Okay, next chapter. H is cool because...it is. Hopefully I didn't spell anyone's name wrong or stuff like that.

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HATING HAPPINESS

Sometimes Ichigo just wanted to smile.

Times like when Keigo got a good punch in the face by Ichigo himself, or when Rukia slipped in the school hall and almost broke her peppy school girl mask. The time when he beat Tatski in a match. When Rukia had her face in shock when he dodged one of her punches. That day where Chad was too tall to ride a carnival ride...and when Rukia had smiled her biggest and truest smile when Ichigo gave her a chappy doll.

But whenever Ichigo felt a smile tickling his lips, he thought about his mom. How his mom wasn't alive anymore because of him. It was his fault and his fault alone-

"Ichigo!" An impatient Rukia yelled at him, breaking Ichigo's train of thoughts.

"Well what do you want, shorty?" He snapped at her.

"What are you thinking about, you've been quiet the entire walk home!" She stated, half concerned and half annoyed.

"Just stuff." He shrugged.

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"Ichigo...Ichigo...Ichigo!" Rukia whispered a hiss of his repetitive name into his ear.

Groaning to look at the time, he rubbed his eyes to see that it was 12:13 in the morning.

"Now what in the world would you wake me up so early for?" He mumbled, turning away from her to snuggle back into his blankets.

Suddenly, weight indented his bed as he snapped his eyes open to see Rukia kneeling by him.

"What now?!" He questioned her with exasperation.

"Please don't make what I'm going to tell you harder than it is!"

Ichigo sat up, looking Rukia eye to eye.

"Look, this better be freaking important because if it's not than-"

"Will you let me talk!" She said in frustration.

"Go." Ichigo told her, now his full attention on the girl in front of him.

"Well...I...you see...oh hell. I love you."

Ichigo's face scrunched in sudden confusion.

"Wait...huh?" He started before her lips came upon his.

When they broke away, Ichigo was smiling, truly smiling, for the first time after his mother's death.


Aww.