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Chap 8

I'm still alive. That's the most important thing. The memories when I was in that cell… They are still there, lingering in my head but I will be fine. I am alive, not dead. I can work this out. I am fine. If I can just focus on the fact that I AM STILL ALIVE then my mind can kindly forget everything else for a moment and then I will be fine.

I'm scared. Where did it go wrong? Why did it happen to me? What have I done to be deserved this kind of life? It is too much to ask for a simple life?

But then when I think about it I can't have a normal life. A beast cannot have a life of a human.

But no matter how I think about it it's all my fault. It was me who accepted the invitation in the first place. If only I told them I would go to the capital they would give me clues. I should have known better to listen to Sona when she warned me, if only I returned home sooner then none of this would happen.

This is all my fault. It is none other than my juvenile thinking that leads me to where I am now. I have no one to blame but myself.

I wish all of this was just a dream. A never-ever nightmare. I will wake up somehow and everything will be fine again. I will stop peeking at the female changing room, I will study hard, I will work part time to buy my own things and not ask for allowance from my parents.

It will be absolutely great if someone just kills me right here and I become a human again.

"Pathetic."

What do you say?

"Are you deaf? I guess you are because you are so pathetic."

What do you know? WHAT DO YOU KNOW!?

"Fine. You're free to be a pathetic crybaby who can't do anything right. If you can please do me a favor and kill yourself so when the God of Beast has important works to do you won't become a burden to him."

… I can't.

"Huh? Well maybe your pathetic brain has some use. After all not all beast survived the blessing of the God of Beast."

The blessing of the God of Beast? What do you mean by that?

"Remember when your mind is free of mental shackle and you only saw blood? That world of hurt when the only thing that can subside it is to lash out at everything around you."

I was put under a spell that mindcontrol me but for some reasons I broke it out and then.. The raging back then when I just… killed them all. That is the blessing of the God of Beast.

"Correct. Once in awhile the God of Beast will give his power to every marked beast, be it a whelp or half-dead one. This process however will drive them crazy for 7 hours, they will lash out at everything be it their families or enemies. But this is the rule of nature, if you're not strong then you will be killed. Well you can say that luck is a huge factor in this process though."

The 10 legs lizard is sneering at me.

"To think you're so lucky that the demon not bother to kill you and there's someone to save you afterward. Perhaps the God of Beast has made the right choice. Luck matters in life."

Enough of that tell me what does this blessing do to me?

"You were bathed in his magnificent presence. You are no longer a Marked Beast, now you are a War Beast. First you will receive 15 years of lifespan. You're vastly superior to other marked beasts, with sufficient growth you will rival even high-class dragons and all of your abilities can potentially upgrade to one tier higher. But in return you will no longer gain abilities from other marked beasts or War Beast."

Doesn't sound bad, in total I can live up to 35 years. I guess I will have to live without shape-shifting then. A fair trade. Tell me, is there other levels beside War Beast? I'm curious on how high this can go on.

"There are only 3 levels: Marked Beast, War Beast and Elder Beast. Elder Beast is the direct servant of the God of Beast and only the strongest can become one. Looking at you I see you have no chance to become as strong as me so just enjoy whatever the God of Beast is generous enough to give you. Oh and since you have become a War Beast you will be granted one ability of your choice."

An ability of my choice… I wish for time travel. I'd like one to correct my mistakes please.

"You're free to try that. I will prepare a nice hole to bury your ashes afterward."

Bastard.

I wake up after that. Checking my body I see several bandages warping around me, the wound under them is healed so I take them out. The process of transforming into a War Beast must have healed every wound when it's over. There's something different, I can feel it in my blood, I guess I have become slightly stronger than before.

So a War Beast huh. This doesn't comfort me anyhow. I'm still a Bullman so yeah.

I check the supply, there's this mana water bottle which will produce pure water if you inject mana in, a mana torch, some salted bacon pieces, some potatoes. The money pocket contains 100 gold coins, 100 silver coins and 100 copper coins, all of them are real. This is my old bow back when I was hunting in the Human Realm, the present from Rias and my ID must be in Forlia's mansion.

Rias. It was her who saved me back there. There could be none other than she with her unique red hair. Even though all I did was giving in my lusty desire she still helped me. I'm so ashamed for my immature actions. I couldn't see the face of the other person but when I find out I will thank her too.

I can't kill myself now, Rias has risked herself to save me so I can't forfeit my life. My life is indebted to Rias so I must somehow pay back this debt. She told me to leave the Demon Realm though and the Human Realm is not safe either. I recall of the rumor that Vatican was preparing to summon Heroes from another world, if I'm correct then they would be people from a modern world who come here to fight against the evil like those isekai novels I read in my past life. Which is very, very different to me who was slightly less lucky.

Xenovia also once told me not to stay with the demons, she must have known about it back then. There will be a war so nowhere is safe. I have a sudden urge to return to the home I once lived to see if everyone is alright. As long as I act smart they shouldn't check my ID, hopefully.

