The words repeated over and over in Alison's head as she tried to get them to make sense. Emily had a son. He was taken from her. She was starting to really understand who Emily was, why her walls were so high, why she kept her heart so guarded. Emily had been through something no one should ever experience.
"Emily, I'm so sorry" Alison didn't know what else to say, nothing would take away the pain that Emily was feeling.
Emily shook her head, she didn't want Alison to feel pity towards her, she just wanted her to understand why she was like she is. There was more to her story and now that she had started to tell it she was determined to finish. She had never opened herself up to someone like this before, not voluntarily. Her friends found out at the same time Emily had, they were there when she turned up at the hospital to be told Samara had released herself. They were there when Emily looked around the whole town in search of her newborn son. They were there when she broke down and they were there when Emily eventually gave in to the realisation that Samara didn't want to be found.
"I started drinking after my dad passed away. He was my hero and a part of me died inside when he did. But with the help of my friends and my mother I gained control of myself and I started to make a future for myself. I got my job in accountancy and passed all the qualifications necessary. I met Samara a year after I joined the company. Samara moved from out of town and got a job at the accountancy with me and the more time we spent together the closer we got. After the heartbreak of my first real girlfriend Paige cheating on and leaving me and then the death of my father I had already built the walls around my heart. Neither one of us was ready for commitment though so it never really ended up working out when we tried. We both just used each other" Emily took a deep breath before continuing.
"Then she got pregnant and although we knew we wouldn't ever work as a couple we vowed to stick together as friends for the baby. I went to every appointment, I went out at 3am to buy her what she was craving. I did everything I was supposed to do. He was going to be the ray of light that kept me from the darkness. But instead she took him and ran. And I have all these nightmares about them and what could of happened." Emily started to break down again, she wanted nothing more than to find some alcohol and begin to drown herself in it once more.
Alison brought Emily into a tight embrace and just held her as she broke down. Soothing words and gentle hands attempting to calm down the brunette who's sobs were only getting louder.
"That's why I use girls, why I don't let anybody in. I hate what I've become but I didn't know how to change, not until I met you that was" Emilys words were barely audible in between her sobs.
Kissing her forehead Alison pushed Emily gently back so that she was lying in the bed once more. She appreciated the brunette letting her in and it only heightened the feelings that she felt towards Emily. Yes Emily had a past and it was messy, but it was nothing they couldn't work through together.
"You should try and sleep again, I'm going to phone Spencer to let her know your fine and tell her to come round tomorrow. Unless you want to see them now?" Alison asked cautiously, not wanting to overstep any boundaries.
"No you're right I just need to sleep. But tomorrow... can we go to the hospital? My hand really hurts" Emily said quietly and with a shy smile.
Alison nodded with a chuckle and tucked Emily into the covers kissing her softly on the lips before leaving the room to phone Spencer. She caught Emilys friends up on what she had been told and how Emily was before returning to sleep in the bed beside Emily. She wrapped her arm protectively around the already sleeping brunette and held onto her tightly.
Emily awoke at just after 5 am, having spent most of the previous day unconscious and her body fed up of resting she couldn't sleep any longer. The pain in her hand also contributing to her early wake up call and she knew that she had to make the trip to the hospital sooner rather than later. She moved restlessly in the bed and couldn't get comfy no matter what position she tried. She picked up her phone but wasn't surprised to find out it was dead, she couldn't remember the last time she had charged it. She was just about to get out of bed when she felt Alison stir beside her.
"Sorry did I wake you?" Emily asked guiltily as Alison's eyes opened and found hers.
"Hmmm... maybe. What time is it?" Alison replied sleepily.
"A little after 5, you should just go back to sleep Ali" Emily was concerned for the blonde, knowing that she wouldn't have gone to sleep until after her and probably not straight away either.
She smiled to herself internally as she heard the nickname roll off her tongue with ease. Ali seemed to notice as well and a smile had crept across her face making her dimples noticeable in the dim lighting. Emily rolled over so that she was slightly leaning over Alison before drawing circles on the small bit of skin on Alison's stomach that was exposed. She then placed her lips on the blondes neck and began to pepper kisses along her soft pale skin.
"How about we go to the hospital, it should be quieter at this time and I don't think I'll be able to fall back to sleep anytime soon." Alison said as she moved slowly away from Emily and started to get out of the bed and stretch her arms out.
Alison didn't want to push Emily away but she knew that the girl was really vulnerable at that particular moment and she didn't want her to feel any regrets when it came to their relationship.
Emily reluctantly agreed, not wanting to put Alison out more than she already had but not being able to put up with the pain for much longer. She quickly got out of bed and straightened her clothes out having not gotten changed since she had arrived at Alison's. Once they were both ready they made their way outside, Emily considered calling on her friends but ultimately decided against it.
