Chapter 8: Coping.
Recap-" Please, stop crying Mister Potter." Attempting his best expression for a smile and solemly failing. He watched as Harry's tears subsided, the choking subsided but Snape received an empty gaze. Harry Potter's eyes were empty.
And yet another tear made it's way painfully playing a melody across Harry's cheek.
Snape looked into the darkened depth of green. He observed each emotion playing throughout Harry's eyes, each blink that Harry made-perfected a new tear. The absence of sound was present. Snape's hand didn't leave Harry's face. But Snape left his gaze behind, that depriving, darkness that was inept to colour. Harry squeezed his eyes shut, the situation reminding him that he shouldn't be calm. More tears escaping Harry's eyes, against his will. Snape just kneeling in front of him, hand upon his cheek.
" Mister Potter, stop crying." Harry's body tremored, shaking the tears down his face and off his chin. Snape moved his hand away in the proccess. Harry sobbed, his head down-but slowly brought it back up still looking at Snape with those empty eyes.
" please, I-I don't want to remember anymore." He began shaking his head, side to side. Snape took both of his hands and placed them on Harry's face. Bringing the shaking to a stop, Harry looked at him. His eyes were wide with fear, regret.
The next words Snape spoke were barely audable, but they were loud enough to sink in.
" There is no need for your tears. I'm here, I will keep you safe." Snape's eyes boared into Harry's, to make that sentence sink in. To let him know, this was real. Harry sniffed, nodding unsurely.
Snape's fingers began wiping away the dreaded tears from the boys cheeks, this going unnoticed by himself.
" I'm sorry..." Came a short breath of a whisper. Snape's face puzzled.
" What, Mr Potter are you exactly sorry for?" the boy moved his head down, Snape's hands yet again falling to his side. Harry's head was now burried in his knees. Then the muffled reply presented itself.
" I-I'm sorry for being weak, for being like my father. For not being enough like my mother, for always failing your class. For not being ab-able to defend myself against my relatives. I'm sorry for being me, I don't mean to seem like I want a lot of attention because I don't. I'm sorry for being such an idiot all the ti-"
" Enough!" Whispered Snape Harshly. He tilted Harry's head up slowly, placing his finger underneath the boys chin. Harry's broken gaze met with Snape's again. And then Snape pulled the boy closer, pressing their lips together.
Harry thought that he was about to get quite a scolding. His eyes met with Snape's all he saw was anger...But a different kind of anger. He definetely wasn't expecting Snape's finger to pull his chin up, nor did he expect to feel a pair of warm lips pressed against his own.
Harry kept his eyes closed, well he couldn't keep them open that was for sure. Snape's lips caressed his own tenderly, softly. They were small kisses each containing a message, someone cared.
Snape began to speak soflty through the kisses, planting a kiss after each word.
" You don't need to be sorry-" Snape stopped the small kisses pulling both of his hands to cup Harry's face. Harry's eyes opened automatically and he stared. " For anything." Finished Snape. His obsidian eyes collecting and willing as much emotion as possible.
Snape rose slowly.
" Come Mister Potter, I believe it is time you went back to your dormitory." Snape held out his hand for Harry, which was taken thankfully by him. Harry tried not to make any eye contact as he stood.
" P-professor...I wa...well...I." Snape crossed his arms across his chest.
" Yes Mister Potter?"
" Thank you." Harry turned and walked to the door, his lips still stinging with that tinge of Snape.
" You're welcome." Humphed out Snape. Harry felt a slight smile pulling at his lips, a real smile. The smile slowly faded as did Harry taking his exit from Snape's office.
" Harrold! Where have you been! Do you know what time it is??" Asked Hermione worridly. Harry shook his head, he was still in quite a daze. Ron sat on the couch in front of the common room fire, looking at Harry for an answer.
" Harry are you alright?" Hermione said making her way towards him and placing her hands on his shoulders.
" Haha yeah Mione, i'm fine sorry about that. What time is it?"
" Bloody ten thirty mate! Geze did that git make you clean 100 coldrens?" The red head said standing grumpily.
Harry exhaled sharply. " It sure felt like it, i'm completely buggered." Hermione hugged Harry tightly.
" Oh thank goodness, Ron had me scared saying stupid things like-The greasy git was chopping you up right now and making you into potions ingredients. He said it for so long that I started to believe it myself!...But enough of that, lets all get some rest."
Harry was so thankful Hermione said rest, this was something he desperately needed.
" Come on Harry, lets go-Don't forget we have quidditch practice after lunch tomorrow." Wined Ron as the trio made their separate ways to bed.
" Night Hermione." Called Harry and Ron shortly after going up their stairs, they heard a muffled you too. But the tiredness was overwhelming.
Harry threw off his shirt and sank into his bed, basking in the comfort. His glassers tipping off his nose. Harry frowned for a moment, looking at his glasses confused.
" Aye you alright mate?" Questioned Ron. Harry looked at him quickly.
" Oh yeah fine, Sorry I just forgot I had my glasses on for a moment there." Harry took them off quickly as well as laying back and switching off his lamp.
" Well g-nite Harry. Hopefully the git didn't wear you out to much." Harry groaned out a goodnight and rolled over.
Snape must have repaired my glasses after I fell...I don't even remember him moving to fix them. I honestly can't believe...He kissed me. I mean i'm not gay, right?
Why are you asking me? I'm you remember?
Oh great now i'm talking to myself.
Yes, yes you are.
And i'm replying to myself, that's it i'm going to sleep.
Goodnight.
Shut up!
Harry's thoughts ended with his scrunched up face and yelling in his mind. It was time for a rough sleep.
End chapter 8: Hey guys, please don't be cranky. I know I took a bit longer than usual to update, and this chapter's probably shorter than the rest but I have a good reason! Well my internet was down for the past week or something...And I was adding to the chapter without the internet but then my laptop just died completely, and my charger was screwed. So you know I have the worst luck and had to wait until tonight to finish it. The reason it's so short is because I was as you know writing about sleeping on there-harry going to sleep. And now I am so tired thinking about it that I think I have to go to sleep now. So yeah I thought I would leave you with this. Thanks for the reviews so far, I really appreciate them :) They keep me going. If you send me a really long nice review I promise i'll write a longer chapter :) I swear on Snarry I will :). IT doesn't matter if you don't though I will still try for the longer chapter, well i'm off to bed goodnight my readers :).