I pick up the package and leave the cave, the sealing can be undone with mana so I have no trouble with that. Furthermore my mana capability is even better now, I can feel my mana pool is larger than before. I extend my hand and focus on summoning mana, a huge ball of power appears before my palm, I then shoot it forward and the ball ends up blowing up several large trees. I believe with more practise and refine I can conjure mana arrows or increase the strength of my attack and defense by coating myself in mana. With the upgraded Mana Access I can do more things now.

My vocal changes too, I can speak human language but the words come out is hard to understand. Like a baby who just learns how to pronounce I will have to start learning again. That's better than I expected, this way I can communicate with others faster. Speaking of this I don't see the notebook and pen in my package, this will be a problem if I don't learn how to speak fast.

Unlike the capital Lilith I can see and feel the sun. It's nice to feel the warm ray of light again. I have no trouble finding food or survive with barely a small meal a day even though I'm bigger than before.

Around a week later I encounter a carriage on the road. My pronunciation has improved a lot, I think it's because I'm a War Beast so I can learn faster on top of my knowledge. I hold up a hand to stop the driver only to see her surprised face when she takes her hat out.

"Ise?"

"A-Aeno!?"

It is none other the black hair girl who stole my heart. Her surprise fades as she jumps down from the carriage and slaps me hard. It doesn't hurt much but then she hugs me.

"Do you have any idea how worried we were when you just gone like that?"

I can see a trickle of tear rolling down on her beautiful face. I hug her back and apologize for the stupid crap I did back then. From inside the carriage Shuri comes out and lets out a fainted smile. Due to my size I can't come in the carriage so I just walk along with them. I can keep up with the horse no problem. Both of them are a bit surprised that I can talk and at the slightly different appearance.

"So wat happenn?"

"It was a month after your promised date to return that we started to worry. Then Sona sent us a letter to ask if you returned and Rias immediately went to the capital. That place… is a disgusting world if you know where to look."

I can only nod to her, ashamed of what I have done.

"Then she made a deal with… Lord Sirzechs. He would locate you while she worked for him. Before the day she teleported to the capital she told us to gather things and moved out of Lord Sirzechs' territory, things would become bloody. That's the last thing we heard from her."

Rias… I wonder what she has to do in order to save me. Once again I can't help but feel grateful to her.

"Wat do u intend to do?" I ask Akeno.

"For now we will move out of the Demon Realm first. We were supposed to use the teleportation hub but the government shut it down and banned all 3rd class citizens to use it. If we weren't fast we might not make it out of Lord Sirzechs' territory."

"I see."

This is without doubt the sign of preparation for war.

"Did you know that the Heroes from another world has been summoned by the Vatican? It's just a matter of time before they push for another war against the Demon Realm and the world will fall into chaos and devastation." Akeno grimaced.

"War brings nothing but dead and destruction Ise. Sons, husbands and fathers will go die for the cause of their nations while the women weep in silence. There will be poverty, there will be famine, there will be a lot of orphans no matter the outcome. Glory only belongs to the strong and high rank while the people suffer for their victory."

Obviously. That's what war brings to everyone. I take a glance at Akeno and her mother Shuri who also listening to our conversation. They're running from a war-to-be to protect themselves.

Speaking of Shuri I recall my mother. I… I miss her, I want to see her again. Now that I think about her I have a bad feeling since she's a hunter she might be drafted into the army. Even though I promise myself we wouldn't meet again I cannot ignore this. Mother chose to save me, she gave birth to me knowing that people would look at her disgustingly. In the darkest hour when she might die to this war I won't let her go down like that. I will find and protect her at all cost.

Yes that's what I will do. And then after making sure mother is safe I will track down and help Rias however I can. Then… Then we will escape somewhere to avoid this war. I still have no clue where to go but I will find out some days.

We stop by at night to have a rest. I still sleep outside since my body size doesn't fit the carriage and I can protect Akeno and Shuri better this way, though the carriage itself has barrier circle and Akeno can set up several layers of alarm and barrier to protect us when we take a rest.

It's in the dead of night when the crescent moon shines upon me that I sense Akeno coming to me, her eyes have a dose of lustful stare.

"Fufufu Ise. A week without women must be terrible for you right."

My body jumps by its own.

Akeno raises her brows when she sees. I force myself to act normal. If a girl comes here to have an affair with you then as a man you cannot reject her like a spineless asshole.

I will be fine. I can do this. I am not a virgin. I am experienced in bedding women, multiple of them at the same time. I have abilities that boost my love-making skill. There is no reason for me to screw up.

"Ise?"

I can do this. I will be fine.

"You-"

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Then something catches my hand and I unconsciously move back. When I realize it's Akeno who just holds my hand a sense of panic spreads through my body.

"Ise… What happens? You-You're crying."

I didn't know that my face is wetted by the warm tear. I can't stop crying. Even though I try my best to hold back the memory keeps playing in my mind, flashing back and forth as the voice seeps into me.