The hospital was indeed quiet due to the time that they were visiting, but they were still required to take a seat in the waiting room whilst the people that were ahead of them in the queue were seen first. They sat side by side on the plastic chairs surrounded by white sterile walls and posters advising you on all types of illnesses, Emilys head on Alison's shoulder and her uninjured hand interlinked with Alison's. She felt oddly at ease being around Alison, even with the pain that was coursing through her hand. She had sent Hanna a quick text explaining where they were as Alison had driven them and heard nothing back in response which didn't surprise her due to the time.
"Emily Fields" a nurse announced from the door to the waiting room.
Emily got up and pulled Alison gently behind her as she followed the nurse behind a separating curtain in the general ward where she was then assessed. Her hand was deemed to be broken in several places as were two of her fingers after a quick x-ray revealed the damage. They were then sent back to the waiting room until there was a doctor free to put her hand in a cast. Once more they sat side by side but this time Alison rested her head on Emilys shoulder whilst the brunette wrapped her arm behind her tightly.
Alison tried to keep her eyes open but found it harder with each passing second. She had waited until Emily had fallen asleep last night before even considering letting herself drift off. However she had too many thoughts spinning around in her head and she didn't find herself sleeping until a couple of hours before Emily awoke her. She tried to stifle a yawn but Emily caught her and smiled.
"You can close your eyes Ali, it might be awhile until we're seen again" Emily whispered into Alison's ear and she rubbed her uninjured hand up and down the blondes arm.
"I'm ok" Alison managed to get out in between yawns, Emily chuckling at her attempt to stay awake.
Once Emilys hand had finally been placed into a cast they made their way back to Alison's. Pulling into the driveway they headed over to Spencer's front door, Emily needing to apologise to her friends for her behaviour the previous day. Usually in times like this Emily would light up a cigarette to help calm her mind but Alison still didn't know about her dirty habit and she wasn't about to tell her. She'd wanted to kick the habit for years and maybe the blonde was reason enough for her to manage it.
Spencer answered the door and Emily and Alison joined her, Hanna and Aria in the living room. They sat in silence for several minutes, Emily trying to find the right words to say to her friends. She took a deep breath and began yet another apology, she was having to do these too often and that needed to change.
"I'm sorry" Emily took another breath before continuing. "Thank you for always putting up with me, I can't bare to think where I would be without you all"
Alison squeezed Emilys hand in reassurance, she knew how hard it was for the brunette to admit how she was feeling.
"We'll always be here for you Emily" Spencer spoke for the entire group, the others nodding in agreement.
"I hope you're good at diy. You've got a door and a wall to fix" Hanna said with a laugh trying to steer the conversation into a more lighthearted direction.
"Oh and I shotgun signing your cast first" Hanna finished as she stood up and went into one of the drawers of Spencer's desk.
Emily smiled at her friends comment and was glad she had watched and listened to her dad when he was fixing up different parts of the house. His knowledge was about to come in handy.
"Ok but nothing rude Han" Emily said as she eyed her friend cautiously as she headed back over to the group with a handful of sharpies.
Hanna smirked before taking a pink pen and taking Emilys arm gently in her hand. She signed her name followed by a couple of x's and a smiley face. She stood up and admired her work before holding out the pens for the others to choose from. Spencer went with black and wrote her name in fancy handwriting. Aria wrote her name out with a different colour for each letter and Alison wrote her nickname in blue followed by a big red heart and several x's.
With the cast looking brighter they all decided to make a group trip to the maintenance store to buy the supplies needed. Piling into Spencer's suv they headed to the outskirts of town where the bigger convenience stores lay. They decided it was easier just to buy Alison a new back door, one without glass so that it couldn't be broken into once again. Hanna demanded she sit in the cart whilst Emily pushed her around, the door would be delivered later that day therefore they only needed plaster and paint for the hole in Emily's bedroom wall.
"It's the size... well the size of your fist" Hanna said when Emily was trying to figure out if she needed a piece of plasterboard to fill the hold or if filler alone would be enough.
Once a decision had been made and the supplies had been bought they made their way back into the centre of town. They walked into The Grille for lunch, none of them having eaten since the night before and Emily in over 24 hours. Taking their seats at the table Emily sat in between Hanna and Alison whilst Aria and Spencer sat opposite them.
The conversation flowed freely between the five of them, Alison fit into the group perfectly and it was if she had been friends with them all for years. She had her hand on top of Emilys leg whilst they all looked over the menus trying to decide what to order. Emily couldn't decide between pizza or lasagne and the struggle was evident on her face. Alison chuckled as she watched the girl deliberate between the two, no closer to a decision then she had been 5 minutes ago.
