A/N: Okay so I've started updating again how exciting. I'm sorry to have left you guys but hopefully you still like the story it does have a plot etc.

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Sorry for how short this is, but it's to generally get back into the rhythm of the story. I would also like to say this story is dedicated to Alix, Briana, Anon, TwiLov and Ren99. Thank you guys for your support. Let me know what you think!


✧ Ness' POV ✧

My first day at Black's Motor and Auto Repair Shop was done and dusted. I swear that I kept catching Jake staring at me throughout the day. It wasn't however as horrible as I had made I thought it would be. It was almost like falling back into an old pattern. The guys fucking around in the shop, having a laugh with them when there were no customers. It was therapeutic to say the least. A couple things were new. Like their tattoo's that shocked the hell out of me, or the way they devour their lunch like its the last meal they'll ever eat again. I couldn't help but notice how they all buffed up, what happened to my scrawny Seth, or lanky Embry? They were long gone, left behind for protein shakes or steroids.

Being close to Jacob was like falling back into our old rhythm. It felt improved almost. We were always aware of each other. When we stepped around each other in the tiny reception it was almost like a dance. One of those fancy ones from a Disney movie. I can't even comprehend what our sex would be li- nope. Nope. Not thinking about that.

Jake invited me over after work, I had to pass. Aunty Rose was right, it's been a little while since I've seen Charlie. Sue and Charlie helped me move here but I hadn't had the chance to see them again. Although I think I'll be seeing him for Christmas. I wonder if I'll be spending it with Seth and Leah. I hoped that I'd be able to catch up with Seth soon. I never really got to talk to Leah, she was a few years older than me, before Jacob even. But I'll never forget the last time I saw Seth after the abortion. I was incredibly difficult to say goodbye to my favourite day-dream buddy.

Taking my shitbox to Charlie's proved to be a difficult task. First Jake didn't want me driving around in such a dangerous car, I had to remind him that the Rabbit isn't much better. He countered by saying that he regularly fixes it up and my car hash't been serviced since God knows when. Second, he wanted to give me a lift, he would drop my car off at mine after servicing it. But I refused, much to his dismay.


Charlie's place really hadn't changed much. Still the same house Bella lived in. Still the house Charlie pretty much held me together. I wonder what he'd have to say about Jake.

Walking up the steps I see his cruiser parked in the drive way. A stack of fire wood waiting to be taken into the house. It's funny how attached you get to the little things of this house. Walking up to the door I can already smell the delicious dinner Sue is cooking. I knock a couple times and wait for someone to answer the door. Sue welcomes me in and announces that I've arrived. Charlie appears from the lounge room, giving me a big bear hug.

"How'ya coin' kiddie?" He asks, pulling away. I start filling them in about my apartment, seeing the boys and my new job; as we start dinner. Charlie doesn't have much to say about the whole Jacob scenario, in fact he doesn't say anything. "Grandpa?" I ask, silently asking what he thinks of the whole ordeal. He looks to Sue, she nods but doesn't say anything. They've been quite as hell. Charlie looks down and shakes his head. "Dammit." He says quietly, as if I wasn't supposed to hear it. He looks like he just aged about 50 years. "Guys what's going on?" I ask, prompting them. Sue doesn't say anything, she just cleans up the finished plates. "Has he hurt you in anyway?" Charlie asks, dead serious.

"No, in fact he's kinda been the complete opposite. It's borderline needy." I say and both Charlie and Sue laugh. Charlie's reply is a bit more light hearted now. "Look as long as you aren't being bothered by him and he isn't making you uncomfortable, then I wouldn't worry too much Ness." I nod, it still sounds odd to me but as long as he's okay with it then I don't really have anything to worry about.

Dinner concludes, I stick around for a bit. We small talk about Rose, Emmett and Toby. I ask Sue about the tattoos and she laughs, "That's a long story." I'm beginning to gather there's a lot of long stories attached to the gang. It's a line I've heard a lot from Claire.