What a good meat toy!

Can we keep him forever?

… Let's get that dick!

He will always serve us. The rest of his life is here in this cell!

"I-I will leave you alone if you're not comfortable." Akeno then leaves and returns to the carriage while I keep crying like a baby. I'm so fucking useless. Can't even apologize to her properly.

The next few days we don't talk much, I'm not looking forward to it either. The mood is quite heavy and I discover that my boner is pretty dead.

I feel like I want to commit suicide.

My body becomes tired more and more as we come closer to the border of the Demon Realm. This is it. I can never become functional in bed again. It might be better though. Someone like Akeno should be better off without me. I'm a useless beast that deserves nothing anyway.

That night when I'm picking some of the greener grass to chew I see Shuri comes to me.

"Ise, mind if I stayed here?"

My body recoils on its own but again I force it down and nod to her. She then smiles gently and simply lays next to me. A tingle of uncomfortable slowly creeps through my body so I move away. However I'm caught by Shuri's surprisingly strong grip as she drags me back next to her.

"You're not going to run away like a coward Ise. I expect better from a man my daughter has a crush on."

I gulp down and just lets her do whatever she wants to me.

The first night is terrible. I can't sleep at all when I sense a woman next to me. The memory haunts me all night long. My mental health is in bad shape in the next morning.

The second night is still the same as the first. Even though I know Shuri wouldn't harm or treat me like those in the capital I just… I just can't. But she doesn't give up. Shuri keeps laying next to me like that every night after Akeno has fallen deep into slumber and comes back to the carriage just before the sun rises.

But then things change. I can feel it, I no longer cry when Shuri lays next to me with her hands on my body. Slowly I can feel the warm and love from her, it's not the same kind I feel when I bed a whore but something else. It's pure love, the kind of love that can mend any broken heart.

In the 21st night Akeno comes to sleep with us. Shuri to my left and Akeno to my right. At this point I don't have any negative reaction to them anymore. I can sleep soundly and dream a nice dream where I and the girls live happily. It's also a lewd dream so my dick doesn't sleep at all.

"Thanks for everything." I murmur to the wonderful mother.

I feel totally refreshed in the next morning. If it's not for Shuri then I would forever trapped in my demise, although the flashback is still ringing I can shove it down when I have two beauties next to me. I gotta thank Shuri somehow. I don't want to put sex on the list because she will be my mother-in-law so it has to be something else. I hope so. As for Akeno it's obvious.

Shuri kindly tells me that when I'm ready I must tell her what happened back then in the capital. It's easier to shoulder the burden once I share it with someone I can trust. And I will do so, but it's not now. Someday I will, that's for sure.

A familiar feeling comes into me when we pass through a forest. There's a cave shrine nearby.

You can have one ability of your choice.

Power matters. If I'm strong then I can protect Akeno and Shuri. If I'm strong then I might break out that mindcontrol spell sooner. If I'm strong then I might be able to do something in this war. Besides the more I think about it the more I have a bad feeling about the God of Beast. There should be more reasons to bring me to this world and have me reincarnate into a beast. I might not be able to fight him one-on-one but having more power at my side is always better.

I need more power, not just for myself but also for the sake of others. I know what to do.

[Base abilities]

-Horns: Have bovine, curved sharp horns.

-Hooves: Run faster on land.

-Strength: Become stronger.

-Durability: Become tougher.

-Heavy Hide: Become tougher.

-Beast tongue: Can speak with animals.

-Marked: Can impregnate female from any races, can absorb abilities from other marked beasts.

[Mature abilities]

Unlimited libido: Always ready for sex.

Hardened Genital: Genital(s) becomes tougher.

Enhanced Horns: Horns become tougher.

[Earned abilities]

-Strong Lungs: Can hold breath.

-Quad Balls: Have 1 more pair of balls.

-Night Vision: See in dark.

-Hunger Killer: Eat less.

-Alpha Blood: Natural leader.

-Agility: Become faster.

-Predator Vision: Hunt easier.

-Horsepower: Become stronger and faster.

-Poison: Produce non-lethal liquid.

-Exoskeleton: Become tougher.

-Claws: Grow claws.

-Missiles: Shoot parts of body.

-Camouflage: Hide easier.

-Tracker: Can track others through smell.

-Dense Muscles: Become stronger and tougher.

-Auto-Fit: Always fit in.

-Mana Access: Access to mana pool.

-Ball Overdrive: Produce more semen.

-Addictive Seed: Semen becomes addictive.

-Carefree: Immune to sex illness.

-Climax Expert: Make others climax easier.

[Abilities not claim before the Blessing will be converted to lifespan.]

[Gain 20 years of lifespan.]

[You have survived the Blessing. You are allowed to gain one ability of your choice.]

[Which one will it be?]

AN: Suggest me an ability for Issei. It shouldn't be overpowered, for example if you suggest Boost then it won't be "Double power for 10 seconds." but "Double power once."