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When we arrived back from hunting everyone was preparing to leave. I couldn't believe I was already leaving this place behind. I felt a strong connection to this place...not this house per se, but this town, my surroundings. And after just a little while, I was already leaving it all behind.
I walked up to what could be considered my room at this house, and gazed around at the emptiness. While I was hunting Alice had obviously finished putting all my things in Edward's car. It truly was the end of my time here. The bed was still in the middle of the room however…so I decided to sit there.
I seemed to sink into the mattress as I sat. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. Would I ever see this place again? Would I ever walk up those staircases again? Look out the windows of Edward's room? The answer was probably no. I must likely would never do those things again. It saddened me more than it should. It wasn't as if I had been here long…though it felt like I had been here before.
This is the place were I had come to be what I am now. The place I learned of this dark new world. Of my new life…the one I could never let go of. Where I had kissed Edward… a kiss I wanted to relive again. I was so deep into my thoughts I jumped when I heard the knock on my door.
"Um…Bella?" Edward's sweet voice rang though my door and through my body. It seemed to hit every vertebrae and vibrate straight to my soul. I was so amazed by the power he had over me I couldn't even answer him. "Bella? May I come in?"
"Uh… yes of… of course Edward." Where in the world is my brain? I sound like a babbling idiot. A love sick child. I didn't love him…I just recognized my feelings for him. The god himself walked through my door and closed it. But, he stayed a good distance away. Like he was afraid to approach me.
"Bella, Carlisle sent me to tell you that we are going to leave soon. We wanted to get out of town as soon as possible." He looked down to the floor as he said this. Was it possible that Edward was…Lord help me, embarrassed? Impossible…wasn't it? What did he have to be embarrassed about?
"Oh, thank you Edward." I stood up and crossed the room and stood a few feet away from him. He was so tall compared to me. He had at least a foot on me. Looking up at him I suddenly myself became embarrassed. I'm sure I would be blushing if I were human.
"Not a problem at all Bella. I guess we better get downstairs, they seem to be anxious. I'm sure it's Alice effecting Jasper who's effecting everyone." He smiled and it seemed to warm me the slightest bit. "Alice is a true character… you will get used to her…in about one hundred years." We both chuckled at that. Mine seemed to be a little more forced than his however. Realizing that I would have a hundred years…a hundred thousand years, to get used to Alice.
"Yes…we should get down there." I circled around him and reached to open the door. But, before I could go his hand caught mine and we seemed to look each other in the eyes for what seemed like years. He moved slightly closer to me.
"Bella, ever since we kissed… you seem to be all I can think about." He said in a hushed whisper. He moved a little closer still and I backed up against the door. Not really scared… just surprised. "Bella, before that I had never kissed anyone before. And I truly want to do it again." He leaned down slightly and looked me in the eyes to make sure he was welcomed. What he saw there must have encouraged him, for ever so softly he pressed his lips to mine. And I did the only polite thing to do, I kissed back.
We seemed to kiss for a very long
time. And I truly never wanted it to end. I never really noticed that he had wrapped his arms around my waist until just then. And it scared me how right that felt. What scared me even more was how naturally I wrapped my arms around his neck.
He finally pulled away and we were both gasping for breath. But, Edward had such a cute, triumphant smile on his face I couldn't help but smile back. "Bella?" He whispered.
"Yes?"
"We need to go downstairs."
"Oh…right." I pulled away and opened the door and started walking out.
"And Bella?"
"Yes, Edward?"
"This time…let's not pretend this didn't happen." Looking down toward the floor I nodded my head. I walked down the stairs lightheaded and noticed Alice had a knowing smile on her face. Damn that little pixie and her psychic ways. when I reached the bottom Edward stood right behind me with his hand on the small of my back. It felt comforting in a way.
"Well," Carlisle started, "It seems things have been patched up. Why don't we get ready to go. We all know Alice is." We all laughed as she bounced up and down on the balls of her feet. She rushed over to me and took my right arm and pulled me towards the garage door. Apparently we were going.
When we got outside to the garage and inside the back of Edward's car she shut the door and pulled me close to her. "Bella…don't even start to pretend I don't know what happened up in that bedroom! Not only did I see it and did Jasper feel the tons of lust going on up there but your eyes are as bright as the sun on an August morning. Are you falling in love with Edward?" She talked so fast I had to concentrate my hardest to listen.
"Love? Alice…you are crazy. So what Edward and I kissed."
"Twice," She said quietly. I glared.
"Yes twice. The point is people kiss without love all the time. Maybe I have some feelings for him…but love? No… I am far to young to feel love."
"Bella, no one in this world is ever to young." A few minutes after that Edward came out, along with the others, and got in the car. He looked back towards us both with a smile upon his face and started the car.
We pulled out of the long winding drive way and it was pitch black. As it usually is at this time of morning. I noticed how fast we seemed to be going and reached for my seatbelt. Edward and Alice both chuckled at it. I suppose they were use to these speeds. I didn't mind while I was running…but in this vehicle…I didn't feel quite so safe.
Alice reached into the front and put in a CD. I noticed its brown cover and the singers name Hawk Nelson. Edward rolled his eyes but Alice smiled and turned it to a song that was very energetic. And she started dancing and singing along to the music.
"All the girls and the boys and people making noise let me hear you shout 'Bring 'em out! Bring 'em out!'" She turned to me and took my hands and made me dance with her. I felt so crazy and embarrassed at the same time. Yet… I was completely giddy and laughing…after a while…Edward smiled and started to sing and dance along too. When the song ended we all erupted in laughs. I felt so silly, but I have to admit I did have fun.
About two hours later Edward said that we were getting close to where we were supposed to be going in Alaska. But, he had to stop for gas. What the whole family had be hoping wouldn't happen. Alice stayed in the back with me with her arms around me and the Cullen's cars surrounded us. Luckily not many people were there… but I could still smell the delicious blood. I looked into the mirror and my eyes had turned black. I closed them and reminded myself of what I had done to my father. I stopped breathing like Jasper had taught me and before I knew it Edward was back into the car and we sped off.
"Bella?" His concerned voice broke my spell and I started to breath again.
"Yes, Edward?"
"I just wanted to say you did a very good job back there keeping your composure. You have learned something…of course it was the hard way…but you learned. I just wanted to say…I am proud of you." He smiled at me and I smiled back.
"I'm proud of you too Bella!" Alice chimed in hugging me. "Of course…I hadn't seen that anything would go wrong… but all the same I'm very proud." I laughed at how excited she was and I thanked them both. But, I was really proud of myself…and disgusted at the same time. Because I had thought of going in that gas station and ripped the heads of the customers and drinking from them. I'm happy I didn't do that…but I wish I hadn't of had those thoughts.
I leaned on the window and stared out at the horizon. I could feel eyes on me…but I wasn't sure whose they were. For some reason I got a bad feeling. I looked outside and saw blood red eyes staring directly at me. The look sent a chill down my spine. I blinked and they were gone. I had probably just imagined them.
A/N: OKAY OKAY OKAY! SUSPENSE! DUH DUH DUUUUUUH!! LOL! Anyway... remember please review..I'd love to hear from you all! I love ya'll and MISSED THIS! LOVE FOREVER! Kaitlyn
