A/N: AHH sorry, sorry, sorry. I know it has taken me forever to update my stories, but soccer took over and now basketball, so I pretty much don't exist to anyone! Lol. Sorry. Maybe one chapter of Second Chance too if I can finish it…

October 26, 2008

I don't own anything.


Edward's POV

I looked down at the angel in my arms, sleeping. I smiled as she twitched a little. My eyes grazed down her fragile body. My eyes rested on her belly where a small bump was. I placed my left hand on it. When I did this her hand moved right over mine. I looked over to her as her eyes opened up, but then closed again. A silent smile spread across her lips. I sighed.

Suddenly something nudged my hand. My attention went right to her belly. The twins. I smiled an overjoyed smile. That was the first time I felt them. I was finally starting to feel like a father.

Wow, a father. I was actually going to have a family, but not with just anyone, with the love of my life, no my existence. Never would I have imagined she would have loved me the way she does. I still don't know if I can believe that someone as beautiful and selfless as her would ever love a monster like me.

"Edward," my angel murmured, "I love you."

I almost answered her, but I feared I would wake her up. Besides I enjoyed this silence to just gaze at her. Every time I looked at her, I became mesmerized. She was carrying my children.

Children. Another strange word. Were we even making the right choice with this? Who knows what will happen to the babies? Who knows what they are becoming? What am I doing? I know that I'm a monster. I've know that, but what about my children? Will they be monsters like me, or will they be human like their mother?

A voice in my head was praying for human, but another wanted them to be monsters. Why was that?

Well, for one reason, if they are monsters like me, I won't have to watch them die. I could not bear seeing die. It would be as bad as losing my angel. But if they are monsters she is going to insist on becoming one as well. Do I still want that for her?

I've never wanted her to be one of my kind, but if our children were like me, she would have to be one. I knew that, and that scared me and frustrated me. I didn't want to take her life and future away from her.

Maybe I should have just stayed in Alaska when I went there a year ago.

That would have been the selfless thing to do. Of course she had to fall in love with me, the most selfish monster on the Earth. It wasn't fair to her. I wanted her and that's all I cared about.

I looked back down at her and kissed her on her head. Then I got up and looked around her room. I've been back for three days now, yet I still haven't looked around to see any changes she might have made while I was away. All I wanted to do was be with her, hold her and protect her. She deserved all of my attention.

I looked to the corner of her room where her rocking chair used to be now it was just an empty spot. I felt the need to fill it with something. I'll have to tell Alice to fill it later.

My eyes wondered away from the chair and to the broken stereo on the floor. I should have known that birthday present would get destroyed after my family and I left. I just had no idea it would look like that!

I shrugged it off making a mental not to repair it. I looked over to my sleeping angel for a second and then moved on to her closet. When I walked in I almost tripped over a small box. A shoe box, actually. That was never there before…

I picked it up and slouched to the floor. The box was labeled EDWARD. As my curiosity rose, I began to wonder why she had a shoe box with my name on it. I quickly opened it find many items in it. The first thing I noticed was the blue blouse she wore at Port Angeles, stuffed in the corner. Another big item in there was a book, Sense and Sensibility. I sighed knowing it was in there because the hero was named Edward. I then started to pick out smaller objects. The flower I put in her hair one sunny day at our meadow during the summer, the note I wrote her last year saying Be Safe, lyrics to the first song we danced to, Collide by Howie Day, and lastly a picture of our babies. How the doctor missed the one, I will never understand. I turned it over to see that she wrote on it. Little baby Cullen, September 10. The day it was conceived. I smiled at the sonogram, hopeful.

Hopeful that maybe they could be both human and a monster. That way neither of us would suffer. That way we could live like a family. I could no longer deny Alice's vision. She would have to become a monster.

Sighing, I placed everything into the box and putting it back into its rightful spot. Then I made my way back over to the bed and sat down at her feet. I looked at her and groaned internally. Tomorrow she would have to go to school. Alice and I won't register for awhile still. Maybe I could persuade her to stay…

I couldn't let her out of my sight again without going crazy. Three months away from her was way too long for me. Look, I'm only thinking of myself again. She was probably miserable all by herself, scared even. She found out she was responsible for another life without me there, and I'm worrying about my own pain. How could she love such a selfish monster?

