Thank you very much for the reviews, and I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a while but I hadn't really had any ideas for this chapter in a while. I decided to postpone the KanaXYuu stuff just because it would have too long. That's mainly all the next chapter will be about.
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I wake up bright and early, I feel lighter than I usually do. It's a weird feeling for me to wake up like this. I already know why though, it's because I have him back in my life now. I don't know much about him anymore, but he's still my Roro kun.
I start to get dressed, Ruka had been over joyous last night, she had one less rival now in the running for Kaname's heart. I am glad that the burden of trying to win him over from Yuuki is now over. I feel so free, I am so very happy today.
Roro kun, well Zero kun, whichever I decide to call him, has changed to more of an emotionless zombie than he used to be. I'll have to do something about that and get him at least halfway back to the way he used to be.
Sure he was never the one for talking and conveying his feelings towards others, but he did smile and play. Now he doesn't even do that with anyone, he didn't even do it with Yuuki, which I'm happy about.
I'm still envious of her in a different way now, she spent time with him ever since the tragedy happened. I should have been there for that, but it isn't even really my fault. I was under the impression that he was dead. Therefore, I didn't look for him since they told me that him and his whole family died. Who would think that someone would lie about another person's death?
Now to think of it… why would he lie about that? Why would Kaname lie to me about Zero dying? Did he want me to himself? If he wanted me to himself, why did he end up going to Yuuki and not staying with me? Why didn't he look at me as he looked at her?
WHY AM I STILL THINKING ABOUT HIM? FORGET HIM!
It's almost time to go to class, which means that it's almost time to see Zero standing at the gates of our dorms.
We get to the gates, we walk in silence until we get there. He looks back at me while Yuuki and him try to hold the children back from swamping us as usual.
I walk over to him gracefully, "Hi Roro kun, are you having a good day?"
He nods, I smile to myself, that was the nod of my non-responsive Roro kun. I can't help myself but to be giddy. This whole situation is exciting to say the least. To know that the boy that I have been secretly gazing upon since my first day here was my Roro kun.
It is such irony.
I put my head on his shoulder and look up at him from there. He looks down at me as some boys glare at him furiously. I say kind of loud to get them even more jealous, "How about we do something tonight?"
He looks at me speculatively, he couldn't have thought that I wouldn't try to further our relationship. Besides that's what he wanted back then as well, but I guess I didn't think about if he still felt that way about it now.
I whisper in his ear and I can feel him shudder slightly, like he did last night under my touch after we walked away from Kaname. Though it did get much more heated than what I'm implying.
FLASHBACK
I asked, "What do I have to help you with? I'm not that informed on what I have to do."
He started to unbutton his shirt, he amazed me instead of just a skinny figure like when he was 12 he had muscles there as a 17 year old.
"Stand there." He said simply. "I have to bite into you."
That was going to be a hard thing for me to do. I mean it was one thing if I was going to bite him again, I had practice biting into people. Well, just Aidou, and that one time with Kaname. I knew how to make it not hurt, and make it erotic.
I pinned him against the wall forcefully remembering how he had been rough with me the last two times that we were together in the past. His eyes then glowed red, it was turning him on, and he now wanted me and my blood. I backed away from him
"I'll give it to you soon enough." I whispered into his ear sexily. "I want you to beg me for it."
He looks at me and almost lunges forward for my neck. I sway my finger back and forth in front of his face. No one had ever bitten into me except for Kaname.
It hurt like hell because he didn't know how to do it like I did. No one else ever would, so I decided that night that I wouldn't let it happen again. I would have to let him do it though, it would save his life.
He said my name raspily, "Hikari chan…" I grinned at him, "Hai?"
"Give it to me." He held out his arms for me to come back to him.
"Is that really begging?"
"Hikari.." He moans, "Please… give it to me."
He clenched and unclenched his hands as he still held out his amrs towards me. His eyes still blood thristy and red. I went to him, and I threw myself at him. He said softly, "Finally…"
He bit into me and I took a deep breath. He made it feel good. Maybe it was because only he could make me feel good since he was the one that I bit into. The person who I had originally made a blood bond with, but it didn't make any sense how I made others feel good.
I groaned, "Zero…kun…" I sighed. He looked at me for a brief second while noticing my the face. I had my lips slightly parted, and my eyes were clouded over with lust.
He looked back down at my neck, I could feel the blood flowing out of it. He came up from my neck his mouth bloodied, "Say my name again." He said as he went back down to bite at my neck.
I pulled him down harder into my shoulder, grabbing a fistful of his hair. "Zero kun…"
He was starting to take too much, and I started to get light headed. I pulled away, and he took a step back from me as well. "I'll go." He said as he wiped away some of the blood from his mouth. He could tell that it was getting to be too much for me, but he had good self control for a Level E.
He started to walk away from me and I grabbed his hand. I grabbed up the side of my shirt and wiped away the blood from his face that he didn't get. His eyes changed back to there original color, that breathtaking purple.
I grabbed a hold of his hand as I put my shirt back down to my side, I stood up on my toes to be face to face with him. I looked at his eyes intensely, "Zero, Roro kun…. I still love you."
He looks at me intensely, he doesn't say anything though. He leaned towards me and whispered, "Don't let me turn."
I touched his face sensitively, he didn't want to ever turn into a vampire even though I was one. I had to respect his wishes even if problems arise when I would have to defend him, "I won't."
