Author's Note: So this chapter is going to focus mostly on Quinn. The time will be the same Saturday as Rachel and Alex's date just so no one is confused. Just a heads up I know you guys don't like Finn, well by the end of this you're going to hate the guy even more. Now I personally don't hate Finn but I just thought this was the best way for Rachel to wake up and see she needs to move on. I'm sorry for such a long wait but I have been extremely busy. Thank you all for the reviews, honestly the more review I see the more it makes me want to write since I know you guys obviously like it.
Songs: Hunter Hayes - Wanted
Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know
Christina Perri - Human
"Quinnie! Breakfast is almost ready sweetheart!" Quinn heard her mother yell from downstairs causing her to sit up in her bed. She stretched her arms out above her head and released a sigh. She got up from bed and headed into her bathroom to take a shower. She took a 30 minutes shower and threw on a short yellow sundress with a white cardigan over. She walked down the stairs and headed to the dining room. She took a breath before entering the room and was greeted by a smile from her mother who was setting the food down. At the head of the table sat Russell Fabray reading the paper.
"Morning mom. Morning Daddy.." Russell set down his paper and smiled, "Good morning sweetie. Did you sleep well?"
"I did."
"Good to hear. Okay now let's eat." Quinn gave him her best smile hoping her father wouldn't see through it. He smiled back at her and began to eat his food. Quinn looked between her parents wishing her situation was different. She began to think on she ended up in the house she was kicked out of only less then a year ago. After giving birth to Beth, Judy Fabray had wanted to make things right with her so she agreed to leave Mercedes home and move back in with her mom. She quickly realized her mom was still a wreck from everything due to the amount of alcohol she was consuming everyday. A month into living with her mom she was hit with a bomb. Her mom and dad had decided to give there marriage another chance and were moving back in together. Quinn was furious but knew she had no other choice but to go with her mom.
No one from the glee club knew that she had moved back in with her father knowing they would all flip out especially Santana. Being back home went she needed to be the good Christian girl her father had raised. She was going to church every Sunday and would even attend some bible study classes. However, being back home led to Quinn having one of the worst summers she's ever had. A big reason for it being the worse was Rachel Berry. Oh Rachel Berry. Rachel Berry was on Quinn's mind the entire summer and she hated it. She hated how the smallest thing could make her think of Rachel. She hated that the rare moments she saw Rachel over the summer she'd get butterflies and practically run away before the brunette could notice her. She somehow got feelings for the girl which didn't make any sense. Quinn Fabray was not gay. She is not gay. She's pretty sure she's not gay...or maybe just gay for Rachel Berry? Whatever it was she needed it to stop but it wouldn't. Hearing her father make comments about the Berry's and Rachel would get her angry but she knew she couldn't say anything to him. Being gay was a sin but yet all she could think, dream, and fantasize about was being with Rachel and it was driving her mad.
Once school started she couldn't deny it anymore. Every time she saw Rachel all moon eyed over Finn she wanted to strangle him. Why did Finn Hudson out of all people get the girls' attention. He was a moron. He knew absolutely nothing about Rachel and only cared for himself yet she fell in love with him. And now she was facing with this new girl, Alex Gomez. Quinn Fabray absolutely hated the girl, she came to her school and started pursuing her girl. Well not her girl but still. Who did she think she was? The only positive was that her question about if Rachel Berry liked girls was obviously answered. So now she was living back at home with her dad, slightly falling for Rachel Berry, and dealing with the fact now Santana knows her feelings and she knew for a fact the Latina wasn't going to let it go.
"What are you doing today honey?" Quinn looked up at her mom and shrugged as she continue to eat.
"I was going to hang out with Santana and Brittany until tonight. There's a gathering at Puck's house."
"You mean a party?" Quinn looked over at her dad and could tell her wasn't happy.
"Yes sir."
"A party at the house of the boy who got you pregnant. I don't think so."
