Hey guys! I'm sorry it's been awhile. It's been crazy busy these past few days. & I have officially moved back into my dorm, so that means... :( I'm gonna be updating slower than usual. Excuse this other filler chapter. But I promise, the next time I come around, the drama will begin again. Mwuahaha! Thank you for the love and all that. I love you all.

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- Felicia's POV -

Being back at work feels weird, since my ass has been out for so long trying to keep up with Nico's growth and all that. Then it was time to finally let him go cause he was getting to the point where he could care less whether he was in my arms or the nanny's arms. It's still difficult, because I find myself missing Nico during work. Missing our family. But who's to say? Maybe Rodney and I can make things work in the future. We'll always have that connection because he's my baby's father and I will always love those two more than anything.

It's just kind of been weird though, too. Like, lets be honest. I find myself ALWAYS checkin' out James. Who wouldn't? He's fine as hell. But then I know it's wrong. To pursue the unthinkable behind Rodney's back and even bring him around Nico like that. Ugh, just the thought makes me cringe. I dont wanna be known as the triflin' ex-wife who couldn't even keep to herself during the divorce.

Buuuut, let's not judge, Christina's been through some real tough shit during her breakups and she's recovered fine.

I can't help it. It may seem a bit foolish, but I like his attention.

I'll simply sit at my desk arranging papers for Gustavo and he'll pass by and smile at me. And tell me I'm looking gorgeous.

I've never heard that from Rodney. He wasn't one to show his emotions his much cause I was "supposed to know" how he felt already. He'd do things here and there, but it just wasn't about consistency for him. And when Nico came, it became more about providing for the family. Which is good. But I like to be treated like a princess sometimes. What girl doesnt?

"Heyyyy beautiful." James says coming up to my desk. I blush as I go through some papers.

"Hey. Whatsup?"

"Nothing much. Just taking a break." Yeah right. His ass probably snuck out of the studio. Gustavo isn't one for breaks. We ALL know this.

"Mhmm.." I gave him that look, but he just rose his eyebrow. "You're bored aren't you?"

"Well, he isn't asking me to do anything!"

"Your presence is all he needs." I chuckle and he smiles.

"No, your presence is all I need." He wiggles his eyebrows and smiles. Goddammit. He would. And he wasn't like Logan, who would turn around and be like psh, yeah right. Christina this, Christina that. I'm like his sister, and I deserve the least bit of love from his ass too!

"James. Stop." I say lowly while smiling.

"I'm just sayin'. But anyways. We should hang out."

"Hmm, I guess I'm down. If you're willing to hang out with Nico too." He smiles.

"Why not? I love that kid." I shrug.

"Well then I guess we have no problems."

"Alright, good." He smiles at me.

"JAMES. WHERE ARE YOU?! FELICIA! HAVE YOU SEEN HIM?!" James' eyes widen at the sound of Gustavo's voice.

"Wellllll, I gotta go. Text me or something later? We'll hang out." He flashes one last smile before he runs off before Gustavo could find him. He's nearly damn 23 and he's still running from his boss.

"JAMES!" Gustavo yells as he passes by my desk. I quietly laugh a bit to myself as I'm arranging my papers and typing some data into the computer. It's safe to say that they're still kids. Shake my damn head.

Throughout the day, James and I have been peeking at each other. Sometimes getting caught, sometimes we'd get away with it. But someone who DEFINITELY noticed it more was Rodney. Which kind of made me a bit nervous. Rodney doesn't handle his anger well sometimes. And I doubt the last thing he wants to deal with right now is hearing James trying to pursue his ex-wife. He really makes that clear and it's kind of scary. He'll kind of glare at him sometimes, or look at me like I know you guys are flirting, what the fuck are you doing? But he'll just end up shaking his head and minding his own business.

I'm not even trying to make it obvious, cause honestly, I dont even know if I see James that way. It's the company he provides that gets to me. You know? When guys try to pursue you and do all they can to show that they're interested, all you can do is flirt back. But you're not even into the guy like that. You just can't help but flirt back sometimes. Esp. if he's attractive.

