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Mercedes sighed into her notebook. She was having trouble finding the words to go along with her melody. As she taped her finger across the table her cellphone rang. She smiled picking it up.

"Hi daddy."

"Hey Mercy how are you feeling?"

She frowned hearing the concern in his voice. "I am fine. I feel good."

"Are you sure? Maybe you should come home. You have already been rushed to the hospital and your immunity is shot."

"Daddy I said I am fine! I thought we agreed I would do this so I can live my life to the fullest."

"Mercedes Elizabeth Jones I am worried about you and your mother too. You are our baby girl and when we get a call from Kurt telling us you went to the hospital it raised a concern."

"And I am telling you I am fine. I was just sick from the change in meds. I need to eat but the meds made me sick to my stomach. I am fine. So please stop worrying."

"Should I worry about the guy you met?"

Mercedes rolled her eyes. "I guess Kurt told you about him too huh?"

"No, actually Kurt was a blubbering mess when they took you into the emergency room and Tina was no better. Stan or Sam whatever his name was, got on the phone and explained to me what happened."

"He is just a friend daddy."

"Just a friend? A friend who if you continue down the path you are going can get hurt. You know that there is no guarantee this new treatment is going to help."

"Don't you think I know that? So why is it so wrong for me to want to live one last time, if this is my last time?"

"Because baby girl. If that boy falls for you, his heart will be broken when he realizes that he cannot fully have you. If you like him at all you will spare him that."

"What if I don't want to? What if I want to be with him so much and I can't bear to be without him?"

"Well then I will ask you what is more important. You being happy with this boy for little while and break his heart for the rest of his life? Or are you willing to hurt him for a little while and give him the life he was meant to have without you?"

Mercedes wiped the tears from her eyes. She knew her dad was right but it was too late. In the last two weeks of know Sam she had already begun to fall in love with him.

"Why can't I just have him now…and have him after my treatments?"

"Because Mercy. We both know the treatment is highly experimental and it might not work. It could give you years or days."

"But what if I am falling in love with him daddy?" she said in a whisper, more for herself than him.

"Then I guess you need to ask yourself do you love him enough to let him go."

Mercedes sighed heavily. "Ok daddy."

"Baby girl I am sorry it has to be this way. I am sorry your heart is breaking. But we went through this, and I know it sucks that you won't be about to have a husband or kids but you said you wanted to enjoy what time you had left. You need to untie yourself to that poor boy. You can't be with him… you can't be with anyone."

Mercedes sat silently crying as she understood that she needed to spare Sam. Kurt walked into the room and Mercedes wiped her eyes. "Daddy, I have to go we have practice in a little bit."

"Ok Mercy. I am sorry baby girl."

"I know, I am too. I love you daddy."

"Love you too."

Mercedes disconnected the call and Kurt walked over to her pulling her up in his arms. "Sweetie what's wrong?"

"Kurt I love him… but I have to let him go."

Mercedes cried harder and Kurt sighed heavily hating seeing her like that. "Mercy I know that I was against you and Sam. Not because you liked him but because it looked like he was falling in love with you and I thought you were doing the same. I didn't want you to have to lose him like this."

"But I have too don't I? I have to let him go because there is a good chance that I am going to die. And he deserves to be with someone who isn't."

Kurt nodded. "We will all cut them off. Tina and I will stop seeing Mike and Blaine and we will do this together."

Mercedes shook her head. "No I can't ask you guys to do that."

Tina walked in the room frowning seeing Mercedes so upset. "Guys what's wrong?"

"Mercedes has to let Sam go. She doesn't want to hurt him. SO I told her we are all in this together. She lets go of Sam then we let go of Blaine and Mike I know it's asking a lot but she needs us."

Tina shook her head. "No it's not. Mercedes even being sick you have done so much for us. So if this is what we have to do for you, then we will. I like Mike almost as much as you like Sam and if you can do it then I will too. And don't you dare say no. You mean more to me then some guy. We are the three musketeers. One for all and all for one."

Mercedes and Kurt slightly smiled as they spoke in unison. "Or some crap like that!" She sighed heavily knowing it was for the best. The tears began to flow as her phone rang. She slowly wiped her eyes knowing it was Sam by his ringtone. She closed her eyes hitting ignore. She had to cut him off. No matter what she felt he deserved to be with someone who could give him a future.


