Haley knew his secret the reason he would disappear each night but she would never call him out on it when he returned later in the night when she was lying in there bed silently letting the tears fall from her eyes, her friends Brooke and Rachel would always tell her she needed to end things he wasn't good enough for her. Deep down Haley knew she had to let go but she could never walk away because the day it ended with Peyton would be the day he would see Haley again, not just Haley James the girl who stood by him through everything but Haley James who saved him from himself who watched him sleep when he had nightmares about hell, Haley remembered the night the dreams came.
They were lying in bed cuddled up next to each other when suddenly Haley felt Him jump up; she was worried about him he hadn't been the same since he had turned up two nights before needing a place to stay. She knew she wasn't going to be a constant in his life but she would be damned if she was going to see him like this "Hey are you ok?" he just looked at her and nodded but Haley knew different she saw the tears at the edge of his eyes "Dean you are not ok. Talk to me" Dean looked away from her "I can't Hale's. I'm sorry" Haley got up from the bed and walked to stand in front of Dean, she lifted his head up and wiped the tears that where now slipping down his cheeks "Dean I love you but I know it isn't the same for you. You will up and leave again because that is who you are but please talk to me." Dean looked up at Haley who had the blue sheet wrapped around her body held up with one hand and her other hand on his cheek. He just smiled "Haley you know that isn't true you know I do but I just can't stay. It's hard for me to tell you how I feel, but I have been having these nightmares about hell and it scares the crap out of me" Haley looked at Dean shocked she knew he had been to hell but not about the nightmares "Dean Winchester you fool why didn't you tell me, I may not be able to take them dreams away but you can tell me about them Dean I won't tell anybody not even Sam" Dean knew he had to speak to somebody but he wasn't ready just yet "Hale's I understand you want me to open up but I'm not ready just yet just give me time and I promise when I need somebody you will be the first person I call" Haley just leant down so her face was opposite Deans and kissed his lips "Whoa what was that for?" Dean chuckled as he gripped Haley around the waist and pulled her back onto the bed with him "That was because you Dean Winchester said you Promise to open up to me when you're ready that means I will get to see you soon" Dean just laughed again and lay Haley beneath him, When he looked into her eyes he knew he was finally home.
Haley smiled at the memory of how she and Dean had begun she wished he could just feel the love she still felt instead of sneaking to see Peyton each night. Haley stood in the kitchen making dinner when she heard the door open and muttered voices "Haley Were are you?" She smiled Deans voice rang out in the hall Haley grabbed the towel from the kitchen side wiped her hands and walked towards the hall. Haley didn't expect what she saw when she got there Dean was standing next to Peyton who had a suit case next to her "W-What's going on?" Haley let out trying to stay calm Peyton looked at Haley then at Dean who answered "Peyton has nowhere to stay so I said she could stay in our guest room" Haley felt the tears well up in her eyes so she turned away from them and walked back to the kitchen she had promised herself a long time ago never again would she shed tears for the man who would continuously break her already broken heart. Haley just sat at the breakfast bar and cried wiping her eyes occasionally she didn't want Dean to see her this way if she was totally honest she didn't want anybody to see her broken.
Dean was helping Peyton move into the guest room Sam no longer occupied "Do you think she suspects anything?" Peyton asked putting away her clothes Dean smiled "Nah she don't know nothing I promise" Peyton felt Dean behind her, he wrapped his arms around her waist "Dean we can't do this right now Haley is downstairs" Dean kissed Peyton neck and nibbled gently "Don't worry about her" He whispered into Peyton's ear as he led her to the king size bed that occupied the room and lay her down.
