Okay, here's the next update, sorry it took me so long to do this, i've been trying to update all my other stories :)
Btw, this chappie might be a bit more mature than all the others because of; language, suicide attempt, rape references, etc
Enjoy!~
*with sector x- sonic's POV*
These clunky tin suits are annoying the crap outta me. It feels like we're dragging empty tin cans around our ankles. Though I don't want to say anything out loud, and for a good few reasons. One being that ever since Mighkun beat Knuckles, he's been in the most pissy mood, and I don't wanna start a fight with him here. Secondly, I've been so...i don't know, nervous ever since those clones showed up. It's just the way Sonikku looks at me, i hate it. He reminds me of...me...on a really bad day. And I just have that anxious feeling that something really bad is going to expose it self very very soon.
"sonic...Sonic snap outta it!" Knuckles harshly whispered.
"sorry...what were you saying?"
"Humph, I said that I was going to look in that room over there. You and Tails can go and look in that room at the end of the hall. Keep i contact with me with our communicators, okay." Knuckles replied as he walked towards the room.
"Got it, be careful Knux."
"You too, oh...and Sonic"
"Yea."
"...just keep you head in check, keep Tails safe"
I nodded "I will." I know that that is just Knuckles' way of comforting me, even though we don't get along, he can still tell if something is going on with me. I guess that we are friends, or I at least consider us friends.
Tails and I walked to the other room, I noticed that the little guy hasn't said anything since we started walking, actually, he hasn't said anything since the last fight we had with the clones."
"Yo Tails, you alright?" I asked in a hushed whisper.
"huh...yea yea, I'm fine. I just...it's nothing."
"Come on buddy, don't keep secrets from me, just spill it, what's going on?" Man do I feel like hypocrite. I've been hiding so much and I'm telling Tails not to.
"It's just... I feel so guilty about what Miles has done to everyone, he hurt so many people. I know that you will just say "Tails, that isn't you" but I can't help but feel guilty because that is me, a part of me at least."
I could tell that tears were on the way despite his disguise. I feel bad for the little guy, I never though of it that way, I just saw Sonikku as another enemy.
"Hey little guy, I totally understand, and...I get you, i know that this is a lot for you to face and you're being very brave going through with this."
"Sonic..."
"Yea?"
"Why do they exist?"
Sonic and Tails got in the mechanical equipment room and closed the door, looking for clues from Shadow.
"What do you mean?"
"Remember what Mighkun said before, that they exist because we can't admit our faults, that basically means that they are part of us, just... the bad parts.""hum..."
"Does this mean a part of us is evil as well?"
"Well...everyone has a few skeletons in their closet, it doesn't make you evil, it just...i don't know." Sonic admitted.
"Why does your clone exist?" Tails asked as he looked behind a rather large computer.
"Wha...?" I looked over to Tails, hoping that he wasn't asking what I though he was asking.
"Your clone...he's different than the others, he looks like he's been hurt. Everything from the torn outfit, to the cuts, to the stitches on the sides of his mouth. What happened to you?"
I shouldn't have ever doubted that if anyone caught on, it would be Tails, that kid blows my mind sometimes.
"Its complicated little buddy." I answered half heartily, he didn't need to know, no, I was afraid. Afraid of going back to that place that I hid so well in my mind, afraid of what he would think of me, afraid of what I would think of myself.
"That's what he mean" Tails replied.
"What?"
"We're afraid to come clean about our past, even if we are friends, that is what Eggman has on us, that's what he's using against us."
Tails was right, he was the only one that got the riddle. The reason why they were so strong was because they we our skeletons in our closet, our hidden secrets. And when you keep a secret for too long, it controls you more than you control it, even though you think you're in control. That genius of a 12 year old finally found it out, I knew that he would be the first to understand this.
Well it is just him and I in here, so i mines well just come clean.
"Alright little guy, here's what happened."
*flashback 8 years in the past*
8 year old Sonic ran through the forest in a desperate attempt to get home. He knew that they were hot on his trail, he knew that they would catch up any minute and hurt him again. He could see it, just a bit more, a bit further. If only they didn't take his shoes, he could have been home by now, but they didn't want their prey getting away.
CRASH
Sonic hit the ground, curled up from the pain in his back after he was struck to the ground.
"Didn't we tell you about trying to run from us Bitch"
"We weren't done playing with you yet"
"Now lets finish off where we started!"
"And remember, speak a word of this to anyone, and we'll make you wish that you were never born! got it?"
Sonic could feel his heart pounding in his chest as one of the boys held him down and tore his new black and white outfit and the other took his position on top of him. He didn't know why the boys did this to him almost every night, but I was too scared to even think of that. He just laid there, tears streaming down his bruised cheeks, waiting for the all too familiar pain to come.
~few hours later~
The little furred hedgehog limped the rest of the way home, feeling disgusted by the blood and semen mixture running down his legs. He opened the door silently, careful no to wake his parents, and ran up the stairs to the bathroom. He wanted to take a bath and wash the scum off of himself, but he just didn't feel like it anymore, he was too use to the pain, too use to feeling like a whore because of the things they said to him and the things that they made him do.
