Last night, his moves were so calculated. He knew exactly what he wanted out of each moment. I did as well. I think about last night as I crawl onto his bed and I feel my tummy tingle with the first memory. I feel his hand on my hip as he comes up behind me. I feel Edward envelop me as we lie here together and I remember being here, in the dark with him, last night.
I felt a little bashful as he removed my shoe. He kissed my ankle before taking the other shoe off. I heard it hit the floor as he reached over his shoulders, with his arms crossed, lifting his shirt. Abs that peeked out from beneath the soft, green cotton were barely visible, yet the fluorescent light illuminated just enough to make me feel a little dizzy and so full of lust.
Higher and higher, the soft green cotton lifted like a curtain until the material gathered underneath each armpit.
His elbows moved and, slowly, I watched him pull his shirt over his head, until it was off.
I looked at him... at his chest.
He was standing in front of me, wearing only jeans, staring straight at me.
Chills
Shirt tossed over the chair, he climbed onto the bed and straddled my legs. He was huge above me and my eyes were drawn to his jeans, his belt, his chest and up-up-up to his eyes. So gorgeous.
He softly blinked as he smiled down at me and then he reached with both hands to my waist as he hovered above. His hands were soft and warm as they rubbed a straight line from my belly button to my neck. His face was now closer, and I could sense him inhale right above me. I felt giggly as his hands moved to my neck but I held it in because I didn't want to ruin the moment. His eyes were so amazing in the florescent blue, purple, yellow and red and lights.
He brought his mouth so close to mine and as soon as his lips touched my lips, the blood began to rush. Lightly at first, Edward's open mouth kisses were just that. I felt his tongue dance lightly on mine and a burst of confetti emotion popped open inside of me.
I immediately missed his lips on mine when I felt the soft trail of kisses move to my cheek, down to my neck and then back up to my ear. His voice was low and the need was thick when he spoke.
"Do you ever think about fucking me?"
Lightning struck between my legs as he lifted to look me in the eyes.
He had never said anything so provocative to me. Pure want and desperate need were the only emotions identifiable with my next movements. I moved my hands from his upper back down to his butt as I grabbed, pushing him into me.
"Yes."
His jeans pressed against my middle, I could feel the ridge of his zipper and I wanted to feel so much more.
So much more of him.
I was breathing hard already. My body moved without my consent. He had taken me over with just a few sweet kisses and six sexy words.
I moved my hand from his ass to his chin as he ground into me and I lifted up to kiss him. Softly sucking his tongue into my mouth to show him.
To show him the need I had for him.
His lips were like silky pillows as he sealed another kiss and spoke with lips still on mine, eyes wide open.
Grind
"Is it me, you think about when he's inside of you?"
Thrilling tingles rushed through me hearing Edward say those things to me.
His hip moved over to rest on the bed as his knee came up to meet my most sensitive place.
I covered his lips with want once more and he broke the kiss, soft and sweet with a peck. He wouldn't give me his tongue. Not until I had answered his questions.
Satisfied his curiosity.
His hand moved down, down to my knee and then softly, slowly caressed upward, under my skirt. I felt his fingers right where I wanted them. Right where my blood pooled and my secrets laid.
"Is it me, you think about when he's inside of you? Tell me."
Tingle
"It's you. It's been you for months now." I whispered with want.
His eyes were serious. He was fully focused. All concentration.
He kissed me as he brought his arm under my neck to cradle my head as his fingers pulled my panties to the side.
Tingle
My heart was pounding and my legs unconsciously spread wider with the anticipation of his touch. I knew, without a doubt, that I was already wet.
I opened my eyes and his were open too. We kissed like this… with my hand on his ribs, his hand on me… between my legs.
My eyes closed with pleasure as I felt the softest fingertip slide so lightly between my slickest skin. His finger slid up and down my velvet pink and I could feel how aroused I must have been when he slid his finger in tight circles, slowly over the top of me.
He continued his caress... his fingers dancing up and down, in twirly circles as feelings of ecstasy bubbled up inside. I closed my eyes as I let out a soft moan when his finger went lower, away from my most tender spot.
"Look at me. I want you to look at me while I explore you. Don't close your eyes. I want you to see how much I want you, let me see what I do to you."
Kiss
His eyes burned into me. "I want you to watch me. Don't close your eyes."
Kiss
I smiled. "Okay." I blinked bashfully at him and he smiled back. I noticed his chest, the definition of the muscles in his neck, shoulders and pecs.
