Hey guys! Sorry for the Late update I had technical difficulties. This chapter you will see Rin trying to handle rejection and her dearest friends will try to cheer her up and such.
SN: I'm terribly sorry for any grammatical errors or misspellings I will edit later
Disclaimer: The characters are not mine. neither is the anime Inuyasha of course, ALL RIGHTS TO THAT GOES TO Rumiko Takahashi. I own nothing but my story. I'm just a girl that likes to carry out the 'what if's' in an ending or anime or ship etc c:
Enjoy! ~Ren
Chapter 8:
The moment Sesshomaru saw the hurt in Rin's eyes he nearly broke his resolve. By anything he didn't want to be the one to hurt her but with Rin, If she lusted after him she was also emotionally involved. Rin was not the type to have sex, she would make love, to the person she loved. And if that was the case then that person was him. It was absurd that he didn't realize it sooner but he had more matters at hand to deal with. Satomi being the number one priority. He wanted his legacy to go on, when he had his pups his heir should have no trouble with dealing with anything that came their way with the Western and Eastern lands combined. Rin would have to find someone else to love. He may lust after her because that's what his dog side wants but that didn't mean that he had feelings for her in anyway. He didn't think, he wouldn't know because love wasn't something he valued that's why she had to find someone else. His ward was important to him yes, he wouldn't lose her just as admittedly Jaken meant something important to him too but that was the closest he could get to any type of affection, with Satomi it was different. She was a duty, he would have had to mate eventually she was the ideal choice at the time and seeing as she was...interested in him it seemed like a win but now...now he wasn't so certain. There was a dread in his heart and he couldn't figure out why or really place it.
That Next day Kagome had stopped by Rin's room after asking the servants of where it could be. "Rin?" she called as she slid open the screen door. "Are you up?, you haven't been out your room all day..." There on her bed she saw a body cocooned in the covers.
"Yeah.."Rin croaked out. "Im not sleeping" It was pathetic Rin knew. She was moping around all day in her room but she just couldn't bring herself to get out of bed. her heart was so heavy. She didn't like being like this, it made her look weak, her will look weak but when you get rejected by the person you've loved for a long time it was hard. Insanely hard. She hadn't exactly been crying either it, she spilled a few tears but she just couldn't bring herself to go full force. She felt the bed weigh down beside her and Kagome touched her arms "What's wrong?"
"Love hurts"
Kagome blinked and then realized she might have found someone to like and was hurting for whatever reason. Ah a tenage crush. "Come on, let's go practice your archery away from here it might be do you some good, I'll bring the gang"
That sounded like something Rin could do she hadn't practiced her archery in awhile and besides it was time to get out bed anyways. Taking the covers off her head and finally deciding that just holding up in her room feeling sorry for herself wasn't going to do her any good. "Okay, let's go" She smiled as warmly as she could. Kagome returned it 'That's the spirit'
"SHIPPO!" Rin squealed and hugged him tight to her chest. "RIN!" Shippo had to be the cutest fox demon around and Rin found him as close to her as a little brother, like everyone else they grew immensely close. Besides Sesshomaru and Jaken they were her family and have done much for her. Her heart tugged. 'Lord Sesshomaru...' . "Ah young Rin, not a day goes by that you dont get more bigger" Said Miroku patting her head fondly as his kids ran around his feet in a game of 'Catch me!' . Before she could respond Sango said "Lay off monk, no woman likes to hear that she is getting bigger, Gomen Rin" the girl giggled "No no its fine." She waved it off whilst letting Shippo down. When she looked by Inuyasha her heart warmed with fondness. She found Inuyasha to be like a big brother, protective of her and loving in a genuine way. Then she noticed Kohaku, who was staring at her with a dreamy awed gaze that made her blush and her stomach flip, The way he looked at her made her feel like the only girl in the world and she had to tear her gaze away from his. In the wake of going back to Sesshomaru situation she had forgotten all about his confession to her when he learned that she was going with him. He knew of her feelings towards her lord too which was what made it so cruel. He had stormed off and hadn't talken to her since when she gently rejected him, when it was time to for her to say goodbye he was nowhere in sight and Rin thought that was for the best. Even last night at her party he kept his distance and was a bit stand offish around her but he wished her happy birthday nonethless. When she first showed up he had looked at her with that same expression, that same expression that was also filled with sadness. They were bestfriends and she wanted it to stay that way, him falling for her was not apart of the plan and it made things between them awkward, That didn't mean she didn't miss him though.