"Daddy please. I'm not as foolish as I was before okay. I mostly just hang around Santana and Brittany no one else." Russell waited a moment and then sighed, "Very well but I don't want you coming home late."
"Yes sir." Quinn smiled and finished up her plate. She remained at home for about another two hours before heading to Santana's house at noon. She rang the door bell and was greeted by a smiling Brittany S. Pierce.
"Hey Q!"
"Hey Britt. Where's San at?"
"She's in the living room watching some scary movie. Come on." Quinn smiled and followed the blonde into the house. She walked into the living room and found Santana in her cheer shorts and McKinley t-shirt laying on the couch. Quinn grabbed a pillow and hit her face with it, "Oops."
"Ow! Fuck you Fabray!" Santana quickly sat up and smack the girl on the thigh as she walked past her.
"Don't think Brittany would like if you did that," Quinn giggled and took a seat on the couch beside the Latina.
"Oh yes I would. I always thought about what it would like to get sweet lady kisses from the both of you. It seems fun. Wait are we going to do that now?"
"No Brittany, Quinn only wants Rachel's sweet lady kisses." Quinn eyes nearly popped out of her head as she looked at Santana ready to kill her.
"Oh yay!" Brittany jumped onto the couch sitting between the two girls, "When are you going to tell Rachel you like her?"
"I'm not going to tell her Brittany."
"Why the hell not?" Santana rolled her eyes as she began flipping through the channels bored of the film already.
"Because...because there's no point. I don't like her."
"Oh please. You got the hots for Berry. Stop denying it."
"I-I'm not denying anything okay.."
"Q. You like Rachel just say it."
"I can't say it Britt. You don't get it, I shouldn't have these feeling for Rachel. I.." Santana looked over at the blonde who was trying to explain herself to Brittany but couldn't. Quinn was never good with feelings especially talking about them. She knew these feelings for Rachel were probably driving her crazy and she didn't know how to handle it.
"Look Q, we know it must be hard for you to come to terms with the fact that you are gay especially in the house you were raised in. But it's okay to have these feelings for someone. Don't be ashamed of who you are," Quinn was surprised to hear the sincerity in the Latina's voice.
"Thanks Tana. And it's not that I'm.." Quinn hesitated for a moment. She had never said she was gay out loud but knew she needed to accept it sooner or later or she will never be happy with herself. "I know I'm gay. And I'm okay with that. My issue is I have feeling for Rachel."
"Oh come on Quinn, Rachel isn't that bad. She helps me understand metaphors sometimes," Brittany smiled wide.
Quinn giggled resting her hand over Brittany's, "That's great Britt Britt. And it's not that it's Rachel. It's more of the fact that I don't deserve it.."
"The hell you mean?"
"Santana I have made her life a living hell for years. Why the hell should she give me the time of day?"
"Oh so what. You made a few mistakes and decided to be a bitch for a few years. She'll get over it once she sees how amazing you are. Just tell her how you feel Q."
"You don't get it..These feelings. They didn't come this year."
"What do you mean?"
Quinn sighed as she began to play with her fingers avoiding eye contact, "I've come to the realization that I've had feeling for Rachel since probably the 8th grade.."
"Damn Q. You in some deep shit."
"So why were you so mean all these years to Rachel?"
Quinn shrugged slightly, "I wasn't ready to accept my feelings for her. I thought at the time it would be easier to forget my feelings for her if she hated me. If she hated me then I would know I would never have a chance with her and it would be okay...but that kind of backfired."
"Damn. Okay well then all that means is you need to move now. Look Hudson and Berry are bound to break up any minute which means Alex is going to swoop in and get Rachel. You got to beat her to the punch."
"No."
"The hell you mean no!"
"Santana, I don't want to be with Rachel. Yes I have feelings for her but I'm not ready for that yet. I'm dealing with the fact that I'm gay right now. Let's take it easy okay?"
