U/N i'm sorry it's been a few days. i'll try to update as often as possible until i've finished this story. i finally figured out the full story line, woo! rather proud of myself.

this fanfic is rated M.. i'm thinking of writing a lemon at some point in this story, would everyone be okay with that? you guys need to tell me stuff, so i can make this fanfiction better for all of you!

ready to say goodbye to our former Cullen's?

I OWN NOTHING.

JPOV

The funeral is tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'm ready for this.. I already said goodbye to Alice in private today.. it is too painful still to think about it, but it still feels like she's here. I can almost feel her excitement, her happiness. The funeral seems to make her death too permanent.

I didn't want to have one, but Esme is very determined. I remembered that painful conversation we had yesterday..

I wandered slowly down the stairs after telling Bella she could turn into a full vampire again. I don't know what she is going to try and do, but she has to be careful, for Nessie. Esme was sitting quietly on the sofa with Nessie and Jacob, Carlisle was in his study, no doubt doing research on Bella's condition.

I have no idea how to comfort my family, so I have to do the best I can. I sent them all a wave of tranquility, hoping to ease some of the tension. Esme smiled gratefully at me, and I knew she was being strong for all of us.

"Jasper." She smiled. I felt her love for me, and I was thankful. I don't know what I would be doing right now if I didn't have my family, probably hunting some humans. I couldn't let myself go off the rails again, not after everything Alice had done for me.

She sighed as I sat down beside them, and she put my hand in hers. "Jasper.." She looked at me painfully. "We need to have a funeral."

Wait, what? "A.. a funeral?" I repeated. Nessie had slowly stood up, her cold eyes on her grandmother. Obviously, this was the first Esme had mentioned this.

"A funeral?" Nessie quietly said.

"I think it's the best idea. Your father's.. ashes.. are in a gorgeous wooden box, and so are Alice's and Rose's. Each box has a different design, I did it earlier. But I have an idea.. outside, somewhere, we will have a funeral and bury a personal item for each of them. And Ness, you can go with your mother to scatter your father's ashes somewhere private that matttered. Emmett can take Rose's somewhere, and Jazz.." She turned to me, putting her hand on my cheek. "You can take Alice's somewhere that mattered to the both of you."

Nessie had started crying again, and ran to Jacob. "Jake.. this is too much." She whispered brokenly.

"Ness.." I started. "I can feel your agony, and I understand. I also feel your confusion. We are all confused, and angry. But we have to do this, to say goodbye."

"I'll never say goodbye." Nessie whispered, but I felt her acceptance. She motioned Jake to follow her, and they exited out into the woods together.

We had to do this for them, like a normal family would.

"When?"

"In two days."

I still had to pick a personal item for Alice. Well, I already had a few. The necklace that was in her ashes.. but it doesn't seem enough. I had asked Esme if I can put more than one item in, and, of course, she said that was fine.

So far, I had the necklace, her favourite pair of shoes and a picture of Alice and I, just outside of Texas. But, still, it doesn't seem enough. I need something that really screams Alice. I knew that Bella was having some trouble choosing, but Emmett had chosen straight away. He had picked a little red box, which I didn't really understand. But Rose and Em were together a long time, it would be something private.

I didn't want to bother Bella, but I felt like I had to see her before this. I knew that Nessie was at Jake's, so she would be alone. Esme and Carlisle were out a hunt, and Emmett said he had to go and be close to Rose, which I don't know about either, but I understand it.

I gently knocked on her door, but there was no answer. I knocked another time, but again, no answer.

"Bella?" I opened the door and peered in, but the room was empty. I knew that she was in the house somewhere, because I could feel her emotionally. I looked throughout the house, but she was nowhere. I went out the back door, to find her.

Bella was sitting on a rocking chair on the porch, overlooking a stream running through the tree's. I sat infront of her calmly, watching the stream along with her. We didn't need to speak, the silence was comforting.

"Don't you think it's funny Jasper.." Bella murmured, still watching the water trickle along the rocks. "That the Volturi killed Edward and Alice, when they wanted them? But what I don't understand is, why Rose? What did they want Rosalie for?" A tear fell down Bella's face, but she still didn't move, she kept staring ahead. I knew that Bella and Rose had become close over the past five years, after the pregnancy. Bella and Rose were almost as close as Bella and Alice. She felt ashamed over her words, but I didn't get why.

"Bella, you don't need to feel ashamed, I thought of the same thing. I don't understand it, and it is driving me crazy." I was getting frustrated, and Bella could sense that. She stood up from the chair and sat down beside me.

"Jasper, we need to get past this. I don't know how, but I need you."

"Darlin'.. I'm not going anywhere. I would never hurt you." Bella smiled at this, and then chuckled. I felt her amusement, and nudged her softly.

"Do you remember my eighteenth birthday?" She chuckled.

How could I forget? The day that tore her apart. Alice had told me all about it, and I felt depressed about it for a long time. After Bella and Edward got married, it seemed to ease the pain a little, but I still feel incredibly guilty.

"Yes.. You have to believe me Bella.. I promise you, I will never hurt you again."

THE NEXT DAY

I was staring at a tiny hole in the ground, the hole that I was to place my items in. I put in the necklace, the shoes, the picture, and my final piece.

Early this morning, I had took a trip to a little shop outside of Seattle, and had my wedding ring, along with Alice's, combined. They were hooked around each other, unable to get set free. Inside both rings, I had the word 'always' inscribed.

I knew that Alice and I would never be apart, even if Alice was only with me in my heart. I stepped back, to let Emmett walk forward to the little hole next to Alice's. He bent down, and put the box into the hole, and whispered.

"Love ya, Blondie, you little bitch."

I chuckled. That was something Emmett would say. I could almost see Rosalise punching him.

Finally, Bella and Nessie walked forward. Bella turned to me, and I watched as the tears continued down her face.

"This is for Edward." She murmured. She opened her hand, and inside was a tape recorder. She pressed play, and the soft sound of a piano filled the air. Still playing, she bent down and put it in. She returned back to us, while Nessie still stood.

"Dad, I love you." Bella broke down at this, and leaned into me as she watched Renesmee also put in a picture. It was of Bella, Edward and herself as a baby. I knew it, because I was the one to take it.

Nessie walked back over to Jacob as he hugged her. Esme slowly walked over to the holes, and covered them up with three boxes, each with their names on it. The boxes sat perfectly.

Esme spoke three soft words. "We love you."

I closed my eyes as I thought over the previous day as I scattered my Alice's ashes infront of the place we first met. Bella grasped my hand, as we truly said goodbye to Edward, Alice and Rosalie.

A/N hmmm, what do you think? review me!