Finding Our Dreams are Not So Different
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I know I gave you a different preview at the end of chapter 7 but Kurt would not take no for an answer and he had to be heard in this chapter. Once I started writing his apology, he just took over. Chapter 9 will be full of Finchel and Nationals. This is a work in progress and I have an outline but sometime the characters have their own ideas and I just got to go with it! Finchel is Love, no breaking up I can't take that. Grown-ups work through their problems. Happy reading
Chapter 8
Kurt's Sorry
It has been a couple of days since the "incident" at the Berry's house and Finchel is still not talking to Kurt. Kurt had left the Berry's and took a long walk and a long look at himself and why he thinks it's okay to butt into Finn and Rachel's relationship. What he came up with: He's jealous plain and simple. He was jealous when they got engaged and made it about him. "What about New York and NYADA and me" he remembers telling Rachel when she told him of the engagement. "I told our parents because I think you're making a mistake." He told them in the Choir room the day they told everyone. 'Oh my I'm a terrible brother and friend.' Kurt thought to himself. Why can't I be happy for them? This is exactly what the three had planned all those months ago before the whole Pace/army fiasco. So why is it bothering him?
He doesn't want to share Rachel with Finn. He's jealous. At least when she wasn't with Finn he could pretend to be good without Blaine. He could commiserate with her over their lost loves. But now she's staying here with her love and Kurt has to go back to NYC without his. It's not fair and he's just real jealous.
He has to make it right with his brother and bestie. He has to stop being selfish and start being supportive of them. Rachel was right. She doesn't work without Finn. They're Finchel and will always be Finchel.
Kurt come's down from his room, because he's leaving with Santana in two days and he wants to make it right with Finn and Rachel. They're in the family room snuggled together on the old leather recliner. 'That thing is hideous, why Finn insisted they put it in here is beyond me, but dad gave him that space for his chair.' Kurt thinks as he watches them from the door. She hasn't looked that happy since, since he can't remember. Finn really does make her whole. "You complete each other" Kurt says quietly to them. "What?" they reply. "You two, complete each other. In the whole Jerry McGuire way." Kurt says.
"I have no idea what that is, but thanks?' Finn questions. Rachel jumps in "it's a movie reference Finn, it means we make each other whole. Thank you Kurt."
"Can I talk to you both?" Kurt queries. Nodding their heads in sync for him to continue. "First I want to say I'm sorry for the way I acted at your Dad's the other day. I was wrong. It is not my place to tell you what you want or don't want or need." Rachel begins to speak but Kurt holds his hand up and says "wait I'm not done. I also wanted to say I'm sorry that I wasn't as supportive of your engagement as you guys are of mine. I realize now what a hypocrite I have been. I shouldn't have went behind your backs and told our parents either. It was not my place. I guess I've been doing a lot of soul searching these last two days and I've come up with, I am selfish and jealous. I wanted you all to myself Rachel. I wanted you to be just as unhappy as I've been without Blaine and that's selfish, I'm sorry."
Kurt takes a big sigh and continues. "I've always been jealous of your relationship. Even way back when I was dressing you up like a sad clown hooker, and trying to make Finn see that I was the only viable option once he dumped the HBIC Quinn. I knew you really liked Finn and I knew that deep down if Finn ever did break up with Quinn that you would be his only choice. I never wanted to admit that to myself. I liked when you guys broke up in junior year, because I could have Rachel as my 'hag/bestie' and didn't have to share Finn with her and vice versa. I'm so sorry. I was selfish. When you guys got together at Nationals I was happy for you but deep down I was still jealous. I wanted what you had. Being with Blaine was so new and I was scared he didn't like me like I liked him. I was jealous and I'm sorry. Then Finn you didn't get into Pace and joined the Army. Instead of discouraging you and telling Rachel I let you put her on that train, knowing what it was doing to both of you. But again I was being selfish and only thought how it was going to affect me and my plans for Rachel and me in NYC. I encouraged you to go with donkey man and even worse I blamed it on Finn. In my mind Finn was getting what he deserved and I was getting what I wanted. A real life Barbie I could dress and make over, not sad clown hooker, but bad enough. I took the color out of your wardrobe and in turn it took the color out of your life. I was jealous and selfish and I'm sorry. I got mad when you told me you hooked up with Finn at the almost wedding because I thought he'd take my bestie back and I'd be alone without you or Blaine. Finn you're my brother and I've been extremely unkind and unfair to you. I'm sorry. You guys belong together, because apart you're miserable and just don't work. I'm sorry for getting in your way and from now on, no matter what it cost me, I got your backs." Kurt finishes and looks down sheepishly dreading their response.
