

Kozik walked up to the couple sitting at the round table. "What's with sour looks? We're at a wedding for fuck's sake, brighten up" he said, trying to at least get a smile out of them.

He succeeded with Lilly who smiled softly at him while Happy chose to glare instead.

"You enjoying yourself, Koz?" Lilly questioned him.

The blonde biker nodded. "Oh hell yeah, you know what would make this evening even better though?" he asked her with a wide smile.

Lilly shook her head. "Nope, but please enlighten me" she answered.

"If the most beautiful woman agrees to dance with me" Kozik stated and extended his hand towards her.

"I don't know" Lilly said hesitantly.

"Oh, come on now, princess" Kozik pleaded. "Make a man happy" he said.

"Alright" Lilly relented. "I'll dance with you, blondie" she said with small smile and accepted Kozik's hand.

Happy's dark gaze followed the two of them as they made their way towards the packed dance floor. Damn Kozik and his charm.


As the evening progressed, Happy kept an eye on Lilly making sure she was alright. At the moment he was sitting at one of the tables while Lilly was standing by the bar with some of the old ladies.

Happy's dark eyes narrowed as he watched a blonde woman he recognized walk up to the group; Katherine Bowman, née Cavanaugh. If there was one person from Tacoma he did not want around Lilly it was Kate. That was one manipulative bitch.

The group of women continued talking for a while and Happy continued to watch over the young woman. He did not doubt that she could hold her own in a physical fight, but this was a different kind of fight; a mental one. These women could be cruel, and there was no way he was letting her become exposed to that kind of shit.

After a while it was just Lilly and Kate left, and the look on Lilly's face grew more and more irritated.

Happy finally decided to intervene and was about to go over there when he heard his name being called.

Turning around he saw Lee and Noelle walking towards him, bright smiles on both their faces. Knowing that he could not ignore the man, as he was a President as well as the groom, Happy stayed put, hoping that Lilly could endure another few minutes.

The two men talked for a while with Noelle flicking in every now and then. "Thank you for coming tonight, Hap" Noelle said with a warm smile before the newlyweds left the table to socialize with the other guests.

Happy turned his gaze towards the bar once again, but found that only Kate remained there. With an aggravated sigh he pushed himself up from the table and swiftly walked over there.

"Where is she?" he asked her, no louder than a whisper to ensure that no one overheard the conversation.

"Who?" Kate asked, raising an eyebrow.

Happy's eyes narrowed dangerously. "You know who" he spat out. "She was talking to you last time I saw her" Happy added.

Kate shrugged casually. "Maybe it was past her bedtime" she said bitterly.

"What did you say to her?" Happy questioned, his voice dangerously low.

"Nothing that wasn't the truth" Kate responded, her voice laced with venom.

"You little bitch" Happy spat out angrily, still keeping his voice low so that no one could hear what was being said.

"Well, apparently you're into little bitches so maybe I've still got a shot" Kate replied coldly.

"Watch your mouth" Happy warned her, careful to keep his facial expressions in check as to not reveal his emotions to others.

"Or what?" Kate replied cockily. "You gonna' smack an Old Lady around over some little skank?" Kate asked, taking a step closer to the man in front of her. "Didn't think so" she replied, a smug smirk on her face before turning around and walking away.

"Fucking bitch" he swore under his breath before turning around and stalking off to find Lilly.


Lilly was sitting on top of the roof the Tacoma clubhouse. Lilly couldn't get the smug, satisfied smirk on the blonde woman's face out of her mind as she sat there.

It wasn't that she couldn't have handled more of the bitch's bullshit mentally, but she dangerously close to knocking the bitch out.

Figuring that the hosts of the celebration might not appreciate it, she chose to walk away.

Oh, how she'd matured through the years. These days she was actually thinking before acting, her nonni would be proud of her up in heaven.

The sound of the roof hatch opening made her look over her shoulder. When she spotted Happy, she turned back around. This was not the time to deal with things.

It didn't take long until she felt his presence right beside her. "Bitch bother you?" he questioned.

Lilly shook her head. "Not really" she answered vaguely.

Happy raised an eyebrow at the answer.

Lilly sighed knowing he wanted more from her. Which was ironic since he was the least talkative person she knew and most of the time he stuck to short answers or if he could, nods and shakes of his head.

"Was close to knocking her out, didn't want to cause any drama at the party" Lilly explained.

Happy nodded in understanding. Bitch sure knew how to get on people's nerves. The two of them sat in silence for a while.

"I can't do this" Lilly said softly.

Happy's dark eyes immediately snapped to her.

"Do what?" he rasped out.

"I know we're not exclusive or anything, and I don't expect a commitment from you so that is why this, you and me, whatever we are, is over" Lilly explained.

"I don't expect anything, but I can't put myself through it" Lilly told him before standing up.

Standing in front of him, she looked down at him, her blue filled with emotion. "I'm sorry, Hap" she said as she leaned down, placing a soft kiss on his cheek before turning and walking towards the ladder leading down.

Happy sat there, a wave of emotions hitting him all at the same time.

He didn't know what to do, didn't know what to say.

So he sat there, silent as she talked.

Did he want out?

Or did he want her?

Why the fuck was his mind playing tricks on him?

He didn't want some complicated shit, he'd been there, he'd done that, it wasn't for him.

So why was everything inside of him urging him to go over there and pull her into his arms, kiss her, hold her, keep her by his side.

But something was stopping him.

His pride? No that really wasn't it; Happy was a proud man, but he had his limits.

His stubbornness? That wasn't it either.

So what the fuck was it? What the hell was stopping him?

"Lilly!" he called out making her slowly turned around. His voice didn't hold his usual confidant tone, it was desperate.

"No" Lilly said softly before turning around once again and climbing down the ladder.

And he just sat there. On the roof. Thinking about what had just happened. Thinking about what he had just lost.