Im back! Im not sure about my writers block yet, i think its mostly gone, so that's good news. The other reason why I have not been updating is because I honestly haven't had the time too. Ive been busy, honestly; surprisingly I have a life! haha! Anyway sorry for the late update but enjoy this chapter.

After the whole Austin looking at me and agreeing with me about the sky being beautiful was weird, but I couldn't help but to feel this tingling in my stomach and the urge to kiss him right then and there; which I resisted due to the fact I don't believe in love and I've never had my first kiss so I wouldn't know what to do.

After that situation and two more days of staying with the hot blonde and- did I just, nope no I didn't, that did NOT happening guys! I didn't not say that! Anyway..After stay with my good friend Austin and his awesome physic Mom, today was Monday, also known as the day I go back to hell. Just so you guys agree or not, I have a right to call it hell; I felt something wasn't going to be good about today and that's a fact. My day is going to be awful and I know it. whatever reason, only God knows.

I sigh, I'm talking to myself...great.

I decide taking a shower would do me good and since I have plenty of time(since its like 6;30 and I go to school about 8ish) I will take a shower! Maybe that will wash all away these bad thoughts and feelings of having a bad day, but I cant help it. Its a gut feeling and I always believe my guts.

I push MY covers off of me; I decided that after the whole "Yes it is beautiful" thing between Austin and me I needed space between me and him. Don't know about him but I needed it.

I walk to my dresser, with one touch flashbacks of the night I decided to stand up to that bastard and used it to help me with my mission. I pushed the thoughts back, while hes gone I do not want to think about him, especially when im about to take a shower, talk about ew. I grabbed my clothes and when to my bathroom. While turning on the shower and testing if the water is hot enough, my mind started swarming about with today might bring. I guess it didn't work.

but I haven't got in yet, I thought.

Yeah that must be it.

I stripped down and got in the shower grabbed the shampoo and stared running the soap threw my hair. I smile at the hot water trickling throughout my hair. Maybe I'll trip in the cafeteria and break my nose.

I stopped and my eyes narrowed, whatever I don't got time for this. I grab the conditioner and run that through my hair. I get raped by Rapist Robert, don't I? "OH COME ON!"

If I was going to have a bad day, there's a 75% chance physical harm will come to me. SO! With that in mind, no dresses, I cant have me slip and everyone to see my panties. Also, no white shirts nothing see through. So jeans and converse, and maybe a Pink v neck shirt with angel wings on the back. Ooo! I like that!

You're talking to yourself again, werido, says the voice in my head. I roll my eyes in annoyance, Ive hated that voice and always will.

Anyways, I like that outfit. I grab those clothes including the light blue ripped jeans and my white high top converse. As I was getting dressed, I thought about my hair and makeup. Wow I was taking this whole 'bad day' thing seriously...

I decided to have my make up natural, so little eyeliner and no mascara; today might finally be the day Tilly jumps me with a water gun. I also decided on not even doing my hair at all. I didn't even dry it, and let my hair have it on natural waves that Ive grown used too. I grab my Indian styled backpack and left the house and waled to school. I was about 7:45 and I didn't want to be late at all like all the other times. I'm a nerd, sorry! I heard laughter on the other side of the sidewalk, and I already knew who it was, Willie and his gang. I lower my head and hope that he doesn't recognize me because I'm wearing a tight shirt.

Sure enough they didn't, they turned right; probably to be late to school and eat or something. Speaking of school, I looked at my phones clock. Its was 7:55, Shit! I quicken my pace.

I sat down right when the bell rang, I was lucky and finally I'm not late. I smile of success and drop my stuff down by my desk. I let out a sigh of relief and look over to Austins seat. My smile dropped, he wasn't here. I begin to worry as my eyebrows scrunch up together, Where could he be.

Maybe he over slept, the voice says. Yeah maybe he did.

Mrs. Piper handed out papers we had to work on till the bell, it was math. I roll my eyes, I hate Math, but I'm good at it, so I accept the paper and continue working on the problems when vibrations of laughter and footsteps messed up my pretty number 2 I wrote. I look up right when the door opens with a bang, there is the one and only blondie right here, laughing with his hair messed up, with his arms around two blondes. the blondes hair was messed up too and they were trying to fix it and fix their clothes too. did Austin just have-? Of course he did. I sigh, idiot. I guess he did over sleep..with a bunch of sluts.

" ! Ladies! Mrs. Piper yells. Still laughing and face still red Austin answers, "Yes Miss. Pooper?" The class snorted, and I sat there shocked and was observing the whole situation. "Sit down!" she yells at him, her face was red with anger and embarrassment, pssh now she knows how I feel. "Fine" Austin says bored, he lets go of the blondes. He looks up and locks eyes with me. AS I stare into his beautiful hazel/ auburn eyes, it was like looking at another person, he wasn't Austin.

