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Chapter 8- Stay with me

I got home feeling –quite frankly- like shit. My eyes were sore and puffy and I was exhausted from crying so much. I threw my jacket towards the couch when I walked threw my front door and ran my hand threw my already messy hair. Missy walked out from the kitchen wiping her hands on a dishtowel.

"So…. how was it?" She asked uneasily clutching the towel.

All I did was look at her with my red-rimmed eyes knowing she'd understand my answer.

"Oh. I see."

I walked past her and up the stairs, down the hall and to my bedroom. I shut my door behind me and flopped face down on my bed. My body felt like I hadn't slept in days. Crying always had that effect on me. I felt like I didn't want to be alone. My mind wanted to be close to someone. I could have Missy come up here and sit with me but she'd want to talk. She would babble on and on until I got angry. Haruhi would gladly come over but she'd want to chat with Missy and those two would make even more noise. I could always go see Kaoru. But would he be mad?

I rolled off of my bed thinking, There's only one way to find out.

I decided to walk to his home. It wouldn't be that long of a walk. Sure enough it only took me fifteen minutes to walk there and when I knocked Mrs. Hitachiin answered with a slight smile.

"He's in his room." She murmured letting me inside.

I walked past her and to the stairs. My feet felt like weights. I automatically knocked on the door. No answer. My fist came in contact with the door once more.

"Kao-ru." I murmured, my voice breaking.

Still no answer.

My brow furrowed and I placed my hand on the doorknob. With a sigh I opened the door and my heart plummeted.

"Kaoru!" I yelled racing towards him.

My foot hit the door and it slammed shut as I ran. Kaoru was sitting on his bed with an intimidating gun pressed against the side of his head.

"No!" I dove on top of him.

His body fell against the bed and I managed to get his finger off of the trigger. I was pressing his shoulder to the bed with my left hand and holding the gun on the bed with my right.

"How could you?" I whimpered, tears beginning to stream down my cheeks.

He only gazed into my eyes. Seconds later I shook his shoulder, "Answer me!"

He sighed and closed his eyes. "I want to be wherever he is."

I sighed placing my left hand on his cheek. "Kaoru…please look at me." Reluctantly he opened his eyes and looked into mine. "Suicide is absolutely not the answer. I've tried to kill myself too. Missy helped me see what I'd leave behind. It's cowardly. You were put on this world for a reason and you will be taken out when it is your time. Hikaru's time has come and gone but you're far from it." He showed no response, not even a blink. "How could you leave me?" One of my many tears fell from my face and hit his cheek.

This caused him to blink and snap out of his trance. "I-I just need to be with him and I figured once you heard…well...you'd be right behind me." He stumbled over his words.

I was shocked and slightly confused.

"You-you thought I'd kill myself to be with you…Well you're wrong. I'm not taking myself out of this world. I know I have something to live for and so do you. And whose saying that when your gone you'd be with him." I said my voice raising.

His fingers wrapped around mine, around the gun.

"Shoot me." He murmured.

I immediately tore my hand away from his and threw the gun across the room.

"Don't be stupid!" I yelled gripping at the collar of his shirt and shaking him violently. "I need you here with me damn it! You're the only thing…the only thing that makes me happy anymore." My tears turned to sobs.

I sat on top of Kaoru over his waist, my head hanging down with tears rolling down my cheeks and onto his shirt.

"Angel…" Kaoru whispered.

That's when I felt a pair of strong hands winde around my waist and pull me down onto him.

"I'm so sorry." He murmured into my ear.

"Damn right you are." I wailed into his shirt.

He rubbed my back and kissed my head repeatedly. "I won't do it. I won't kill myself. I promise you that. I'll stay with you."

"Mhm." Was all I could manage as I continued to sob.

"Shh…I'll stay here…stay with you." Kaoru whispered into my ear.

About an hour later I had almost completely stopped crying. I was cuddled up at Kaoru's side. He had his arms around me and his lips were pressed against my forehead.

"Don't. You. Ever. Do. That. To me. Again. I hiccupped.

"I won't. I swear. I promise." He vowed against my forehead.

"Hmm." I hummed feeling myself drift away.

My eyes fluttered open due to the bright sunlight shining threw a window. I opened my eyes to see Kaoru's face above me and the surroundings of his room. I sat up and Kaoru's embrace around me fell.

"Kaoru." I murmured poking at his face. "Kaoooruu." I said drowning out his name.

His eyes fluttered open and a smile spread across his face.

"Hi." He whispered.

"I should go home." I murmured sliding my legs off of his bed. "We have school tomorrow."

"Wait." He said sitting up.

I turned around to see Kaoru's face millimeters away from mine. He closed the distance between our lips. I was surprised but didn't back away. When he pulled away I felt like he took half of me with him.

"See you tomorrow." He said.

"Kay." I said standing up.

I left his home in a daze without his mother noticing.

"So where'd you spend the night." Missy wondered as I walked in the front door of my home.

"Kaoru's." I murmured.

A sinister smirk crossed her face.

"Oh. I see." She said slyly.

"Okay no. Not what you think." I started up towards my room. "I went to see him and ended up falling asleep."

"Mhm sure." She giggled.

As I walked up the stairs flashed her the middle finger.

I walked into my room and opened the bathroom door next to my closet.

I turned on the water in the shower and began to discard my clothing. I stepped in and let the hot water run over my body.

When I was finished I walked out into my room, Missy was dusting my room and humming to herself. Ignoring her I walked into my closet and dawned a white tank top and matching leggings. As I walked out Missy stared at me.

"What?" I wondered.

She cocked her head to the side. "You look different." She smiled.

I only raised one eyebrow.

"Like…good different." She added reassuringly.

"O-kay." I said questionably.

"I hope you keep seeing Kaoru." She said slipping out of my room. "Whenever you come back from his place your face seems to soften a little. I don't know … I mean you look… happier."

"Umm…Alright than." I said smiling to myself and walking over to my bed to search for my diary.

Sorry I know this chapter is some- what short but I have writers block big time. Review please!