Thank you for all your reviews. They mean the world to me. Miss Katakouzina has offered to publish my story but I declined :P (I'm kidding...it was just my BFF leaving a review and trolling me..toobad I didn't fall for it). Anyway, here's another chapter. Things are about to get crazy. I hope you enjoy it.
Damon was sitting on the couch watching TV. That's all he's been doing all day long. Jeremy was out with Miranda and Elena wouldn't answer her phone. Like avoiding me is gonna solve anything. He said to himself. He was almost sure that there was a reason behind her absence, and that reason was the previous night and everything that went down between them. He could still remember the way she had looked into his eyes and then almost kissed him. He could still remember how desperately she wanted him to stay with her during the night. So where was her now? Maybe she is with Tom. The voice inside his head responded. He could feel the jealousy building up inside him. That jerk! He thought angrily and punched the pillow that was next to him. That was it, he was going to call her again. He grabbed his phone and searched for her contact. He pressed the "call" button and waited.
"Hey, it's Elena. Leave a message and I'll call you back." He heard the voice mail.
"Hey, it's me. Can you do what you're actually saying in your voice mai and call me back? I'm worried." He said and hung up.
At the same time he heard the door opening and basically jumped on his feet, full of hope that it'd be her. It was the first time in his life that he felt disappointed by seeing Miranda and Jeremy.
"Hey, look who's back." He managed to smile.
"Don't tell me you've been playing with my X-BOX all day." Jeremy teased.
"I became a pro at it. I could even beat you."
"Yeah, you wish." Jeremy chuckled.
"You boys will never grow up." Miranda laughed. "How was your day sweetie?" She could sense that there was something wrong.
"Boring." He simply said.
"Didn't Elena stay with you?" Damon knew that she was fishing for information. She wanted to know if anything happened the previous night.
"Nope. Maybe she's with Tom." Damon shrugged.
"No, Tom's at the Grill with a friend of his. We saw him." Jeremy's information lifted Damon's mood a bit.
"Let me call her." Miranda said. Moments later Damon heard Elena's voice. It wasn't the voice mail this time.
"Sweetie where are you?" Miranda asked and Damon wished he could hear Elena's answer.
"Oh, I see. See you tomorrow baby." And they hung up. "She's at Caroline's she's staying there for the night." Miranda informed the boys.
"I'm going upstairs. I'm exhausted." Jeremy said. "Do you want me to help you get ready for bed?" He asked his mother.
"No, I don't feel tired. I'll keep Damon some company." She smiled at both of them. "Goodnight son."
He gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and left them alone.
"You don't look very well Damon." Miranda stated.
"I'm fine. Don't worry about me." He forced a smile on his face.
"I know that there's something bothering you." She said kindly. "You don't have to share it with me. Just know that everything will be alright in the end."
"You Gilberts really are quite the optimists." He chuckled. "By the way, I had the time to do some research on my father today."
"I suppose you found him."
"Yeah I did. He's quite the name." Damon said bitterly.
"So..how far did you go with the research?" She was nervous about this.
"Not much. The basics. Career and family."
"And?" Her heart was beating faster for some reason. She really cared about Damon like he was her own son.
"He's the manager of a publishing house." He paused. "He has two kids. A son and a daughter. His wife has passed."
"How do you feel about all this?" Miranda was worried.
"I don't know. My mother was suffering her entire life and not only he never came looking for us, but he also started over and had a family. How do you think I feel?"
"I understand." Her gaze fell on the floor. "I see you're not ready to meet him yet."
"I don't think I will ever be ready."
"You will. And all of us will be by your side. You are family, Damon." She smiled and there was so much love inside her eyes.
"Thank you." He paused and thought for a second. "Do you think Elena will get mad at me if I show up at Caroline's house uninvited?"
"You really want to talk to her, don't you?" He nodded. "Then I think you should go find her."
