i am not Beyonce, these are her songs.
Merle woke to singing. He thought for a moment he was in a dream, but a quick glance out the window to the gimping figures outside declared that impossible. Merle sat up and looked around the room; Beth was gone and he could hear a shower running. Figuring that was where Beth was, Merle leaned back and listened to her sing.
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out.
The lyrics hit Merle in the chest. Last night had been the best night of Merle's life, bar none. Only thing comparable was the day Daryl was born. But this was different. Beth chose him. Beth wanted to be with Merle more then any other man. He was her first. And she wanted Merle to be her only.
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
Addicted. That was a good word for it. What Merle was feeling. Even now, it wasn't just lust. He loved Beth. Loved her more then any other addiction. He loved how she smiled, how she talked, how right it felt to fall asleep with her in his arms. Merle knew he loved Beth. Was addicted to her. All he wanted was to make her smile, protect her. And love her.
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
Merle smirked softly as he thought of Beth. if anyone had a halo, it was her. Beth really was his saving grace. With out her, Merle would be dead right now. That was plain and simple. That girl risked her life to save his, and did it with out knowing Merle loved her.
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Merle leaned over and grabbed a condom from the box he had opened last night. he stood up and walked out of the room, down the hallway and stood outside the bath room. From inside, he could hear the singing continue, but a new song.
Honey, honey
I can see the stars all the way from here
Can't you see the glow on the window pane?
I can feel the sun whenever you're near
Every time you touch me I just melt away
Merle quietly entered the room as Beth continued singing. She had her back to him, but Merle had a full view as Beth washed. He smirked as he walked up to the shower.
Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
You're the only one I see.
Come on baby it's you.
"need me angel?"
Beth shrieked and spun around. She held her hands to her face before slapping at merle thru the curtain. Merle smirked as he watched her reaction.
"you scared the hell out of me!"
Merle chuckled and shook his head. "I'm a bad influence baby if you gonna be talkin' like that."
Beth laughed and reached over and pulled Merle into the shower. Merle leaned down and kissed Beth, pulling her close. He loved how petite she was beside him, how she stretched to kiss him. Their tongues dueled for several minutes, before Merle pulled away gasping for air.
"still need me angel?"
Beth smirked and sang.
Baby it's you.
You're the one I love.
You're the one I need.
As she sang, Beth pressed her body against Merle, and ran her hands down his chest. Merle growled and ran his hand across Beth's belly down in between her thighs.
"I'm takin' that as a yes." Merle grunted as he lifted Beth up.
M/B M/B M/B M/B M/B
"come on, I have to change the bandages. We should have covered it with plastic before you got wet."
Beth giggled as she pushed Merle away and pulled him out of the bath room. It felt odd yet exhilarating as she realized she was standing right in front of an open window, naked and dragging her equally naked, significantly older lover behind her.
Merle smirked as he followed her into the room.
"was more concentrated on gettin' another part of me covered in plastic at the time."
Beth laughed as she grabbed new bandages and the pan they had used before for the same treatment, to catch the cleaning water.
"not saying it's a bad thing, but wet bandages probably won't help you heal."
Merle sat on the bed and held his arm out over the pan. "Na. What's helping is you, my healin' angel."
Beth blushed as she leaned over Merle's arm. "I'm just lucky I guess."
Merle looked down as Beth removed the bandages. She wasn't the lucky one, he was, to have her. How the hell did Merle Dixon end up in love not only with a beautiful woman, but she loved him back.
"always gonna be my angel. Healin', savin', singin' angel."
Beth blushed deeper. She wasn't used to receiving complements from men. But Merle wasn't just any man, he was her man.
"have one hell of a set of pipes don't ya?" Merle asked as he smiled at her. She was turning that pretty pink color that made him smile each time he saw it.
"i love singing. Used to sing every day." Beth said as she washed off the stump with a mix of sterilized water and hydrogen peroxide.
"ain't heard you sing before today." Merle hissed as the open wounds burned.
"i love to sing along to music. Wasn't able to grab my cds when the farm fell, plus we don't have a working stereo in the truck." Beth said as she quickly finished washing the stump. She knew this was the most painful part, but also the most necessary. She just wished the wounds would heal and stop hurting Merle.
"when we leave, we'll find us a new truck. Something decked out too. Need something with one hell of a stereo." Merle said.
Beth smiled up at Merle as she picked up the pan. "I'd really like that."
Beth stood and walked out of the room to empty the pan. As she walked away Merle leaned back and processed everything running through his head. Plans for a new truck, plans for the future, everything dependent on Beth. God his head was full of her.
Merle smiled as Beth came back in the room. "thank you for all this angel. You saved my life."
Beth smiled as she sat next to Merle and grabbed the first aid ointment they had been using.
"i wasn't going to let you die. You almost did, and that nearly killed me." Beth said quietly as she carefully handled the wounds.
Merle looked down at Beth. He wanted to say what he was feeling, just hoped he didn't sound like a total pussy saying it.
"angel, losing you, that would kill me too. I know I ain't perfect, hell I'm a complete asshole. But I'm thankful that you see past that, givin' me a chance like this. Not just to live, but to love you. I ain't never had a woman like you before, and I'll be damned if I ain't gonna do everything I can to hold on to you."
Beth gaped at Merle as he spoke. He had said I love you already, but this was something different, deeper.
"Merle I love you more then I can explain. I know we both spent the last month trying not to fall but I'm happy we're in love. I may have helped with your arm, but you've saved me from Randal, the herd, from trying to survive with out the skills you've taught me. Lets face it, even if I had stayed with the group that night, stayed together, I wouldn't have survived long. It's only because of you I'm alive. You're my hero Merle"
Merle pulled Beth over for a kiss, which she eagerly returned. She pulled Merle close and for a few moments they passionately kissed, before Merle bumped his open stump on the bed.
"fuck!" Merle hissed, as Beth pulled back.
"shoot, here, I just need to put the bandages on now." Beth said as she grabbed new bandages and began to wrap Merle's arm.
Merle laughed softly as she worked on him. "i will say one thing though, we get a new truck we can't just be listenin' to country all day."
Beth giggled. "fine, when we find a truck lets hit a walmart or target. They have pretty big CD sections, we can each pick out stuff we like."
"sounds like a plan baby. Think we should head back to the cabin?"
Beth sat back as she finished with the bandages, and considered her answer. "do you think it's defensible enough?"
Merle scoffed. "fuck no. that fence is old as shit and fallin' to pieces. We need someplace with a wall."
Beth thought for a few moments. "on aimsbury road, about 10 minutes from the cabin, there's a house with a stone wall and an iron gate. It's small, but it's not like we need two beds."
Merle smirked as he pulled her close. "angel for us we don't even need a bed."
