This is a filler chapter. Its not very exciting but its crucial to the story. Next chapter will be more exciting.

Chapter 8: More than I know

The sky was dark as we traveled back to campus. Will wasn't as calm as he usually was. I could tell he was really upset how bad his brother reacted to the pregnancy news.

"Will," I paused. "I was wondering-"

"He's not usually like that, he really is a nice kid. He just," He was struggling for words, which was not like him. " he thinks I'm going to run away with you or something. Which is ridiculous because I could never hurt him or my Beth like that." He turned his attention from the road and looked at me. "He said he was sorry, for saying those things to you. He wants another chance to make a first impression." He turned back to the road.

"Will, I'm not going to hold him to anything he said. He was angry, and we all say things we don't mean when your angry. I believe when you say he's a good kid, I see that. I wont push myself into his life right now, he needs time. I can see that."

"No, Sophie, I want you a part of our lives. All of us, I don't want you to feel like you don't have anyone to go to."

I grabbed his hand from the steering wheel and squeezed it. "I know you'll always be there for me." I sighed.

"Sophie, what's wrong? You know you can tell me anything?"

"Yeah, I know. I just wish I knew how to tell my mom I'm pregnant. It defiantly wasn't on her list of things she wanted for her daughter." I said.

"You have to tell her though. Do you think it was easy for me to tell Beth? She yelled for a good two minuets before… I told her how much you meant to me."

Why did he always have to put weirdness between us. I let go of his hand. "Will… I don't want to get into anything, I'm in enough trouble as it is."

He pulled up to dorms. "Sophie-" he reached for my hand, but I was already out the door and halfway to my door.

I opened the door and slammed it shut as if he was coming after me. I turned and saw Courtney getting cozy with a guy. He must be Ben. "Hey," I waved, embarrassed that I was seeing this.

"Hey Sophie this is Ben," she said putting her shirt back on.

"Uh, yeah I kind of already figured that out." I said as I fumbled with my keys.

I saw that Ben was getting ready to leave. "Well, I'll just get out of your hair." I turned to leave.

"No Sophie, you don't need to, Ben was just getting ready to leave." Yeah sure he was. I thought sarcastically.

"No stay, I'm was only coming to check on you, anyway." I left before she could say another word.

The good news was, that Will was already in his dorm. I was sure he sit in his car sulking over nothing. It was good because I didn't want to deal with him. At least not this new Will, who worried about me constantly. I just wanted to have the old Will back.

I didn't have anywhere to go. It was almost ten, and I didn't want to see Will. It was very unlike me, but I didn't. I decided I go for walk by the track. I wasn't going to run it of course, there was snow and ice on it.

I walked down to the bleachers. I sat down at the bottom bleacher, where I saw Will al those years ago. How I wished things would have stayed that way. Why did I ask to have sex with him. Sex was too complicating. It complicated everything about me and Will. I leaned my head back and looked at the sky. No stars. Only a dark gray of cloud. Only the sound of the wind whipping through the air broke the silence. The air smelled so fresh and clean. I wish my life were the same.

Only now did I realize how much I royally ruined my life. I was probably not going to finish college. At least not for a while. I was never going to do all the things I wanted. I wasn't going to have a life. All I was going to have was this baby, and all my broken dreams. God, I wish I never had sex. "I should have become a nun," I said out loud.

"I say you make a pretty crappy nun considering your condition," A voice said out of no where.

I turned around and there was Will with that huge smirk on his face. "Hey, don't make fun of me."

He laughed. "I'm not, its just funny because you were talking to yourself again."

"Do I do that a lot?"

He laughed. "Only every five minutes."

"Great, now I'm going crazy. What a great parent I'll be." I said.

Will came and sat next to me, but kept his distance. "I wouldn't worry about it too much, I wont be much competition."

"Will I'm sorry, I just don't know what to do. I don't even know where to start. Everything was fine and now… its not." I held back tears. Only one at the corner failed to comply. I went to wipe it away but Will beat me to it.

He took my face in his hands and stared at me. " I wish I knew what to tell you, but I don't. I want to make it all go away, but I cant. You need to tell your mom Sophie, she can help you in ways I cant. I don't know the first thing about pregnancy."

I started to cry. Big fat tears streamed down my face. "I cant Will, she wont understand like Beth does." I pulled him to me. I let him hold me as snow began to fall.

"You need to tell her none the less. Not telling her isn't going to do you any good. I'll help you in anyway I can, but you have to let me in." He whispered in my ear.

"I am Will, you're the only one I trust. But you cant help me this time." I mumbled into his jacket.

"The hell I cant. Sophie, I will do anything you want. We can do this. People do it all the time. I want you to want me." he said.

"Okay, I'll try." I sniffled.

"Alright, lets get you out of the cold. That cant be good for anybody."

We walked back to my dorm. As I leaned against him. We reached my door and stopped. "Do you want to come in?"

"Only if that guy that was with Courtney is gone." he smirked.

"Oh no, you didn't catch them too, did you?"

"Unfortunately yes, but I hope you didn't catch them as far as I did. I'll be sure to knock before I enter, next time." he said.