I looked over to her once again and saw her shiver. I chuckled softly as I got up to close the window she always kept open for me. Then I walked out into the linen closet to get her a blanket. Before I went back to her room I went downstairs to get a glass of water for her, but stopped before I could make it to the kitchen. I walked over to the coffee table where a picture frame was. That wasn't there before, I thought. I picked it up and studied the picture of my angel and that dog laughing. She was on his back with her arms wrapped a tightly around his neck. How didn't I notice this before?

It wasn't taken that long ago because you could see that her cheeks were plumper. Well at least a vampire could tell. And only a vampire could see the faintness in her figure being that close to him. Now why was that?

I quickly shook it off and put the picture back down. When I returned to her room, she was awake and sitting up looking worried. I walked over to her and put the blanket around her shoulders and kissed the top of her head.

"What's wrong love," I asked softly.

She leaned into my shoulder as I wrapped my arms around her. "I was afraid you left again."

I felt so guilty. How could I be so caress to just leave her like that? I'm such a fool. "I'm so sorry love. I went to get you a blanket because you looked cold."

She nodded slowly in my chest. I picked up my arm off her shoulder and put my fingers under her chin and lifted her delicate head up so I could look her in the eyes. "I will never leave you again. I promise you that. I'm too selfish to live without you. I can't be through that much pain again without going crazy."

She smiled as I kissed her softly on the lips. Then I laid down with her close to my chest and sung her back to sleep. Only this time I didn't stop singing. I just kept humming and singing her lullaby, but half way through the night I went into a whole other key and started humming new notes.

I soon realized I was making up the twins lullaby. This is what I will sing for my children when they can't sleep, or just need to be calmed down. This will put a smile on Esme's face when I'm at my piano later. I put my hand on her belly once more and I could feel a nudge once in awhile as I hummed softly. Bella will love this.

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Bella's POV

Sleeping in his arms was like nothing else. None of my nightmares came, only the sweet scent of his skin filled my mind. Which was just the way I wanted it to be.

When I woke up with his arms wrapped tightly around my torso, I couldn't help but smile. I struggled to roll over to face him because of his arms, but her loosened them once he figured out what I was trying to do.

"Good morning love,'' he whispered kissing me softly.

"Good morning," I said dizzily.

He chuckled as he got up. Even though I tried to pull her back down, which didn't faze him; he stood up and walked to the side of the bed to help me up. "Do you really need to go to school today?" I shook my head smiling. "Good because Carlisle would like to check on the twins."

I groaned, slowly getting up out of my comfortable bed. That is until a wave of morning sickness came and I rushed to the bathroom. Edward was right behind me holding back my hair for me.

"Bella, are you alright?" he asked whipping my forehead off as I leaned against the bathroom wall.

I nodded silently and closed my eyes. I never thought being pregnant would be this hard. Then slowly I got up, well tried to get up, but Edward, as soon as he saw me move, and helped me up. Then he carried me to my truck and drove off to his house for my check up.

"And how are you today Bella?" Carlisle asked me as he walked into his office that he has now turned into a hospital room exactly like my doctor's room.

"pretty good," I said smiling.

"Well, that's good. Now let me just make sure the twins are feeling just as well as you are."

He started to push down on my stomach and then he setup the ultrasound for me.

After it was all done he wrote down a few things and Edward squeezed my head. "Now Bella, are you feeling tired easily? Like does it feel like energy is just being drained out of you?"

"Yea, sort of."

"Like whenever you have done something?"

I shook my head. "More like just getting out of bed is draining the energy out of me. Why, is something wrong with that?"

Carlisle wrote something else down, and it made Edward sigh and whisper no. I hate these silent conversations. "Well normally pregnancy will drain the energy out of people, but I'm more concerned than I should be. It's just that I've never seen this with a vampire and a human. I just want to make sure nothing goes wrong," Carlisle said looking from Edward to me.

