Hermione's head felt like a great big rock that had been thrown into a pond and she was just coming up from the depths after being under for so long. Her eye's where still clouded as she took in the unfamiliar surroundings, the qudditch posters and moving Polaroid pictures that had been ductaped to the walls where of smiling faces and random moments. She was obviously in a Prefects room, and as she looked down beside her she realized which Prefect it was. Hermione couldn't suppress the smile that seemed to spread across her lips all to easily. She was lying on her stomach, tousled red locks cascading around her sleeping face and down her back. One hand had been thrown protectively around Hermione's waist and as the sun light peaked through the currents the sleeping Ginny moved to curl up in a circle. Hermione couldn't help herself as she leaned over to stroke the soft locks away from the girls face, taking in just how beautiful Ginny really was. As her hand skimmed the girls sleeping form Hermione couldn't help but remember what had brought her to this moment, laying here with Ginny the soft glow of warmth tugging at her heart strings.

Hermione had been strolling the halls with her two best friends, her loving boyfriend glowing with warmth and pride as he held Hermione's hand in his. Hermione was just getting that uncomfortable feeling out of her chest when Ron would hold her, that's when it happened. Harry was the first to see it, stopping in mid stride with a poorly concealed grin on his face, Hermione didn't pay much attention to it. Ron was the next and Hermione had no choice but to wonder what was going on because the grip he had on her hand was tightening to a painful level. That's when Hermione saw it, Ginny was snogging a girl up against one of the walls, her hand was in between the other girls legs and her lips where ravishing her neck as the girl moaned uncontrollably. Hermione could feel the rage burning within her, he let go of Ron's hand and balled her hand into a fist. The pain in her heart was almost unbearable and her mind did not want to comprehend what her heart was telling her, and that was jealousy, rejection, pain.....how could Ginny do this to her.

Ron was the one to confront Ginny, and she supposed it was for the best, because if she had her way she would have slapped the girl and then slapped curse Ginny for hurting her this way. It shouldn't matter should it? But the conflicting emotion's that had begun to resurface where telling her different. She had been so caught up in her own mind that she had zoned out of the whole confrontation until Ginny was pinning a Prefect's badge to her chest and walking away. She could feel the tears..could feel the burn behind her eyes but she would not let them fall, she walked away from Ron and Harry telling them that she had some work to do in the library and that should catch up with them later. Meanwhile the emotions running wild in her chest where almost done beating down the gates of her heart. Ginny wasn't just controlling her thoughts..no...she was controlling more then Hermione had ever thought anyone was ever capable of doing. Ginny Weasley was..had control of her heart..her soul..and it was pissing Hermione off.

Hermione had run to the only place in the world she felt safe, the library, where pages on top of pages of sense and reality where at her fingertips. She found a book that she thought might be interesting..well in truth anything sounded interesting if it would just take her mind off the pain she was feeling in her chest. She wasn't harming anyone, in fact she was minding her own business so why oh why did she have to crash right into the person who she was most angry and conflicted at...Once she realized who she had run into her natural instincts took a hold of her and her hand went back and a rosounding smack stifled the air that was growing thick with tension as Ginny gazed at her unmoved. She hated the way her eye's did that to her, made her weak, made her mind numb and useless. She wanted to continue hitting her but she couldn't, she needed to release the anger she felt out and she did it in the next best way. She kissed Ginny, kissed her so hard and passionate, she wanted Ginny to feel what these emotion's where doing to her inside. The tears came next, unstoppable forces of nature that Hermione could not control any longer.."I can't..control myself when I'm around you and it confuses me...it makes me so angry.." Hermione mumbled more to herself then to Ginny, as if the battle inside her head was fighting it's way to the surface. "I feel like I'm falling...and there is no bottom.." She continued as Ginny pulled the shaking girl closer to her, she pressed soothing caresses to her hair and forehead as Hermione slowly calmed down leaning against Ginny. Ginny nuzzled Hermione ear whispering lovingly into it "When you finally do reach the bottom..I'll be there to catch you....I promise.." Ginny said..and Hermione found herself believing every word she said.

From that point on Hermione couldn't remember very much, and when she looked back down at the girl who was persistently confusing her, she was greeted with a set of blazing blue eyes and a soft smile. Hermione didn't know what to do next she just sat there and looked at Ginny as if she where a lost girl in the supermarket and she was trying to find her mother while explaining who she was to a complete stranger. There eye's never left as Ginny sat up "Hey..." Ginny spoke, her voice rough but her eye's still gentle, "Hey..." Hermione said her voice still slightly shaky but stronger now. The silence the encompassed the room didn't feel tense or awkward for once, and Hermione for the first time didn't have anything to say. "I'll walk you to your dorm..." said Ginny getting up and extending her hand to Hermione. She looked at the hand for a moment and slide her hand into hers, the heated electricity consuming her body once more. They walked in silence neither girl having much to say to the other until they stopped right in front of Hermione's door. That's when Hermione came to the conclusion that if she wanted this confusion handled, she could do nothing but find out the answers for herself. "Ginny..will you go out with me to Hogsmeade tomorrow after the game..Ron has a make up test..and..and I just need to figure out what's going on inside of me....please." Hermione couldn't look at Ginny as she spoke, she felt a little foolish asking Ginny out on what only could be determined as a date. "Sure, you'll just have to meet at the changing rooms after the game," as Ginny said that her face turned a slight shade of red as she captured Hermione's gaze once more. "Until then.." and with that Ginny left back to her own dorm, leaving Hermione in a pleasant but still confused state.