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T H E F O R L O RN P H O E N I X


And so Life continues.

Time stops for a second for you, for you to heal, and fast forwards for you to get hurt.

It's a never ending cycle of Happy and Sad faces.

One minute you smile, and the next minute you cry...

One minute you see a grinning Emmett, and the next minute...

He disappears.

You wake up, you brush your teeth, you stir your cereal for a few minutes, and you drive to school. You walk the fifteen steps to school, you give fake smiles to everyone but Angela, you listen to Jess jabber about a date with Mike, you hear Lauren make snide remarks about how they leave, and you will feel numb, but you live.

You live.

You take every pain, every memory, and you bury it in your ashes.

You sing and you cry, you try to take care of your Garden, and you smile distantly to your memories. You try to find your Meadow, and every Saturday, you fail.

You day dream; you go with Charlie, Billy and Jacob on fishing trips. You try to laugh wholeheartedly at their challenges to each other on who will get the most fish, you and Jacob snicker behind their backs when they fail to reel in a fish, you wheel Billy to your house and you make small talk while you do so, you would make dinner for the men as they watch Baseball, you talk to Jacob, and you serve dinner, you eat, clean up, bide them good night, and you sleep.

And in the wee hours of the morning, you would sob for your broken heart.

You would sob in anguish for the things, the memories, the family you once had, you would cry for the deceptions, and you would cry because you still wouldn't care. You would cry for the pitiful life you are leading, you will cry for the people whom you are hurting, you will cry for the perky best friend you lost, who is now probably shopping somewhere fabulous with the gorgeous blonde you envy, where you would see the hulking figure of your bear man, wrestling with the quiet soldier, you see your almost mother with the almost father, watching the scene, and you will cry for the one that had, will always have, and still has your heart, the bronze-haired God whom you love so much, probably with a blonde beside him, probably happy.

And that's what you wish.

You wish for them to be happy.

And so you try to move on, every day.

You try; try so hard to move on,

And yet you always fail.

Because you know nothing but Love, and you can't move completely without it.

And you can't rise from your ashes, because your memories keep you down.

So you fail.


Song for this Chapter: I know nothing else but love- from Boys Over Flowers, Korean, but if you find the English lyrics, you will understand.

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