I let go of her hand and gripped the steering wheel. Something is always on her mind, but she never seems to bring up any sort of topic. I don't press her on such issues, considering I tend to do the same. Keeping peace within tranquility. Small talk is rather unnecessary in times like theses; it's just us after all. The road to our base seems endless at times like these. Not only is it in the middle of nowhere, but also our minds drifting off to what is in store for us next has our guards built up. We've built those walls back up rapidly when we heard the news about the war. We knew what was the next stage, our involvement. Whenever I think about the word 'fear' and what it means to me; before, before as in the last war, I don't think I could comprehend such a feeling. Maybe I have become softer during that time, but when I think of her I cannot help but glance at her. Which I caught myself doing just a moment ago.
"Trowa?" I heard her faintly call my name, bringing me out of my developing thoughts. She turned to face me better, "You said you talked to Hiiro briefly on the phone about the mission?"
"Yes… and when I said briefly, I was exaggerating."
"What exactly did he say?" Her eyes widened a bit, wanting some sort of information to prepare herself with before she arrives to the base.
"Well…" I trail off a bit, trying to recall exactly what Hiiro had mentioned, "He had said, 'This is important, vital to the war, and I want you to be apart of this team. I need you and Shiris.'" I say with a dry monotone and saw Shiris blink a few times out of the corner of my eye.
"Did he personally contact everyone?" Shiris questioned, mostly to herself, I'm not if she was asking me or not. I answered anyway.
"I'm not sure, but knowing Hiiro, when it comes to these missions, he knows how vital each of us are." I gave a slight nod as I finished my sentence and Shiris tapped her fingers on her thigh.
"I can't imagine a team with one of our members not there… It'd be so… incomplete." I nodded in agreement. There was something about our group that worked. We all had incredibly different personalities, ways we viewed each other, and ourselves and through all odds we've become the greatest of friends. There's nothing like a bloody battlefield during a war to bring strangers together.
"We'll be there soon." I said in a content way. That was rather unlike me.
"You sound excited to see everyone." She said with a smile. I glance at her quickly and she's still smiling at me. He hair was gently framing her face and the light from the sun was glossing her skin perfectly. I have my romantic moments, yes. Too bad I'm not so upfront about them. I guess I was excited. Sometimes you forgot what you hold dear until it sudden disappears from your radar.
"We'll probably be the first ones there… I doubt Duo and Julie will make it back from L2 in time." I tried to give a chuckle of sorts, but no sound came out. Those two… they are unpredictable in a rather predictable way.
"I sincerely think that Steph can't handle it this time around." Shiris said hurriedly, her caring nature seeping through, though sometimes it's hidden by her abrasive way of saying things.
"She's like Quatre, she takes things very personally." I paused for a moment before continuing, "Her and Quatre's kindness are needed in times like these. I think the rest of us forget to be as human as they are. Nevertheless, we are indeed human and forgetting such a thing will only lead us to troubled times ahead. Being strong without a purpose makes our actions worthless."
"Where do emotions play in all this? Since we've all grown up in a sense over the last year." I thought she'd say something along those lines.
"We react when we ourselves deem it is necessary. That I have always followed. Both overreaction and under reaction lead to a bitter end." I vaguely recall saying this before, I just cannot remember if it was to Shiris or not. She slowly nodded, I'm assuming because she was thinking about my words with a mixture of her own thoughts.
"Somehow, I have an uneasy feeling, but I am not worried. We are all very good at what we do." She said with confidence. I agree with her completely. We all have our strengths that by far outweigh our weaknesses. With new strengths, brings new weaknesses, I fear.
Hopefully this new war won't surprise us with new limitations we were unaware of.