Charlie and Sue decide to call it a night. They're getting old and need sleep. I got a reaction out of Charlie for that one. I don't do much when I get home but I do retrieve my box labelled 'Dickhead' and sat on my bedroom floor with it. So many memories stored that I didn't think I'd ever pull out again. If only Jake had pulled out…

The first bit of paper in the box is a crumpled up one that was ripped out of an exercise book. Its got little notes from Jake and I that we used to pass to each other in the hallway between classes. The first bit is us talking about the possibility of Claire and Quil being a thing. The second bit is Jake talking about what he'd like to do to me when we were alone. If I remember correctly he lived true to his word, very well. Searching further through the box I find tons of stuff, movie tickets from dates, random candid photos of us. One catches my eye in particular, its a group shot of Jake, Embry, Quil, Claire and I at a restaurant. I remember this night, the waitress asked if we'd like a photo. Embry was bitching about being the fifth wheel but Claire would always say that Jake and I were the fourth wheel. Her logic was that because Jake and I were the only couple, therefor we made a wheel together. Quil didn't look too happy but still laughed at what Claire said.

I started to laugh myself at all this memories, I kept going through the box. I ended up putting the group photo up on my bedside table. The last thing in the box shatters my heart. One of the very few things I never told Jake. I pick up the sonogram, the one with the two very tiny blips on it. I can't help but cry, I never wanted this to happen. I wanted a normal goddamn life, with normal parents and with a normal high school life. My cries grow, they're filling up the room. I try to stop but it just keeps coming.

Something breaks my silence, a wolf howling, I think. I race to my bedroom window. It's sounds so close. God I hate living right a the edge of town. The forest is practically right behind us.


✧ Jake's POV ✧

I can hear her crying, its tearing my heart apart. I want to stop it but that would raise far too many questions. Now that she's my imprint I'm allowed to tell her, plus I don't think anyone would try and stop the alpha. But it's too soon for her, she only just moved back here from what I could gather from Quil. I was quite honestly surprised that he could keep that big of a secret from me.

I can't stop thinking about her crying. I need to comfort her. Why is she crying? How can I stop it? My mind starts racing too much. I think I let out a howl. I need help. How the fuck do I deal with this?

A few minds join me, Embry, Leah and Jared.

Jared: "Sam says he hopes this isn't too important, he just put the kids to bed."

Me: "No, I just don't know how to deal with all these extra feelings."

Leah: "Why don't you come for a run, help get some air."

Me: "Yeah okay."

We start running, I catch up to them easily and we start running, not in any particular direction.

Embry: "God I wish I would just imprint already. I had to turn down another two girls today, although I don't think they were too bummed about missing out on the creep who kept trying to stare into their eyes."

Leah: "No way, I freaking love being single!"

After the whole thing with Sam and Emily, she's been enjoying travelling the world and teaching children. She still hurts occasionally but the distance from them has helped. Especially seeing as Sam's phases are far and few.

Jared: "Nope, its so good to know that my one and only is sitting at home waiting for me with dinner." However his mind drifts to a different place, a place where Kim is waiting in the bedroom rather than the kitchen.

Me: "Could you please not right now." Not quite an alpha command but a solid statement. Unfortunately for Paul, I did alpha command him. There's only so many times you can put up with seeing your sister's boobs before its starts fucking you up. I backed off with the command… eventually.

Embry: "At least Jared's getting laid."

I think back to the condoms that Ness bought from Joy's, though she did say that Joy gave them to her as a gift. I haven't had to think about condoms or any kind of sex in a long time.

Leah: "Oh god, nope. I'm out of here. I don't need naked women in my head."

Jared and I: "Sorry."

All of the pack's pretty much seen it all from the imprints, much to the imprinter's dismay.

Jared: "I should actually go too, Kimmy-conda's waiting for me at home."

It's just down to Embry and I. He takes my mind off Ness crying for a little while, talking about doing some renovations on his mum's house. We make it to the Canadian border before he calls it a night but not before checking up with me and seeing if I'm okay.

I just need her to be okay.