"Yeah, that be best. I guess their exploring their relationship." I knocked on the door. Courtney, thankfully, fully dressed opened the door.

"Did you forget your key?"

"No, we just didn't want to catch you nude."

"Well he left after Will came bursting in. We wont be doing anything of the sort here again."

"That's good to know, can we come in?" I said.

"Its your room too," she said as she stepped aside to let me in. she stared will down. "Will," she said acknowledging him, menacingly.

"Courtney," acknowledged her as he walked passed.

I came in and sat down my bed. I removed my jacket but Will stood at the door as Courtney stood three yards away staring at him. "Alright Courtney, I think you scared him enough." I said.

"What? I didn't do anything." Courtney said.

"No its okay, I have class in the morning anyway. I have to get going." Will admitted.

"Okay, do you want me to walk you to your room?" I said as I came to stand beside him.

"No, your already here. I'll come by later after class." he said as he opened the door to leave. He leaned down and I thought he kiss me, but he just pecked below my ear and whispered. " Goodnight," before he disappeared behind the door.

I took a deep breath and went to go sit back down. Courtney came and sat at the other end of my bed. "Okay, how'd it go? What were his family like?"

"Well, his mom, Beth, is a lot like Will. Very exuberant. She was thrilled with the pregnancy. She took it very well. His brother, kind of sad really. Will's like his best friend and he thinks I'm stealing Will away." I said.

"Are you stealing Will away?" she said.

"No, if he didn't want any part of this I wouldn't blame him. I want to do the right thing, and so does he. We want to do this right."

"But what if this isn't the right way, Sophie, this wont go away when you want it to. You need to talk to your mom before anything Is set in stone. She can help you. That's what she's there for."

"I'm nineteen. I don't need my mom anymore. This is my life, I'm an adult. I want this baby!" I screamed.

"Either way, you should tell your mom because she deserves to know." She left me to go sit on her bed.

I hated to admit it, but she was right. My mom was just as much a part of this as I was. She was going to be a grandma and even though I didn't need her permission for anything, she still deserved to know.

I sat there crossed legged on my bed staring at her number. Too scared to hit that little green phone icon. What would I say to her? What would she say back to me? "Are you going to do it before it gets too late?" Courtney said.

I sighed. "Yeah, just give me a minuet." I muttered.

"You said that ten minutes ago, you need to do it."

So I hit the little green button. I rang and rang and rang. I thought she wasn't going to pick until I heard her wind chime voice. "Hello?"

"Hi, Mom, its me Sophie." I whispered a quietly as I could in the hope that she wouldn't hear me.

"Oh hi baby. I was just getting in. I doing some wedding errands. I finally decided on a definite cake. I'll have to send you the picture. Anyway, how are you? We haven't talked this week." Just hearing the sound of her voice and I began to cry. "Sophie? Are you still there?"

"Yes," I managed to get out in between cries. Courtney came by this time to hug me.

"Sophie, what's wrong? Tell me sweetheart. Did something happen?" she said.

"Yes, but I don't want to tell you." I managed to say.

"Oh, Sophie, you have to tell me baby. I'll make everything alright if you tell me. I wont be upset or angry. I just want to know."

"I'm p-pregnant," I stuttered.

"What? Say that again I think I misunderstood what you said. It sounded like you said you were pregnant," she laughed.

"You heard right. I am pregnant." I said, more calmly.

"Oh God Sophie. What have you done? I thought you said you were a virgin. That you didn't meet any guys."

"I know what I said. It was just one time, I didn't think it matter." I said as Courtney soothed me.

"One time is all it takes! How could you be so irresponsible? I thought you knew the dangers of unprotected sex. Who was it? Why did you lie to me last week about not being with any guys?" she yelled.

"I didn't think it matter. Why should I tell you if it only happened once? I'm sorry, I really am." I cried. "I didn't know what happened. He was just a friend, it was harmless."

"If it was harmless, how in the hell did you end up pregnant. God Sophie, your only nineteen. Why am I hearing about this guy now? Does he even know?" she said.

"Yes he knows. I didn't want you making a big deal about a guy that was just a friend. You always blow everything out of proportion. How could I tell you we had sex, if you always assume the worst?"

"Well I would have been right this time. What are you going to do now?"

"I don't know. He said he help me. He wants to help." I said.

"You think he wants to help, but really he's just setting you up for heartbreak. All you'll have is a baby and a broken heart."

"Your wrong, Will cares about me. He wants to do the right thing."

"I'm not going to let him hurt you, I'm coming to get you."

"No! I'm not leaving. I'm an adult, and I don't need you."

"You say that now, but you will need me. You'll see." Then the line went dead. I threw the phone across the room. I cried into Courtney's shoulder.

"Ssh… she needed to know, and now she know. Give her some time. She'll come around."

I just held onto her. As if my life depended on it. Because I needed my mom. More than I'd ever know.

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Took me forever to write this stinkin chapter. I have no idea why. Probably a case of writer's block coming. Better hope not cause they last week to months long. I kinda felt like no one read the last chapter/didn't like it. So I'd appreciate the reviews. I always go much faster when I get reviews. I want between 3-5 reviews more reviews. Thanx.