Haley didn't have to hear what was going on in the guest room to know what they were doing; she just finished making the burgers because she knew Dean loved her homemade burgers once she was finished she called them to eat. As they both walked into the room Haley noticed Peyton straightening her top and running her hand through her hair, the moment Dean turned to look at Peyton she knew he loved her it was the eyes the glowed when he looked at Peyton like she was the only woman in the room and ironically he hadn't even acknowledged Haley standing there. "That's it" Haley finally shouted startling Dean and Peyton who were eating and talking. Not waiting around for either of them to talk Haley walked through the hall up the stairs and into the room she shared with Dean and slammed the door. She grabbed a duffel bag from under the bed and went through all her draws and closet pulling out whatever clothes she still wore and threw them into the bag, as she walked out of the room she grabbed the picture of her sitting in Deans lap on the beach after the Apocalypse. She walked out the door into a solid figure "Dean get out of my way" Dean looked at Haley then the bag "What's going on Haley?" Haley felt like another heart string had been pulled "I'm leaving town" Dean looked at Haley shocked with her revelation "W-what why?" Haley just laughed in his face "Do you think I am that stupid Dean" Haley looked at Dean hoping for him to answer but he didn't say anything "I knew about you and Peyton a long time ago Rachel caught you and begged me to say something but I couldn't Dean because I love you and now I know you no longer love me" Dean just stood there still not able to move he knew right now he had messed up. "Haley please don't leave not like this" Haley pushed him out of her way "You can't admit it can you Dean, Screw this I'm done with trying to make you see I am here and that I still love you. Have Peyton for all I care I'm done" Haley finally moved to the side and walked down the stairs to see Peyton standing at the bottom Haley slapped her across the face "You can have him now slut" Haley threw her keys on the floor and walked out the door towards her car. She put her things into her trunk then noticed Dean's Impala out of the corner of her eye she smirked looking up towards her bedroom window where Dean was standing looking out of the window she walked towards the Impala and slide her key across the paint work. Dean watched as Haley keyed his car he ran down the stairs as fast as he could and out the door "No not my baby, hit me for all you care but not my baby Haley" Haley laughed and grabbed a lose brick of the wall in their front drive and threw it through the Impala's front window "Haley stop it. I'm sorry" Haley just laughed at Dean begging her to stop "Funny you never called me Haley until tonight and typical you always cared for this car more than me, I just hope Peyton gets better treatment than I did" Haley walked to her car and got in waiting for the engine to start turning her stereo on and looking out of her rear view mirror as she drove away from her home. Dean looked at Haley drive away with the tears now showing in his eyes he messed up bad and never realised just how much he loved Haley until she walked out of his life.
Seven years later
Seven years ago Dean changed back to his old ways although the hunting stopped he was drinking and meeting random girls at bars taking them back to seedy motels then walking away in the middle of the night. Today he was standing outside a house that had lots of decorations around because it was his godson Langley's 5th Birthday Lucas and Rachel had married 6 years ago and when their son Langley was born Lucas asked him to be his godfather much to Rachel's disapproval she later cornered Dean and told him to not screw up or he would no longer see him. Dean kept his promise he loved Langley like his own he reminded him of a younger Sam he felt like he had to protect him from everything. Just as Dean went to knock the door it swung open to reveal a dark blonde haired boy with Green eyes "Sorry" he called as he ran down the yard he seemed older than Langley but Dean just walked into the house and looked around until he noticed Lucas, Lucas turned to see Dean and tapped Langley on the shoulder as he looked up his smile grew bigger and he ran towards Dean "Uncle Dean, you made it. I knew you would" Dean chuckled as he held the little boy in his arms "Now would I forget my favourite godsons twenty first birthday" He earned a new set of giggles from Langley "Uncle Dean your silly I'm not twenty one I'm only five" Dean stood there straight faced and pulled a bottle of liquor from his jacket "Oh so you won't be needing this then guess I will just have to give that to your dad then" He saw the smile Langley still gave him "Uncle Dean you are funny" Dean laughed "Yeah I know I am I guess I forgot your birthday present" Dean then put Langley back on the floor and checked his inside Jacket pocket "Oh wait there it is" he handed Langley an envelope, Langley looked at the envelope and opened it to find a card but he hadn't notice Dean walk away until he heard a bell chime and startle him. In front of him stood a blue and black bike the one he had gone past every week when Dean and Lucas took him fishing "Thank you Uncle Dean, It's the greatest present ever" Dean looked down at the young boy who was so amazed by the present he had given him "your welcome Champ" Dean laughed as all Langley's friends crowded them he saw that as his cue to walk towards Lucas and Rachel "Hey guys, How are you? Oh and not forgetting bump?" Dean smiled as he looked down at Rachel's growing stomach Lucas just smiled "Yeah were all good, Thanks man Langley loves that bike" Dean admired Langley showing his bike to his friends "Yeah well we both knew how much he wanted it besides you guys have enough to pay for now I didn't mind getting it, After all he is my favourite godson" Rachel looked at Dean shaking her head "Yeah Dean and your only godson dummy" She laughed as she walked away towards her group of friends, Dean noticed a few of them being Mom's from the school they