Chapter 8 – Westport


[07:03am] Rise and shine, sleeping beauty! :)

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[01:47pm] Rach?

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[08:12pm] God, I didn't text you all day

[08:13pm] I'm sorry, Quinn!

[08:13pm] I had such a busy day

[08:20pm] Oh I see how it is

[08:21pm] When you're stuck in boring classes you come to me

[08:21pm] Then when you don't need me you just forget about poor Quinn

[08:22pm] It's fine

[08:26pm] You're ridiculous

[08:29pm] I thought you would buy it!

[08:33pm] I guess we can finally say I'm starting to get to know New Quinn

[08:34pm] Maybe

[08:35pm] What's up?

[08:38pm] I dreamed of you again last night! You were putting Christmas lights all over my place!

[08:40pm] I was deeply disappointed when I woke up and didn't see any

[08:41pm] So I went out and bought some

[08:42pm] And now my whole house looks like a fairy tale!

[08:46pm] Send me pictures when you can! I bet it looks awesome!

[08:47pm] I have good taste even on your dreams :)

[08:47pm] I need to put up some Christmas decorations at my place too

[08:48pm] Although I'm not sure if my roommate is Christian or not

[08:50pm] You never talk about her

[08:53pm] We're not exactly close

[08:55pm] How did you end up moving in with her then?

[08:57pm] Just saw an ad at the bulletin board in the dorms

[08:57pm] Because really, anything is better than the dorms

[08:59pm] I felt kinda bad that NYADA didn't have dorms at first

[09:00pm] But everyone complains about theirs, so I guess it wasn't so bad to live out of campus from day one

[09:04pm] Well, it was amazing at first

[09:05pm] I got to meet some of my best friends there, and there were always parties going on around campus

[09:05pm] But it gets old quickly

[09:06pm] Specially when you work at night and just want a quiet night in on your days off

[09:10pm] Ugh, I can imagine it

[09:10pm] I don't know why but I always imagined you at a Sorority

[09:12pm] Ew no

[09:12pm] Maybe old Quinn

[09:12pm] New Quinn can't stand it, there are too many rules

[09:15pm] Well, old Quinn didn't really like rules either

[09:19pm] You're right!

[09:19pm] I like my place now though

[09:20pm] Although I still have to buy a lot of things to make it perfect the way I want

[09:22pm] I went shopping today

[09:23pm] But I didn't buy anything for the house

[09:23pm] I actually just had to buy gifts for my dads

[09:24pm] And also, shopping relaxes me

[09:28pm] Did you get me gifts too?

[09:30pm] Not yet! Do you need anything special?

[09:33pm] No, but I should get a lot of presents because clearly I'm the best gift of your life

[09:35pm] So full of yourself, Fabray!

[09:38pm] I was just kidding though, you don't need to buy me anything

[09:40pm] I might do it anyway

[09:41pm] I like giving gifts more than I like receiving them

[09:43pm] Such a weirdo

[09:46pm] Oh, shut it

[09:47pm] And what are you doing?

[09:50pm] Just finished homework and now I'll shower and get ready for work!

[09:51pm] Talk to you later?

[09:55pm] Sure thing :)

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[00:21am] Hey, you still up?

[00:21am] Got caught up with work and couldn't take a break till now

[00:24am] Yeah, I'm awake

[00:26am] Wow! I thought you wouldn't be! It's late already!

[00:31am] I know... I can't sleep

[00:34am] Why is that?

[00:36am] I'm nervous about tomorrow

[00:37am] I'm seriously so nervous my stomach is unsettled

[00:41am] Oh... The big opening night

[00:43am] Yeah...

[00:48am] Why are you nervous though?

[00:49am] You've practiced so much! I'm sure you will do great, Rach :)

[00:52am] I don't know, I guess I'm just insecure

[00:55am] Where is that coming from? This is not the Rachel Berry I used to know!

[00:56am] Maybe that's the new Rachel

[00:59am] Oh, come on, Rach!

[01:01am] You are a great dancer and an even better singer

[01:02am] You literally have no reason to worry

[01:02am] I'm 100% sure you will slay this!

[01:03am] I could literally go all night telling you how good you are, it's not hard at all to see that

[01:06am] Well I mean, you can keep going if you want

[01:08am] Really Rach?

[01:12am] Idk, I'm just kinda needy I guess

[01:13am] Sorry

[01:16am] Hey it's okay, I'm not complaining

[01:21am] I just don't get why you feel this way

[01:27am] The other girl from the show got engaged tonight

[01:28am] I guess I could say I got kinda jealous

[01:32am] Is the other girl the lead?

[01:35am] No...

[01:37am] Who is it?

[01:39am] I am

[01:42am] I guess you can see now why she should be the one being jealous

[01:46am] I know, I'm happy with everything that I've achieved but idk...

[01:48am] Is work better than having someone who loves you waiting for you at home?But will I ever get what she has?

[01:52am] I mean, she can gain more experience and eventually she will get to be the lead in another play

[01:53am] Will I ever get what she has?

[01:54am] You're kidding me right?

[01:57am] Of course not

[01:58am] Who would date me?

[01:58am] I'm annoying and too loud and I manage to be conceited and insecure all at the same time

[01:59am] I can't cook to save my life and I work and study so much that when I get home the only thing I wanna do is fall asleep on my couch

[02:01am] Who would put up with all of that?

[02:04am] Anyone, Rach. Like, in a heartbeat! Anyone can realize how amazing you are!

[02:04am] You're the kind of woman someone goes to when they're looking for someone to spend their whole life with, not to just play around

[02:05am] You're kind to everyone, you're one of the funniest people I know, you are brave and you fight with all you have for the things you want

[02:05am] You're stunningly gorgeous, Rachel

[02:06am] And at the same time you can still be SO generous and modest that it's almost like you're blind to all your qualities

[02:10am] I really like it when you compliment me

[02:14am] I'm not kidding when I say I could go on all night

[02:16am] Why am I still alone and so lonely, then?

[02:20am] Maybe you're just not looking at the right places

[02:21am] Love can be right by your side, and you're too busy worrying about this kind of silly things that you can't see it

[02:24am] I really hope you're right

[02:28am] I'm always right :)

[02:32am] It's surprising how fast you can go from adorable to cheeky

[02:35am] One of my many qualities!

[02:38am] Thanks, Quinn

[02:40am] For everything you've done in these last months

[02:41am] I honestly think I couldn't do this without you

[02:44am] No need to thank me, really

[02:46am] I'm happy being here for you, Rach

[02:47am] You have no idea how happy it makes me that I'm the one you choose to open up to

[02:48am] To be the one you tell all your insecurities and secrets

[02:50am] Be the one you come to in the middle of the night

[02:51am] It's really an honor

[02:53am] I hope you remember all of that when you're giving your speech after getting your first Tony

[02:56am] I'll never forget you, silly

[02:59am] Good

[03:01am] Now, go to sleep

[03:02am] You don't wanna give the make up artists too much work to cover your dark circles

[03:02am] Also, I'm close to getting fired if I don't let go off my phone

[03:05am] lol okay

[03:06am] Goodnight, Quinn

[03:07am] And thanks again

[03:09am] Don't mention it

[03:11am] Goodnight, baby