Nessie's Point of View

My new room was beautiful, but I hated it. The soft green walls seemed to close in on my every time I entered. The huge bed that was the middle point of the room was one of the only things I adored. It's warm comforting sheets were keeping me safe every night. For the rest of the room it was very neutral, a closet a cupboard and a desk with the necessary thing on it. But the room was dead to me, my suitcase which stood next to my bed was the only personal belonging I had here in this prison. The black and white bathroom was beautiful and filled with all sorts of luxury, from a shower to a bubble bath it all was in there. The cupboards were filled with all sorts of shampoo's, scrub salt, lotions and whatever you could think of. I hated it, I hated it all so I didn't touched it at all.

My separation of my family was still a burden to carry, but somehow I was dealing. I was an empty shell, dead from the inside. Unfortunately my body didn't picked up I was dead, So it kept breathing, My heart kept beating and there was still blood pumping through my veins. As the thoughts and doubts raced through my mind, one of them stood out. The native Indian, I still couldn't place him in this picture. He was a mystery for me. He wasn't part of the family and they all seems to have an apathy against him, everyone except Bella. But she also seemed to care more for him then the others, which also remained a mystery. That night when I locked myself in my room for the second time a pain spread through my lower body, It spread to my back and for a moment a wave of wild fear spread through me.

No not now! I send a begging plead towards my ceiling while I laid my hands on my stomach. Even though it only happened only once, I knew what was happening. In a house full of vampires I was having my period. Even thought it only last three days it was extremely painful. That was why I was grateful for the fact it only happened once a year. Last year it was my first time and on that time I completely panicked. I didn't knew what I meant to be menstruating and thought I was dying, I was panicking so much Aro almost send me to the hospital. Thank god for Google. After that I immediately did research on the human body, so I would never ever come to face such a big surprise again. So now I knew why I was feeling this chagrin and agitated all the time, My human side was starting to show again. But with a house of Vampires this could be the worst moment to happen. When a cramp ran through my body I groaned and pressed my hands against the sore spot. I could feel how my body temperature was rising, slowly but still rising. I gritted my teeth when another cramp came, I begged to all the gods I knew. Begging to let it stop soon, before the Cullen's would notice.

It was Emmett who knocked on my door, at first I refused to open. But when he told me 'he would open the door with force if I wouldn't let him' in I gave in and opened the freakin' door. I poked my head through and his always friendly face was smiling at me.

"I was wondering if you would like to game with me?" He said with those big topaz puppy eyes. I produced the most gentle smile I could and shook my head. Even though I hated what they did to me, I somehow didn't hate Emmett so much. It was hard for someone to hate Emmett, with those big eyes and childish looks of him. He was more of a big teddybear then a real treat, or at least that was what he seemed. I saw him fight and knew that I didn't need to take Emmett lightly. If he fought for his friends of family nothing could stop him. Then there was not a spark of kindness in his eyes, he was just a soulless killer.

"I have all kinds of stuff, Guitar Hero, Resident Evil 5, Skyrim.." He suddenly seemed to remember I was a girl "And sing star and my little pony goes on adventure" He mumbled with a bored expression, trying to hide it so good as he could.

"I'm sorry Emmett, It sounds good but I don't feel very well today, maybe an other time" I answered softly and there was a look of excitement on his face when I mentioned that it sounded good. I wondered why he would own a game that would include a pony. It didn't sounded like Emmett.. He read my expression and shrugged his shoulders while I could hear him mumble something like "Drinking games" Then suddenly his nose wrinkled and panic flashed through his eyes.

"Renesmee are you okay? I can smell blood!" He exclaimed while he grabbed my wrist giving me and intense stare with that suddenly not so puppy eyes anymore.

Oh god no

"I'm taking you to Carlisle!" He exclaimed before throwing me over his shoulder. I tried to stop him by telling him it was of no importance but he was too fast, too strong for my human acting body right now. Even before he put me on my own to legs in the medical room everyone was already there. Their eyes panicking and their hands everywhere on my body, making sure I wasn't hurt. I could feel how the blood rose to my face, making my face red and hot at the same time.

"We should call Carlisle"

"Where is she hurt?"

"She isn't dying again is she?"