"I know that and I really appreciate you taking extra care, but I'm fine, really. The only things that are different is gaining weight, morning sickness, and the weird feeling around some mythical creatures," I said trying to make a joke of it. Edward, however, just didn't give in.

"Bella," Edward said turning to look at me," don't you understand you are carrying monsters in your womb? These children will never be normal. Why aren't you seeing this clearly?"

I looked at him with shock, but I slowly come to the understanding of what he was saying, well maybe. He might be repeating what my doctor said about 'options' or he may just be trying to protect me about what my babies may become. "Edward, what are you trying to say?"

He sighed and looked down at the floor like he was ashamed of himself. "I'm saying that maybe it's not the best idea to go through with this."

I quickly looked away from him. "By this, do you mean the pregnancy?"

"yes," he whispered.

At that moment I wanted to slap him, but I knew it would do nothing. Thought as quickly as I came up with that bad idea, it went away. I understood why he didn't want to go through with it. He thought that the babies were going to kill me. But I knew they would do such a thing. Not my Elizabeth and baby-no-name. Maybe he just didn't want to go through with it.

I took a deep breath and looked at him again. "Edward, you don't have to see me like this then. You don't need to go through with this, but I do."

He quickly took my hands and held them tightly. "Bella, I'm not leaving you. I'm too selfish to leave you again. Don't you see that yet?" H paused and looked towards the door. I hadn't even noticed that Carlisle left. "Bella, I want to go through the whole pregnancy experience with you, I really do. I'm just afraid of what the babies may do to you. I can't lose you."

I smiled weakly at him. "they won't hurt me. I know they won't. They love me as much as I love them. Edward, trust me, I can tell that this will be okay. That I will be okay. That the babies will be okay. And that you will make an excellent father.

He smiled my favorite smile crooked smile, but it didn't' reach his eyes. "You will make an excellent mother, love. The twins are lucky to have you as a mother, but not so much me as a father."

I rolled my eyes and he chuckled. "But we will make a fine team. After all opposites attach, love," Edward aid with a wicked grin. Then he kissed me with a hard, powerful kiss that almost made me jump on him but he pulled away all too quickly.

I sighed as he picked me up and helped me off the chair. Then he ran downstairs to where the rest of his family was sitting watching TV. Emmett and Alice smiled at me happily, as did Esme, Carlisle and japer, but Rosalie continued to stare at the TV. I could feel Edward growl deep in his chest as he helped me off his back. In one swift motion Rosalie got up and walked out of the room towards the garage.

"Edward," I said looking up at him, "maybe we should go look at the nursery. I don't want to disrupt anything."

Edward sighed and nodded, not wanting me to feel uncomfortable. He took my hand and walked me up to his room instead of the nursery. Not that I was complaining or anything.

He left me at the doorway and walked over to his stereo and started shuffling threw some CDs. I, on the other hand, walked over to his new bed and sat down on it.

"Why did you get a bed? It's completely unnecessary," I said.

He seemed to find the CD he wanted because he was on the bed with me within seconds. "I don't think it's unnecessary. It is meant for you for whenever you decided to move in," he said smiling.

"I don't need a bed! I thought the couch was perfectly comfortable," I said as Her Eyes by Pat Monahan played in the background.

He rolled his eyes. "you won't think it's very comfortable whenever you are eight months pregnant. Besides you don't use a bed just to sleep on," he said softly with a playful smile.

Before I even had time to catch my breath, his lips crashed to mine. He then started pulling me on top of him as he laid down on the bed. Then he stopping kissing my lips, but instead, started kissing my neck, my collarbone and behind my ear. I grew impatient and pulled his head up to have his lips meet mine.

'See this would be difficult on the couch," he whispered against my lips.

I giggled as I kissed him again. When he kissed me this time it was more passionate and heated than any other kiss I could remember. It was like he never really kissed me before this one. Like he was holding back that much.

But after that he pulled away and wrapped his arms around my waist. I looked at him to kiss him again, but he held me in my spot.