Rachel was first. "Wow Kurt, I never knew a lot of that. I can't say that I'm happy that you've basically been sabotaging us consciously or subconsciously, but you're my best friend and you'll be my brother in law someday. I love you, Kurt and my relationship with Finn doesn't and won't change that. You're my best gay, what would I do without you. I need you, who else is going to go and see Wicked with me for the 70th time? I'm still mad but I think I can forgive you and put this behind us." Kurt looks up and smiles at her.
Finn looks at his brother, Kurt unable to read what is going through his head, looks away. Finn puts Rachel on the floor from his lap, stands up and makes his way to Kurt. Kurt is a little scared, but his worries are for not when Finn lifts him from his seat and envelops him in a big bear hug ruffling his perfectly coifed hair. "I love you Kurt, you are my bro. Family forgives family even for stupid shit and being selfish. I forgave you days ago. I knew you'd figure it out. So let's start fresh. No more jealousy. I want you to come to me or Rach when you feel this way and we can talk it out. We are all we're going to have in NYC and we need to be there for each other. Okay?"
Kurt smiles and finishes his hug with his brother. "Okay, but you're going to have to let me fix that god awful wardrobe of yours. The Flannels got to go. You are going to be a student at Colombia and I do work at . I can't have my brother walking around NYC looking like a lumberjack."
"Kurt really?" Finn says shaking his head.
"Oh let him do it Finn. He'll be good no sad clown hooker look for you. Right Kurt?" Rach jokes.
Kurt shakes his head vigorously "Actually I was thinking more Cory Monteith circa 2013."
"I love him Kurt. Great choice." Rachel agrees with Kurt.
"I know I'm going to live to regret this, but okay." Finn resigns himself.
"Yeah, I want to take you shopping before I leave for NYC and you get there. I want all flannel and puffy vests left in Lima. New city, new school, new Finn. Got it? "Kurt says enthusiastically. Finn slumps back into the recliner resigned to his fate. He hates shopping period. Shopping with Kurt, he'd rather shot himself in the thigh again. "Yeah" Finn says.
Shopping wasn't as bad as he thought it would be. Rachel had to start her online classes so he and Kurt went to the Men's Warehouse together. "Shopping and Brother bonding" is what Rachel dubbed it. Kurt was surprisingly open to Finn's choices as long as no flannel was brought with in his line of sight. The shopping trip was a success.
"Finn, Rachel is going to go Gaga over the new clothes we got you. You look like a grown man. And very handsome in all the outfits if I do say so myself. I was pleasantly surprised by your choices considering your high school fashion. You my brother have excellent taste."
"Why thank you Kurt. I really liked what you said about new city, new Finn. I want to be taken seriously as a director and I have to start now while I'm in school to build up my image of what I want to be. So thanks again. I had fun." Finn retorts.
Kurt laughs "Am I sitting across from QB Finn Hudson, are my ears deceiving me? You've grown into a man, I'm so proud." Finn throws his napkin at him and shakes his head.
"Let's go, I want to change and then pick up Rachel. I've got a romantic evening planned for her. And I'm going to let you in my closet." Kurt's eyes lit up like it was Christmas "But," Finn warns "I want you to pack my flannel and store it in the basement at mom and dads. I'd like to be able to wear it when I come visit Burt and we go fishing and shit" Kurt looks none too pleased. "Promise me Kurt" Finn sternly looks at his brother.
"Fine, I won't throw them away. I will organize your closet and hang your new clothes." Kurt says disappointed. "Thanks brother." Finn doubts Kurt will listen but he still loves his brother.
