It's been a week since I had that dream and sleep doesn't come easily for me anymore. I'm too afraid to relive those moments.
* RING * * RING *
"Spencer! Your phone is freaking out!" Aiden says from the bedroom.
"I got it!" yelling from the bathroom to the kitchen to where my phone is. My face lights up at the name, 'Ashley'.
"What was that ringtone" Aiden asks from the bedroom and I tell him something about Ash changing my ringtone when I saw here the other day. She sent me a text asking if I wanted to hang. I was gonna just lay around today but what the hell, I tell her to meet me near the park in an hour. Aiden goes back to playing on his laptop and I get another message confirming that she would meet me so I jump up asking Aiden to go for a walk with me. He agrees of course because I give him 'the face' and after a quick change we are out the door.
On the way I bumped into a colleague and I really didn't mean to get caught up in conversation but we did and shortly after Ash made her way over to us giving me and Aiden hardly no time to spent alone. After he gave some lame excuse Aiden headed back to the apartment and sent us on our way. I turned to him once before I reached where Ashley was waiting for me and he looked almost sad, depressed even.
Spencer's cell rings. "What could you possibly want now, I just left you not 10 minutes ago" she answers sarcastically.
"I just wanted to make sure you made it home okay…and to hear your voice. I sleep better when you're the last thing I hear."
"Well I'm glad to hear that but I'm standing at my door as we speak so I will talk to you tomorrow. Goodnight hun."
"Later babe."
She walks into the apartment and nothing seems to be moving. The apartment almost seemed stale. It's dark and quiet save for the faint sound coming from Aiden's office. Calling out was no use so Spencer just walked to the door and picks up her hand to knock…
Love just got so complicated
Wish that I could see her smile again
So if you see her out there, tell her I'm still here
Waiting for the day when she will reappear
Where did my baby go?
I wonder where she ran off to
I miss my baby so
I'm calling but I can't get through
Please tell that girl if you meet her
That someone's longing to see her
Where did my baby go?
I wish that she would get back soon, get back soon
Maybe I was wrong and I ignored her for too long
And I didn't even notice when she slipped away
Maybe while I lay fast asleep then out into the night she creeps
I'll leave the light on so she'll come back someday
Oh if you see her out there tell her it's not fair
And that life's just not the same when she's not here
Where did my baby go?
I wonder where she ran off to…
Okay, seriously?! He has been playing that damn song for days. He's been acting all weird and skittish too. I wonder what's up with him.
She lightly knocks on the door and nothing so she knocks a little harder and hears some movement. Aiden opens the door after a few more moments and silencing the music. "Hey, how was your day?" he greeted pulling her into a warm hug so she wouldn't see the sadness present on his face. "Okay I guess. Are you feeling okay, I've noticed the encore of this song over the last few days. Nothing's bothering you is it?" He breaks the hug and turns into his office, back into the dark. "No I've just…I don't know, I was just in the mood to hear this song. I hadn't realized I'd been playing it so much." "Oh okay then. You wanna go grab something quick for dinner. I've eaten already with Ash but if you wanna get something and hang out or whatever for a bit, maybe." He turned to his laptop mumbling something about how he wasn't hungry and didn't feel like going out for anything because he had some work to finish up so she just left him to it and walked to their bedroom with a quiet goodnight.
A few days later Spencer goes back into her closet to pull out 'Old Faithful'. Ever since that day she takes it out at least once every other day. But today was different. Usually she just glances at a few pages and puts it back, but today she had something on her mind...
Dear O.F.
I didn't mean to start writing in this stupid thing again but I can't go to Ashley or Aiden about this so I'll give you a shot.
After me and Aiden's walk the other day he mentioned something about a dream. It freaked me out because that was the same night I had one of my 'Ashley dreams'. I wonder if he knows. I wondered so much that it occupied my mind for hours, luckily Ash didn't poke at me about it because it would have been embarrassing. Why? Well, lately I have been having more of those not so 'friendly' dreams about her. I know that Aiden likes to watch me sleep but I hope I haven't led to him suspect anything other than a friendship between us. Because there isn't an 'us'.
-S
"Where Did My Baby Go" by John Legend