"I will. But first let me help you upstairs." Damon approached her and stood behind the wheel chair.
Half an hour later he was standing outside Caroline's door wondering if he shuld knock or not. You only live once. He said to himself and knocked. He waited for a couple of seconds and then he heard someone approaching.
"It must be the pizza." He heard Elena saying and the next second she opened the door. The shock was painted all over her face when she saw him.
"Damon?" She said breathless.
"Hey." He gave her a weak smile ans sighed.
"What are you doing here?" She was starting to panic. She wan't ready to have this conversation with him.
"I came to talk." His eyes were begging her.
"About what?" She decided that if she played dumb he might leave.
"Well...you've been avoidding me all day."
"I was with Caroline." She stated but he didn't say anything. "I'll stay here tonight."
"Yeah I know." He wanted to talk to her about the previous night, but he could sense how nervous she was. He didn't want to torture her like this. After all this conversation was far too important for him and he thought that they should have it only when she would be ready, that was the only way for him to recieve the truth and not excuses. "So, since everything is okay...I'm gonna go." He smiled awkwardly and begun to walk away.
"Damon wait." What did I just say? Oh shit. Now there's no going back. She mentally slapped herself.
He turned to face her with eyes full of hope.
"Do you wanna take a walk with me?" He nodded.
"Okay just give me a sec." She said and went back inside the house.
"Were you flirting with the delivery boy? Why did it take so long? And wehre is the pizza? I'm starv-."
"It's Damon." She said and that's what it took for Caroline to stop bombarding her with pointless questions.
"What is he doing here?" Caroline asked her friend nervously.
"He wants to talk. And you know what? I can't keep on playing this game. I want to talk to him too. I wanna know the truth." She sighed. "I'll be back soon. Wish me luck."
"Good luck." The blonde tried to form a smile.
Elena grabbed her jacket and walked out of the room and towards the doorstep, where Damon was still waiting. The cold night breeze welcomed her as she stepped out of the house. The night sky was clear and she could see the stars. The perfect night for a a nice walk.
"Glad it didn't take you a century to come out." He joked. She laughed for the first time that day. He was the only one who could do that at times like that.
"So waiting annoys you huh? Good to know how to bite back every time you do something that annoys me." A devilish smile was on her face and he thought it made her look sexy as hell.
"You wouldn't dare." He smirked.
"Oh I would." That smile was still on her face.
"For someone who finds me so annoying and doesn't want to be like me, you sure are good at it." He paused. "Anyway, we're out here to talk."
"Right. But the thing is I don't remember much from last night."
"What do you remember?" He sighed.
"I remember us going at Bree's bar and doing your little roleplay-for the record, worst idea ever- and getting drunk. And then there are just some flashes of us in the car. I can't put them together." Damon rolled his eyes. Of course she wouldn't remember the good part. Thanks for this, universe. "I thought that maybe you could help a little." She smiled awkwardly.
"Okay I'll tell you. But you have to promise me that you won't go hard on yourself." He knew Elena well and he knew that she would feel ashamed and guilty towards Tom.
"God, just tell me Damon!" She shouted.
"Okay fine!" He said with the same tone she has used. "You said you didn't want me to leave and then you said you wanted to kiss me...and..."
"Did I do it? Did I kiss you?" She could feel her throat getting dry. Her eyes were wide open, begging him to say she didn't.
"Realx. Nothing happened." He said and she stopped holding her breath and left a sigh of relief. "You tried though." He added.
"What do you mean I tried?" She asked with a shaky voice.
"I mean..." He stopped walking and that made her stop too. "You brought your face close to mine...you looked into my eyes and then you almost closed the space that was separating us." He looked deep inside her eyes. "And then I pulled back...I didn't let you do it." He looked hurt.
"Why?" She asked breathless, as she pushed herself to remember everything he was telling her.
"Why what?"
"Why did you pull back? You didn't want it?" What the hell am I asking him?
