Chapter 8
Only For You
A/N: So guys here is the next chapter for this story, thank you for all your continuous support because without you it wouldn't be worth me writing, even if my grammar and spelling is terrible. – Bexaday
Aela's POV
She asked me to stay with her; I look down towards my wrist where we are joined. I cannot begin to describe how good it felt to be needed by her, I smile at her as her fingers trail down to my hands, her touch is so feather light and I feel like shivering as it sends lust dripping into my core. Her fingers link with mine and I marvel at the colour clash between us, the mixture of tan and ice blue, as her fingers rub pleasantly against mine and I cannot help but think how soft her skin feels, I wonder how it feel against my lips. My god what is happening to me! I blush at that thought as I try and push it away but my wolf growls as she pushes on my restraints. I look up into her eyes and there sliver hues turn to mercury as they radiates warmth and a small smile graces her lips as I give her a small nod as I try not to break eyes contact
"Thank you Aela" she says lowly and I break eye contact with her despite my wolf's growling and I look back to Hadvar and his brow creases and his eyes flicker between us, shit! I cannot have people saying things about the Companions, I clear my throat and stand a little taller as I slowly begin to untangle my hand from hers and my wolf whines at the loss of contact, and even though she is stood right next to me I begin to feel a little empty inside. I grit my teeth as I take a step away from her, I don't want to look at Karliah but I know that I will have to, and I chance a glance at her and she is frowning but she doesn't say anything as Sigrid walks past, instead she turns back to Hadvar and they begin conversation but I just cannot concentrate on what they are saying as I am trying my hardest not to take her hand in mine. What the hell is happening to me?! I need to be away from her,
No! Don't do that! We need to be close to her! My wolfs snarls as I sigh and I try to at least pay some kind of attention to what they are saying
"So Hadvar, pray tell me, what has happened since the dragon attack?" Karliah says calmly, I frown, and my eyes give her the once over and I cannot see anything wrong with her, my eyes trail over her hands and I can see her arms shaking. By Sithis! What happened in the dragon attack? Please don't say she got hurt, I cannot bear that thought. It seems my wolf cannot bear the thought as she begins to scratch at the surface and I crick my neck from side to side in an attempt to relieve some tension and I force her back down, I need to let her out, I cannot even remember the last time I let her run free. I don't want to distract her but I really need to go on my own. I drop my pack and I begin to walk away and Karliah grabs my hand
"Where are you going?" Karliah says calmly and I tilt my head back and say
"I need to Change" I say and I stare into her eyes, hoping to try and convey what I meant by that, her eyes are slightly confused and wary but after a moments they become clear with understanding and she nods and her grip tightens slightly and she pulls me towards her with so much force that I stumble towards her and her lips press to my ear,
"Just…make sure you come back, okay?" she says and her voice sounds so small and insecure and my protective urge flares up and I squeeze her hand and I brush her hair out of the way with my nose and her ash and warm forest fruit brushes over me and I feel myself begin to relax and as my lips meet her ear I reply
"I am not going anywhere without you" I feel her smile and she lets go of my hand and I take another deep breath of her scent as I force myself away from her and I begin to walk out of Riverwood, and I can feel my wolf scratching at the surface and my vision begins to blur and I can feel the familiar burning coursing under my skin, I begin to run as fast as I can, I am pushing it to leave letting her out every couple of days, I can feel the fangs growing through and there I no way I could stop it now even if I wanted to. I look around with my grey vision and I am far into the hills as the land becomes more rural and I can hear my bones beginning to snap and I let out a moan in relief as I can feel her bubbling under the surface, I have never felt so free any other time but in this form.
I need to be free.
Karliah's POV
It turned out there wasn't much to say to Hadvar, but still, he is someone I trusted and there weren't many people I trust in Skyrim. Aela was probably the only I let myself become truly close to, I thought as I stared into the frothy ale in my tankard as I watched Sven play his lute and I smile as I think of Aela, I could have joined her, I managed to buy us a room, my wolf snarls and I push her down, I need to stay in control around innocent people and I generally do but at the moment she seems to be going haywire, I don't know whether this is because of Aela or what but it is so confusing and tiring, I hate fighting with her, because normally I give her free reign, I am still not used to being inside towns, I slump on the counter and I rub a hand over my face. I hate having to wait for Aela but I couldn't bring myself to sleep without her being here. By the Gods I hate feelings sometimes, I want to touch her, hold her hand, but I just cannot bring myself to kiss her, no matter how many chances there has been. It reminds me of too much of the dark elves in Morrowind, they used me like a toy and they drugged me and did the most terrible things to me… I shake my head as I can feel myself shaking, Gods! I hate begin afraid! I feel like an animal, I even considered searching for the cure, just so I could be normal. But then I met Aela, and now I have no idea why I even considered it, she makes me feel free but I don't know how we are supposed to… delve deeper into our relationship when every time she goes to kiss me I just get sent back to those dark times. Frustration grows in my gut and my hand clenches around the tankard and I can hear the metal starting to give way. I shouldn't be leading her on like this! Not if I cannot even kiss her, even when I want to!