Sam sighed angrily. It had been a week since he saw Mercedes. She was ignoring him at every turn. He knew she was because she changed her room and wouldn't answer his calls. He would try to see her but she was always out of the conference room by the time his two a days were done. He fought the urge to throw his phone against the wall. What was he supposed to do? He had her, now he didn't want to lose her. She may be sick but he needed her in his life and she was shutting him out.

Blaine walked into the room with Puck and sighed seeing Sam sitting in the dark.

"Sam you missed practice today."

"A week. I haven't talked to her or seen her in a week. I don't know why she is doing this to me. I don't know why she is avoiding me."

Blaine sat down next to him. "They are all avoiding us. Not just Mercedes. Mike and I haven't heard from Tina or Kurt either. But you don't see us missing practice or acting like this. You gotta pull yourself together."

"Blaine she is dying Blaine. That has to be the reason she is ignoring me… she doesn't want me to see her sick. But I don't care I just want to be with her."

Sam shook his head as his eyes began to sting. Blaine looked up to Puck and motioned for him to help Sam. At first Puck shook his head no but seeing how broken Sam was it killed him. He walked over to Sam and sat on the other side of him.

"What do you mean she is dying?"

"She has cancer and when she leaves here she is gonna start some treatment that could either save her life or kill her. Puck I love her and she won't even talk to me. I can't eat or sleep I need to find her. I need to make her see I am not going anywhere."

Puck shook his head, "I'm sorry man. But if she is dying maybe she is trying to spare you."

"Spare me how. This is killing me."

"Think about how you would feel if you fell deeper and you had to watch her die?"

Sam stood up. "I don't care. I would rather spend her last days with her then not get to be with her at all!"

Sam stood up and walked out the room and Blaine looked at Puck. "I know you guys haven't really talked much but that is our best friend. We have to fix this Puck. We have too.


Mercedes hummed as she went to the door. Unsure of who was knocking she was surprised at who was at her door. "What are you doing here? How did you even figure out what room I was in?"

Puck stepped into the room. "I begged Quinn and Santana to tell me. You know Quinn is a pretty cool girl."

"I don't know why they told you that. I have nothing to say to you."

"Well I have something to say to you. Why are you avoiding Sam?"

Mercedes shook her head walking into the living room of the hotel. "I am not talking to you about this so please leave."

"You told me off giving me some grand speech about me being childish and now you are hurting him? I just want to know why."

"Puck look there are things you just understand."

"Then make me understand because I have never seen Sam as heartbroken as he is right now. He has fallen in love with you and you played him."

"It's not that simple!" Mercedes turned towards him with tears in her eyes. "Puck I love him. But I am dying. How can I even act like I care about him and let him be near me? I can't put him through that."

Puck shook his head. "You don't care about him you are just pathetic. You lead him on just to shoot him down because you can't handle the pressure. I am glad his is rid of you because you are just a selfish little-"

Before he could finish what he was saying Mercedes slapped him. "Get out! You have no idea how hard this is for me." Tears began to rapidly fall from her eyes. "I have to look at my parents and my brother. At Kurt and Tina and I have to watch them say good bye to me. It took Kurt four years to come to terms with the fact that I may very well be dead this time next year. Tina is still not there yet. So no I don't want to add the one man I could see a future with. The one man who makes me forget that I am sick. Puck you say I am selfish and I don't care about him?" she wiped her eyes and stood firm. She felt a wave a nausea come over her and she closed her eyes willing it to go away. She began to speak slowly. "He is the best person I know. I was trying to save him. Its better he is said now. Then get even closer to me and lose me. He is my other half and I know that. I know that Puck. But I also know that it is killing everyone around me to see me go through this. How can you be ok with him watching me die?"

"Because he loves you." Puck said softly. "He is in love with you and I know it's only been three weeks but Sam doesn't play with love. He knows you are the one for him and he doesn't care if he gets three minutes with you or the rest of your lives. He just wants to be with you."

Mercedes bit her lip as he walked to the door. "Mercedes, Sam is my best friend, and I know you think you are saving him. But you aren't whether he is with you or not, he is gonna love you and mourn you when you go if you go, wouldn't it be better to have him get to spend whatever time you have left with you if that is what he wants. By trying to spare his feelings you are just making it harder for him."

Puck went to the door and Mercedes wiped her eyes. "Are you gonna tell him where I am?"

Puck shook his head. "No. You deserve to end this on your terms. I just thought he deserved to have someone fight for him. Take care Mercedes."

Mercedes nodded crying even harder as Puck closed the door behind him. She wasn't sure what she should do. She closed her eyes praying for the answer. Praying to figure out if she could really spend the rest of whatever life she had without being with him.