"I didn't want to take advantage of the situation." He stated.
"So you wanted it." He didn't refuse it so she continued. "Then what stopped you? You don't give the impression of a guy, who doesn't take what he wants." She was taking too far but she needed to know the truth. If he really wanted her...then what did that mean for her?
"What kind of question is that? You wanted me to just let you kiss me while you were drunk?" His anger was building inside him. "I'd never let that happen." It was undeniable, he had feelings for her. Elena could now see it more clear than ever. Damon wasn't the person who would put a girl's feelings before his own but he did it for her and that meant the world to her. "You know what?" he suddenly continued his speech. "We're here talking about what I did and we're not discussing the most important thing. How did you really feel about it? Did you want it?" Elena was caught off guard. She just looked into his blue eyes and she knew the answer. But how could she ever admit something like that, when she was about to get married to another man? She was so ashamed of herself. "Elena?" He touched her face in with both his hands, his gaze holding hers intensely. His touch was intoxicating and it was making her feel safe, like she could say anything to him, like it was right to give in. But she couldn't. She knew how wrong it was.
"Please-" She begged him, but her body was moving closer to his instead of pulling away. Their faces were only inches away.
"You wanted it." He said as the realization hit him. His lips formed a little smile that was making him look like an angel. His ocean blues fell on her lips and then locked with her chocolate brown ones.
"Don't." Elena begged him, but it was just a whisper and the moment he closed the distance between them and his lips touched hers softly, she didn't pull back.
Tom couldn't - he didn't want - to believe what he had just witnessed. He fought the urge to go there and stop them. He just closed his eyes. He didn't want to look at this. He didn't want to watch his worst fear coming to life. He knew that Elena was attracted to her friend, and he sure as hell knew that he wanted her as well. But he thought that he could trust her. He thought that she would never do something like that. He felt angry and hurt and betrayed. He leaned on the hood of a car in order to keep his balance and for the first time in years he let himself cry. He couldn't think of another way to get the pain out of his system.
The moment she felt his lips on hers, she could swear that her heart stopped beating for a second. It was one of those kisses that the writers described in books. It was a kiss that could make the fireworks go off and the earth stop spinning. It was the kiss that every woman dreamed of, one that made every heartbeat feel like a nuclear explosion.
Elena's hands cuped his face and then she let them travel further until she reached his hair. They were soft and perfect and she let herself enjoy the feeling of having them between her fingers. Damon's right hand stayed on her face while the other one grabbed her by the waist and brought her body even closer to his. Elena let a moan escape her lips and that made Damon deepen the kiss. His tongue demanded entrance in her mouth and she gave it to him. He tasted like ambrosia and she couldn't get enough of it. The movements of their lips were slow and passionate as their tongues danced together. It was the first time they ever kissed but it felt like they've been practicing at this for years. She couldn't remember anyone ever kissing her like that. She could swear that she had never experienced anything more erotic in her life.
The sound of Damon's phone made them come back to reality. Oh crap! He thought and cursed himself for taking a mobile with him. They both pulled away fast. Damon reached inside his pocket and picked up.
"Perfect timing Ric." He said sarcastically.
"We have a problem." Ric said seriously, ignoring his friend's tone.
"What happened?" Damon was now worried and Elena could sense his hand that was still on her waist tense.
"It's Rose. She's sick and she's going to need to rest for a few days." Alaric sighhed. "I'm sorry man, but I can't handle the bar alone. You need to get your ass over here."
"I'll be there by tomorrow night." Damon said and they hung up. He placed the phone back in his pocket.
"What happened?"
"Rose is sick. I need to go back." He sighed. "But you can come with me if you want. Jeremy wouldn't have a problem to take care of Miranda by himself for a few days." He smiled and his eyes were full of light and hope. She loved hearing him making plans. For a second she believed that she could just let everything behind her and follow him. But she couldn't.