"Nessie are you okay?" The woman named Bella asked worriedly, she laid her hand on my hot forehead and I enjoyed the icecold feeling of her hands on my overheated skin. When I raised my eyes at her she smiled at me, reassuring me I was going to be fine. I searched for Edwards eyes and when I found them he wrinkled his forehead in confusion. Then suddenly when he read the explanation in my mind his eyes where anywhere but on me.

"She doesn't need a doctor" I could him grumble through his gritted teeth. Everyone watched from him to me, and them from him to me again. Edward gave the Blonde, the pixie, Bella and Momma leech a look and they all "ohh" ed I rolled my eyes staring at the book which was closest to me. Everything to not have to look at them, any of them. The humiliation was big enough already. I could feel a wave of ease come over me, and felt a little better. I didn't knew where it came from, but my cheeks cooled down a little right before the pixie and the Blonde one called Jasper left. I noticed his eyes never left me for a second until he walked through that door.

"I don't get it, What's going on? Why isn't anyone doing something?" Emmett mumbled staring at us with confusion. The blonde just grabbed his wrist and tried to pull him away, he didn't moved an inch however.

"Edward, Bella what's going on with Nessie? I can still smell blood!" He exclaimed staring at me, frustrated and anxious. Rose tried to pull him away again but he still refused, he just looked at her trying to get an explanation from her somehow.

"Come on Emmett, I'll give you a lesson about making babies" She smiled sweetly, but something told me she was furious at him "Rose I know how to make babies.."

"Ohh…" He mumbled when his eyes shot to mine in an apologetic gesture, I just glared at him and I swore even though he was a vampire his cheeks turned a shade deeper. He quickly shot into the hallway out of my sight, leaving us with a pregnant silence. I just sighed and let my hands glide in the pockets of my trousers.

"So I guess I head back then… " I mumbled slightly hearable, Bella placed her hand on my shoulder giving it a reassuring squeeze. My brows furrowed and my lips pursed to fold her. But then Edwards glance cut me off and I just turned, heading for my bedroom again. This time I wasn't letting anyone in before this would over. The humiliation still burned on my cheeks when I took the cold doorknob in my hand.

"Can we get you anything?" I head Edward ask from behind me, when I turned Bella had snuggled up on him and was resting her head on his chest. Her eyes were closed as she let Edward caress her hair. The love the two had together was so strong and complete it made me feel lonely for the first time.

"Privacy would be a start" I said quietly while I pierced my eyes into his golden ones. He just seemed unaffected by my words, and it made me feel even more ridiculous saying it out loud. I wasn't in the position of wanting anything. I was still their prisoner I helped remembering myself.

"Would you like a pitcher?" Bella interrupted my thoughts, " It always helped for me" she said while gesturing at my stomach.

"Yeah a pitcher would be good"

I laid down on the bed which grown a little familiar to me now. I was used to travel from bed to bed so I easily got used to my new bed, I crawled under the blankets hoping to hide from the world. My fever was kicking in and my temples arched, hurt from all the blood pumping through. In my little silent world there was nothing but the beating of my heat, the pain and my pitcher. That soon stopped while Jacob stormed in, I didn't knew how he came in because I locked the door. But when he did I let out a frustrated groan. I felt his weight on the bed as he sat down, he pulled away the blanket. Even though he was gently in it, he pulled me from my little simple world and I hated him for it.

"Hey you, I heard you weren't feeling well?" He asked while he gave me his everlasting smile again. I just covered my eyes with the pillow and sighed. Would this ever stop?

"I brought you something, It will make you feel better" He said and he immediately got my attention. I rose from the pillow as searched for wonderful cure anywhere in the room. But I didn't saw anything out of the ordinary, he was carrying a plate filled with some yellow liquid. I made a face towards a food but he didn't paid attention to it.

"Presenting nanna's Sue own made chicken soup" he said proudly.

"Chicken soup.." I tasted to word, let it ran over my tongue while I added a new word to my food dictionary.

"People always eat chicken soup when they are sick, I have no idea why but it helps" He said while he held the spoon for my mouth. I shook my head but he didn't budge, I just stared at the spoon before my mouth.

"I ate pizza yesterday" The words come out before I even noticed, for second we stared at each other with surprise. I had no idea why I had said it, but still I was a little bit proud of it. And maybe I wanted to share it with someone who would understand. The pizza delivery guy came when Sam offered Jake a ride home. And even though I thought the pizza guy would taste much better than the pizza I still ate it.

