Title: Dear Danno letter 4
Author notes: HAPPY NEW YEAR I HOPE 2012 BRINGS YOU HAPPINESS
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"As I look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies..."
Danny now sleeps with Steve´s picture of Chin´s birthday, he made it a bunch of copies, he knows he´s going crazy, he can feel the madness around him, he can feel the darkness.
His mom is here and he really missed her but now he can barely hear her, is like he can´t understand a word of what she talking about.
Cronical depression is what she tells him, and he wants to laugh at her, because of the stupidity she talking about, he isn´t getting better, he´s getting worse is like he doesn´t have a reasong for waking up in the morning. He loves his daugther but he knows Rachel will take care of her, he can´t even see her face anymore, he isn´t getting better because if he doesn´t drink he can´t sleep, he awake all night talking to Steve ghost, he laugh because even as a ghost Steve is a lunatic.
He can see him, if he tries hard he can almost touch him, he can see him smiling at him.
"Danno why wait for back up, you´re here and that´s enough"
He can hear him, Steve is always there with him.
Once he was in the middle of a debate with him when his mother called him from the kitchen and he got really angry at her, because when he turned around Steve was gone.
He knows Chin and Kono are here just because he´s, without Steve Kono lost a feroucios big brother that allow her to be free of becoming her.
Chin lost the person who give him back his honor, the person who got his back when the doubt and point finger were too much to bear.
Malia and Charlie can´t understand, they weren´t Ohana, they tried to help them but even them could see that they were getting lost in shadows.
"I still wait for the phone
In the middle of the night
Thinking you might call me
And it still amazes me
That I lie here in the dark
Wishin' you were next to me
With your head against my heart..."
He had a new letter in his hands he was determined to read them all.
Dear Danno:
Hi Danno is me again, today wasn´t a good day we lost a men in action.
Oh Danno is was no more than a big kid, you full of adrenaline and proud of being a SEAL of being aloud to be with us, to be with the grown ups , I don´t really like loosing men Dan, I mourn for him, I ached for him because he has nobody to cry for him.
I´m lucky in that way because I have you, my Ohana.
I´ve been thinking in you Dan in our family because we´re conected by them as a family this days when nightmares don´t let me alone you´re my guardian.
I miss princess Gracie, she´s always there with me? Is she happy Danno? Are you making her happy, I know you do because she´s your sun.
I feel so alone now, I understood that they expected me to guide them, to be their lider but I´m no so sure I can do that, I´m scared because their lives are in my hands and for the very first time I don´t trust my surroundings I don´t know Danny something is not write here I can feel it.
I miss you guys, I miss you Danno, tell my princess that I have some ideas for our assigments can be and that the annoying Ken´s will be defited.
Wait for me Danno I´ll come home, we have something to talk about.
Steven
"Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain
Locked so deep inside
That baby, baby, oh, baby
Not a day goes by..."
"Oh babe, you never came back, why Steve? Why you?"
And Danny went back to his conversation with Steve´s ghost.