"Bella, it's was hard enough to concentrate on not killing you when you were just one person, but not that you are pregnant you scent is even more potent. Could you help me out and not make this more difficult than it already is?"

"I'm not promising anything," I said smiling.

"I'm sorry to give you the wrong impression then; I was just demonstrating what the bed could be used for. Besides the last time we did this," he said waving between us, "that happened," he said waving top my belly.

I giggled. "Well that can't happen again. But I do like the bed."

He sighed and rolled his eyes at me. He then started to stroke my hair and hum my lullaby, which my me realize how tired I was. I smiled as I drifted off into sleep.

I was walking through the forest somewhere close to Forks because of all the green that was around me. I just kept on walking until I saw that my bath in the woods was coming to an end. I walked through the trees into a familiar place. The clearing. I looked at my feet to make sure I would slip to protect my seven month belly. Suddenly something sped in front of me and then around me. Before I even had time to look behind me, flaming red hair engulfed my vision. I backed up to see the thirsty red eyes of a female. I turned to run and when I did I saw Edward coming this way. Before I could even take a step towards him, the teeth of the female sunk into my neck.

I shot up out of Edwards arms. Edward sat up quickly and wrapped a blanket around me. I didn't even realize I was shaking. "What's wrong love?" Did you have a nightmare?" I nodded slowly. "Do you want to tell me about it?"

"Victoria."

Edward's expression went cold and his arms wrapped around me tightly. "it was just a bad dream love. I promise nothing will come near you. I won't be gone long enough for anything to touch you," he said softly.

I let out a deep breath, not even realizing I was hold it, and closed my eyes. Then I buried my face in his cold chest. "I believe you," I murmured.

He chuckled. "Come on, love, I'll take you home."

"What what time is it?"

"It's close to five and since your father doesn't know you skipped school then we should get back."

I yawned and nodded as Edward picked me up and raced downstairs and out the door into the cold December air. Then he swiftly placed me into his car and sped out of his driveway.

"So are you coming back to school?" I asked.

He didn't say anything for a minute. He seemed to be debating that himself. "I'm not sure," he said slowly. "Alice and I have been wondering if we should. I mean I would be a lot easier to look after you if I went back, but we've been too… preoccupied lately."

"With what?"

"Nothing too important," he said kissing my hand.

I didn't believe him. Alice saw something that worried Edward enough to make him fully aware 24/7. I just had no idea of what I could possibly be.

I let my mind wonder all the way back to the Charlie's house and even as he led me into the house and I started cooking dinner. I briefly looked over to him and saw his worried look as he watched me. What happened to me that made him look like that?

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"What's wrong with me? Love, you haven't said anything since the beginning of the car ride! Did you forget I cannot read you mind and it's the only mind I want to know all about? It's extremely frustrating not knowing what you are thinking. What's on your mind? Please don't torture me much longer."

I looked down sheepishly. "I was just wondering what could not be that important, but still keep you preoccupied enough to not come to school with me."

He put his finger under my chin and lifted my head up so he could look at my eyes. He sighed. "I've missed those eyes, please stop hiding them like that," he said teasingly.

"Then don't distract me," I said playfully.

He smiled. "it's nothing that you need to worry about right now. We have it under control. Can we leave it at that?" I shook my head. "I figured you wouldn't be satisfied with that."

"If you don't tell me, you know I'll just ask Alice to tell me what's really going on."

"I know." Edward took a deep breath to tell me, but suddenly a sharp pain came to my left side. I closed my eyes and stammered backwards before falling to the floor.

"Bella!" Edward yelled as he quickly picked me up and ran to his house.

All I could think was my babies, one's noting making it.


A/N: Sorry about the cliff hanger, but the updates won't be this bad again! I mean it! Hope you enjoyed. I was orginally going to make this into two seprate chapters, but then I was like screw it and just made it into one long-ish chapter:) hope you like it. Well, that and I'm on a major sugar high:) I just saw Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist and I just got hyper. Great movie by the way, so funny! Oh and I need boy name ideas… just in case... I know I'm mean.