"You should relax grey skin" I jump as I look beside me and a burly looking Nord sits down, I am just going to ignore him, I don't need to draw attention to myself and I begin to feel self-conscious as his eyes begin to roam my face, it is times like this I wish I still had me hood on, so I can hide from curious eyes, his meaty hand grasps my wrist and he yanks me towards him and I am staring into his black eyes and I can see hatred in them
"I am talking to you grey skin bitch!" he snarls and I flex my wrist as my wolf is lunging at the surface, I cannot look away from him but I show him no fear, I am not scared of him, I head-butt his nose and he breaks his hold and clutches his nose as blood flows steadily from it, I smile as I get up from my stall as he makes another grab from me,
"Get back here bitch, you grey skin scum!" he roars and the pub goes silent and I pull out my knife from my boot and I duck down into the correct stance
"I think you have had too much to drink Roran" The bartender says and he goes to usher in out when he draws his sword and begins to swing it blindly around as he clutches his nose, people in the pub begin to back up and clench the knife harder, I have to stop him
"You all are traitors to our land! You would sacrifices the true Nord way to allows scum, like this grey skin into our country!" he yells and I duck under his sword as he swings it into my direction and I dart around him, my wolf snarls
Kill, kill. Blood, war, death, KILL, BLOOD, WAR, DEATH, PREY!
She howls and I push her far down when from the corner of my eye I see something glint in the firelight and I try to dodge it and it grazes my arm and a it burns and my eyes water as I gasp out loud, it was sliver. I manage to clear my head of pain just as Roran's sword slices into my shoulder and I scream as he wedges it in and my eyes roll as the pain radiates throughout me, I cannot even form words as my limbs become heavy, he is killing me, I close my eyes as I take in deep breaths just to try and stay conscious, a cold sweat runs through me as I try to lift the knife in my hand but it scream with pain as the graze and sword slicing into my shoulder stop me from even moving my arms.
"Grey skin scum you-"he is halted in mid-sentence and I force my eyes open and I can see Aela, and the whole room dims around her, I look into her face and her eyes are glowing as her hair whips out behind her and her expression is a storm and her icy green eyes are so dark they might as well be black, then I look to her hand and she has a blade against his throat, and a growl leaves her throat that fills me with a thrill
Aela's POV
How dare they.
How fucking dare they do that to my mate! My wolf is screaming as I hold the dagger against his throat my arm shaking with anger, his eyes connect with mine and he pales,
"Leave her alone, do not touch her anymore and never return here, do you understand me?" I say lowly and his face ashens even more and he nods, but the wolf is in control and I do not care to stop her anger and she presses the knife into his neck and I lean in closer to him until I can see him sweating
"I don't fucking believe you, so say it like you mean it and I might let you live" I say and he shakes
"I…I... I am never going to come back and I am going to live her alone, I swear by the Eights I will live her alone" he whimpers and I take away the knife from his throat and he lets go of the blade in her shoulder and I look down at her and I can see so much of her blood flowing everywhere, her eyes meet mine and they are so dark, my wolf snarls again and I holster my knife and I ram my knee into his testicles and he doubles over and then I bring my knee up to his face withal of my power and send it hurtling into his face, and he goes flying back as he lets out a cry and I storm over to him and I pick him up my his clothes and I lob him out of the inn. Then my anger dissolves and I turn back to Karliah and she is slumped over and I rush over to her as my gut clenches painfully, God, I said I would keep her safe and I have failed her, I grasp her uninjured arm,
"Karliah?!" I shout and her eyes meet mine and they are so dark now, and a smile graces her lips before she frowns in pain, I look closer at the sword and I can hear the painful hum of sliver, my god, it is worse than I thought, I bite my lip and I hold her head in my hands and I force her to look at me and when our eyes meet she says,
"Just… rip it out" I nod and I look over to Orgnar and he comes around the front and I shift so that I am behind Karliah and I hug her around the middle so that I can stop her from flailing around, I nod at Orgnar
"3, 2, 1" he says and I hold her tighter and she relaxes into me for a second only to grow tense and fight against me as she screams as the blade is pulled from her body and she collapses into my arms as she faints, I never wanted this for her and I know without special attention she may die, I look down at her as I pick her up, I don't care about my clothes or anyone around us as I pick her up and carry her into a room and place her on the bed as I slowly begin to peel off the shoulder pad and her eyes fly open again and she moans in pain as I have to peel the pad out as the fur has matted with her blood causing it to go hard, I peel it out and more and more blood flows from the wound, I pray to the Divines it hasn't gotten far around her blood stream, sliver is so painful for any werewolf and is a slow and painful death if not treated properly, and by Sithis! I am so far away from Danica, maybe we can make it in time, then I lean forward and I get a whiff of the sliver and it is so strong and she so tired, I do not know whether we would even make it in time. I grasp her hand and I bring my lips to it and she looks at me and she lets loose a soft smile
"Thank you Aela" she says quietly and I smile against her hand and I kiss every knuckle but I do not take my eyes from hers and a blush coats her cheeks
"You deserve better," I say and I place our entwined hands on the side "But I cannot do anything to stop the sliver poisoning, and I have no idea if I will be able to get you to Whiterun or-"I throw my hands up in frustration, I cannot bear to see her shrivel away in here, her breathing is slowed
"Maybe this is how it supposed to be and-"she says and I can feel tears building in my eyes
"No! I will not lose you to this! I refuse! There has to be a way!" I sob at her and her eyes drift slightly and fear boils in my gut and her eyes refocus on me
"There might be a way. Find some garlic and crush it into a paste then add water, it will slow down the poisoning, it may give you enough time" she says weakly and I nod and I begin to stand up when she grabs my hand and pulls me close and she presses her lips to mine and a tear leaks down my cheeks, everything is so uncertain now and I have no idea how I am meant to do this. I moan as she wraps her hands around me and her soft lips press against mine again and my hands fist into her hair, as her taste explodes on my lips and she crashes her fragile body into mine, she knows this may be her last chance, I don't want this to be the only time we have, I don't want her to leave me.
I have only just found her.
A/N: See? You were so not expecting that! Well I hope you liked it and please Read and Review. Thank you for reading - Bexaday
