Hey guys, I know I haven't updated in a while, and this not at all what I wanted you to read when you saw that I have updated, but clearly everyone in the world already knows that we lost a very very special man July 13th. I am still wrapping my head around how this is even possible. Why him? Why now? A million questions unanswered. But at least for now, I wanted you to know there is no way, shape or form, I can bring myself to write. Each time I try to fabricate Finchel scenarios or let alone Monchele, I get incredibly sick to my stomach. SO I ask that you please understand as I leave Fan Fiction for a while. Maybe one day, (not anytime soon) I'll feel good about makeing up stories about things both Finchel and Monchele never got to do. Having kids, getting married, growing old together, having beautiful gran children, but writing it now, no way.
I would not even be here, on this site, if it wasn't for Cory Allan Michael Montheith. He is half the reason I am so in love with Finn and Rachel, and Monchele. Without him I wouldn't be chasing my dreams, hell if it wasn't for that beautiful man, I wouldn't have dreams. He has definitely taught me that ANYTHING is possible. I wouldn't even be a fan girl; he is the only celebrity in this world, that I even became so intrigued with, his kindness, his humor, his handsomeness, his tallness, his Canadian-ness, something he is so passionate about. I just miss him so much…. To me, he is still alive; I don't think I can ever use past tense vocabulary regarding him. I still catch myself checking his twitter and searching tumblr for new Monchele candid's. I sat in my car today and blared Keep Holding On as loud as it could possibly go, and with tears pouring down my face, with snot dripping down my nose, I came to a conclusion. We shouldn't be sad, we shouldn't cry kick or scream, (I have definitely done all three) instead we should celebrate how far he has came, how far we have came with him, we should celebrate who he IS. HE IS OUR IDOL AND FOREVER HE WILL LIVE THROUGH HIS DEDICATED LOYAL FANS.
So for now, see ya later my beautiful Gleeks. I love you all and enjoyed ever experience, story, chapter, review we have spent together.
Please take this time to show love to your idols, and heroes, because sadly, ours no longer exists. And please please keep our beloved Lea and the Monteith family I'm your nightly prayers. Xoxoxo love you all and please stay strong. Please be with loved ones as we go through this completely gutted, devastating time. Cory would want us to be happy, not sad. Even if the hardest thing to do right now, is smile, do it for him. (:
xoxo
"Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone."