A butterfly fluttered through me as he leaned down to kiss my neck and then he whispered in my ear. My eyes continued to gaze down his chest, to the trail of hair that led to the place I had thought about for months now. I could see that he wanted me through his jeans and it made me buck my hips as his fingers explored and he whispered into my ear.
"You don't know how long I've waited for you. To have you in my bed like this... to be this close to you."
His fingers pressed against me then.
"To touch you here." Ecstasy briefly shot through me at the pressure as he continued speaking. "I've tried to imagine, dozens of times, what you would feel like, look like... taste like."
His finger moved back up my slick center as he made slow, soft swirls, spreading my arousal around.
"Do you ever think about me touching you like this?"
I inhaled, spreading my legs wider and brought my lips to his to kiss him. I didn't want to talk, I just wanted to feel. I wanted his tongue. I just wanted to suck on his tongue as he touched me that way but he wouldn't give in. He wanted my full attention.
"Answer me."
His eyes bored into mine. I admired his masculine, sharp jaw, his skilled fingers, beautiful mouth, crystal eyes and the sex in his tone drove me wild.
"Yes." I squeezed my eyes shut as my body tensed with need while he touched me. I'd never stared anyone in the eyes while being touched this way. It made it so much more erotic.
"God, yes."
I closed my eyes, reaching up to him with a kiss, as I tried to suckle on his tongue again as he teased me with just the tip of his finger but he wouldn't give me a distraction to lose myself in. He wanted me to stay there in each moment with him. He wanted one hundred percent and I got it. I understood, because I wanted the same thing. He wanted me to experience every thing I saw and felt, not just get lost in the kiss, the orgasm or the touch of his fingers but to commit each moment to memory. He told me this.
"I want you to remember every second of this. Don't close your eyes. Look at me."
His finger moved to press against my entrance.
I was feeling so many things at once. I was so turned on, slightly embarrassed, intimidated, and I was a bit insecure.
Edward seemed so confident- so experienced and I wondered briefly if he had said these same things to other girls. I questioned if he had done these same things to someone else.
My moment of insecurity quickly passed as he kissed me again, eyes wide open and he spoke, mouth still on mine.
"I want you to watch me while I take you. Don't hide in the pleasure, be here with me." A rush of pleasure was unleashed as his finger slowly, so fucking slowly, I felt it enter me.
My walls pulsed and squeezed with want, as I felt him bend his finger inside to prod that spot that made me feel so much at one time. That one spot, inside, that could make me come undone with just the right amount of pressure. Another finger joined and took the same hook shape as he teased me with two slow pumps. His thumb rubbed soft circles over my clit as he moved his fingers inside of me and I wanted to let it all go right then and there.
In
Blink
Out
Inhale
In
Blink
Out
I exhaled as a pleasant shivers ran through me. The feeling was so intense as he nudged and pressed right there. Right in those perfect spots inside and outside.
With my eyes staring into his, his mouth on mine, he broke the kiss and lifted up just enough to bring the fingers that were inside me, to his lips.
He stared intensely as his fingers slowly disappeared into his mouth and one by one, reappeared. His thumb separated my bottom lip from the top one as he leaned back down to my face, taking my lip into his mouth, and sucking just lightly enough to make me physically hurt between my legs.
"The way you taste. I've been curious for so long... so good."
His smile was so bright as he spoke again. "I'll eat you alive, girl." He growled as he leaned back down to bury his head in my neck.
I brought my hand to the hair at the back of his neck and just breathed. I was lost. I closed my eyes and was so lost in an emotional cloud and I could only shakily breathe in and out and feel the flutters. It was too intense to look him in the eye as he said those things to me. It was just too much. It was embarrassing.
I heard his zipper open and I could feel the loss of his touch in the most painful way. His fingers found their way back to me as I moved my thigh to search out what he had unzipped. He was hard as a rock but the flesh was silky soft on my thigh.
"Open up, baby" With his hand on my thigh, he kissed my eyelids and I opened my eyes to look at him smiling.
He was smiling and it was the most beautiful thing in this world. His teeth and the whites of his eyes were glowing from the black light which only made the moment so much more bizarrely beautiful.
His hand moved to tug on my panties.
"Let's get these off of you."
His tongue was in my mouth that time and his hands were all over me. My eyes were wide open, staring into his as we kissed and my body free fell into feelings of luscious lust. The words 'I love you' traveled through my mind but I didn't dare say them.
A/N: Thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this. This is so therapeutic, getting this out of my head. Thank you to all of you, that read and review :) I love you guys and your reviews more than the beloved satin quilted jacket Gosling wears in Drive.