"Damon you know that I can't." She said and pulled away from his touch. The hope in his eyes was replaced with pain.
"Why not? Am I not good enough?" His voice was low when he asked that.
"Am I not good enough?" He could feel his heart breaking into tiny little pieces before he even heard her answer.
"I'm sorry Damon." She said between sobs. "I don't want to do this."
"Then stay. You don't need your father. You can start over and I'll be by your side, Katherine. I promise." He was desperate.
"You don't understand and I don't expect you to. Please let me go." With these wrods she left the room before he could react.
Pain. That was all he could feel.
"Damon everything is messed up. Tom is in the middle. What am I supposed to say to him?"
"Tell him the truth." Damon grabbed her hands and held them in his. "I felt it Elena. You might want to keep on denying it, but I felt it. Your entire body respended to mine, because you want this." He pulled her hands out of his.
"I'm not that kind of person Damon. I can't change my life just like that." She yelled.
"What's stopping you? You're not in love with him." He fired away.
"That's none of your fucking bussiness!" She screamed in his face and left him speechless. "Damn you!"
"You're such a coward Elena! For once in your life do what you really want!"
"If I'm such a coward why are you wasting your time on me?" She felt the tears burnng in her eyes.
"You know what? You're right. Consider that kiss a mistake. I can see that it didn't mean anything to you." With that he turned his back and started walking away.
Elena was left alone and she finally let the tears escape her eyes.
"So this is it." Damon said.
"We're gonna miss you." Miranda said as he leaned to hug her. "Be careful please and come visit us soon."
"I will." While they were still into eachother's embrace.
"Good." She said and let him go.
"Come again soon man." Jeremy shook hands with him.
"When I come back, I'm gonna kick your ass at this X-BOX game you're so obsessed with." Jeremy laughed at this.
"Elena?" Damon said. He had already regretted everything he had told her the previous night. He wish he had the power to take everything back. The last thing he had ever wanted to do was hurt her.
"Just be careful, and come back to visit whenever you want." She finally said.
He moved to hug her but on second thought he awkwardly extended his hand to her and she shook it with her own. Miranda tried to figure what was going on. Why where they suddenly acting so cold?
Tom came into the room and stood behind Elena.
"Damon the car is here." He said and tried to force a smile on his face. He couldn't wait for the moment that Damon would be out of their lives. He had decided that one kiss was something that he could forgive. After all Elena had decided to stay with him and that's all he needed. Her betrayal has hurt him but he believed that they could survive it. He wanted to give her another chance and try to forget what he had see with his own eyes the previous night.
"Thanks for arranging this. Elena would have had to take me all the way back." Damon shook Tom's hand.
"Don't mention it. After all I didn't want her to leave again. I want her here with me." He put his arms around her and Damon took in the sight and smiled bitterly. Maybe Tom is good for her. He tried to convince himself. Tom felt like he won. He loved to see Damon back off. He loved seeing his confidence being shattered.
"Anyway. I'll see you guys soon." Damon and Elena exchanged one last look that said everything that they were afraid to say.
She turned her back because she couldn't watch him leave.
Every step that he took away from her, hurt him. But he had to do this. She had made her choice and he had to let her go.
So that was it. I know it wasn't a big chapter but a lot of things happened. Elena and Damon basically admitted that they have feelings for eachother and they kissed for the first time(btw, how did you feel about the kiss? Did you think it was rushed, or was it on point?), Tom saw them but never talked to Elena about it and instead decided to simply forgive her and try to forget about it and Damon finally goes back to Denver after he has a fight with Elena. I promised "crazy" didn't I? Damon and Elena will stay away from eachother for a couple of chapters I guess(we'll see how it's gonna work out), but I'll try to keep the story interesting and focused on them even if they're not interacting. I can't wait to read your reviews. If you have any questions you can find me on Twitter ( shelovesdamon) and I will be happy to answer and even give you some spoilers. xxx