So after work, I decided to go to Christina's. I needed to vent about everything. And I was sure I could.. if I beat Logan to her house. Fuck. His ass would be there in 0.5 seconds.

Sorry boy, I need to talk to my sister. You can do all that lovey-dovey shit later.

As soon as I get to her house, I run up the stairs. Her door is usually always open. I don't even know why, but I walk in and catch her by surprise. And then I lock the door.

"What is going on with you? And why are you locking the door? Logan's-"

"Exactly. Sis, I need to talk to you!" I say panicking. She puts down what she's doing in the kitchen and follows me to the couch.

"What's wrong?"

"Okay, well. Let me just come out with it. I think I like James." Her eyes widen.

"What... Felicia are you sure it's just not infatuation and all that?"

"That's why. I dont even know what it is." I know I'm talking pretty fast but somehow I know Logan would be coming any time soon.

"I dont know... I mean, just think about Rodney and how he would take that. You guys JUST split. And Nico probably doesn't even know that. You can't bring James around him so quickly? I feel like you're just after his attention because of all this drama between you and Rodney."

"I get that, but I can't even help but flirt with the guy. He's attractive as hell!"

"Felicia." She said firmly and shook her head. "I dont know. I'm just trying to get you out of it so you don't have to deal with more drama."

"No one has to know..."

"Felicia!" Her eyes widen in surprise. I know. She's never heard me talk like that. My head's a mess right now. And knowing how I handle things like this, I'd probably still go after the guy. "First of all, if you arent even sure you like the guy like that, don't lead him on."

"Yeah but-" The door knob turns. Fucking Logan! Can he go somewhere else for a minute? Play at the arcade, something.

"Logan's here-" Christina gets up to get the door. But I hold her wrist.

"NO!"

"Oh my god, cool it Felicia! He won't do anything."

"Babe! What are you doing in thereeeeeee..." He says as if he's crying.

"EW." I say and roll my eyes.

"God, just stop. It'll be fine."

"But Christina!-" Too late. It is her apartment though. So I cant do much. She opens the door and a confused Logan is standing before us.

"Why was the door- Oh, Hey Felicia." He says walking in. I guess he got his answer. "How'd you get here so fast?"

"What? I didn't get here that fast." I lied. His eyebrow rose.

"Yeah you did. You got here before me. Annnd no one beats thee Logan Mitchell." He says cockily.

"Shutup." Christina says sitting down next to him. He just looks at her in shock. Hahahah, I would be dying on the floor right now if I could. "Anyways.."

"Yeah, anyways." He says. "What have you guys been talking about?"

"Felicia's crush on James."

"CHRISTINA!"

"What?! He wont say anything!" I facepalmed. So hard.

"You like James?!" Logan said in disgust. "Ew."

"Boy, you better ew yourself."

"Defensive Felicia. Seriously though. What about Rodney?"

"I dont know. What about him?"

"It's just weird, dontcha think?" Logan asked seriously. Yes...

"I dont know. Like I said, I dont even know what it is. It's probably just me being attracted to the attention since the divorce." Logan shrugged.

"I dont know, Licia. Just be careful. Cause you have to think about Rodney and Nico. Regardless of what happens, Rodney's still a part of the family. Annnd James can be tough when it comes to all the girls he's surrounded by sometimes." I nodded, impressed.

"Impressive, Mitchell. Those are probably the smartest words you've ever said to me." He laughed for a bit until he realized what I had said. Christina laughed to herself, making him hit me on the leg.

"Wow, that wasn't nice at all!" He shrieked.

"I'm just kidding. It was a lot of help. Thanks Logie." He smiled contently. I figured the two would want their alone time, so I start gathering my things together. "Welp, I'll be on my way. Give you guys your peace. Thanks for listening." They both smile at me and nodd.

"Bye sis. I love you."

"I love you too." I say as I'm walking out the door. That made things a bit clearer. Hopefully. Maybe it was just me being attracted to the attention. Since, no one was there to give it to me anymore. And I've been so used to Rodney giving me that attention, one way or another.