Santana groaned and crossed her arms, "Whatever Fabray." For the rest of the day the girls lounged around Santana's house watching tv and discussing upcoming competitions for Glee and Cheerios. Any time Santana would attempt to talk about Rachel, Quinn would immediately stop her. Santana knew the girl was being stupid on how to proceed about her feelings. Knowing Quinn for as long as she has, the blonde was going to fuck up a few more times before she finally got it right. It was 8 o'clock when the girls headed upstairs to change for Puck's party. Once they were all set they left in Quinn's car to the party. The parties were always the same for Quinn. She would arrive, say hi to the people she needed to, grab a drink and just hang around the girls until they would leave her to dance. The night went by pretty fast for her, once the party got boring for the girls, Quinn dropped them off home and went home herself.
Sunday flew by for the blonde and before she knew it, it was Monday morning and time for school. When she arrived at her locker she groaned at the sight across from her. Finn was holding a crappy daisy that looked like he yanked from the ground handing it over to Rachel who was smiling up at the boy. She saw Alex walking down the hallway towards Rachel but stopped once Finn looked up at her. Quinn saw the glare the boy was sending towards and wanted to smack him. Alex shook her head and walked right past the couple ignoring Rachel's call for her. Quinn looked over at Rachel and saw the girl seemed sad that Alex had past by without saying a word to her. Quinn sighed and slammed her locker shut causing Rachel to jump slightly and to look right at her. Quinn held her gaze for a moment then walked away heading straight to class.
Santana was in the girls locker room changing out of her sweaty cheerio outfit into a dry set when Brittany came skipping over to her, "Hey San."
"Sup Britt."
"I have a question. Since Q likes Rachel does this mean we can be nice to her now?" Brittany leaned forward whispering low so no one would hear. Santana looked around then back up at Britt, "Why do you ask Britt?"
"Well I like Rachel and I feel bad when we are mean to her. I rather us be nice." Santana groaned knowing she wasn't going to upset the blonde and tell her what she didn't want to hear.
"Yeah Britt, we can be nice to Berry now, but it's going to be hard for me. You know that right?"
Brittany nodded smiling wide as she embraced the brunette,"Thanks San!"
"No problem B." Santana smiled and finished getting dressed. As she was closing her locker she heard someone mention Puck's party. Santana moved to the next aisle and saw a Freshmen Cheerio talking to other members of the squad.
"So yeah I went to Puck's party and you'll never believe who I hooked up with?"
"Who?" One of the other Cheerios asked?
"Finn Hudson." There was a set of gasps and giggles, "No way. I thought he was with that Berry chick?"
The cheerio smirked and shrugged, "I don't know. Didn't really care. I got the star quarterback, I can care less about Treasure Trail." Santana clenched her fist as she heard the girl speak, she looked over a Brittany and can tell the girl was sad which angered her even more.
"Hey! Freshmen! Get over here." The girl quickly turned around scared and went to Santana.
"Yes Ms. Lopez."
"You hooked up with Hudson at Puck's party?"
"Yes.."
"Did you know he was taken?"
"Yeah but I mean it's Rachel Berry who cares."
"I care. So for being a little slut and homewrecker you are now at the bottom of the pyramid. Enjoy." Santana grilled the girl as she took Brittany's hand and led her out of the locker room. She knew she needed to tell Rachel, but how? How do you tell someone your asshole boyfriend just cheated on you? Santana felt Brittany tug on her hand and turned around.
"What's wrong Britt?"
"You have to tell Rachel.."
Santana sighed seeing the sadness on the blonde's expression, "I know B."
"Be nice about it. She's going to be really sad."
"Okay Brittany." Santana kissed Brittany's cheek and led her into the choir room. Everyone was sitting in there usual seats, she noticed the looks both Alex and Quinn were giving at the couple to the far left. Rachel was sitting on Finn's lap smiling down at the boy. Santana did her best not to barf at the sight as she walked up to them.
"Berry. We gotta talk."