"Did you want to share?" Alison asked Emily after deciding she couldn't watch the struggle go on any longer.
Emily looked at the blonde quizzically, her mind still focused on the menu rather than what Alison was trying to say to her. Alison gently pushed Emilys menu down in an attempt to gain the brunettes full attention and received such after several long seconds.
"You order the lasagne, I'll order the pizza and we can split them both in half. That way you don't have to choose one over the other" Alison ended with a smile and she brought her drink up to her lips and took a sip whilst maintaining constant eye contact with Emily.
"Yes... yes please I mean. That would be a life saver" Emily responded as a shy smile crept across her face and she wondered how on Earth she had found someone this kind and considerate.
With that decided Emily closed her menu and placed it on the table in front of her, able to return her full attention back to her friends. Hanna was currently arguing with Spencer about the fact she wanted a kids chicken nuggets meal as a side dish and Spencer telling her she didn't think it was a reasonable request when it stated kids meals for those aged 12 and under. It didn't matter what Spencer said however and Hanna ordered a pizza with a side of chicken nuggets, chips and beans.
"Ow! Hanna seriously?" Spencer yelled as Hanna's fork stabbed her in the hand.
"Not so unreasonable now is it?! Well you're not having one of my nuggets Hastings, so back the fuck up!" Hanna replied sharply before returning to the piece of pizza topped with chicken nuggets that she was trying to eat.
Spencer groaned at her friend's behaviour whilst Aria tried not to choke on her mouthful of water as she hid her laughter and Emily and Alison laughed openly at all three of them. Emily then proceeded to help herself to one of Hanna's chicken nuggets and a handful of chips which gained her a look of disgust from Spencer.
"How come Emily gets to help herself?" Spencer asked whilst still glaring at the tanned brunette who was currently dipping her nugget in her lasagne.
"Because she didn't question me when I decided to order." Hanna replied.
"More like because she fucks you... oh shit, sorry" Spencer went wide eyed in horror as she realised what she had just done, she looked between Emily and Alison an apologetic look plastered across her face.
Alison's grip on Emilys leg tightened tremendously as she heard the statement fall from Spencer's mouth. Emily turned quickly to face the blonde but had no idea what she was supposed to say in this situation. Aria stayed silent looking between the three and trying to figure out if she could help, she decided to stay out of it however. Hanna remained eating her pizza as if nothing had happened, hoping that it would all blow over.
"Ali.. I..."
"Em don't worry, I knew you came with history. I just didn't realise it was so close to home" Alison cut her off, it was something she would need time to get her head around but it wasn't as much a surprise as it should have been. She'd seen the interaction between Hanna and Emily and knew there had to be more than meets the eye, she had no reason not to trust Emily however and for now she would leave the conversation where it was.
"How's your lasagne?" Alison then asked as she changed the conversation.
Emily had eaten her half of the pizza first and was now finishing the last of the lasagne. Alison had finished several minutes before having given Emily bigger portions of both meals much to the brunettes dislike. Emily had tried to get Alison to have more but the blonde was just as stubborn as the brunette could be and she refused knowing that her appetite wasn't as big as Emilys.
The rest of the meal went by smoothly if you ignored Hanna flicking ice cream at Spencer looking for the tall brunette to retaliate and being disappointed when Spencer decided to be the bigger person and ignore Hanna's childlike behaviour. Aria however decided to join in with Hanna and wiped a trail of custard down Spencer's face, after dipping her finger into Spencer's dessert to acquire the custard on the first place.
Emily and Alison bid farewell to the others before walking over to Alison's where the new backdoor was being delivered. Perfect timing Alison thought to herself as she signed the delivery mans handheld computer and watched him drive away. Emily was determined to make up for her previous behaviour and took the door around the back by herself, she already had it unwrapped and lent against the house by the time Alison had walked round to join her.
After finding a screwdriver for the brunette Alison went about making them both coffees whilst Emily got to work taking the old door off its hinges and reattaching the new one. It didn't take long before Emily had finished and she took a step back to admire her work. Slow clapping Alison made her way over to Emily and wrapped her arms around the brunettes waist.
"Thank you, it looks excellent"'Alison said before pecking Emily on the lips, her grip tightening around her waist.
"It's my fault it needed replacing in the first place" Emily laughed before putting her arms around Alison's neck, trying to keep the weight of her cast off of Alison's shoulders and pulling her in close for a more passionate kiss.
Their lips melded against one another as the need and want intensified between the two of them. Alison's tongue swept softly along Emilys bottom lip who opened her mouth in response to the request. Their tongues met and battled for dominance in one another's mouths and Alisons hands moved from Emilys waist to the back of her head and she gripped the brunettes hair tightly. A small moan escaped Emilys lips as she felt Alison's hands tangle in her hair and her cast-less hand moved down from the blondes neck and towards her breasts. She squeezed them both one after the other gently through the fabric of Alison's shirt and bra before applying more and more pressure as the kiss went on.