"Well did you like it?" He asked with enthusiasm which was new to me. His eyes started to twinkle when he looked at me now. I just answered the curious look by shrugging my shoulders.

"It was weird, and my hands got all dirty" I mumbled suddenly wishing I never brought it up. He just grinned at me "Just wait until we go to the KFC, and we go BUCKET, MEGA BUCKET" He exclaimed while his hand tried to show me how big the bucket was. I did not share his joy or enthusiasm because I did not understand what KFC meant. But I didn't ask him, I sat gaving him a light smile as I started to hug my pillow.

"Ohh before I forget I brought you this too" He said while he offered me a small machine made of black plastic. I figured I could click it open and when I did a screen and buttons popped up.

"What is it?" I asked while I stared at the device.. I couldn't figure out if it was a phone or a mini computer. But it didn't made sense because the only buttons one there were A, B, X, Y, Select and start.

"It's my Nintendo DS, you call play Pokémon on it and that kind of stuff" He tried to explained. But I furrowed my eyebrows in a bow. So he did his best to fill me in on this subject, while the confusion spread more and more through my tormented mind.

"So you become friends with those pokemon right?" He nodded "Then you force them in a Pokeball, which they can't come out by their own. And you sent them to a professor though a computer?" This time he wrinkled his forehead "Yeah but.." But I didn't let him finish. "And you keep the one's you like so you could battle them to death, to gain badges and money?"

"They don't die, Pokemon never die" He exclaimed "But if they never die, wouldn't the Pokemon world be over populated in just a few years?"

"Never mind no pokemon for you" He mumbled as he took the DS away from me. I stared at it, but shrugged my shoulders. Then a other cramp came and I grabbed my stomach, The hot water had already cooled down and I was too lazy to get a refill downstairs.

"A-are you okay?" Jacob asked worriedly while his eyes searched for mine. I just gave him a slight nod. "You can go away now" I said while I gritted my teeth trying to make my voice perfectly steady.

"Try it I'll help" He said pointing at the soup "Really ? will it really help?" I sighed while I stared at it. For some reason it smelled good to me, so I tried it. And it tasted as it smelled, pretty good actually. While gulping down the soup I stared at Jacob. He gave me that 'I told you so' smile and I just lifted my chin while I refused to look at him any further while I ate my soup. When I was done and I gave him the spoon and plate.

"Thank you" I mumbled. Even though my daddy had tried to teach me many things, manner were his number one.

"you're very welcome"

It fell silent after that, and unwanted I laid my hand back on the painful spot again. I dozed off for a while thinking about everything that happened in such a sort amount of time. That's why I shrieked when Jacob laid his hand on my belly, he just gave me a calming smile and pretty pissed I hissed at him. I didn't seem to scare of even startle him, so I wanted to push him away at first but when I fell the heat radiating from his hand I swallowed my protests.

"Does it help?" He asked searching for any sign of approval from my side. I nodded and a huge smile lightened up his face. "If you sit up I can use my other hand too, but only if you like" he offered and I accepted. I folded my legs under me as he laid his other hand on my back, where the pain slowly seemed to ease a bit. We sat in silence again, I was in no need, and he didn't seemed to know what to say. So I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing and heartbeat, trying to clear my mind. Edward started to play on the piano downstairs and those tones were as soothing as a lullaby. It was once again Jacob who pulled me from my safe little world.

"Ness what you are exactly feeling?"

I couldn't describe what I was exactly feeling, not with the right words. So I decided to let him see what I felt, in that way I could exactly show him what I was feeling. So I laid my hand on his cheek, very soft as in the way you would touch a baby. I focused and prepared closing my eyes, sorting it all out for him. I could feel his one hand switch position from my belly to my back, wondering why he did that I was too late noticing he pulled me near. When his warm arms enclosed me I raised my eyes at him just at the moment he lowered his face. The next moment his lips found mine and he kissed me, when his lips pressed on mine I couldn't help but noticing how warm they were. His kiss was soothing and caring ,so much different than the kiss with Patrick, which had been cold and slimy.

A scream from downstairs parted us up. Jacob stared at me with big eyes.

"Ness…"


So what do you guys think?

What's going to happen next? How will Nessie react on their kiss and what is troubling Jacob?

I'd love to hear what you guys think, so let me know. :) = quicker update. Also I wanted to thank nnytak for always keeping me sharp.