"Hi to you too Santana. What do we need to discuss?"
"It's private, come on."
"If you have something to say to Rachel, you can say it in front of me," Finn added eyeing the Latina carefully.
"Shut your trap Finnonence, no one is saying shit in front of you. Rachel outside now."
Rachel was surprised to hear Santana speak her actual name, she gave Finn a reassuring smile and a quick peck before she followed Santana out to the hallway. Quinn looked over at Brittany who was biting her nails nervously. Quinn sat beside her resting a hand on her knee.
"Britt, what's wrong?"
"Something bad happened..."
"What happened?"
"I-I can't tell you until Rachel knows."
"Brittany what happened with Rachel?" Quinn was trying not to sound to cold towards the blonde knowing how sensitive she was. Brittany just shook her head trying her best not to cry. Quinn instantly pulled the girl into an embrace not wanting to upset her anymore. Outside in the hallway Santana was pacing in front of Rachel trying to figure out how to say what she just discovered.
"Santana, why are you so nervous?"
"I just found out something and I don't know how to tell you."
"Oh my god, you're pregnant?! Santana! Haven't you learned anything from Quinn's ordeal? Safe sex Santana. What about Brittany? Oh god poor Brittany.. that's why she so sad isn't it." Before Santana could cut the brunette off Rachel slapped Santana on the arm.
"The fuck Berry!"
"How dare you do that to Brittany. You should be ashamed of yourself."
"Berry! I'm not joining the preggers committee you moron!" Rachel calmed down and smiled, "Oh okay. So what's wrong?"
"You mean besides the fact I want to slap you right now?"Santana inched a bit forward causing Rachel to retreat back slightly.
"Please don't."
Santana sighed pinching the bridge of her nose, "It's about Finn."
Rachel noticed the change of tone in her voice and was instantly worried about what the Latina was about to say, "Did you two.."
"No no. Berry look that was a one time thing and a mistake I won't be making again. Plus you're not really missing out on much."
"Santana..."
"Right um. What were you doing Saturday night?"
"I went out with Alex why?" Santana shook her head now realizing why the dumb ass decided to cheat on her. He was probably jealous and decided to be even a bigger moron.
"Well you know Puck had a party right?"
Rachel nodded, "Yeah Finn wanted me to go but I'm not really a fan of that scenery."
"Yeah I figured. Look, I'm just going to tell you straight up. Britt and I were in the locker rooms just now and overheard this freshmen cheerio talking about the party. She was talking about Finn."
"Okay..what did she say?" Santana could tell the tiny brunette was trying to keep her composure but was failing.
"She said..she said that she hooked up with Finn at Puck's party." It looked like Rachel was hit by a ton of bricks at that moment. Rachel rested against the lockers shaking her head furiously as she looked at the ground and back up at Santana.
"No. She's lying. She's lying Santana. He'd never do that to me." Rachel couldn't stop the tears that were now pouring from her eyes.
"I'm so sorry Rachel..I questioned the girl, she's not lying. She has no reason to."
"No. How..how could he do this. Oh god, what is happening," Rachel held her chest as breathing started to become difficult. Santana pulled the girl into a strong embrace.
"It's going to be okay." Rachel cried in her arms for a few more minutes before pulling away and wiping her face. She turned around and stormed into the choir room with Santana hot on her trail.
"Rachel wait up!" Santana tried to stop her knowing it would only make the situation worse by causing a scene.
"Santana what's going on? Quinn stood up as soon as Rachel entered the room with a tear stained face. Before Santana can respond Rachel speaks to Finn grabbing the attention of everyone in the room.
"Is it true?!" Rachel looked directly at Finn. Everyone else was silent even Mr. Schue was watching closely.
"What?" Finn was like a deer in headlights by the sudden outburst by his girlfriend.
"Did you sleep with her?!" There were a few gasps but silence fell again.
"Rach..Rachel. Babe. Let's talk about this privately."
