This chapter has some adult problems in it. Domestic violence. Not to brutal. But just wanted to give the head's up.
"Alex… Alex… Wake up. What the fuck are you doing here?" I looked up and saw Sean staring at me.
"Huh?" I was confused.
"Why are you asleep in Paige's van?" That brought back the memories from last night. The tears started to weld up in my eyes again.
"You were right, Sean." That is all that I could get out.
"Oh, Alex." He said, as he put his arms around me, offering to comfort me.
"We got home and everything was going fine. Then she started to get close and touch me, then I realized something wasn't right. I asked her if she was seeing anyone…" I stopped. I couldn't go on.
"She is?" Sean was surprised.
"She's…. MARRIED!" I broke down. Right then, I realized everything that I had hoped for was gone.
"I don't understand. If she was married, why is she coming on to you?" Sean seemed very confused.
"I don't either. Maybe she just wanted to relive the past? Maybe she just got caught up in the moment? Maybe we were just an experiment to her? Maybe she isn't even married to a female? Look at what is in the backseat of this van. A child's booster seat. She probably has a kid. She told me that she has to keep the minivan. I didn't understand then, but I do know." I said trying to let Sean know everything I was thinking, but I know I was confusing him. I was confusing myself.
"None of that I can answer. You would have to talk to her about that." Sean looked around. "Hey, Alex. Where is Paige?"
"Shit. I walked out on her last night and left her in the apartment. What was I thinking? I have to go check on her."
"Just remember. Talk to her. Ask her everything. Don't bother coming in today. If I get the part, I will fix Paige's van myself. Good luck." Sean yelled.
I really didn't even hear a word of what he said. The only thing that I had on my mind was to get back to the apartment and talk to Paige. I jumped in my car and sped all the way home. I ran up the stairs to the apartment. I opened the door and yelled. "Paige, are you still here? Paige?" I looked around and didn't find her anywhere. I looked around in defeat and sat down on the couch. There was something on the table that caught my eye. There was an envelope on the table. "To Alex." I opened it.
Alex,
I haven't really been completely honest with you and I was going to try last night but you ran out before I could. I really don't blame you for leaving. I would have too if I were in the same situation you were in.. So here is the truth.
I met Deanna my sophomore year. She was older than me and she had a little boy named Jamie. I really didn't want to be in a relationship, but gave her a chance. I probably wouldn't have, but she reminded me so much of you. She had the bad girl attitude. She had dark hair and skin. She basically looked like your. She even wore the tank tops and baggy pants like you. We dated for a while, and for a while were inseparable. I fell in love with her little boy, but as for her, I never really did. Her little boy is about the only thing that kept me with her and the thought that I would never see you again. Then she asked me to marry her. I just couldn't say no. So, we got married about a year and a half ago. Things were fine for about two months. Then, she started to get physically violent. At first I blamed it on her job, then on her family, then on myself. I gave her everything that she wanted and needed, or so I thought. Then one day about a month ago, she put me into the hospital. Up until then it was just minor bruises and cuts, but this time it got out of hand. She kicked me in the rib cage and broke my ribs. My mom and dad came to visit me in the hospital and I broke down and told them everything. They told me to come back home and that I could stay as long as I needed to. While I was at home, I talked to a lawyer and had some divorce papers drawn up. That is the only reason I was going to Kingston from my parents. I was going to give her the papers. I was also going to get most of my stuff back.
I sit here now, wishing you would come back through the door, so I could tell you this in person. I guess by the time you do get back, I won't be here. I am sorry for all the pain I have caused you . I should have told you sooner. I really hope to hear from you soon, but I know how you are. I know that your ego is crushed. I will still go to the reunion , hoping to see you there. I guess just have Sean call me about my van.
I love you,
Paige
I had to read the letter over again to make sure I got everything. I set the letter back on the table, laid back on the couch, and cursed myself. "What the hell?"
Just as a reminder... gay marrage is legal in Canada... Other than that, keep the reviews coming. I'm having a writters block. I really don't know where I want to go from here. I may have a chapter up in a day or so. Work has been killer these last few days, so I don't know.