She hears the doorbell ring and a few seconds later she hears a knock on her bedroom door. She looks up and she is stunned at the site in front of her. Finn standing there in one of his new outfits. Black fitted jeans and a grey sweater and a pair of John Varvartos Boots (a present from Kurt thank you). She has never seen Finn look so sexy out of a suit before. Her legs begin to rub together on their own, as she tries to relieve the tension that had suddenly built between her thighs. There should be law against someone looking that hot. It's not fair to the rest of the world. Not only are his cloths stunning the five o'clock shadow and his famous fin he is sporting are just too much for her to bear. She jumps up and attacks his lips.
"Whoa babe, I take it you like my new cloths." Finn chuckles.
"Don't laugh at me Finn Hudson, I'm going to have to lock you up so no one else can see you looking this damn sexy. Women already have a hard time staying away from my man, now I'm going to have to invest in a bat, to beat them back." Rachel kissing him again says.
"Baby, you're the only one I want to have to beat back with a stick."
"hardy har har." Rachel laughs. "Okay turn so I can check out the ass in those jeans." He obliges "Nice very nice" she says as she pats his firm ass and run her hands along both his cheeks.
"Rach, if you don't stop that we will never leave this room and I have plans for you first that don't involve us being naked until later."
Rachel looks up at him "Ooh what are we going to be doing? Tell me tell me." She jumps and claps her hands together. Finn shakes his head and chuckles under his breath. "I'm not saying. It's a surprise." Are you ready to go? How were your online classes?"
"I just have to change and freshen up my makeup and then I'll be ready to go and my classes are great. I think I'm going to do all my nonperformance classes online. It certainly will be helpful during Funny Girl rehearsals and I think it will be good for us." Rachel says as she begins changing out of her sweats and Finn's McKinley t-shirt.
"How so?" Finn questions
"Well, I can be anywhere as long as I have internet access and do my school work. So I won't have to be going to the campus, when your home and I'm not in rehearsal. We can still be together and I won't miss my class." Rachel finishes buttoning up her blouse and goes into the bathroom to freshen up her face.
"That sounds great, baby. I love spending time with you even if we are just talking or just not talking" Finn smiles and waggles his eyebrows.
"You are incorrigible." Rachel laughs "I'm ready. Let's go"
"I'm incorrigible, just two minutes ago you were ready to ship me and jump my bones." Finn places his hand in the small of her back and leads her out of the room and down to the car buckling to himself.
Ten minutes later they arrive at the high school. Rachel looks at him confused "What are we doing here?"
"I thought it'd be nice if we visited Jerusalem and make some more good memories there." Finn tells her while open the door and letting her scoot out and down to the concert. They walk into the April Rhodes Auditorium hand in hand and Rachel lets out a little gasp when she sees the picnic Finn has set up on the stage.
"Have I ever told you what a fantastic boyfriend you are?" she asks. "You might have mentioned it once or twice. You like?" Pointing at the stage. "Yes, I like it very much. You always know just what we need when we need it. We've been needing some romance."
"Thanks baby. I thought we did. I mean not that sexing you up isn't great, but I figure we should do other things with you know cloths on and stuff." Finn looks at her and captures her lips with his and places a scorching kiss and begs for entrance into her mouth. Rachel grants access and the dance of their tongues is one they know so well. Before things get out of hand Finn reluctantly pulls away and Rachel pouts at the loss of contact. "Put that pout away. I slaved away in a hot restaurant all of 10 minutes to pick up this wonderful meal and you will be eating it. Then only then will I allow you to take advantage of me." Finn says with all seriousness. Rachel laughs and puts her pout away. "Well let's get to it. I've got some sexing up of my own to do."
After the fabulous meal they cleaned up the stage and left as the entered, hand in hand to Finn's car. "So Burt and mom are in D.C. and Kurt is with Blaine and as much as I love the daddies, I'd like to take you to my house and have my way with you." Finn says as he lifts her into the cab of the truck. Looking into those whiskey colored eyes Rachel sighs "Please, I'd like that very much." Finn jumps in and takes off for the Hudmel House.
Three hours later, Finn is rolling off Rachel panting trying to catch his breath. "Baby, It.. it…Just keeps getting better and better." Rach smiles sleepily and whispers 'it does love" Finn gets in his big spoon position and Rachel cuddles up in the little spoon position, back to chest with Finn's arm across her body holding her breast as they fall into a sated
slumber.
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Chapter 9
Will be Nationals and Finn's Finals
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