always looked at Dean giving him the creeps, He noticed Brooke who glared at him but next to Brooke there was a brunette who wouldn't look up until he noticed the boy from outside stand next to her she lifted her head and in that instant Deans who life came to pieces. "Haley" was all he could get out he began to move forward until Lucas caught his arm "Don't bother Dean. I made a promise you wouldn't talk to her today" Dean turned to his best friend "Why would you do that Luke, you know how much I have missed her" Lucas pointed back towards Haley "That's why" Dean noticed a black haired guy bend down next to Haley's ear making her smile she soon turned to kiss him and in that moment it killed Dean seeing her with another man. Dean just walked into the back yard wanting to get some air after watching the scene unfold in front of him. "Hey Dean" Dean turned to see the one person he had waited seven years to see again. "Haley" Haley didn't know what she wanted to say how was she meant to explain everything about Nathan and Sammy, finally she took a deep breath and begun "I guess you saw that huh?" Haley waited for an answer but instead Dean begun his own question "Who's the kid? I saw him come over to you before the bloke kissed you" Haley turned away from Dean ready for the fireworks to explode "Our Son Sammy" Dean just nodded and sat down on one of the chairs "I see I guess I deserved everything I got back then but still you didn't have to take it out on my baby" Haley just laughed at the memory of ruining the Impala. "I only did all that because in the back seat of that damn car was when you finally admitted you loved me" , Dean looked at Haley smiling remembering the night in the back of the Impala they had been locked out of their motel room by Sam so the made do with the Impala. "I know I remember, I always loved you I just never realised until you were gone from my life" Haley felt the tears in her eyes but she willed herself not to cry because it would be the last thing she did crying over Dean Winchester all over again. "So how old is Sammy then? He seems like a nice kid" Haley was trying to hold it together but at the same time she knew she was coming undone because all the secrets she kept from Dean where now unravelling "He is seven, he will be eight in August" Dean smiled until he put it all together, He pulled Haley to look at him "He's my son?" Haley let the tears fall "Yes, I'm sorry I've just been so angry with you for so long Dean" Dean Let out a sigh "You kept my son from me because we ended badly, Haley he is my son and he is eight years old and I don't even know anything about him. You know what family means to me" Haley laughed "Yeah well family didn't mean that much while you were screwing one of my closest friends did it Dean" Haley shouted getting attention from a few kids and their parent's. Rachel and Lucas came over to them "Will you two pack it in this is our Son's birthday. If you want to argue go upstairs and have angry sex" Rachel came out with earning a chuckle from Dean and a scowl from Lucas and Haley "What!" both Lucas and Haley whisper yelled. Rachel smiled sheepishly "Sorry hormones, Well go somewhere else and argue please not here" Dean nodded "Rachel's right I'm not ruining Langley's birthday we will talk about this later." Haley nodded in agreement. For the rest of the day Haley spent time with Nathan and Sammy while Dean watched them from a distance hoping he could somehow be part of her family again.
Later that evening Dean drove down to the river court and stood looking over the lake when he heard footsteps he turned to see Haley "I thought you would be here, you used to always come here after Sam died" Dean just turned back to the water "Yeah well the water has a stillness it made me feel like there was no evil in this world after the who Hell and Lucifer thing just watching the water it soothed me just like you did" Haley smiled at the memory of the night she truly confessed her feelings for Dean and he admitted he had nightmares. "I still have nightmares you know but not of hell downstairs but a different hell" Haley now stood next to Dean "What kind of hell is this then?" Dean looked at Haley "The hell is when you walk out and I can't do nothing to stop you because I know it is my fault" Haley looked over at the water "That wasn't a nightmare Dean that was reality, you screwed my friend I wasn't going to stay around while you moved her in and screwed her in our guest room" suddenly the rain started pouring Haley tried to wrap her jacket around her as Dean shock out of his coat "Here take my Jacket" Haley nodded and put Deans jacket on and wrapped it around her she could smell him and it made her lean into the jacket knowing it was the smell that sent her wild. "I miss this smell" she whispered to herself, Dean laughed "You miss my smell but not me you really are nice Haley James. So tell me about Sammy" Haley's face changed at the mention of Sammy "What Dean, there is nothing to tell he knows his father had a brother he was named after, he knows his father's name is Dean he doesn't need to know anything else" Dean felt like she had just kicked him in the gut "What about Me Hale's I didn't even know I had a son until 3 hours ago what am I meant to do with that just forget it and move on?" Haley turned to walk away "Yes Dean you are because he is much better without you in his life, you can't let him down like you let me down" Dean was getting angry "Well fine screw you Haley, I don't care anymore. Get mad but you wait until he wants to meet me I will make sure he knows what a bitch his mother is" Haley turned and ran at Dean punching him in the chest and screaming "You bastard Dean, I want to hate you but I can't stop loving you." Dean looked down at Haley and kissed her as the rain pelted down around "No Dean I can't let you in again" Haley pushed him away but he just pulled her back looking into her eyes "I'm not like that anymore Haley all I want is you, only you" Haley looked into Deans eyes if anything she knew his eyes always told the truth "I love you Haley James" Dean smiled against Haley's lips he finally felt truly home.