"Sup nerd!" He smirks and a few laugh. I raise an eyebrow with my mouth slightly open. "Close your mouth baby," he says, "No one wants to smell your stinky breath." The class rumbled with laughter. I closed my mouth immediately, and look down at my paper making my hair cover up face that was red with embarrassment. "Mr. Moon! Have a seat!" I hear. then I hear a body sit down in a chair with his arms laying on the table.

I never in a million of years thought Austin would do that. Is he the same boy that had saved me from my bullies, tell me something that was from his past? The boy that had saved me again at the party, and let me stay the night at his house? The boy who got all happy of pancakes like a 3 year old, the boy who looked me in the eyes and told me I was beautiful like the sky? if not, where the hell is he because I do not like this boy next to me. I mean he just humiliated me in front of the whole class, like what the fuck?! I thought he cared enough about me to not do that, I mean he did tackle me to the ground just to save me from the bullies. I took a shaky breath in.

Why is this affecting me so much? He just like any regular guy, and I get bullied on a regular basis.

Maybe because he realized you're an annoying little girl, and you're so sensitive. Grow up you baby! The voice says. I closed my eyes tightly and pushed her back. I didn't want to talk to her. I wanted and needed to talk to Austin about this, but not now, I need chill out first. I raise my head and turn to him and with one glance down I mumble to him, "buckle your belt," and with that I turn back to my work and just stare at it. I didn't want nor needed to do it.

3 periods have gone by and I feel a boost of confidence to talk to Austin now. With passing period still in progress, I'm going to confront him. He's over talking to his friends with a call him name. He looks at him and tells his friends to hang on with his pointer finger as he walks over to me. when hes arms reach of me he puts his hands in his pockets and smile, "Hey whats up?" I blink and my eyes got big after that. Is he serious right now. Anger just boiled through me.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now?" I ask. my eyebrows were together and he could tell I was pissed. "What?" His voice became high pitched. "You embarrassed me in front of me in front of everybody." He laughs slightly, "Oh yeah, no hard feelings." he says. "No hard feelings?!" I yell. he takes a step back. "Yeah, calm down. you're acting like a bitch." I took in a big breath and tried to control my fist. "Look Austin you can fight the river, but you don't have to stomp on the fish in there to help you do so!" I yell. I try to walk away after that but he grabbed my forearm, "Stop being a big baby. You know your so stupid Ally!"I try to get out of his grasp, he wouldn't let go. He wasn't hurting me though. He pushed me up against the lockers. "You cant understand that was joke, not for you but for everybody because no one likes you!" My heart was beating fast and I sucked up all the tears in my body. "No one will ever like you! You're a push over Ally and a big baby, that's why its SO funny when you get hurt. Grow up." Austin says.

His words hurt like a tons of bricks. I could have taken it from anybody else but him, because hes the one person that made me feels special, unique, important...loved. but, now- I feel like a dead stick used to make fire. A tear escaped the corner of my eye. "Maybe your right," I whisper to only where he could hear. By now the bell already rang and were the only ones in the hallway. I didn't meet eyes with Austin throughout this whole scene between us, but I felt his eyes boring through my head. I out my hands on his chest, and lightly push him off me, and he let go of me too. I take a few steps away before Austin called me again, but it wasn't the Austin I just heard. "Ally I didn't mean-" I stopped, "I know what you meant," I say. and I continue on. I didn't go to my class. I went home. I was wiping my tears away and going through every word he had just said to me.

Maybe he was right, maybe I should grow up and stop being such a push over and a baby.

Well one thing was for certain the 25% chance of emotional harm happened to me. Maybe that 75% chance will come later on today.

As I walk into my house I look up with my red eyes I saw the last person I wanted to see, Lester. I was suddenly wanting to go back to school and hug Austin and tell him im sorry and tell him my life story, but I knew I couldn't, Not now. The 75% chance had come. "Hello Allyson," Lester greeted with his evil smile. "Lester," I acknowledged him.

That night I got beat, I got beat till Lester got tired, and I didn't try to fight. TO me that beating was a punishment...an enlightenment. I knew what I had to be in this world at that moment, and I was going to show Austin, and the whole school the new me, The me that would save my life. I would start tomorrow, but that night all I wanted to do was cry.

Well! There it is! This chapter is really sad, and its VERY important for the entire story. I hope you guys liked it. So do you guys think my writers block is gone?

Till the next time ~Laura~