"Yes or no. It's a simple question."
"Yes okay I was pissed! You were on a date with Alex! What was I supposed to do." Finn stood up looking down at Rachel.
"Holy crap, Finn cheated on Rachel..." Kurt whispered low looking at Mercedes.
"That's crazy. I feel so bad for Rachel right now." Kurt nods in agreement but quickly continues to hear the exchange between the couple.
"How could you do this to me.." Rachel looked up at the boy she had loved with all her heart who had now betrayed her.
"I'm not the bad guy here. This would of never happened if you didn't go out with that dyke!"
"You piece of shit!" Alex charged at Finn but before she could lay a hand on him Puck wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her back. "Woah down girl." On the other side of the room Brittany was holding back Quinn who was trying to charge at Finn as well. Everyone came to a halt when a loud slap echoed in the room. They all gasped in surprise as Rachel's hand connected with Finn's face.
"We are over. Do not speak to me, do not even acknowledge me, understand?"
"Rach, come on.." Finn pleaded with her stepping closer to her.
"Do I make myself clear?" Rachel stepped back holding her hand up to stop his movements. Finn nodded and sat back down in his seat. Everyone remained silent not knowing how to proceed. Rachel wiped her face and sat down in between Santana and Brittany. Brittany pulled Rachel closer to her, Rachel smiled and rested her head on her shoulder. Mr. Schue cleared his throat as he faced his students, "Um I really don't know if you guys want to close out or lesson or not..."
"I think we should Mr. Schue. It might help.." Sunshine responded as she glanced over at Rachel.
"Okay.. Does anyone have anything they want to sing?"
Alex raised her hand breaking the silence, "Yeah I have something."
"Great. The floor is yours Alex." Alex and Puck walked down to the center of the room and both sat on stools. Puck began to strum his acoustic guitar as Alex looked over at Rachel who gave her a small smile.
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green girl I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah I wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the make up
And I wanna show you what I see tonight
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
Never let you forget it
'Cause baby I wanna make you feel wanted
As good as you make me feel I
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby I wanna make you feel wanted
You'll always be wanted.
The entire time Alex sang she looked over at Rachel who just smiled at her. Once the song ended everyone clapped except for Finn who remained looking down at the ground.
"Alex that was great. Alright anyone else?"
Quinn spoke up, "Uh Mr. Schue... I have something prepared."
"Alright Quinn, let's hear it." Mr. Schue smiled and sat down in her set beside Santana. Quinn spoke to the band quickly and they began to play.
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop
Quinn eyes looked over to Rachel but quickly looked away once she noticed Rachel was staring right at her.
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's gettin' hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other away
And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken
Quinn eyes went back to the brown eyes that were looking at her intensely. She held Rachel's gaze as she finished the bridge. She sighed and looked back to everyone else. Kurt and Santana were watching her closely, Quinn was finally expressing how she was feeling.
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here
Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know
Everyone clapped for the blonde, Quinn rolled her eyes at the smirk Santana was giving her as she returned to her seat. Rachel couldn't help but notice that something was off about that performance, she somehow felt it was directed at her which made no sense. She needed to talk to Quinn about that later.
"Okay guys, we have time for one more song to close off this lesson. Anyone?"
"Mr. Schue?"
The sound of Rachel's small and broken voice silenced everyone, they all looked over at her as she rose from her seat.
"Yes Rachel."
"Can I sing something?" Mr. Schue nodded as the girl walked to the center of the room. She knew all eyes were on her but for once she wish they weren't. Brad began to play on the piano filling the room up with the soft music. Rachel took a deep and began to sing.
I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am
I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything
I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human
I can take so much
'Til I've had enough
'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
Rachel wiped her cheek as she looks at Finn. IT was over. It was actually over. She lost the love of her life, the person she was herself marrying was gone. Her dreams with him at her side for all of her success was no longer standing beside her. It's all gone. Now what?
