A/N: OMG so sorry for a wait again :( And sorry about the chapter :'( This will continue to have short chapters and I'm sorry about that but that's just how it's been and I'm working on a new fic so maybe that one will have longer chapters. BTW I'm not sure how soon I can write more on this story... a BIG season 4 spoiler has been released for 4X04 (i think) and I really can't write right now... I've tried -_-' so I'm sorry idk when the next chapter will be up. I still haven't finished my book report for one of my 3 college courses and school is starting again soon so GAHHHHHHHH! I'M SOOOOO SORRY, don't hate me :3
There were tears in Kurt's eyes as he clutched Blaine's hand and asked, "What do you mean there's no heartbeat?"
"I'm sorry to say it, but it looks like you miscarried. We don't know if would have been different if there was a woman carrying this baby. There is so much more we have to learn about these things before we can really know," the doctor said sadly.
Kurt felt broken. Absoultely broken. All his dreams of having a baby that was both his and Blaine's were crushed. Blaine was crying quietly. The doctor suggested they go home and admited that they could try again in the future. Blaine led Kurt to the car.
Blaine slammed his hand on the wheel and sobs took over his body. Kurt had gotten in the other side and was sitting there staring straight ahead. Completely numb.
"Blaine," he finally spoke softly, "let's go home."
Blaine just nodded and the ride home was quiet; the only sound was the broken boys sobbing.
They got home and Kurt crawled into bed after simply stripping off his clothes and adding pajama bottoms. Blaine didn't know what to do. He was hurt but Kurt was the one carrying the baby and he'd been so happy. Blaine would never say it out loud but he knew he was a little bit stronger than Kurt. Blaine was used to picking himself up after every fall and Blaine had had a lot of falls. He'd gone through a lot and, though he was younger than Kurt, he'd been through more bad experiences than Kurt. Blaine was happy Kurt had a mostly happy past and just hoped he could keep his future happy.
Blaine changed and crawled into bed where Kurt seemed to be sleeping. Blaine was planning to lay there and figure out how to even begin to start to deal with this hardship. Then he heard a sound and looked toward Kurt. Kurt's shoulders were shaking and Blaine knew he was awake. Then Kurt spoke.
"We were dumb. Too optimistic; too hopeful," Kurt said in a whispered, hoarse voice, "We should've been more prepared for this. We knew it would happen."
"Kurt, we were happy. We figured everything could be okay. There's so many medical breakthroughs these days, it's possible," Blaine said in a voice he hoped was reassuring; he was trying to make Kurt feel a little better by trying to sound stronger even though he'd had a stream of continous tears ever since he got the news.
"Blaine don't be stupid," he said a little louder with a hint of anger in his voice, "We can't have a baby. We're two men, it's not possible! I love the happiness you keep in my life and all this, 'The glass is half full,' stuff, but this is borderline foolish. There will never be a baby that is half of both of us."
"You don't know tha-" Blaine began to counter.
"Yes I do," Kurt yelled and soften his voice after looking at Blaine and taking a moment to calm down, "I'm sorry. It's a nice thought and I love you but we need to be realistic."
"I'm not giving up hope," Blaine said and gave Kurt a quick kiss and held him until he fell asleep.
When Kurt woke up the next morning he was upset when he found himself in an empty bed. Then he smelled Blaine's cooking and moments later Blaine walked in with a tray of food. Kurt looked at it with disgust and Blaine frowned.
"What's wrong with the food? You usually love my cooking," Blaine was stumped.
"Blaine, it's not your cooking, I just feel sick. I don't want to eat, I don't even want to go to work. Honestly, I don't know how to deal with this without crying every second," Kurt stated as the tears began to fall again.
"I know, I know, I know," Blaine continously said while rubbing Kurt's back and letting his own tears fall.
"What do we do now?" Kurt asked, looking dumbfounded.
"I called our boss and we both have the day off. Now about our future," Blaine began, pausing to think and choose his words carefully, "We could try again in the future. The doctor said we could, so we could wait until next month and maybe try then."
"No!" Kurt stated, "Stop it! I will not get my hopes up."
"I'm just trying to help," Blaine said loudly then yelled, "What do you want form me! I don't know what the hell to do here. I've been hurting but all I'm worried about is how you feel," Blaine stated then stormed out the door.
"Whatever, Blaine. Leave, I don't want you here anyway," Kurt yelled after him. Then he curled up and cried so hard his whole body was shaking.
Things couldn't get any worse. The moment Blaine walked out the door he was sorry because he knew how hurt the man he loved was. He knew it would be better if he went for a walk to cool down, then they could talk. Blaine would never give up on Kurt and as long as Kurt wanted him, he'd stay until the day he died.
A/N: Like I said short and sad... :( Soooooooo I will NOT say anything about the spoiler and I hope anyone who reads this and knows what I'm talking about doesn't ruin it for people who DON'T WANT TO KNOW! lol Other than that, I love reviews :) and I was wondering does anybody else cry every time the watch Goodbye 'cause I just bought season 3 and cried like a baby at the end... (AGAIN!) If u wanna leave a review to tell me I'm not alone with the endless sobbing at the end (or pick on me because I'm so sappy) feel free to leave a review to let me know. :) Or leave a review voicing any suggestions or complaints (besides the lack of lengthy chapters and long breaks between uploads)
