We're at awkward level orange in this chapter, be prepared.
It was Tuesday and Finn hadn't spoken much to anyone. And he tried not to think about the kiss, about the fact that Daniel's lips were as sweet and ripe as a red pomegranate and that he felt it a little in his crotch. He'd never had feelings for a boy before, except for friendship, but there was something very strange about this particular boy. He couldn't stop thinking about him, or trying not to think about him, and it freaked him out. It freaked him out so much that he pretended to sleep the entire two hour train ride home, he spent his lunch hours in the computer lab and had stayed in the student union until they kicked him out every night since the party just to avoid going back to the room, thanking his lucky stars that Daniel was always asleep when he got back. He wasn't just avoiding Daniel though, he avoided everyone who attended the party. He wasn't sure what he was going to do when glee practice rolled around but he figured he'd cross that rickety bridge when he came to it.
"Hey Finn, can we talk?" Kurt said, sitting next to him in the library.
"No, it's the library, you're supposed to be quiet," Finn said. He knew that one of them would track him down eventually, but that didn't make it any less painful.
"Look, I'm not judging you, nobody's judging you. But I saw that kiss, we all did, and if there's something you need to get off your chest…"
"There isn't!" Finn snapped.
"Shh!" went the librarian.
"Very cliché of her," Kurt said under his breath. "Look Finn, I've been through this exact situation and it's never easy."
"I'm not gay Kurt," Finn said quietly but firmly.
"I know, but did you ever consider that you might be bi? According to Blaine it's a real thing."
"Can you just drop it? Please?"
"Okay, you can talk about it when you're ready. I just wanted to say watch out for Daniel."
"Trust me he's the last person I want to talk to right now."
"It's just that I think he's hiding something, I don't know what but it's definitely something."
"Could we not talk about Daniel," Finn said.
"Okay, I'm going. Just remember, if you ever want to talk I'm here." Kurt put his hand on Finn's shoulder and squeezed a little before getting up to go.
Finn sat there for a few minutes, trying to read the Arthur Ashe Biography he'd selected and finding himself stuck on the same sentence until finally he groaned in frustration, slammed the book shut and shot up from his chair, needing to splash some cold water on his face.
She had to talk to him, she knew it was best to give him his space, which was why she pretended to be asleep when he came back to the dorm and left in the morning, but at that point it had been three days, and she couldn't fight it anymore. She had kissed boys before, mostly for plays, but kissing Finn was a new experience entirely. She felt his kiss everywhere, and as soon as he pushed her away her body ached for more. As crazy as it was, she knew he felt something too, and even though he seemed thoroughly dedicated to avoiding her she knew that she needed to confront him about it. And as she spotted him going into the boy's bathroom she knew that it was her chance.
"Finn, we need to talk," Rachel said forcefully going in after him, locking the door and cornering him completely.
"You, stay away from me," Finn seethed.
"Look, about the party."
"Nothing happened," he snapped, seeming more scared than angry. "It was just a stupid game and it didn't mean anything okay."
"Oh yeah?" She said, crossing her arms. "Then why did you shove your tongue in my mouth?"
Finn shifted his eyes back and forth, making sure nobody else was around. "That's a crock, you put your tongue in my mouth," he whispered sharply.
"I didn't hear you protesting."
"Look, you're a cool guy and everything, but I really don't think we should hang out anymore," Finn said.
"Finn, I'm your roommate," She said.
"And today I'm going to talk to Figgins about switching rooms."
"You know why I think you're so anxious to get rid of me?" She said, inching toward him.
"Look you know I don't have any problem with your lifestyle, I accept it. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm not like you," He said. "I'm… I'm not gay."
"And what makes you think I'm gay?"
"Dude, you put your tongue in my mouth!" Finn repeated.
"And I think you liked it a little bit," she said confidently.
"I didn't… I mean, you… I can't," Finn rambled.
"You know what I think? I think the reason you're being such a jerk right now is because you're attracted to me and you just don't know what to do about it," she continued, making Finn more and more uncomfortable with every word.
"Could you please just leave me alone?"
"Sure, if you can look me in the eye and tell me straight out that you don't want to kiss me again."
He tried not to look him in the eye, but found it impossible, as Daniel looked at him unflinchingly it had almost a hypnotic effect, it was as if he was staring right through him, picking apart his defenses one by one until before Finn knew it he was cupping The other boy's face and his lips were on his again, and Daniel's hands were grasping Finn's shirt at his hips, trying not to lose his balance. And he kissed him so deeply and longingly that he knew that there was no going back, and Finn's heart felt as if it would leap out of his chest it was beating so damn hard, and they backed clumsily into the nearest stall as they kissed, Finn's hand pressed against the back wall. 1,000 thoughts shot through Finn's head as he continued to make out with his tiny roommate, kind of liking the way he tangled his fingers in Finn's messy hair as he caressed Daniel's neck with kisses, baffled by how soft his skin was, and how good he smelled and just how much he was enjoying this and just how much he wanted him. Finn shut the stall door with his foot and continued to hungrily kiss and nibble at the warm, silky skin of his neck as Daniel began to run his hands under Finn's shirt making his skin tingle at the contact.
"Oh Finn," She panted before he attacked her lips again and jerked her small body into his broad one almost angrily, and she moved her hands from under his shirt and cupped his face, deepening the kiss even more. She was so transfixed by him that she didn't remember to disguise her voice as she called out his name, and he was so into it that he didn't seem to notice. But as mindblowingly amazing as it was to be with him that way she knew it wouldn't last, sooner or later he would remember that she was supposed to be a boy and he was supposed to be straight.
"What the fuck is happening!" Finn said pushing her away forcefully. Unfortunately it was sooner. "You, why the hell are you so soft?" He continued, looking angry and confused and afraid.
"Finn, I'm going to tell you something, and you have to promise not to freak out okay?" She knew it was time, it wasn't fair for her to keep doing this to him.
"You mean even more than I'm freaking out right now? Not sure if that's possible," He said, shaking his head. "Wait, why did your voice change?"
"I'm going to show you something," And at that she pulled off her sweater vest, loosened her tie and began to unbutton her shirt, and although Finn grimaced a little he didn't stop her as she opened the shirt, revealing the bandage holding down the modest swell of her breasts.
"Did you get injured?" Finn said confusedly.
"Not exactly," and with that she began unwrapping the bandage, feeling like it took a lot longer than she would have liked. She kept unwrapping it, not breaking eye contact until she unwrapped it completely and dropped it to the floor. "This is what I wanted to show you," She finally said, pointing to her breasts, small and covered by her bra but still very present.
"Oh my god I kissed a guy with boobs," Finn said running his hands over his head exasperatedly. God he was slow, thank god for that ass, she thought to herself.
"I'm not a guy Finn," she said hesitantly. "I'm an actress."
I assure you, Finn's not gay or bi in this story. Although there certainly wouldn't be anything wrong with him if he were, he's simply so drawn to Rachel that he's even attracted to her when she's a boy, although I'm sure you figured that out on your own. How's Finn going to react now that he knows the truth? Stay tuned to find out.