"I just want it to go away, make the pain go away..." The boy reached up for his father's razor blade case and pulled out a fresh one before sinking to the floor. He caressed the blade before slowly slicing it over his arms and legs, repeating the same thing."...make the pain go away, make the pain go away..."
*end flashback*
"...make the pain go away, that was the only thing I wanted, the only thing I could think of. And I was too scared to do anything about, I just let it happen." I was too scared to look up to Tails' face. I was suppose to be his hero, now what did he think of me?
"...Sonic, I...I don't know what to say, i'm so sorry Sonic. I had no idea." Tails had removed his helmet and I saw the tears running from those innocent blue eyes. He ran up and hugged me, whispering how sorry he was, I felt bad for making him so upset.
"Its alright little buddy, I guess...that's kinda why I'm the way I am now."
Tails looked up and wiped his tears, "huh...what do you mean?"
"I decided from then on to live my life for justice, and to make sure that nothing like that ever would happen to anyone else. I guess that's why I'm so passionate about justice and freedom, because I have lived through that, and I want so badly to protect others like how I wished that I could have been protected back then." I gave Tails a smile, and he smiled back as he placed his helmet next to him.
"I guess I had better come clean also..." Tails' eyes casted downward as he took a seat on the box next to his helmet. I forgot, since Tails has a clone too, that mean that he must also have a few skeletons in his closet, I just hope that they aren't the same as mine, I couldn't take knowing that someone took advantage of my little buddy. Though he must have noticed my assumptions because he was looking everywhere but at my face right now, he needed my to be strong and understanding for him, this isn't an easy thing to do after all.
I gave him a nod as a sign to begin, he cleared his throat.
*flashback 6 years ago*
The young 6 year old Kitsune glanced down at his twin tails, they were the cause of all his problems after all. He sat in a cold metal cage in an organization unknown from the government for good reasons. If they had know about this, it would have been shut down right away.
Their purpose was simple, collect species with rare genes, and do open experiments on them in order to copy their genes and find out why they have them. Having twin tails was a very rare gene, only few had it, and many who didn't feared those who did, calling them mutants and sending them away. Though to those who wanted this gene, they would try and duplicate the test subject's DNA, a process that is not easy, quick or painless. Hour after hour, day after day, the young kitsune laid strapped to a metal table, and had bright lights shinned down on him as he was poked and prodded at with various tools, most of them used for torture in case the "subject" doesn't cooperate.
The Kitsune was flipped began to scream as a rather sharp needle was slammed into his back, taking a sample of the spinal fluid.
"Doctor, isn't their some way to cause him less pain?" Asked a young new worker
"It doesn't matter was the mutant feels, he's just a test subject, soon enough you'll get use to it and his screams won't mean anything to you."
He was right, after a few weeks, the young worker didn't feel anything as the child was put through various tests and experiments, day in and day out.
*end flashback*
I clenched and unclenched my fists in a feeble attempt to calm myself down.
"They used you...as a lab rat?" I spoke slowly through clenched teeth. All self pity I had for myself was now gone as I imagined someone hurting my little buddy, ignoring his cries for help, how could they!
Tails nodded slowly as he patted his two tails. "It's strange, I used to look at my tails as a curse, but now they're my best asset."
Tails gave me a small smile as he place his helmet back on and I followed suit.
"We never did find anything about where Shadow could be, we got too caught up." Tails spoke in the silence.
"Yea but, I'm glad we did. I've...never told that stuff to anyone, and I feel closer to you than ever because I finally let it all out. I feel so relieved." I really did, "and I'm glad that you trusted me enough to tell me that stuff about you."
"It wasn't that I didn't trust you Sonic, I just...didn't want to go back, I didn't want to remember all that stuff."
I nodded my head in understanding, "That's the same way I felt, but I'm glad that we did talk about it."
Tails and I headed for the door when I noticed that Knuckles had been in the door way waiting for us the whole time.
"K-Knuckles, oh...I didn't know that you were waiting. How long have you been there?"
"Long enough, I didn't want to interrupt you two or make you feel uncomfortable, so I didn't say anything. I'm...sorry if you all didn't want me knowing just yet, about all that...stuff"
I could tell that it was pretty awkward for him, but since I told Tails, he might as well know while I was telling, because I wasn't gonna repeat the story.
"Well the more who know, the less those clones have against us. And I feel that we just got a lot tighter as friends, with being able to share our secrets and what not." I replied, walking over to Knuckles, Tails following suit.
Knuckles nodded his head as we took off down the hallway.
"Sonic...Tails..."
"Yea Knuckles," we both replied.
"...You two are pretty tough..."
"Hah, you know it Knuckle-head" Tails and I snickered and he growled playfully.
It was just my way of thanking him for his approval.
TBC
Bit of a longer chapter with lots of info and dialogue, the next two chapter will be kinda similar, delving into he minds of our clones and their originals. Poor Sonic and Tails:( Same thing, any questions or anything and just send me a message. Please R AND R and tell me what you think so far, later!
