Writing my frustration because of the books I read that was so cliff hanger than a hanger...
PS: Don't read "Miss Peregrine's Home of Peculiar Children if you don't have the second book ^^v
Time Machine Please Fix It
Cold.
That was the one word to describe how she was feeling in that exact moment. Though it didn't give justice to how her heart felt because there was so much more, but no words to describe it…
Walking alone on what seemed to be a lonely path, yet even on a busy street nothing seemed to really exist anymore. She didn't seem to exist to all the people passing by, even though her beauty stood out amongst the crowd. Everything about her stood out; from the long white dress, a wedding dress, she wore, to her gleaming blue ocean eyes. It didn't matter though; attention was not what she wanted. What she wanted, she would never be able to get back… She held on to that one mistake, the one regret she ever had.
Even with the snow gently falling upon her already pale skin, she couldn't really feel it. The weather was the least of her concerns. She knew very well that nothing could turn back the sands of time. Though if there was a way, she knew exactly what she would do.
There was no way though. Time moves forward, not back.
She continued on, step by step, even though she moved forward, her mind went back to old memories.
Going back in time was impossible.
Still, she wished she had a time machine.
…
Calm, yet anxious.
Waiting patiently for something to happen even though there is a great chance that nothing will happen
It almost seemed like she was trapped by the four walls surrounding her, yet she chose to be in the confinement of this solitary room.
Dim lights were the only source of brightness in the room, besides the light on her phone that she would constantly check. Her tan toned skin and jet black hair was barely visible due to the lack of light.
She grasped her phone tightly for the chance that she might receive a call or text message. She held her phone almost in the way she held her heart, afraid that if she loosened her grip and dropped it, everything would fall apart.
Seconds go by, seconds turn to minutes, and minutes turn to hours. She lay on her bed, thinking of what would have happened if she had one less regret, if she hadn't made that one mistake.
She wished she could go back in time and make things right. To say all the things she should have said and do all the things she should have done. Maybe then she could have saved her own heart from breaking.
If only she had a time machine...
It was my mistake for loving you more than you love me.
All the chances I missed to tell you the truth… The truth is I love you.
My biggest regret… is never taking a chance to tell you how I really feel.
My one mistake was that I loved you more than you love me. You only see me as your best friend, and now you're getting married. I never stood a chance.
All those times we held hands as best friends, I really wished that we were more.
Every time we touched, your heart probably didn't feel a thing, but my heart felt so happy that I thought it would burst open because of all the feelings it held inside.
Maybe if I went back in time, I would tell you everything. I would tell you not to marry him. I would tell you that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, the rest of forever with you.
Then maybe I wouldn't have to hide my emotions behind a fake smile.
Today is your wedding day. I'm not there. I can't be there. It would hurt too much. I told you I would go, but I just can't.
Now I'm waiting. Waiting for a phone call telling me it's over. Telling me that you're married and it's over. Even though I know, it's been over. I'm secretly wishing that the phone call will be from you. A phone call telling me that you didn't marry him, but I doubt that will happen.
I'll wait for the phone call to end it all.
It's my mistake for loving you more than you love me.
It's my mistake for not making you love me more.
It's my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.
Maybe you could have learned to love me the way that I love you.
Even when I'm with him, it's nothing compared to what I feel for you.
He was just a crush. I only decided to like him because you don't love me as anything more than a best friend. It was selfish of me to love you, yet be with him…
Why I said yes, I'll never know. Nothing compares to the pain I feel in my heart right now. My heart is aching. My punishment for my mistake is severe. My heart is so full of regret, just that one mistake, that one regret.
I knew you wouldn't show up. Somehow I wished you would be there to stop me, but you never did.
I wish I had a time machine to go back and meet with you. I wouldn't wish for anything else. I need to see you before these memories become distant and fade…
I need a time machine before the memories of us are forgotten.
The memories of us running around, holding hands, lying next to each other without a care in the world. I miss it all. It's my fault entirely.
If I had a time machine, I could go back in time and tell you all the things I never said, then I could live without regrets.
Even now, I love you selfishly…
She sleeps, hoping time will go by faster, but she knows she can't really sleep, especially when the one she loves is going to marry someone else.