They finally broke away from one another, both completely out of breath and panting. Alison held her hand out which Emily took tentatively before she was pulled in the direction of the stairs. She followed quickly behind Alison as they made their way into the bedroom and picked the blonde up and placed her gently on the bed. She hovered above Alison her weight all on one hand leaning in to kiss the blonde once more however she was flipped onto her back in one swift movement by Alison.
"You just relax, I don't want you doing more damage to your hand" Alison whispered as she straddled the brunette below her.
Alison moved Emilys t shirt up her body slowly, allowing her to shift her weight onto her elbows and sit up slightly beneath the blonde. As soon as Emilys t shirt was removed Alison parted with her own, both bras following shortly after before Alison lent down and connected their lips once more. After several minutes of a heated make out session Alison began to trail kisses down Emilys neck and towards her breasts. Emily felt her body heat up in anticipation and she got harder the closer Alison got to her breasts. The blonde swirled her tongue around a nipple whilst her fingers played with the other one.
Emily let out a groan at the feeling and subconsciously ground her hips against Alison's. This caused Alison to smirk at the feeling of Emilys hardened member beneath her. She stayed focused on the brunettes nipples however, switching between her tongue and fingers and giving them both equal attention. Emily grew frustrated and she needed more from Alison, the attention she was receiving not enough to fully satisfy her.
It was almost as if Alison could read Emilys mind and she lowered her hands to the brunettes trousers waistband and removed both her jeans and underwear in one swift movement. She gasped slightly at the sight of Emilys size, she had to be at least 9 inches and she felt herself get wet in anticipation. She moved off of Emily slightly as she removed her own trousers and underwear before returning to her previous position.
"I'm on the pill" she reassured Emily before lowering herself slowly onto Emilys penis, pausing a couple of times so that she could adjust to the size.
Emily moaned softly at the feeling of being inside Alison, reaching up with her uninjured hand and pulling the blonde in close by her neck. Their lips attaching to one another once more and their tongues clashing with one another passionately. Emily thrusted gently beneath Alison, taking her time and not wanting to hurt the blonde.
"You're beautiful" Emily whispered as they broke away from each other to catch their breath.
Alison blushed at the comment and reconnected their lips once more as she moved up and down with more force on top of Emily. They took their time with one another, the passion radiating off of both of them. They weren't just fucking, they were making love.
Emily felt Alison's walls tighten around her member as she sped up the movement of her hips. Short gasps escaped Alison's lips as she felt herself get closer to the edge. Emily connected her mouth with one of Alison's nipples and the sensation sent the blonde wild. Emily's tongue swirled in circles around the hardened nipple before she bit down gently. A sequence of profanities left Alison's mouth as the heat pooled at her centre and she felt Emily thrust inside her.
"Fuck... I'm almost..." Alison couldn't even finish her sentence as she came undone on top of Emily. Her whole body shaking with pleasure.
Emily released herself into Alison simultaneously and they both cried out loudly in enjoyment. Their breathing hard and ragged as they tried to calm themselves down. Alison had collapsed on top of Emily, their hot and sweaty bodies sticking to one another and Emily placed a couple of kisses to the top of Alison's head unable to do much else. Alison eventually rolled off to one side as her breathing started to return to normal and she led on her back beside Emily, both with giant smiles upon their faces.
"Wow" Alison exclaimed as she stared at the ceiling.
"Yeah" Emily agreed, unable to form an actual sentence her body exhausted from their activities.
They both showered together once they felt able to, washing each other in a loving manner, before collapsing back into bed. It was only the early evening but after both having a lack of sleep the previous night they found themselves drifting off pretty quickly. Emily was led on her back and Alison had an arm and a leg over the brunette, her hold tight and her face nestled into Emily's neck.
A/N
I've almost finished the next chapter so I'm posting this one yay. My busy weekend turned into a busy Friday and a chilled out Saturday and Sunday. I literally didn't leave the sofa for those two days and enjoyed watching tv in the company of my dog and my mum. I haven't done that in a while and it was really nice.
However... that means I've been a bit unproductive when it comes to this fic. So I apologise and hopefully tomorrow I will be able to get my head down and write several thousand words. Please send me any ideas you have as the ones I have received previously have really helped fill out my chapters :)
A lot happened in this chapter from the explanation about Samara, the whole gang hanging out together all the way to Emison sex wooooo. Let me know your thoughts on it all.
Hope you enjoyed this chapter and as usual leave a review or comment :) thanks for reading.
