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Eren's POV:
It's around 7:30 when Levi and I decide to make our way to college, I thought it be slightly awkward after what had happened this morning and that I had fallen asleep on him but it wasn't, not even slightly. As we walk my eyes dance across the skyline, it's cold and it looks as though it's going to rain but I smile. Even when the sun is nowhere to be seen and the blue sky is clouded by misery I know that the light is still there.. I just simply can't see it.
Levi must have noticed my smile because he nudges me gently "Did I seriously just catch you smiling at the fucking clouds?" his voice is light, filled with curiosity and amusement. My eyes never leaving the sky I nod.
"tch, weird Brat"
laughing I finally look over at him "I'm not a Brat but I won't deny that I'm weird"
Levi doesn't respond and We walk in comfortable silence. It's been a long time since I've walked beside someone and didn't feel alone. Even though Levi isn't one to spark up a conversation his presence alone makes me feel warm and welcome, despite his cold exterior. I don't know when, how or why but all of a sudden we're walking hand in hand, I chance a glance at Levi but all I see is an emotionless mask staring ahead, well that's what I thought until I notice a faint blush dusted across his high cheek bones and I find myself chuckling. He looks fucking adorable right now.
"shut up" he mumbled and squeezes my hand a little tighter. My whole body feels like it's on fire. I don't exactly understand why we're holding hands or why I feel like this but I wont question it... not now, not when I'm craving physical touch and reassurance.
... and then it clicks, Levi is holding my hand because he knows this, he can read me like a book and I have to admit that's a little scary. Levi knows that I'm in need of comfort... just not through words. So he's holding me in an attempt to show me that I'm not alone anymore. I have him, I have Hanji.
An unspoken agreement between us is made, We have each other's back now.
When we reach the college gate, Levi retracts his hand. I frown at the loss of the other's touch but say nothing. He stops us, then and puts his hand on my shoulder, effectively turning me to face him properly.
"I'm going to say this now I want you to listen, I don't let people in. I hate the thought of trusting someone other than Hanji..." My heart begins to sink at the words but I feel myself nodding. "But... I'm willing to try with you, Eren... Just don't give me any reason to doubt you. Once I let someone In I won't let go unless that person want's me to. I don't turn my back on the friend's I have and I won't do it to you, as long as you can do the same... I can't deal with watching people I care about walk out of my life"
It's subtle but it's there, A very small glimpse into his life. He's been hurt and he's lost people he's cared for. I understand the emotion that is swirling in those eyes of his.
"I promise Levi, I promise I won't leave you"
Hurt... No, Agony pulls at his porcelain face and he looks down at the ground "No, Eren don't promise something like that. Don't make promises you can't keep, Understand?, You may not intentionally leave but... there are certain things that are out of our control, I'm sure you understand that more than most. So just.. say you'll try not that you Promise"
Fear doesn't look right on Levi, yet there it is... He's afraid to loose people he lets in, I don't know why, at least not right now. I just hope he feels like he can trust me enough to tell me one day, I won't push, there are things I'm not ready to talk about myself.
Silence falls over us again but this time the atmosphere is dark and Levi still hasn't looked up, so taking a chance I put my hand on his cheek and lightly pull his face up to meet my gaze.
"Levi, I'll do my best to always be here"
... He smiles, not a big, teeth showing smile, just a small curl of the lips "Thanks Brat"
I snort at that "Wow, way to ruin the moment there"
"It's my speciality"
Before I have a chance to reply, my phone buzzes to life, actually scaring the shit out of me. Fumbling to pull it out of my pocket I catch Levi smirking at my struggle.. great.
Finally getting a grip on the phone, I answer the call and place it to my ear "Hello?"
"Eren? It's me Krista... Listen can I.. well sweetie you see..."
Something's wrong... "Krista?"
"I know I'm supposed to coming round next week but would you mind If I came tonight? we need to talk about some... things" Krista sounded hesitant and unsure of herself, Alarm bells were ringing in my head but I knew now wasn't the time to freak out and bombard her with questions, she seemed stressed enough as it is.
It took a moment to find my voice "...Of course, I'll see you later"
silence.
"Eren... don't worry about it too much okay?"
"okay.. bye"
"goodbye sweetie"
...
"Eren?.. You okay?"
Shit, I forgot Levi was standing there the entire time... My hands were shaking and I could already feel my composure leaving me. I've had too many phone calls that have sounded just like that before, they always lead to hurt and pain.
I feel two gentle hands rest upon either side of my face "Hey, Listen to me okay? whatever just happened, I'm here, Hanji's here. You don't have to suffer through this alone this time okay? You can tell me or don't, it doesn't matter, I'm here anyway"
I let out a long breath and look up into his eyes, those eyes... beautiful. I need to draw them, I need to calm down and do something. I want to draw his eyes.
"Levi?"
"hmm?"
"Can I draw your eyes?" My face instantly burns up when a look of pure confusion takes over Levis usually stoic expression. That did sound a little strange.. "I-I know it sounds weird but... I need a distraction right now and y-your eyes are so beautiful... So erh Can I?"
Of all the responses I could possibly get... I did not expect this one.
Levi's Lips are on mine... but before I even have a chance to react he pulls back.
"Shit I.. I shouldn't have-" I'm having none of that though and In a quick movement I grab his shirt and pull him close, Lips ghosting over his.
"Shut up and Kiss me"