Her phone still in hand, waiting for the call to hear that it's over. She looks at the background of her phone, a picture of her and her love together, but it's not enough to ease the pain.
Just then, her phone started ringing and vibrating. She looked on the screen to see the name of one of her closest friends: Quinn. She pressed the green button to answer the call and held the phone to her ear before sighing.
"Hey, Q, is it over now?" She spoke calmly, even though her heart inside was breaking into pieces waiting to hear the horrible news.
"No." Quinn's voice gave a short answer, leaving the other completely confused.
"No? What do you mean, 'no'?" Her voice was low, but somehow now her heart was beginning to beat erratically.
"It never started. She took one step through the door and one step right back out. She never came back."
She stopped listening after that. She couldn't believe her ears. It wasn't over. It never began. Like their relationship. They were best friends, but anything more than that never started, therefore it couldn't be over.
"Santana? Santana? Are you still there?" Quinn's voice nearly shouted over the phone.
"I'll talk to you later." Those were the last words she said before hanging up and sprinting out of the room.
She kept walking forward, even though her memories were taking her back. The cold, still, didn't affect her. She didn't care anymore.
There was no time machine to take her back, to help her fix her mistakes, to make her end up with the one she truly loved.
Should she have stayed? Would she have learned to love him?
She doubted it. Her heart already belonged to another, and there was no way of getting it back. The one she truly loved could sweep her off her feet effortlessly and put a smile on her face just by being in the same vicinity.
It's over though; she doubted that her love could ever be returned. It seemed like it was over even before it began.
Now she wandered mindlessly without a destination in mind. It didn't matter. Nothing mattered anymore.
"BRITTANY!" A loud voice shouted, yet out of everything she had been ignoring, it brought her out of her thoughts. She knew who the voice belonged to. She looked up from the ground.
A girl with toned tan skin was running through the falling snow towards her.
She smiled and began to run toward the familiar face, the face she longed to see now and the rest of her life. The girl with jet black hair panted as she finally reached the doe eyed beauty.
"D-don't you know it's too c-cold to wear a dress in the snow?" The tan girl stuttered as she caught her breath.
"Don't you know it's rude to miss your best friend's wedding?" The blue eyed girl restrained herself from smiling.
"It's not bad, if it never happened." The latter replied as she smirked.
"How did you know?"
"Quinn told me."
Suddenly the tanned skinned girl wrapped her arms around the blue eyed girl.
"It's too cold for you to be like this. Let me keep you warm."
Although they couldn't tell what the other was feeling, both hearts were on a fast tempo, yet they were both in sync.
"Let's go home…" Santana whispered into the younger girl's ear.
"Wait, I need to tell you something…" I don't want to regret anymore…
"There's something I need to tell you first though…"
Santana's deep brown eyes met with Brittany's blue eyes; their eyes were locked in each other's gaze.
"I don't want to keep wishing I could use a time machine and go back in time to fix my mistakes. So I'll do my best to fix everything right now. I don't want to make any more mistakes when it comes to you. I love you, Britt Britt, and I will do my best to make you love me too. Now I won't have to regret not telling you how I really feel."
Tears slowly feel from Brittany's beautiful eyes, but they were not tears of sadness. Santana grazed her thumb upon Santana's cheeks to catch all the tears.
"I realized the reason I couldn't get married today was because of you… My life isn't complete without you. All this time I thought you only loved me as a best friend, and I longed for you to love me more… I made the mistake of saying yes to him, even though I love you. You never had to try to make me love you, because I already do…"
The doe eyed girl ended her small speech with a light smile and her burden lifting from her heart. She no longer had to carry a heavy heart because the one she loved loves her.
The warmth of their love freed them from the chills of the snow falling around them. The older girl leaned forward to press her lips against the younger girl's. The younger girl closed her blue eyes as she waiting for their lips to meet. It was a moment they had only dream of until now…
Their small kiss became passionate as they put all their untold feelings into it. They became lost in their own world. They made each other's lives complete.
As they ended their kiss, both girls pulled away with huge grins upon their faces. "Let's go home now…"
And with that they walked hand in hand, their hearts beating in the same tempo just as if their hearts were one. It didn't matter if their hearts were not one, because their hearts belonged to one another.
If I had a time machine, I wouldn't wish for anything else, but to be with you.
The End...