FLASHBACK ENDS
I whisper, "You still want to be friends with me right?" He looks at me without responding. "Maybe." I ask, "You'll talk to me later?" He nods. I smile at him, and pick my head up from resting on his shoulder. I wave, walking away still smiling, "See you tonight Roro kun!" he rolls his eyes at me, is he disappointed that I said that out loud?
Well, he shouldn't be, I'm not ashamed of what our relationship used to be like, and I'm not trying to hide what it could become now to anybody. I could care less about what these kids think about me and him.
Aidou looks at me as I walk past them and Kaname's eyes follow after me as well. He knew not to speak to me - Kaname, not to even utter a word to me after what he had done. I did not even want to hear any apologies from him because I would not accept them no matter how heartfelt he might try and make them come across as.
Aidou ran up to me and grabs my hand. I look back quickly as I stiffen up under the sudden touch.
"Aidou."
He says to let me know it is him, I guess in fear if I thought that he was Kaname and took rash actions. "What were you and Kiryuu talking about?"
He says his name in the jealous way that I would expect him to do it in. I am taking it all in, relishing in the glory of how people now want to take over my role of being jealous of someone because they are now getting love from the person you have your eyes on. I reply, "Really nothing, I was just asking what he was doing later on in the day."
"We have class later on in our day." I roll my eyes, "I can always skip, it's not like I learn anything in that class anyway." I know Aidou very well, he can tell that there is something wrong with me just by how I am answering his questions, there is more happiness than smugness to it than usual.
I can tell he wants to say something to me, he opens his mouth a little bit, but I guess thinks better about it and shuts his mouth. He then just walks next to me quietly. I say softly so only his ears were able to me, "Aidou… you can ask me whatever is on your mind." He looks at me dumbfounded, most likely trying to figure out how I knew he had something on his mind to ask me. He looks down at the ground, still unsure of himself or his question. "Hikari… why are you interested in Kiryuu?"
He struck a nerve, I try my hardest to not let it show on my face.
He pauses, then continues, "Kiryuu can not love you the same way that I can. He's not like us… he's worse." He continually strikes nerve after every nerve in my body. It starts to get hard to compose myself, to still listen to him talk and not just lose it.
I ask, "How is he worse?"
"You might not know this but Kiryuu's a Level E… he can never even be saved since Shizuna will not offer any type of help for him even though she bit into him." He got the wrong story too, and I'm not yet ready to tall the others about what I did so I keep the real story to myself and just continue to listen to him.
"Oh…" He looks at me doubtful, not sure if what he just said hurt my feelings or not. I still wondered about one thing, the thing that he never told me before, but it answered the reason to why he was jealous of Zero. I ask, "So… you love me?"
He blushes, nods his head and shouts ahead to the others, "Wait up Akatsuki!" He runs to catch up, leaving me a few steps in front of Kaname and his little bodyguard; alone.
We arrive in the school building and I sit down in my regular seat. I start to think about Zero, as always now. I heard a tap on the window, and everybody looks over except me and Kaname. Kaname is playing a chess game by himself for some odd reason and I am steady thinking while others are just conversing.
Ruka says, "Hikari…" "Hai?" I ask as I look towards her, she is sitting right by the window. In the window pane I can see Zero's wonderful yet frowning face. He just stands there and looks at me, without him having to say anything I knew where to go.
I smile, I push my chair in and gracefully walk out of the door leaving behind a group of vampires who are confused as to why I have an interest in him.
I go out on a different balcony one higher up that could not have wandering eyes looking at the both of us. He is already there, always one step ahead. He looks at me briefly, then looks away as I still walk over to him on the railing. I put my hands on the railing and the wind wisps my hair around softly blowing it around everywhere; I tuck it behind my ear.
"So…" I start out saying, "We are still friends right?"
He doesn't reply to my question, he just stands there letting the wind tangle his hair. "Answer me Zero." I say sternly. He looks at me from the corner of his eyes, with a straight lined mouth. He suddenly looks at me as if he could not refuse what I told him to do. "I don't know."
One of the stitches that my heart was stitched up with to repair itself from what Kaname did starts to come loose. Just fucking kill me now, he doesn't love me anymore?
I reply, "It's a simple question. Are we or aren't we?"
He yells, "We are Hikari! Why are you asking me?!"
I clamp my hands down on the railing, I let go and start to walk away. He lets me walk away from him. I turn around to him furious, as I stop in mid step I appear in an instant in front of him, in between his arms. His arms were spread out, and his head was slightly looking to the ground.
He felt my presence and he looks up surprised to see me in front of him like this. He does not move from his stance though, he stands firm and looks me in the eyes hard. I had nothing that I could say, my words were stuck in my throat. I wanted to ask him how I could help him, or did he need any help. Or what I needed to do to be here for him, but the words couldn't form in my mouth.
I say, "I'm sorry Zero. I'm sorry that I bit you, I'm sorry that I didn't realize that you were still alive and I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you." He stands up straight says nothing, but he pats me on my head. "Don't apologize."
"You're better than you think you are. Know that I'll keep you alive." He starts to walk away. "I still love you…" He does not turn around to acknowledge my statement, I start to think that maybe he did not hear me. "I don't feel that way anymore…"
The strands come loose one by one. It is hard for me to keep a straight face. "I can't love a Vampire." He says.
It starts to break.
I ask, "Why? When you ARE a vampire. You have my blood running through your veins. You are what I am, so why can't you love me?" He turns around angrily his eyes basically flaming. A heated argument is about to begin.
And my heart has been broken yet again.
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