I get home and Nico's asleep. That won't be too long. But for now, I have nothing to do. Except eat. Get things ready for another day of work. And be a mom. First things first though, I need to relax. I kick off my shoes. Wash up and get in my jammies. Then I just sit on my bed, scrolling through my phone when I come across a text from James.

Really now?

So, about that date we haven't planned...

No. No way.

I couldn't help but smile.

So yes, I did respond. In a flirty way. Telling him I was down for whatever.

Fuck.

I guess that talk with Logan and Christina didn't clear my head at all.

- No POV -

Carlos has been feeling a bit distant from Amanda and it really makes him sad. He would call and she wouldn't stay on the phone for more than 5 minutes. He would text and she wouldn't reply until hours later. And he understands that basketball season is picking up and her studies are so much more important than him. But he really wishes he had her back. Her company. Just her. He hates that she's in college right now, because he knows there's a ton of guys probably drooling all over her. He doesn't like that. He just wants her to himself, not to be selfish. And to be honest, it kills him that he has to deal with this. But he really feels the girl. He really does. So he deals.

It's nearly almost 1130pm and he's looking at his phone, wondering if he should attempt to call her. He knows she has a big chem test tomorrow and she's been bugging about it.

He really misses her voice. So why not. Their conversation won't last for more than 5 minutes. Probably less.

He sighs and presses her name under his contacts. He puts the phone to his ear and it rings for a bit.

"Hello?" He's relieved. She finally answers.

"Hey babe."

"Heeeeey."

"Sorry, I didn't want to interrupt your studying or anything. But I just called cause I really missed you and to check up on how you were doing."

"Aw. I missed you too. I've been alright. I'm sorry I haven't been able to talk much. It's just such a routine over here. Class. Eat. Practice. Homework. Study. Sleep. Repeat."

"Damn. I'm sorry. You can do it though. I believe in you. Have you studied a lot for tomorrow?"

"Mmm, kind of. I'm studying a bit right now." Her saying that kind of makes him feel like she's indirectly telling him she needs to study and not be on the phone.

"Well." He sighs. "I guess I'll let you go then. Text me?"

"Yeah, of course. Thanks for calling babe." He smiles.

"Of course." With that, the call ends. Carlos just continues to lay back on his bed, scrolling through his phone with the TV on. He really couldn't wait for her to be back for Christmas break. He really couldnt. He couldnt handle this distance.

On the other hand, after Amanda gets off the phone, she looks at Jordan.

"Boyfriend?" He says looking up from his book and she nodds.

"Yuuup. He's been trying to reach me a lot lately. Usually he'd be okay. But lately he's just been weird. I guess he's just not used to me being all busy cause we always had time to be together back when I was home."

"It's alright. He'll be okay. Guys eventually get used to those things and move on."

"Hopefully. I can't really focus on him right now. And I kind of wish he understood that." Amanda said continuing to do some practice problems from her book. Jordan just stares at her and smiles. "What?" She looks up.

"Nothing. You just have some pretty eyes."

"Well, thanks." She blushes. They look at each other for awhile. Until Amanda realizes it's a bit awkward. So she breaks the silence. "So uh, did you get number 37?"

"Uh yeah."

"Could you help me?" He nodds and stands up to sit next to her so it would be easier to help her. As he's explaining to her, his face is pretty close to hers. And his body is close to hers. She takes notice. And she kind of likes it. He looks at her after he explains the problem and she just stares at him. But she slowly nodds.

They continue to look at each other. And his face gets closer. But right before their lips touch, she backs up a bit and realizes what the fuck is happening.

What the fuck is happening?

"Uhmmm, thanks. That was a lot of help." He slowly nodds and he backs away and gets up to go back to his original seat.

"Yeup." After that, it's just a bit of awkward silence. But they can't help but glimpse at each other from time to time. It was a different feeling for Amanda. She really enjoyed Jordan because they were so alike yet so different. She's still trying to figure out how that's possible but she really has never met someone like him. They share the same interest in most things, but they aren't afraid to speak their opinion on other things.

It's weird.

And this is kind of another reason why Amanda's been distancing herself from Carlos.

Not cause of school.

But because of Jordan.

And sometimes, she hates to admit that.


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