"But what now?" I gaped at Ryuk. It couldn't be over.. Not like this...
"It is over, Light. In 40 seconds you'll die of cardiac arrest. There's nothing anyone can do once a name is written down... You of all people should know that."
It's over...? Just... Over...?
I felt strangely calm. For years I had been constantly focused on the next goal, the next move, the next way to get ahead. And now it was over...
And what of it?
I had made great strides, sure, but when I died humans would ultimately fall back to their ruinous nature... I reflected for a few seconds. On L, on Kira, on the death note.
Damn... I really had messed up.
I'm sorry everyone...
I'm sorry Misa, but a god can't really love...
I'm sorry Takada, you trusted me, but you shouldn't have...
I'm sorry Dad, I was only living the way you taught me...
I'm sorry L... You were good, but not good enough.
Damn...
I was really going to die.
You'll enjoy it when you die. And you won't go to heaven or hell...
That's enough for me to understand, Ryuk.
Huh?
There's neither heaven nor hell is there?
You really surprise me Light... I thought all humans believed in heaven and hell... Ah, just as you said. Death is equal for everyone.
Damn...
But what did it matter? I wouldn't go to heaven or hell and neither would anyone else. Only Mu, the ultimate equality, awaited us all.
Did any of it matter? Any of it?
And as my chest tightened and blackness overcame my vision, I knew that none of it mattered, none at all... And that much I knew was true.
A/N Another chapter! :) I wrote this in government today.. It's not great but I'm happy with it. Review? :)