When it came to archery Kagome was gentle but strict. But Rin found that to be a good thing, If she worked best under pressure she wouldn't have problem with staying calm when in a bad situation so that her shoots will always be accurate. When Kagome was confident enough that she got things down and was satisfied with her progress she let her off the hook and Immediately Inuyasha came up to her next. "While your done with that I think its time you show me your defensive skills little girl". Said Girl grinned. "Bring it on oni-san"
A while later Rin was laying on the ground panting heavily and admittedly even though he was still standing so was Inuyasha. His eyes shone with pride and approval "You've gotten better Rin. Before you know it you'll have a mystical all powerful sword yourself" She couldn't help but laugh at that knowing there was no way in hell that that was ever happening. His face was serene once again. "What's bothering you? missing home yet?"
Ah...that was the perk of having someone know you so well. No matter how much you pretend to be happy they can always see through you when your truly sad. Inuyasha sensed her change in mood and saw the sad smile on her face "Whqt did the bastard do?" He growled
"Lord Sesshomaru! Lord Sesshomaru!" Called the green imp as he approached the couple sitting on his back porch. Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes while Satomi groaned at being interrupted with their bonding time and let go of his arm. Meanwhile Sesshomaru hasn't seen Jaken much around as of late hed didn't really need him other than for certain things and he could only wonder why he was calling his name in such a panick. "Milord! Rin is nowhere to be found on the premises!" He panted after he ran all the way over here from the other side of the palace. Sesshomaru stared at him blankly and then looked up at the sky. "Leave her be"
"But Milord!-"
"Leave it Jaken" Said imp closed his mouth after that but he still felt unsettled despite how annoying she was sometimes he cared for that human girl and he was surprised His lord wasn't trying to search for her. "If your so worried search for her yourself"
Sesshomaru wasn't a fool, Rin's scent had faded from the palace long ago and so did his half brother's and his friends. He knew she was most likely with them. What tugged at his mind though...was if she was coming back. Meanwhile Satomi studied him out of the corner of her eye.
"So it's like that huh.." said Kagome who was sitting by Rin in the grass away from the group that was bantering with each other for whatever reason. "Mhm" nodded Rin. She didn't give Kagome all the details or even said who it was. All she said was that she liked a guy at the palace for a long time but although he cared for her didn't like her the same way and that he wasn't exactly engaged yet but was on the road to it and that just last night he had rejected her. "Have you tried? to show him your affection show him how much your really want him?"
Rin's head snapped to her "B-but i cant do that he's not available! and its...its wrong." Even what they did last night was wrong and shouldn't have done it. She could tell Satomi's feelings towards her Lord was genuine, the way she talked about him, the way she looked at him, how her mood brightened around him. She was guilty. "Yes but he isn't exactly engaged Rin. Nor are they really a couple. Besides you said that they were just 'Testing the waters' it was an arrangement. That means he could possibly not love her and while you have the chance do your best to get him to fall for you. No matter how vile that may sound."
Rin thought about this. She had a point there. Was it really okay for her to fight for him? Did she even have what it takes? or the courage or will to do that? She had so many doubts. But at the same time she couldn't let her feelings of many years go to waste. She had to try, she will how her Lord that she is a woman. A woman that he can love.
A/N- I'm extremely excited for the next few chapters that's when things will get interesting ;3 I know we don't know much about Satomi but don't worry! you'll see special chapters about her even a flashback of her and Sesshomaru. Be patient with me and I hope you all liked this chapter! Thanks for the reviews and follows and favs! I would love to hear what you think :) Ciao ~Ren
